tree bent over the water
looks at itself in a stream
reads my mind
I looked into my soul
and I trembled with fear
there in the distance the frog is croaking
dogs complain about their lot
Cuckoo counts my days
And I’m thinking of you

Eres un soplo de eternidad
En un espacio intemporal
El sentido de mi existencia
Estoy vagando sin ti
En el desierto de la nada
Recuerdo tu beso
Luz como el cielo
Quiéreme
Con tu toque eterno
Y liberarme
De la jaula
De soledad

I can hide You in my hand
and put
in the house of dolls
don't be afraid
You don't have to grow up
You can play
in life
You're too fragile
for this time
I'll save You from the world
my little boy

I'm searching for Your caresses

Let me drink the heat of Your mouth

I can’t stop

My hands wander in darkness

The waves hit the shore With desire

The island is free Like a bird

Warm me up With Your love

In the endless game

Mother
is like sunrise
she brightens
allows to leave
from the black
powerlessness
flows like a wave
floats
and safely
lulls me to sleep

white horses jumped  
from the black thoughts
closed
in the open window
they rush play  
grow in a dream
sharp words
fall into memory
wound
outside the existence

white horses
run
helpless
in infinity

quiet rhythms of jazz
flow in the pouring rain
we cuddle the pillow
my dog and I
lonely jazzmen
we fall
in the bliss
of freedom

I'm listening to the immense sounds of the sea
amidst the echoes of the past
the sky absorbs moments
I forget the names and shapes of things
in the chaos of passing
standing on the shore
in the absolute loneliness
the waves are taking time
which has left
turning the memories
into emptiness

with afternoon tea I come back
to the past
when you were here
we baked apples
with crumble
dog in the kitchen
fawned over you
the smell of baked cabbage
teased everyone
nicely
smelt this time

leaning over me  
you read me fairy  
sang
lulled to sleep
you saw before me
future fulfilled
today I can return
and ask
why I’m still
your little mermaid

I hear their echo…

they’re running through my world

in the inner Jerusalem

the faces scatter

like the broken vessels

I wear a cage in myself

in the clothes

of memory

silence overwhelms

in the trains

of thoughts

doors without exit

everywhere

the trains are hiding

in my dreams

The rustle of wings
in the shadows on the sea
I hear the music

subtle sounds and shapes
vanish in Your voice
mouth desires
I touch You tenderly
feel the fire
rising from Your kiss
in Your arms
I enter infinity

cats at the table
purr at the poetry book
as if playing jazz:
furry philosophers
analyzing human art?

Fairy Cat furry philospher
has plenty of wisdom to offer
he looks at the sky
and wonders why
the world is so improper

I swim into
The sounds and shadows
Of the past
Shaping sadness
Time stops the existence
My soul sails
To the border of life
I pass
In silence

black clocks
walk in me
blurring
reality
as if
I was not here and now
but always there
suspended
I’m just ticking
between two worlds
erased
from life

set me free
calm the heat
sway
take in your arms
and hide
from the world

to my mother

I
in you
without words
with you
the whole world
is laughing
in memory
always together
lulls
my childhood
without you
there is no us

The rustle of wings
in the shadows on the sea
the music of peace

bird’s silent singing
captured in the morning dream
wakes to new life:
pirouetting in the air
disappears in the rainbow

Eres un soplo de eternidad
En un espacio intemporal
El sentido de mi existencia
Estoy vagando sin ti
En el desierto de la nada
Recuerdo tu beso
Luz como el cielo
Quiéreme
Con tu toque eterno
Y liberarme
De la jaula
De soledad

the rustle of autumn leaves
lulled cats
cuddled on the porch

under the dark blue sky
full of stars
in the moonlight

I see parents
grandparents' house
burnt by war

listened to the croaking in the pond
the dance of leaves
dreamy

slowly I find myself
in the dark and bright
future

Love for you
never ends
your voice plays in me
music of the sea
dances on  
the foamed waves
it’s in my dream

the fluffy dog
searching for the cone and stick
in the nearby park
plays happily with the wind,
neglecting the flow of time

I think about you every night
you are a rising sun
let me fall asleep in Your kisses
waves of nostalgia rustle in the shells
I can’t breathe without You
like a fish
captured in the net

You're a breath of eternity
in a timeless space
the sense of my existence
I'm wandering without You
in the desert of nothingness
I remember Your kiss
light as the sky
love me
with Your eternal touch
and set me free
from the cage
of loneliness

I open the mystical Book of Light.

Jerusalem blossoms like the eternal garden.

God goes back to the beginning.

Words escape from the exile

free as birds.

The sky is open

for everyone.

