I’m four feet tall
in the Japanese dress
I climb the trees
chase butterflies
I walk the turtle Winnie
score goals
watch fairies on the wall
about Bear Fąfeluszek about The Snow Queen
I do not want to grow up
I listen to Gulliver’s Travels and Eskimo tales
I slip into a well without a bottom
everything happens too fast
time is rushing like a train set
in a playroom

to Tomas Transtromer

barred birds
suffocate on freedom
they circulate in closed circles
slowly untangle from the net

I enter the boat swimming away
in a dark eternity
contorted faces grow from the trees
resound in dreams
they call me to return
into a dead forest

I’m searching for the exit
from the stone world
into the endless carnival

I fight for breath

I think about you every night
you are a rising sun
let me fall asleep in Your kisses
waves of nostalgia rustle in the shells
I can’t breathe without You
like a fish
captured in the net

My time is listening
to the steps under the door
they are growing
everywhere
they approach and move away for a while
I’m afraid I don’t want to be alone
I’m once again a little girl
standing by the window and preview life
I see everything through the fog
there was always this curtain
between me and the world

thoughtfully
slowly I grow up
to myself
I distort time
with words
I turn the world
upside down
stopped
in the land of my childhood

I got tangled
in time
I’m lost
in the chaos
of things postponed for later
thoughts are silent
life goes on too fast
in the compartments
I’m confused by the turn of things

death deletes tickets

 searching for me
 in the waiting room of life

I think about you every night
you are a rising sun
let me fall asleep in Your kisses
waves of nostalgia rustle in the shells
I can’t breathe without You
like a fish
captured in the net

Don’t run away from me
I just want to talk
touch You tenderly
purring like a cat
on a tin roof
I will enslave You
to think as I do
about me and in me
though it is dangerous
open me to the world
because mine is closed
baby kitty
don’t try to fight
and so you are mine
shall we purr together
dancing on the roof?

the fluffy dog
searching for the cone and stick
in the nearby park
plays happily with the wind,
neglecting the flow of time

park like an old clock
stopped
over time
trees told their stories
moved by the fate of a stone
leaves played
like notes
in the autumn sonata
everything has its sense
and a new beginning

My life is racing with time

I’m running
beyond the boundaries of this world
behind the turn
of love and death

On the walk I wobble like willows
crying in the abandoned park
nature blows up with colours
It’s free like a wind
Men come and go
In an empty house everyone is a stranger
I don’t want to run without You

I turn
into the tunnel
without exit

I listen to the rain in Hong Kong
birds sing longing melody
the streets are full of mystical light
I contemplate the Man Mo Temple
recite the poetry of  Su ****

I listen to the rain in Hong Kong
the voices of the SoHo District
merge with the echo of the saint texts
I taste the sounds of the eternal Hong Kong
and my heart is filled with happiness

Daddy
where are You
I can't fall asleep
will You show me a film
on the wall
tell the story
of the golden duck
together we will find
the enchanted pencil
and we will write from the start
my dreams

they run through the world

ardent gazelles

split tongues of fire

burned images

in anxiety

go to the sea

without measure

The heart beats faster and faster louder
sounds words and thoughts quiet down
I drift off to the islands of childhood
body and soul are still muted
they float on the other side
thoughts merge with water
I swim deep into myself
wandering without tips
for transformation
I drift off
getting ahead further
deeper and deeper
heart beats more slowly
becoming quieter

There was a puddle on the sidewalk.
Someone walked by
splashed me healthy
I immersed in the soul of the puddle
Someone passed me quickly without a word
frog happily croaked
water splashed loudly
the puddle burst into tears in fear.

the rustle of autumn leaves
lulled cats
cuddled on the porch

under the dark blue sky
full of stars
in the moonlight

I see my children
sing them lullabies
read poems
happy
in my real home
hugging my love

listened to the croaking in the pond
the dance of leaves
dreamy

slowly I find myself
in the dark and bright
future

Grandma, is that you?
I heard your voice.
Why have you gone?

We'll go to Saint Anthony
to find the keys and glasses
in the lost past.

