My heart, a desolate desert,
starving for the taste of your lips.
Thirsting for the nourishment,
the quench your kisses bring.

Pause .......... sit down ........... observe:
The rate race - cars and people
zooming past, hurry hurry.
Time is ticking, time is money,
faster, harder, scurry, scurry.

Breathe .......... smile ............ observe:
A futile existence - rushing
up and down, meet deadlines.
Hours running on caffeine
toward success, make headlines!

Lie down ........... eyes closed .......... think:
Who? How? Where? What?
What Time? How many? Three .... two?
How to get there? What to take with?
Stop! ............... Who are you?

Whoever came up with the line:
"If you love someone, let them go"?
Why should we let go of those we love?

What happened to prince charming,
facing challenges and adversity?
Who is willing to fight for love ........... to fight for me?

Whenever you walk out the
door, you leave behind
Loneliness. I've grown
accustomed to his company.
But this time he introduced
me to his friend.

Longing stirs within me
an aching I have
not experienced before.
Pulling me into daydreams
and fleeting sadness
and smiles - a mix of emotions
I cannot comprehend.

Not sure whether I'd like
to have him in my life
for the long run.
Would rather spend my
time being loved
by you ...............

How do you define life?

Oxygen? Breath? Or does life entail adventure, danger, adrenaline rush? Do you need to cheat death to feel alive? Or do you just pinch yourself from time to time for some reassurance? What does it mean to be alive? Why does it take near-death experiences to make us appreciate the life we have been given?

Wake up, take a breath, say thank you for life. Give thanks for the many gifts and blessings you have been given.

Stop comparing yourself to others. Their goals are not yours. Their lives not yours to live. Turn inward, find life within yourself. You are alive you are the most important aspect of your life. Take care of yourself, then take care of those around you. You are your own best teacher.

Take notes out of others’ experiences, but learn the lesson for yourself. Take risks. If you don’t try you will never know. Look your fear in the eye. Make it your friend, take it by the hand and have some fun together. You’ll both be surprised of what life has to offer.

Laugh. If you can’t find anything to laugh about, laugh at yourself.

You are your own worst critic. Give yourself some slack. Look yourself in the eye and tell that ***** to give it a rest. Then, smile and take each day as it comes. Congratulate yourself on a job well done. As long as you live up to your own standards, it’s good enough. ***** the rest.

Then, breathe .................................

Frozen in time, our
"together" moments.
Hidden from view
by winter's cold shoulder.

A forever memory
on my lips, on my skin
makes me long for you, as
the days grow ever colder.

Anticipating the warmth
of your breath, of your touch.
Needing your comfort
as ice and frost grow bolder.

Your presence here amiss.
Winter's end, a promise of returning bliss.

Standing on the hilltop
the autumn wind rushing by
endlessly cutting through my
longing body.
Tearing you from me
chilling me to the bone.

I reach out my hands, but
how does one grab hold of
the wind, a fleeting memory.
Something that
was never yours to keep?
Leaving me here, alone.

Who can tell a heart
what it's supposed to feel,
when the heart has the power
even to override the mind,
to make the logical
seem irrational and mundane?

Then again, why is it
that a broken heart would
surrender this ultimate power,
and leave it to the mind
to dictate to the body
the intensity of it's pain?

Why is the heart,
mind and body seen as a whole,
when the truth is that
I cannot love without my soul?

On page three, I realized why
this book had made itself
at home on my bookshelf.

Unread for such a long time.........
when this passage reminds me:

Forget about the past,
you cannot change it,
Stop worrying about the future,
it is not yet written.

Settle your thoughts in the present...... Live in the moment.

Postponing loving,
always leaving time
for loved ones till
tomorrow, but
Tomorrow never comes.
Procrastinating,
delaying your emotions,
holding back till
tomorrow, but
Tomorrow never comes.
Slowing showing,
sharing your true self
with someone till
tomorrow, but
Tomorrow never comes.

You have lived with
this pain, for so long.
The regret, the shame has
kept you from standing strong.  

But it's time to start living,
you have so much to give.
Take my hand, I'll show you
what it means to live.  

