For the past five years I've hidden my pain
Only to let tear drops fall in my room
Where I would sit and cry
And cry
And cry
This day was so **** dissapointing
I was fooled to believe there was to be a change
Now everything's the same
Bottled up energy ready to explode
It's a lot of sorrow
A lot of misery
Reaching for the stars but not even touching a cloud
And finally today I just let it all go
And I cried and cried and cried......
Because for so long I have tried and tried and tried to fit in here
But I can't
So I will try
Try
Try
I'm making a change
I'm taking control
Hopefully my five years in a dark cloud are over. Five years of never being truly happy.
But I have to do something
So I will always try.....
And.... Try
And..... Try
Maybe instead of a cry...
And cry.....
And cry........
And cry .....
And cry........
And cry .......
I will touch the sky

I love my book
It takes me away
I go on an adventure
I travel the world
I can pick my story
I love my books
they are never the same
different story line
different sequel
different power.
The book lead characters all have a purpose
they all save the world
discover they have powers
hear they will be a leader
save the lost princess
they all have something great about them
sometimes i wish i could slip away
and be the lead character of my own fantasy
and just be the hero
the one who is special
FOREVER

They pull farther and farther away because when you talk to them they dont talk back.
They creep into their gossip and push you away.
You avoid them
You ignore them
but you cant ignore the feeling of being ignored
the feeling that you dont belong
the feeling that you cant do anything
you always remember that you have the true friends
you dont have to try to prove yourself
or do things you dont want to do
you can just be you
not trying to be someone who stands
so i got my friends and we face being ignored together
but it does not hurt anymore because
we are together.

Fear enters you mind
Takes over your thoughts
Swiftly erases happy feelings
leaving you there to fear
YOU RUN
fear makes you scream
you feel your heart pumping in your veins
you cry out loud for help
fear takes its course
You Vanish
You never return

we all think we are going to be great
do something incredible.
we all dont pause and think what if this does not work?
we all just think its going to happen.
We think we will automaticly be incredible.
we think all of our dreams will come true
we think life is going to be easy
what people need to notice is you need some things
you need an open mind
you need an optimistic attitude
you need a brave heart
and most of all
determination
cometed
With theese two things
you will be



incredible

I will succeed
I will try as hard as i can
I will give it my all
I will know my sportsmanship
I have determination.
Your in a competition
I will win some
I will loose some
I realize the ones i loose i am not trying
i am not giving it my all
I slip through the cracks
If i give it all i got
possibly.
just possibly
I will win
I have determination

you may think im crazy but this is the truth
Eyes will tell me how you think
if you are lying
if you are innocent
if you are sad
Eyes will tell me your personality
if your determined
determined to get stronger
or slip through the cracks...
Eyes will tell me
Everything.

your galloping
wind in your face
there is a jump infront of you
you take off
you feel the rush
you are in midair for that split second
you are on top of the world
feel the feeling
of the rush of the flight

why would you lie to me?
why don't you care?
why would you hurt me?
why didn't you stand up
why did you go behind my back?
why did i trust you?
why did i warn you?
why did you tell her everything?
I think the real question is
why would you go with her while she gives me a mocking stare
and you leave your best friend sitting there

They whisper
They laugh
They point
they talk about your friend
you take a deep breath
and stand up
nobody seems to do that
they go with the crowd
stand up
or your not being a true friend

You win
They loose
They cry
You cry
They yell at you
you stand in shock
they leave
you want to go
they are envious
you are determined
they are dangerous
you have your friends with you
they are slowly giving up
You are slowly getting stronger
You win
the battle was long
the battle was feared.
the battle was long anticipated.
They loose
the battle was envious
the battle was formed of hatred
the battle was formed by rage
you are optimistic
they use dark power
Light always beats dark
The dark has faded away.

