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Anthony Collazo Oct 2019
Filled myself with this poisonous fear,
Only I can take blame for leading it here,
Looking for an out but I'm all chained up,
Like a fish in frozen water I remain stuck.
Anthony Collazo Oct 2019
I remember the first time I saw the shadow of smoke

I stood in a playpen

while the adults made jokes

They laughed so strangely

With coughing involved

I wondered vaguely.

The fun in it all

The second time I saw the shadow of smoke

I think I was,
about nine years old

As I walked down a big ol hill,

A motor bike flew by
the man was killed.

The passersby gasped and yelled

Broken pieces were every where

But my eyes would only stare at the  shadow smoke that lingered there.

It had such a glimmer without the glare..

The way it danced and swayed with air

How it grew,
unfurled
without a care..

A devastating loss, yes.
Life is unfair.

The third time I saw the shadow of smoke

I was playing outside,
Oh the teenage life

We thought we knew it all
We were always right...

These wires sparked!
They hit a tree,
stuck on the bark

With a little breeze,
it was fall,
so dried out leaves

The sight was something I couldn't leave
Even tho my younger brother pulled on my sleeve..

It was our fault the shadow smoke lost control,

But I wanted to watch the glory glow.

The fourth time I saw the shadow of smoke,

It was pretty late I was out at work

The type of job where the boss is a ****,

We all had bills, a salty perk.

The day was gloomy dark filled with danger

Yet I knew,
I was no stranger..

Offered by the hand of another man

There it was,

the creator

that leaves us dammed.

Rather than deny the holy lie

I puckered my lips and let it inside.

A harsh yet soothing taste
a cough,
with a red face.
They laughed, like it's a game.

So I locked them up and walked away

I could hear them screaming my name

So I looked back at my display,
The world will finaly know my rage,
Is what I thought with a hateful gaze.

For I had locked 5 people in,

The shadow smoke,


would soon begin.
His obsession with fire started young
No one knew
What he had done
They all thought tragic
Accident.
That was the beginning of the late night arsonist.
Anthony Collazo Oct 2019
It's been 600 days,
since I've seen your face.
Don't really know what words to say
If I ask how you been,
you'll say ok.
Even tho that's a lie
that's over played.
Out of date
It doesn't matter either way,
it's what you say...

I try to make a sentence,
Instead I mumble nonsense
Now I'm feeling anxious
We used to be bestfriends,

Used to be...

We decide to stop,
frequently.
I'm mad at you
or
you're mad at me.

Used to be...

We could say anything freely
without any worry
of judgement or resentment
Now it's just alot of pretending.

Used to be...

You and me
We'd do anything
And everything together
Didn't matter when
Didn't matter who was there,

We were friends.

Like REALLY friends!

We just wanted each others company
Each others help with anything..

We were truly innocent..
Then both of us,
Learned of hatrid,
We became vindictive
no more trust to give

Yeah we'll say
we're best friends
That's the image
everyones used too,

Picture frames from holidays and birthdays... and other occasions...
You're in all of them
I'm in all of it..

How'd the coin ever flip?

Tell me was it our fault
It all crumbled down to bits?

Maybe,
Or it could be
Maybe
Or it should be
Maybe

It would all be,

Alright
If we learned to talk, not fight..

Let our emotions out
Waterfalls might come crashing down

But I'd be proud!

To say I'm sorry out loud,

if it meant I'd keep you around..
We often let pride get in the way of great connections, we hate being wrong so we choose to move on.
  Oct 2019 Anthony Collazo
Kafka Joint
There are three most difficult things:
- to believe
- to decide
- to sleep.
But you succeed in one of them, the other two are self-runners.
Anthony Collazo Oct 2019
The only way to start a new,
is to let go of stuff you knew.
Let your mind go find
the bestest way to make you fly.
Anthony Collazo Oct 2019
Do you remember those days when we were young and naive where we would believe anything said by anybody.
Those days of innocence,
we didn't really know things
It seems the second you learn new lessons you start to view life in a different image.
As if we're so alike,
we're not different.
You lose trust once,
then it seems like you can never give it.
We've exchanged our imagination and vivid imagery with thoughts of hate and jealousy giving up on creativity because now we don't just believe what's said, we live in it. We took those words of advice for granted thinking we had our two feet planted thinking this world can't stop me, now we're damaged.
So do you remember those days?
Where our parents paid for our freedom while we played with our best friends.
While we enjoyed and basked in the life that was given, now those words of advice are returning,
All those lectures and times you were told things. You thought you had it figured it out like you know what life was when you've barely been living.
Now reflect on what happens every day ask yourself where's the fun and time to play, oh right that's every weekend Friday Saturday, sometimes Sunday.
Every other moment your a slave,
You just don't see the chains..
Anthony Collazo Oct 2019
It's depressing
to live in a world that's broken
and infected with so much hatrid
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