time just won't stay
I guess it's bored
all it sees is greed and pointless drama
I'll make it fall in love with me
but I ended falling in love with it
so one-sided
it moved on
and I'm stuck
tick-tock
times up

this world is not made of
only what you see

I'll just slowly disappear
hello
       hell
              hel
                    he
                         h
                            .
                               .
                            .
                        .

the sunsets
the moon rises
the clouds keep moving
the stars keep shining
the world keeps going on
people keep dying
people are born
someone smiles
someone cries
it all happens
and there's nothing you can do about it

they said he'd be there
when I looked he was nowhere
I thought it was unfair
turns out it was all a dare
you played me, my dear
while I was true all along

he kissed her goodbye and closed his eyes
his face with a painful smile
his hands so cold
and his face so pale
left his daughter alone
the world so cruel
the girl so alone

when you have nowhere left to go
come to me
I'll hold you in my arms
and let you cry out loud
I'll do it for you
but there was no one to do it for me

its four am
I'm drinking coffee
I'm writing stories
writing poetry
being productive
but
its no fun
there's just pain
and pain
and misery

First rumble of dark thunderheads
were heard in the dark western sky
children were roused out of their beds
little Johnny started to cry
loudly screamed he didn't want to die
tightly clung to older brother
who said all was okay, a lie
as Johnny fled to his mother

show me you love me
Don’t just say it
Carve it down on trees
Words that’ll last for centuries
Write as you see fit

Show me you love me
Scream it to the world
In words twisted and curled
come at them like storm
Our love
Will be the show we perform

the sounds of the cars
in this big city
my ears tingling
a cup of coffee
as I write another review
time is slowly passing
my life is slowly fading
eyes are slowly shutting
and no one notices
why would they?
I'm just another person in the crowd

You made me approach
And then you disappear
I let my guard down
"You have taken advantage of it.

You made my mind, a maze.
And I lost myself.
I didn't ask for your help,
I could not...

I followed you like a gullible
In the hidden game of the world,
Waiting for the impossible.

Each time, coming up,
But moving me away.
With every step, it was done
In despair...

Making me
                      hate you,
To hate
            To hear your voice,
To hate
                To love you.

Silence Loves to Hide
the Feelings
We Carry So Loudly
in Our Hearts

they said
why don't you hate him
I know
he didn't want this
even when the world
is cold
I want the heart to not be

I love black
its the color of my fate
the color of my shadow
the color of your love
the color of my blood

why would you come back to life
when you can rest in peace

if you decided to die
then please just lie
down in your grave

the afterlife
is unnecessary

I was shot to death
laughed to death
I cried to death
but I came back for you every time
to make sure you don't go through the same
I just wanna see you smile
so smile for me

am I really me
when I try to be you
I am still me
since you are me
and I want to be you

you brought me up
                    little
         by
little
then you broke me down
little
          by
                 little

sometimes I just want to
                                   d
                                      i
                       ­                 s
                                           a
                                              p
               ­                             p
                                  ­        e
                                       a
                                     r
find my shattered
                                  p        i
                   ­                              e     c
                                                              e­ s
but I just can't seem to
                                             f
                                   i                 n
                                             d
them.

I've stopped time
now what?
has your crime
been solved
has our love
evolved
have our problems been into water dissolved
no
nothing changed

I want to embrace the Affection of this WORLD
I want it all for MYSELF
not too be SHARED
am I being GREEDY
or am I just DREAMING

I'm alone
I'm no different than
a star in the galaxy
so unique
yet people can't even
tell us apart

I used to think the world was made for me
I felt so free
now I'm bound by the chains
nothing but my bones remain
as a sign that I once existed
maybe my poetry
but no one bothered reading it

you've never deeply fallen for someone,
have you?
sweet and happy romances are
easily forgotten
only love stories
with blood and tragedy are remembered

Your revelations don't look nothing like the pictures
You read between the lines and don't stick to the scriptures
You only follow rules if others follow with you
That doesn't sound so holy only playing victim
You were standing there like an angry god
Counting out my sins just to cross them off
Saying that my tongue was too loud to trust
And that my blood couldn't keep you
My dear, you're not so innocent
You're fooling Heaven's gates
So you won't have to change
You're no saint, you're no savior

one of the hardest feelings
in the world
for me
used to be
the one that
reminds you how
nobody loves you
which I now believe
to be grossly untrue for,
there'll always be
somebody who
dares to love you
in silence,
from afar

I don't want to live
but I don't want to die either
so you ask
what do I want
it's simple
I want you

we built walls
only to see them
crumble and fall
we won battles
only to lose what can not be returned
for eternity

I hate that I love you
I hate that when you show up my heartbeats faster
I hate that I can't get over you
I hate you
I hate that you don't return my feelings
I hate this life
I hate me
for living in a fantasy
I love you
for bringing me back to reality

things are getting better
but everything still feels a Lil blur
like I'm not "living"
but drifting by
just drifting
being on "autopilot"
going with the flow of things
yet it also feels like
I'm waiting in line
constantly waiting in a never-ending line
for absolutely nothing

on the battlefield
the silence
tortures me
the screams on my blade
a faithful friend
by my side
yet he doesn't make a sound
so silent
yet I can hear him say "run"
live for me and you

silence
is the most powerful scream

one word
and you can destroy me
but with just a word
you can fix me
so choose

with one lie
you can break me
but with one lie
you can build me

with one truth
you can bring me to my feet
with one truth
you make me rise to the stars

all it takes is a word
a lie
and the truth

I didn't expect you to care
but you did
that felt good
I was like a flower withering
you came and watered me
fixed my soil
and showed me the sun

What is it to
Truly love
It is to fall in love with their soul
Before touching their skin

is it, love
or
is it torture
do you love me
or
are you playing me
cause I love you

there was a puddle
on the floor
I could see myself
I
didn't know what I became
I seemed so lost
yet the people
around me didn't notice
my friend tugged my shoulder
said come on let's go
I realized
how fake they were

You too
Must have felt it
When you had nothing to do
No where to go
And no one to talk to
You walked down the stairs
And had a romantic walk to that empty fridge
Waiting for a miracle
Yet the pizza
The cake, juice, wine, chocolate  
Never showed up

I'm only a nightmare
you wake up and I'm not there

he asked her what her wish is
he'll fulfill it
she said just once
once in my life I want to walk out and not be laughed at
live and not wanna die
so, please
make me the way they  want me to be

he said
she wants you to be skinny
he wants you to be fat
so what do you want to be

I can wait here silent
building up a storm inside my head
I just stood for nothing
so I fell for everything you said
hear my voice
I can wait here silent
gotta make a change
and make some noise
please  undo my sad
undo what hurts so bad
undo my pain
go together through  the rain

black and white
day and night
wrong and right
don't run
hide in sight

I have secrets
but no one worth sharing them with
they won't believe me anyway
just shrug me off
as if I was a fly
following them around
they all just get tired of me
after a few days

we both were like fire
so I thought we could become one
but we were different
you were a fire
that would devour everything
while I was a fire
that lights the way
even when I'm most alone

What’s the difference between
peace and war
Isn’t peace obtained through war
That’s what my world taught me
So change my mind
Before I wage war on your country too

They don’t understand
What I want
I want more than I have
But I want what you can give
So why don’t you give
What you can