Always turn your face to the sun
as the clouds roll in like thunder.
Feel its rays on your skin,
rising courage from within,
That no man can put asunder.

Always turn your face to the sun
as it simmers over the horizon,    
Feel its rays on your skin,
broiling hope from within,
standing tall in the arms of Orion.

"You are fine", said my angel,
brushing my hair back,
hugging me to his chest.
"You're amazing", he told
me, with awe in his eyes,
"More amazing than all the rest."

"I've missed you", laughs my
angel, caressing my hands,
bathing me in his light.
How I love you, my
angel, so far, at a
distance, I'll be
dreaming of you tonight.

Earth, holding its breath,
willing the droplets down
into its warm, waiting skin.

Amplified senses
drawing on the palpable air,
willing the heavens to quenching chaos.

Losing myself in a song
on canvas
the notes flowing through
my fingertips
Colours flooding my
vibrating soul
spilling through my body
soaring on
a cascading melody.

Standing on the hilltop
the autumn wind rushing by
endlessly cutting through my
longing body.
Tearing you from me
chilling me to the bone.

I reach out my hands, but
how does one grab hold of
the wind, a fleeting memory.
Something that
was never yours to keep?
Leaving me here, alone.

Take my hand,
Let me pick you up
From that cold sorrow.
Let me take you
Out into the light,
Show you the warmth in tomorrow.

You are never alone,
No matter how scared
Or alone you feel.
Somewhere, someone is
Crying out to your heart.
You just have to believe
This hope is real.

White shining sunlight through my bedroom window,
The warmth tugging at the sheets,
Turning to greet the morning, I'm aware of your shadow,
Your body, your lips, a good morning kiss.

Your manly scent enfolds me, your hot breath in my ear,
Safely tucked against your heaving chest,
Birdsong pulls us from our dreaming, hear
your soft sigh, your rough chin on my hair ......... bliss.

Catch me, I'm falling.
No ground for my feet.
This sinking feeling,
my pounding heartbeat.

Blinded and anxious.
Colors being swallowed.
Blackness takes over,
my soul, hollowed.

Sudden warmth, a kind
single teardrop trickling
down, gently caressing
my cheek, tickling.

Awaken to the relief of
having broken from this snare.
Allowing the sobs to pull
me from this nightmare.

Breathe in...... inhale the love of your loved ones, the sorrow and the loss, the laughter and the joy, the anger and the hurt, the silence..................

Laugh, laugh out loud............ laugh at the mime, at someone else’s expense, at someone else’s sorrow...................

Cry, cry your heart out........... at the violence and the crime, the hurt, the joy, at the loss you feel for selling your soul, cry out for forgiveness....................

Breathe out......... exhale, let go of your old life, your negativity, judgement, your self-righteous ego, the mess you’ve become..........

Then........... breathe in the LOVE.

Silently the droplets fall,as I lie in my bed.
Instead of being fast asleep,
I lie here feeling dead.

But as the rain increases speed,
my cheeks are washed with tears.
The droplets get entwined somehow
to wash away my fears.

Softly, gently, the peaceful sleep,
makes its way to me.
I wake with newfound joy,
peace, love and . . . me

I don't want to close my eyes my love
for when I do I see your soul
illuminated by the sun
transparent, open and loving.
My last memory of you before
you walked out of my life,
before you put up your walls again,
before you shut the door.

I don't want to close my eyes my love
for when I do I see your love
and I feel every emotion I felt
on that perfect day.
Every way you made me feel free
before you forced my heart
to be locked away in this cage.

I don't want to close my eyes my love
for when I do I see you in front of me
so vivid, so real that I reach out
to hold you in my arms again,
to tell you I love you,
but then you disappear
the way you've disappeared from my
life so suddenly.

Closing my eyes used to lift me up into dreams of our future.
Now it crushes me on the cold floor of reality.

How much time is wasted,
in the pursuit of belonging,
on the feeling of longing to
find who we are inside.

Take the time to look back
on this road you're travelling.
Your life is yet unravelling.
You're creating your "self".

Sadness throbbing,
clenching my heart.
Tugging.
Pulling.
Aching.
Hurting.

Tears start flowing.
Heartache worstening.
Struggling breathing.
Sobbing.
Aching.
Crying.