And I don't mind,
no I don't mind,
if you need to  
Break down a little,
cry just a little,
Let it all out .......
Let it all out .......  

Let out all the grief
You have lived with this
pain, for so long.
The regret, the shame
has kept you from standing strong.  

But it's time to start living,
you have so much to give.
Take my hand, I'll show you
what it means to live.  

And I don't mind,
no I don't mind,
if you need to  
Break down a little,
cry just a little,
Let it all out .......
Let it all out .......  

Let out all the grief
so you can breathe,
just let it all out.

Let go of the heartache
so you can learn
to breathe again.  

Shout to the heavens
so you can start
to live again.  

Cause I don't mind
no I don't mind
if you need to .  

Break down a little,
cry just a little,
Let it all out .......
Let it all out .......    

In time you'll come to realise,
you're worth so much more.
You deserve better than you've
allowed yourself before.  
Just ............... let it all out.

Feels like someone's knocked
the wind right out of me.
Have this hollow feeling inside.
My heart and soul ripped from my being.
This empty shell wants to hide.
The pain and disillusion
pounding through my spinning head.
The dreams and emotions gone,
the flame inside me, dead.

Losing myself in a song
on canvas
the notes flowing through
my fingertips
Colours flooding my
vibrating soul
spilling through my body
soaring on
a cascading melody.

Stretched out over golden landscape,
a heavy blanket of dark indigo
clouds painting the sky.
A glimpse of the towering grey city-scape,
my heart filled with sorrow
as nature softly starts to cry.

This was never a game
You were never played
It was not some grande facade
to keep me entertained

I was never as true to myself
as the times I spent with you
Yet you were never convinced
that my feelings for you were true

Now I'm done with this
My heart is not a dice
that by will or by a stroke of luck
may choose who's to stay and who to sacrifice

My bleeding heart torn apart
my weary soul gone cold
All that's left are two empty futures
left up to Someone to unfold

Mirror, mirror on the wall,
why did he cause me to fall?
Brokenhearted I’m standing here,
I try to cry, but there’s no tear.

My mind's a blur and all is lost,
I didn’t know this’d be the cost.
All twirls around, I’m in a daze.
My eyes a blur, my love a haze.

My feet are lost, my heart is dead.
Within his words I was misled.
So mirror, mirror on the wall.
Help me up, please hear my call.

These rolling tides
are going to drown me
in sorrow in pain
in love and lust

Rolling and tumbling
tugging me hugging me
memories made
this hurt, this trust

I roll to your side
turn my back on this longing
no longer a child
naive and lost

You're rolling away
turned your back on forever
rejection bashing
this shove, this ******

No longer rolling
this shell is empty
but whole and ready
blow off the dust

Roll into the sunset
these waves of emotion
will fill me with courage
it will, I must.

Like the winds leave a path of destruction
when they take their anger out on nature.
Like fire tears away at our forests,
leaving behind the stamp of strife.
Like water engulfs entire land masses,
in an attempt to still its all-consuming thirst.
Like the earth erodes and breaks and swallows.
Will this be the extent of the impact of my life?

Silently I sink into loneliness. An
age-old cycle finds its way back
into my life. The thought of
“us” returning to “me” causes tears
to flood my heart. A sinking
feeling jerks me to fall. I pick up
the pieces of “me” lying in a dusty
old cupboard. Slowly I wipe off
years of hurting. I restore my soul.
And I’ve built the puzzle halfway
through. But one piece is missing
YOU!

(Psalm 46:10)

The night passes into day
passes into night.
Plants grow wild, get
trimmed, fight back,
growing endlessly,
and I .....
I am still before You

Children grow into adults,
who have children who
grow up before the eyes
of their grandparents - in
the clutches of life and death.
and I .....
I am still before You

Compassion and love
turn into hate and anger,
turn into wars, pain and
tears, cry out for peace.
This endless cycle,
and yet I ......
I am still before You

Here enfolded in your Mercy,
safe and warm in endless Love.
Quenching my thirst, my
hunger, my longing, fed
by Your all-surrounding Grace,
here I am ......
I am still before You

You turn my night into day,
teach me never to stop growing,
from my childhood to my
passing,in times of war
and times of peace,
You are always here, and
I am still before You

("Be still and know, that I am God")

"You are fine", said my angel,
brushing my hair back,
hugging me to his chest.
"You're amazing", he told
me, with awe in his eyes,
"More amazing than all the rest."