I can't sleep in an empty house.
It is so dark here.
Loneliness drowns out thoughts.
I'm afraid of the noise of silence.
Tara doesn't want to go
squealing with grief.
I'll take the grid,
make the tea,
find the keys
only come back.

Without you I'm lost
in the clutter of life.

I'm looking at the mirror of memory
thoughts are melting in the past
forgetting everything
in the river of changes
the world is whirling
like a bird
the emperor of it all

I come back
to the little ******* a swing
listened to her world
as if whole life
was not mine
the tastes of childhood
the smell of mince pie
jasmine tea happy barking of the dog
mingle in the teaspoon of sugar
we swim with father
immersed in poetry and the sound of crickets
time has stopped
the river exceeds lazy everyday life
it accepts everything
takes the memory of things

The Taste


I come back
to the little ******* a swing
listened to her world
as if whole life
was not mine
the tastes of childhood
the smell of mince pie
jasmine tea happy barking of the dog
mingle in the teaspoon of sugar
we swim with father
immersed in poetry and the sound of crickets
time has stopped
the river exceeds lazy everyday life
it accepts everything
takes the memory of things

languages of love
burn inside me
kisses caress
filling
with sensual music
I want You to play it
without words
I will never
let You go

I am the source
drink me
blossom in my kiss
I want to feel Your touch
in me
don't walk away

without you
I'm the crying desert.

Our love is infinite
Your voice
echoes eternity
The sounds of the sea
absorbs moments
Ships sail lazily
Fluttering waves
fill me with desire
I see You,
as in my dream
Stay with me
forever

Rio


go to Rio
without a ticket
drink wine and dance on the beach
love till dawn
on the hot sand
harder
and then caress with foamed wave
born from desire
in my dreams

I'm longing for my promised land
words fly free like birds
building bridges between cultures
the world is whirling
in the words of Li Bai
peace is a flower
it blossoms gently
in the Chinese garden
opening the sky for everyone

Fallen leaves.
Withered tree.
Time stood still.
I will come to the garden
caress dreams
of children and our home.

I left love
calming for me the whole world.
I was looking for her all my life.
Now it’s too late.
Miles Davies cuddles loneliness.
I’m a girl swinging in the past.

languages of love
burn inside me
kisses caress
filling
with sensual music
I want You to play it
without words
I will never
let You go

swinging
at the stormy sea
the wave sinking in pain
distracts the darkness

caress me
immersed in foam
copy every touch
kisses
go away
swim further
in the past unknown

life goes in hand with death
takes off her clothes
playing roles
covered with
non-existence
dancing like a shadow
in the cyclone of white
parodies all in the mask
body tired of being
silent
in the dance
of non-existence

Morning
echo of Your voice
touch of mouth
fragile memories like cookies
crumbled and suddenly

flashed by the sun
no longer let me fall asleep
forget kisses
shells skimming about us
without you I suffocate
like a fish caught in the net

Love me
with music of the sea
screaming seagules
push ships swimming
lazily  
enjoy me
in Bach's crazy rhythm
with fluttering waves
come
in my immutability

I enter
the drawers of memory
I’ m searching for
good times
hidden in the fragile porcelain cup
images of my family
sounds of memories
the past purrs like a cat
I remember my mother
sewing clothes
captured in a smile
her warm look and words
enchanting reality
father telling stories
heard
from grandfather
I close the drawers
of my life
nice images
fly away
like carefree kites

park like an old clock
stopped
over time
trees told their stories
moved by the fate of a stone
leaves played
like notes
in the autumn sonata
everything has its sense
and a new beginning

I'm looking
at the slow ripple of time.
In the rhythms of the ocean
moving away into the past
The waves take our words
and cast into the abyss.
My soul is floating like a feather.
The darkness
absorbs the fears and anxieties.
Close my eyes.
Do you hear an echo of God
amidst the waves?