I can feel how you feel
Step in your sad, scared shoes
I will cry when you cry
your sadness brings me down
I will laugh when you laugh
because you make the moment even funnier
I will defend you when you defend me
because were both protective
I will stay with you when your down
because i love you, my friends

When i ride my mind goes blank
when i ride nothing matters
when i ride its just me and my horse
we gallop on the soft ground
we carefully turn
we jump
when i jump i feel like I'm flying
when i jump i rely on my horse
when i jump i can feel the wind on my face
blowing like the wind.
when i ride my mind goes blank
nothing matters
we gallop on the soft ground
carefully turn
and jump
i feel like i'm flying
I rely on my horse as he does me
the wind blows on my face
and we land and take off again......

It is night
I cant sleep
I Wait.
I wait for the new day.
I wait to run free.
I wait to see my friends.
to learn new things.
I wait for the unexpected
I wait for a fight
I wait for someone to make my life
I wait.
I wait for the sun to devour the night.

Dont be pressured
Dont just go a long with the crowd
Dont dress just to impress
Dont overdo your make up
Honestly her weekness makes you a ****
Dont lie to me
Dont be pressured into telling secrets about me
Dont tell people what i trusted you to keep quiet
Dont  leave me in the dust when people insult you because i have stuck my neck out for you a million times on end,
Honestly, her  weekness broke our friendship up
I know how to be strong
Because others weekness has caused me so much pain
I know how to be strong
because im the only one who can keep my brother on his feet during hard family troubles
I know i have to be strong or i wont be successful.
I know that in the end the week kids never make it big.
Its survival of the fittest.

No More B.S
Im taking a stand
And If my friends don't stand by my side they can leave.
I can't take the pain of being betrayed ANYMORE.
No More B.S Im going to make my dream happen.
I dont care what i have to do
Or who i have to take down.
No MORE B.S
My Enemies need to Back off or i will make them!
No More B.S
Ive lived with it all my life.
And **** It I'm making things right

About to go to sleep
Resting on my soft bed
Listening to the soft beat of music taking me under
But something keeps me awake
Somethings coming
a change is up ahed
I feel it on the back of my neck
It's like someones watching me
I open my eyes
My room is dark
I look out my window
My breath fogs off the glass
I cant get this feeling free
I just can't
Every night i go to bed thinking about something
My Life at school
The people that treat me like garbage
How i will get revenge on them
My friend Drifting away from me
How I get them back
Sometimes i think about what to say to people
or sometimes i think about people
Sometimes I dance alone in my room to taylor swift
Because the guy i like really does belong with me.
Yes, I know a basic night for me
These things always keep me up at night
They keep everyone up at night
But this is different
Its the same feeling i had a year back
Something bad happened
I know its coming
I hope it comes soon so i dont have to deal with this anymore.
Its like im Being haunted.
By My Past
By My Present
By My Future, most of all
So i will ignore this feeling and try to get to sleep
I have had to do it before  
I just have to ignore the pain
And trail off into a blissful darkness where only dreams disturb my thoughts.

About to go to sleep
Resting on my soft bed
Listening to the soft beat of music taking me under
But something keeps me awake
Somethings coming
a change is up ahed
I feel it on the back of my neck
It's like someones watching me
I open my eyes
My room is dark
I look out my window
My breath fogs off the glass
I cant get this feeling free
I just can't
Every night i go to bed thinking about something
My Life at school
The people that treat me like garbage
How i will get revenge on them
My friend Drifting away from me
How I get them back
Sometimes i think about what to say to people
or sometimes i think about people
Sometimes I dance alone in my room to taylor swift
Because the guy i like really does belong with me.
Yes, I know a basic night for me
These things always keep me up at night
They keep everyone up at night
But this is different
Its the same feeling i had a year back
Something bad happened
I know its coming
I hope it comes soon so i dont have to deal with this anymore.
Its like im Being haunted.
By My Past
By My Present
By My Future, most of all
So i will ignore this feeling and try to get to sleep
I have had to do it before  
I just have to ignore the pain
And trail off into a blissful darkness where only dreams disturb my thoughts.