I think about you every night
you are a rising sun
let me fall asleep in Your kisses
waves of nostalgia rustle in the shells
I can’t breathe without You
like a fish
captured in the net

the rustle of autumn leaves
lulled cats
cuddled on the porch

under the dark blue sky
full of stars
in the moonlight

I see parents
grandparents’ house
burnt by war

listened to the croaking in the pond
the dance of leaves
dreamy

slowly I find myself
in the dark and bright
future

rustling white aprons
entangled me

it’s dark here
I can't fall asleep without you
why can't you come back

Miles Davis
cuddle with jazz
loneliness
and scattered past

moth whirling in the jar

Sylvia Plath
with her head in the oven

dissapear

Masquerade


I'm leaving my body
the costumes are borrowed
from the changing room of life
my face belongs to a foreign person
for the moment
someone's invisible hand
removes my life
as a used prop
I'm leaving
to start playing
in the new mask

                                              

Van Gogh's Ear

The space is blurred
I see men in the fur of red birds
yellow clocks wearing hats
are sitting at the table
mirrors are laughing at me
things are ticking
in the echo of chaos
I spread
burning wings
suspended
in doubled dimensions
the sea of colours
is shaping sadness
I feel so lonely
in my locked reality

                                                      
The Walk

I'm listening to the immense sounds of the sea
amidst the echoes of the past
the sky absorbs moments
I forget the names and shapes of things
in the chaos of passing
standing on the shore
in the absolute astonishment
the waves are taking time
which has left
turning the memories
into emptiness





Infinity
I'm looking at people
lost in the rushing universe
I'm only a drop of time
in a gust of eternity
I'm searching for the truth
in the music of things
wandering in the world
like a blind bird

Meditation
The heart beats faster and faster louder
sounds words and thoughts quiet down
I drift to the islands of childhood
body and soul are still muted
they float on the other side
thoughts merge with water
I swim deep into myself
wandering without tips
for transformation
I drift
getting ahead further
deeper and deeper
heart beats more slowly
becoming quieter

The Dancer
a drop of water
unique in cosmos
in the changing river of time
passing like a single life
I'm only a shadow
dancing in the emptiness

My time is listening
to the steps under the door
they are growing
everywhere
they approach and move away for a while
I’m afraid I don’t want to be alone
I’m once again a little girl
standing by the window and preview life
I see everything through the fog
there was always this curtain
between me and the world

thoughtfully
slowly I grow up
to myself
I distort time
with words
I turn the world
upside down
stopped
in the land of my childhood

I think about you every night
you are a rising sun
let me fall asleep in Your kisses
waves of nostalgia rustle in the shells
I can’t breathe without You
like a fish
captured in the net

I hid You in a poem
still warm
like Your look
and words of love
true
like my and your life
I’m not afraid any more
it’s a present for You

fairy fantastic Irish setter
wrapped in a dream
cuddled with life
maestro of being
beyond words
playing with time in the park
barking at eternity
in the fur of a man

to Tomas Transtromer

barred birds
suffocate on freedom
they circulate in closed circles
slowly untangle from the net

I enter the boat swimming away
in a dark eternity
contorted faces grow from the trees
resound in dreams
they call me to return
into a dead forest

I’m searching for the exit
from the stone world
into the endless carnival

I fight for breath

The heart beats faster and faster louder
sounds words and thoughts quiet down
I drift off to the islands of childhood
body and soul are still muted
they float on the other side
thoughts merge with water
I swim deep into myself
wandering without tips
for transformation
I drift off
getting ahead further
deeper and deeper
heart beats more slowly
becoming quieter

I sail through the cosmos
blowing thoughts fly away
in the path to nowhere
bird's silent singing
captured in the morning  
wakes to new life
I drink the cup of dreams
feel the joy of existence

Christmas is coming gliding through the world
everyone is sharing a wafer and warm words
carp smells with memories
animals tell stories like real wizards
snow covers sorrows dancing with the wind
presents rustle under the Christmas tree
father fixes the hands of the clock
mother staples the shreds of the past
I build with blocks the tower of time
rocking horse lulls me to sleep
first star makes dreams come true
I'm going home for Christmas

I'm looking at the mirror of memory
thoughts are melting in the past
forgetting everything
in the river of changes
the world is whirling
like a bird
the emperor of it all

Mom
where are you
I’m afraid to be alone
with the shadow
come back, turn on the light
as before
I’ll cuddle you with a scarf
by the lamp
I’ll read
my poems
silence only moth in the jar
fights for life

they run through the world

ardent gazelles

split tongues of fire

burned images

in anxiety

go to the sea

without measure

I hid You in a poem
warm like your look
words are laughing
true like your and my life
I’m not afraid any more

Dark light


words still tremble
in your mouth
even in silence
they speak for you
and for me

don’t go

from the darkness of this world
into the light
of a new kingdom

When the night comes, I hide

fears, sorrows, bad memories,

I wipe down tears and display children

colourful films

once milk has split

and there was a spot

our mum washed it a lot

and again there were dreams

and memories of good things

when the night comes again

I will unfold my magical power then

Rio


go to Rio
without a ticket
drink wine and dance on the beach
love till dawn
on the hot sand
harder
and then caress with foamed wave
born from desire
in my dreams

I am the source
drink me
blossom in my kiss
I want to feel Your touch
in me
don't walk away

without you
I'm the crying desert.

the fluffy dog
searching for the cone and stick
in the nearby park
plays happily with the wind,
neglecting the flow of time