You’re a breath of eternity
in the infinite space
the sense of my existence

lost
on the desert of nothingness
I still feel your kiss
it’s in me

touch me
and set free
from the cage
of loneliness

I hid You in a poem
still warm
like Your look
and words of love
true
like my and your life
I’m not afraid any more
it’s a present for You

I’m escaping from my Land
with children
with the baggage of torment in hand
with a sick mother in my head
in a burning house
in the grave of ancestors
incinerated

I run away blinded by fire
stunned by the howl of sirens
by bombing raid of hate

in compartments and on tracks
death validates tickets
without mercy one by one
takes its toll
from the waiting room of life

I run further
to breathlessness
with children with the baggage of hope

I am the source
drink me
blossom in my kiss
I want to feel Your touch
in me
don't walk away

without you
I'm the crying desert.

brown dancer stretches
on a lair
and I comb her
make
manicure
pedicure
I admire  
her pirouettes

You baked for me the world
smelling of bread
of childhood
still warm
from words and emotions
Your hands full of memories
stopped time for me
run out from my poems
I will hide you in dreams.

Hidden under the books, surrounded by pens.

White-but he has a soul of gold in a sense

He wants to fly away from the table.

Maybe then the world would be…

more wonderful.

My once favourite subject of play… with a doll;

Now broken and abandoned under the wall.

He was replaced by a NEW,

much bigger and colourful too.

I tell him of sorrows and fears.

He consoles me, wiping away all my tears,

and brings all the children sweet dreams…

He saved her life. But it was a long time ago…
People were just shadows. Every moment was filled with longing for the lost presence. She has always wanted to stop time. Everything was just a mirage of a changing consciousness. She wasn't sure whether the surrounding reality exists. She felt like a spider tangling a net of events. Among whispers, glances and voices she created fictitious worlds. Every word was a story. The moment reminded her of a river of childhood. She waded in the water like a heron. The water was calm, clear as a mirror. Everything was possible. The boundary between childhood and adulthood did not exist. She has always lived in a world of dreams. Mother told her to keep her feet on the ground.
-Life is a way-she remembered her mother saying it-people can change it and make You happy-there are many ways that You can choose, but it’s not always Your way of life, sometimes You can wander and return, the way can be far away, but it’s worth to fight for Your dreams, always cherish yourself and don’t give up
She liked to listen to the sounds of life. Existence seen through the mirror was falling apart to pieces. The shapes seemed unreal, immersed in a pure form, without beginning and end. It was closed in the microcosm of her visions.
She wanted to spread out wings and fly away, look at life from a distance. Mother, father, family, it was the world that ensures peace, time was playing her like a doll in spite of passing…
She has always wanted to see him once again and thank him for everything: a new life, friends, family and a helping hand…
Suddenly she saw the light. She listened intently to the melodies of existence woven of the finest matter and dreams. Place where you can immerse yourself and observe the surrounding reality. Light and darkness, colour and sound, everything was repeatable, reflecting the circle of life.
She met him again.
-J. is that You?
The cry of her son has interrupted her musings. Life has come back to normal.
She was happy.

I'm searching for Your caresses

Let me drink the heat of Your mouth

I can’t stop

My hands wander in darkness

The waves hit the shore With desire

The island is free Like a bird

Warm me up With Your love

In the endless game

to my mother

I hid You in a poem
still warm
like Your look
and words of love
true
like my and your life
I’m not afraid any more
it’s a present for You

I was looking for God
in the echo of the waves
I heard
the music of things
the light of the sea
filled me
with tranquility

The space is blurred
I see men in the fur of red birds
yellow clocks wearing hats
are sitting at the table
mirrors are laughing at me
things are ticking
in the echo of chaos
I spread
burning wings
suspended
in doubled dimensions
the sea of colours
is shaping sadness
I feel so lonely
in my locked reality

fairy fantastic Irish setter
wrapped in a dream
cuddled with life
maestro of being
beyond words
playing with time in the park
barking at eternity
in the fur of a man

set me free
in the summer salsa
calm the heat
sway
in the sounds
of the summer
I’m fragile
like the porcelain doll
hide me
from the world

My life is racing with time

I’m running
beyond the boundaries of this world
behind the turn
of love and death

On the walk I wobble like willows
crying in the abandoned park
nature blows up with colours
It’s free like a wind
Men come and go
In an empty house everyone is a stranger
I don’t want to run without You

I turn
into the tunnel
without exit