From the moment I met you, I’ve craved you.
I have hungered for your touch, for
your tender kiss, the fire of your
hands on my skin. For the taste of
you, your scent on my hands
your warmth on my cheeks. I have
felt you around me, heard your sweet
whisper. You are so real in these
moments, but as untouchable as a ghost.

Months and months on end go by,
this endless thirst needs a release.
Swellling earth, throb, throb,
throbbing for that quenching wetness
withheld by teasing clouds.
Until at last with thunderous
intensity, moisture penetrates the
searing heat ........ the storm climaxes:
the desert sighs in satisfaction.

I can’t control the drum, my heart
Whenever you are near.
And when you feel that drum, my heart
You whisper in my ear.

Is not for me your drum, my heart
Beats so much of fear?
‘Tis not of fear it beats, my heart
But loving you so dear.

Why am I studying?
Why am I missing
so many precious hours
watching my children growing.
When obtaining a
degree won't get me
out of this **** hole
anyway?

Because burying me inside
the content of a book
takes my mind off my
unhappiness with what
I can't change about my life
The books never judge,
they don't give me lip.
They take me away.......

Her whitening light
Makes nights worth while.
Her glow comforts my soul.
And in that light
A teasing secret
No human can unfold.
In treasure chest she gently
Keeps, my every hope and dream.
And every night my secret lies
In softcast silver beam
She’s cast her light upon my life,
And shone away my tears.
Brought joy and love and peace such as
I’ve never known in years.
Tonight I yet discover
Her long-lived life to be
A quest to find a lover,
My soul mate fit to be.

Sitting here going out of my mind
where are you now, what are you doing
who are you thinking of, who are you missing?

Do you think of me when you kiss her?
Has she occupied my place in your heart yet,
Is she the one now sharing your bed?

I'm going crazy, my mind an endless maze,
my thoughts never ending, my heart never mending.
These ticking, blurring seconds turned to days,
my soul constantly pacing,  my heart never stops racing.

I miss you!
I need you!

I'm going crazy, my mind an endless maze,
my thoughts never ending, my heart never mending.
These ticking, blurring seconds turned to days,
my soul constantly pacing,  my heart never stops racing.

My mouth wants to taste yours, my arms want to hold you,
my eyes miss meeting yours, my heart needs your love too!

Sitting here going out of my mind . . .

Stretched out over golden landscape,
a heavy blanket of dark indigo
clouds painting the sky.
A glimpse of the towering grey city-scape,
my heart filled with sorrow
as nature softly starts to cry.

Locking away the childish
memories, denying from the
inner child you've grown.
And for shying away from
the laughter of children,
you have lost your own.

Empty and dreary, your
days have grown lonely.
All that is left is dispair.
No child within to
sustain you, to feed you.
Just a dark, dank lair.

Today I choose to cherish the warmth of the sun caressing my face . . .

Hello black hole
please don't swallow.
Not ready to
keep you company
again.

I can feel you pulling
and tugging, sinking
your claws into
my unwilling flesh.

Depression and sadness
your new acquaintances.
You know you're not
playing fair now.

I'm holding on, barely
moving. Where could
I go to escape you?
Leave my heart alone,
take the rest.

These broken hands
cupped around a
fragile light.
Keeping it safe
and protected from
this endless night.

Only in the depths
of their pain
and despair
does a sliver of light
escape through
the tear.

How do I reach out to you
when you are unreachable.
How do I tell you it
will all be alright.

How do I touch your soul
when you are untouchable.
How do I catch you
when you fall from flight.

How do I carry you when
this situation is so unbearable.
How do I make you look at me
so our love can reignite.

How do I apologise
for standing by your side.
How do I make you understand
that your touch, your love, is my light!

I am not the object of your affection,
when you show that affection only in
the presence of others. Or that affection
is never shown, but are merely empty
words spoken out of a societal-induced
sense of "obligation".

I am not your most prized centerpiece
that you can place in a room to invoke
the ooh's and aah's that make you the
envy of strangers. And
afterward, I'm placed in a corner till
the next time I'm required.

I am not your "main attraction"
put on display. I don't dance nor
entertain so you can bathe in the  
attention of the people who, once
this is all over, won't even
remember your name.

I am not an object!