"I've missed you", laughs my
angel, caressing my hands,
bathing me in his light.
How I love you, my
angel, so far, at a
distance, I'll be
dreaming of you tonight.

How much time is wasted,
in the pursuit of belonging,
on the feeling of longing to
find who we are inside.

Take the time to look back
on this road you're travelling.
Your life is yet unravelling.
You're creating your "self".

My eyes saw a shadow of
you. I created my own image
in which good and wrong
cannot be distinguished. For a
brief moment that image
brought Happiness and
Contentment such as I have
never known. My soul was
captured by the light of Peace
And in that second of
fulfillment I became a whole
person again. My heart
overflowed with an unknown
passion and then . . .
My eyes saw an image of you,
but that image was a lie.

Get out of my head
you silly spirit, taunting
and teasing away.  
My thoughts are my own,
don't you dare tell my tongue,
or you'll sure make me blush today.

Look into my eyes, do you see me?
Do you really see ME?
Do you feel my passion, my fire?
Can you feel it burning inside you?
Do you feel my sorrow? Cry!
Hear me cry out to you.
Do you understand me?
Can you understand where I’m coming from?
Do you see the good in me?
Can you forgive all the wrong?
Look past the confusion
Past the facade, to my inner being.
Strip away this empty encasing.
Capture and love the real person you’re seeing.
Enfold me.
Hold me.
Save me from this cruel reality.
Look beyond this material existence.
In my eyes you’ll find the clarity
You’ve yearned for.

Stuck in your web
of deceit and lies
hear the cries
of the long-forgotten.
Screaming a plea
to free them from
the chains they’re on -
their souls already rotten.

From the moment I met you, I’ve craved you.
I have hungered for your touch, for
your tender kiss, the fire of your
hands on my skin. For the taste of
you, your scent on my hands
your warmth on my cheeks. I have
felt you around me, heard your sweet
whisper. You are so real in these
moments, but as untouchable as a ghost.

Drawn in by the mirage
this, that used to be the subtle
divide between need and want.
Need has won the battle,
imprisoned every thought
in this all-consuming tunnel
of desire, eroding my soul.

Change takes time
and ours wasn't "Goodbye",
it was "See you around."
Not a final parting, merely
a heartache dangling
from that thin thread
called friendship.

This is what I have
prayed for, for so long.
It's here ..............
But the fear
inside me weighs me
down like shackles
around my feet.
I'm afraid to take
the leap.

When I keep giving away small pieces of my
heart that I know I will never get back?
When I love so easily and that love
is not always bestowed only on you?

When I set myself up for inevitable hurt,
and you are left to pick up the pieces.
How do you keep loving me after all
the anguish and doubt I put you through?

Hey Mr. Music man
Play me a melody
A sad song
For a loved one
To which I can sway
I’ll imagine his warm arms around my waist
The soft sweet
Feel of his cheek
As our heartbeats start to race
And we float around
The dance floor
To the rhythm
Of your love song
And we’ll lose ourselves
In each others arms
While we’re soaring.

Take my hand,
Let me pick you up
From that cold sorrow.
Let me take you
Out into the light,
Show you the warmth in tomorrow.

You are never alone,
No matter how scared
Or alone you feel.
Somewhere, someone is
Crying out to your heart.
You just have to believe
This hope is real.

Has it ever occurred to you
That the world doesn’t dance to your tune.
That you are living a dream
Where everyone tells you what you want to hear.
Where you get exactly what you want.
Welcome to reality baby!
Take that smirk off your face,
Cause reality’s gonna hit hard.
You’re gonna fall at it’s feet
And beg it for mercy,
And maybe some day when you have
Been humbled,
When you have learned to be patient,
When you have earned some respect,
MAYBE then you’ll deserve better.
Cause right now you are getting
Exactly what you have coming to you.
**** it up!