Deciding her future is hard to do
Living in a small town
With no other alternatives
Has the craziest far fetched life
With no way to be ordinary
Just wants one thing to be normal
With No faults
But that can't happen
With no good decisions left
All her friends are leaving
With good plans
So she is left
With no friends
No Matter how much she cries
No matter how much she screams
She knows she can't make a good decision
Because you cant make a good decision
With no good ones left
With the bad ones lingering behind her
Leaving no mercy
With the pain slowing her down
With No Empathy
She tries to call out
but the problem is she can't be heard
If people Don't Listen
But She's Growing Up
So she has to make a decision
Even if None Are Right
Even If she's still growing up
She Has To
Even If her father wont listen
For his own selfish reasons
Even if her Mother pretends to agree, and wont stand up
She is feeling trapped too
Even with a brother
Who would die to stay
So this girl with no where to turn
Has to make a decision
Anyway these next decisions will cause her pain
But she has to take one for her family
Because not her decision
It never has been
But shes growing up
She needs to make her own decisions
But she can't
And no matter how much she hates it
When she wakes up in the morning
She realizes she is in the hell hole thats crushed her
Crushed her dreams
Crushed her spirit
Crushed her freedom
its like a prison
And there is no decision to make her escape it

Why all the Jelousy
Why The Rage
You Cry About losing to a great friend
You ignore me for now two months on end
Why all the Jelousy why all the rage
why all the gossip and rumors
they make you
HATE ME
What did i do?
I dont think i did much
Just tell me and ill fix it
Why all the jelousy, why all the rage
why do tears soak up this page
Because you are my best friend
Leaving me in the dust
HER rumors devour you
But how can you believe
SHE has been causing drama for to long
I have to stop all this Jelousy and Hate
Before it gets too late......

I flip through the pictures some are so great
some are just dull and need to be thrown away
The ones that make me smile are of friends
they are not just any friends
They will love you
And support you
always tell the truth no matter how much it hurts
We have different personalities
and we see the good in everyone
With Macy the one who is always there
is not afraid to say what she thinks
With Grace and her Pride so perfect not to stretched
Without her life wouldn't be so far fetched
With Emma and her energy so crazy and wild
The barn is always dull without that child
With morgan and her loyalty thats incredibly fierce
She will laugh and cry with you
What I am trying to say is we have been through so much
we have stayed with each other and comforted each other
through too thick and very thin
Where friends leave us sobbing I will i will always know i will have you.
When i think of you guys you make me smile
I would die for you really
Because I've got your back Just as you've got mine
So while i bring this poem to an end i have one thing to say
after all the friends that have dissapointed me
I don't trust easily
I know i will trust you when i trust know one else
We will go from thick and thin and who knows what else........

I am a tollerant girl
well sort of
I don't mind who you hang out with
Well i do but i wont stop you unless it will hurt you
So why do you have to lie?
Why do you have to lie
when i never lied to you?
Do i intimidate you?
Your one of my best friends
So why do you lie
Its my biggest pet peeve
Something i hate
ITS THE WOrst thing you could to me
You are one of my best friends
and lucky to still be one

Alexa is awesome
Alexa is cool
Alexa does not drool
Alexa is my somewhat hero

There is a person
who feels what others feel
it can be a gift
it can be not
There is a person
who knows if you are lying
it can be a power
or you tie it into a not
They hate crowded places
they have too much feelings
it gives them feelings too
i used to not believe it
i used to think it was special
but its all too real
i am an empath
And i am very scared

The only girls with true popularity are mean
They exclude
They call names
The outfits are outrageous
Us unpopulars used to be so upset
We WERE alone
We WERE worth calling names
We WERE looking ugly
Now were smiling,
were not mean
we like eachother for who we are
not what you wear, or who you hang out with
who you date
or anything instead
we are just friends
NOW we are NOT alone
We are now stronger than ever