(Psalm 46:10)

The night passes into day
passes into night.
Plants grow wild, get
trimmed, fight back,
growing endlessly,
and I .....
I am still before You

Children grow into adults,
who have children who
grow up before the eyes
of their grandparents - in
the clutches of life and death.
and I .....
I am still before You

Compassion and love
turn into hate and anger,
turn into wars, pain and
tears, cry out for peace.
This endless cycle,
and yet I ......
I am still before You

Here enfolded in your Mercy,
safe and warm in endless Love.
Quenching my thirst, my
hunger, my longing, fed
by Your all-surrounding Grace,
here I am ......
I am still before You

You turn my night into day,
teach me never to stop growing,
from my childhood to my
passing,in times of war
and times of peace,
You are always here, and
I am still before You

("Be still and know, that I am God")

Your touch went deeper than my skin.
You've penetrated my being.
I breathe you in.
You've seeped into my every cell.
I have your name tattooed on my heart.

My eyes saw a shadow of
you. I created my own image
in which good and wrong
cannot be distinguished. For a
brief moment that image
brought Happiness and
Contentment such as I have
never known. My soul was
captured by the light of Peace
And in that second of
fulfillment I became a whole
person again. My heart
overflowed with an unknown
passion and then . . .
My eyes saw an image of you,
but that image was a lie.

Like the winds leave a path of destruction
when they take their anger out on nature.
Like fire tears away at our forests,
leaving behind the stamp of strife.
Like water engulfs entire land masses,
in an attempt to still its all-consuming thirst.
Like the earth erodes and breaks and swallows.
Will this be the extent of the impact of my life?

Make haste wind!
Carry my voice to my lover
so he may hear my sweet whisper
in times we spend apart.

Brush along his cheek wind,
and leave my lingering kisses.
Let him feel the warmth and
tenderness i hold deep inside.

Enfold him wind
as I would with my arms.
Let him smell my sweet scent
to still his longing heart.

Rustle through his hair wind,
as I would my fingertips.
Make him feel my presence
till I'm yet again at his side.

Change takes time
and ours wasn't "Goodbye",
it was "See you around."
Not a final parting, merely
a heartache dangling
from that thin thread
called friendship.

You enter the center of my emotions -
the control room of my being.
Deleting the negativity left behind by life,
inserting this contented feeling.

My days of pain and crying are numbered,
as your shifting fingers dart,
closing the spaces left behind by anger
on the keyboard of my heart.

Dreamers dream their dreams
in color, their dreams
backed by belief, by hope.

Their dreams shed every shade
of shadow, every evening
into eternity they elope.

You have lived with
this pain, for so long.
The regret, the shame has
kept you from standing strong.  

But it's time to start living,
you have so much to give.
Take my hand, I'll show you
what it means to live.  

And I don't mind,
no I don't mind,
if you need to  
Break down a little,
cry just a little,
Let it all out .......
Let it all out .......  

Let out all the grief
You have lived with this
pain, for so long.
The regret, the shame
has kept you from standing strong.  

But it's time to start living,
you have so much to give.
Take my hand, I'll show you
what it means to live.  

And I don't mind,
no I don't mind,
if you need to  
Break down a little,
cry just a little,
Let it all out .......
Let it all out .......  

Let out all the grief
so you can breathe,
just let it all out.

Let go of the heartache
so you can learn
to breathe again.  

Shout to the heavens
so you can start
to live again.  

Cause I don't mind
no I don't mind
if you need to .  

Break down a little,
cry just a little,
Let it all out .......
Let it all out .......    

In time you'll come to realise,
you're worth so much more.
You deserve better than you've
allowed yourself before.  
Just ............... let it all out.

Take me away.
Lead me to a little house
on a hill, picket fence
enclosing the fresh lush garden.
Lead me to the front door.
Let's make this our home.

We'll lie in the meadows
during Sunday afternoon picnics.
Children's laughter chiming,
while I'm wrapped in your kisses,
embraced in your warmth.
Let's make this our home.

When the rain storms down
on the roof ahead, and
our frustrated words like
lightning darts around the room.
Open your arms and forgive me.
Let's make this our home.

Whenever you walk out the
door, you leave behind
Loneliness. I've grown
accustomed to his company.
But this time he introduced
me to his friend.

Longing stirs within me
an aching I have
not experienced before.
Pulling me into daydreams
and fleeting sadness
and smiles - a mix of emotions
I cannot comprehend.

Not sure whether I'd like
to have him in my life
for the long run.
Would rather spend my
time being loved
by you ...............

