1)
i finally read that book you recommended. i heard your voice in every line
2)
i left the fossett running last night to cut the silence
3)
i still smell your shampoo on my pillow cases
4)
what's the name of that song we discovered on the radio two nights before you left? i need it right now
5)
acceptance is the act of investing in a space heater to keep me warm at night, when i know your legs could do the trick for free
6)
i saw your little cousin in target last week. i never realized how precisely your smiles match
7)
i left the cd you made me, in its case on the floor of my backseat. nick stepped on it and i felt an earth shattering emptiness, like someone died before i had the chance to say goodbye
8)
actually this all kind of feels like someone died before i had the chance to say goodbye
9)
tonight i caught up with some of your friends at starbucks & only thought of you once. does that mean i'm getting better?
10)
missing you occupies so much of my mind that i forget how to sleep most nights

Fall in Love with someone.
Fall in love, tomorrow if not today.
Fall in love, for the dark;
Or for the light of day.
  
Fall in love for restful sleep,
Fall in love to lie awake.
Fall in love to learn to give;
Or maybe just to take.
  
Fall in love, so you can feel,
Fall in love to numb the pain.
Fall in love to be better;
Or just to be vain.
  
Fall in love, to make mistakes,
Fall in love to right your wrong.
Fall in love in defiance;
Or maybe just to belong.
  
Fall in love, for the body,
Fall in love for the heart.
Fall in love to stay forever;
Or even just to part.
  
Fall in love with beauty,
Fall in love with flaws.
Fall in love for a reason;
Or even just because.
  
Fall in love for real,
Fall in love to fake.
Fall in love with the lies
Of a ruthless, heartless rake.
  
Fall in love for the fear,
Fall in love for the joy.
Fall in love for liberation;
Or even as a ploy.
  
Fall in love, just one time,
Or two, or six, or eight.
Fall in love at first sight;
Or maybe after a long wait.
  
But fall in love, you must,
For there is nothing quite the same.
If only to write about it;
For your five minutes of fame.

I'm not who I am,
I'm not who I wanna be,
I hate where I'm at
I'm not what I say.
I'm not who I claim to be
nothing to set me free
Trapped inside a shell
is this me?
I can't tell.
Perfect,
It's not mine to claim
I deserve no such fame
I used to treat life as a game,
but that's what brought me to this world of pain.
Oh Vanity, sweet insanity
teach me what I don't,
it's a fear of what I won't.
Do nothing but speak
I am one of the weak,
Vanity comes with such calamity,
make me feel okay,
from now until the end of days.

I was a pessimist
until I fell in love with a pessimist

The good will cancel out the bad if you let it,
I told him
Until I believed it

the person you trusted
leaves you on an empty lane
you talked about everything
happiness and pain
the person who you spoke to
closed his door
and suddenly
your paper like world was torn
every gesture
every word
ignored and avoided
a lesson learned
'never trust the person' you said
'my secret is better dead'
foolish and abandoned
you go home now
never trust the person again
your nth vow