I thought I was fine, but then I remembered your pretty face

There it is

It flickered through my mind so sharply
Painfully vivid

Before I knew it I was on the floor
So here I am, once again
I lay there helplessly, with only a heavy heart to spare

****

It is on these same floors that your feet once walked
These floors helped you run into my arms, over and over again - a thousand times over

Your feet graced these floors in the early mornings
Quietly tiptoeing through the kitchen to make us coffee, grabbing my hand and bringing me in for a kiss
Your feet graced these floors in the late evenings too
I can see it now - a glass of white in hand, and that light-wash jean jacket I loved you in

You danced around me in those shoes I liked, you walked towards me and pressed your body against me, I pulled you in closer
Your head nestled in my neck, I felt your heart beat next to mine as we swayed to the music

It is with you and in these moments that I knew love

It was on these now hardened, frigid, hardwood floors that your feet used to walk with mine In tandem, in unison

We walked so confidently, so lovingly; so bold & unabashed

This home was ours, and we waltzed on these floors with earnest hearts and open minds Always inching closer towards a love so big it couldn’t possibly break
—
And then, without warning, you broke it and you took it all with you
You ******* took me too
And now I am nowhere to be found
I am not in my body - where am I?
I am not in anyone else, not in the arms of another lover - where am I? I can’t find me anywhere

Where am I?

I am here, again, on these floors, lifeless and limp
This house doesn’t belong to you anymore

****, it doesn’t even belong to me

It belongs to these floors and they’ve paralyzed me, chained me down
They force me to stare right at the spot where your feet once stood ground and your eyes stared back at me with love and light

I lay here on these floors with no shadow, no imprint
I am simply a silhouette of my former self
Of when I stared back at you with unreserved love and hope Knowing you felt that same love

But now I lay here on these floors
Unidentifiable, unrecognizable, quiet & cold
My body belongs to these floors, but I am nowhere to be found

Where did I go?