You brush past, I can feel your intense
sorrow, the hurt you bury deep inside.
You may have shut your heart from
the world, but you can't continue to hide.
I see you, I sense you, feel your desire
to break down and just be human again.
Yet you've convinced yourself that you're
better off shutting out the world till the end.
You may think you're unlovable, incapable of
ever feeling like you belong anywhere, alone. . .
I see you, I know you, more than you'll
ever understand, I am your longing soul.

You brush past, I can feel your intense
sorrow, the hurt you bury deep inside.
You may have shut your heart from the
world, but you can't continue to hide.
I see you, I sense you, feel your desire
to break down and just be human again.
Yet you've convinced yourself that you're
better off shutting out the world till the end.
You may think you're unlovable, incapable
of ever feeling like you belong anywhere, alone. . .
I see you, I know you, more than you'll ever
understand, I am your longing soul.

Who can tell a heart
what it's supposed to feel,
when the heart has the power
even to override the mind,
to make the logical
seem irrational and mundane?

Then again, why is it
that a broken heart would
surrender this ultimate power,
and leave it to the mind
to dictate to the body
the intensity of it's pain?

Why is the heart,
mind and body seen as a whole,
when the truth is that
I cannot love without my soul?

I'm slowly dying inside.
You've ripped your heart
from my being, and given
it to someone else.
Leaving me with this
big gaping emptiness,
So please .............

May I have my heart back?

I used to live every day,
breathing you in.
Now, I'm hoping that each
exhilation will somehow help
in letting you go..
But I'm aching and hurting
with futile longing,
and I know I'll never have
your heart again,
so please ...............

May I have my heart back?

Battered and bruised,
wearing the scars of
rejection...... I don't mind.
Before I die, please .......

May I have my heart back?

Misleading confusing thoughts
And ideas. Mixed emotions,
Muddled memories, scrambled
Colors turning to black
Nothing makes sense in this
Senseless whirlpool. Crying out!
A desperate attempt to escape
But it’s pulling and tugging
I'm slipping, i'm falling
I'm gone!

Mirror, mirror on the wall,
why did he cause me to fall?
Brokenhearted I’m standing here,
I try to cry, but there’s no tear.

My mind's a blur and all is lost,
I didn’t know this’d be the cost.
All twirls around, I’m in a daze.
My eyes a blur, my love a haze.

My feet are lost, my heart is dead.
Within his words I was misled.
So mirror, mirror on the wall.
Help me up, please hear my call.

I scream. A lonely crown surrounding me,
but no one hears my struggle
to break free, free from
missing you.

The drumbeats of my heart
sends a heartache, only I can feel
all because . . .
I’m missing you.

‘My lips two blushing pilgrims’,
but my blushing, it shows on
the outside, when I’m caught
missing you.

Parted for a brief moment,
and I get lightheaded with a
feeling of desire, and . . .
I’m missing you.

Sweaty palms and racing heart.
Is this really true love?
It must be when the whole time I realize:
I’m missing you!

My heart, a desolate desert,
starving for the taste of your lips.
Thirsting for the nourishment,
the quench your kisses bring.

Hey Mr. Music man
Play me a melody
A sad song
For a loved one
To which I can sway
I’ll imagine his warm arms around my waist
The soft sweet
Feel of his cheek
As our heartbeats start to race
And we float around
The dance floor
To the rhythm
Of your love song
And we’ll lose ourselves
In each others arms
While we’re soaring.

Baby, you are the melody
I wake up to, that I
hum to all day long.
You're the voice of inspiration
You're the lyrics to every song

Baby, you are the light
in my lingering darkness
when I'm wasted on the floor.
You're my saving grace, my angel
My motivation to want to be more

Baby, you're the sweet
scent of summer.
You're the heat on my skin
You're a cool, refreshing breeze
You're my absolute everyhing.

I want to beat my fists against your chest
to make your heart feel
every aching beat my heart feels
when I see you with her.

I want to cut you down the middle
to make your body feel
every aching cut my body feels
when she calls you hers.

I want to shove your head underwater
to make your lungs feel
every aching gasp my lungs feel
when you kiss her lips.

I want to submerge you in a bath of ice
to make your soul feel
the aching chill my soul feels
at the sight of you holding her.

Most of all I want to let you go
to make my icy heart,
to make my aching soul
heal and become whole again.

Stuck in your web
of deceit and lies
hear the cries
of the long-forgotten.
Screaming a plea
to free them from
the chains they’re on -
their souls already rotten.