Sometimes I am right,
Sometimes I am wrong,
I may not admit to you,
But I am not blind
To my mistakes.
I live with them everyday.

By touch, discovering the surface,
Touch, I can tell this world is real,
Your touch, I melted like light,
Even if just for a moment, I was sure.

You grew on me like an addiction,
An addiction that quit me,
I drank your trust,
Just a drop, mind,
You always wanted me to stop.

I destroyed in your pursuit,
I assured you I could handle it,
I could bring you the world in exchange.
But no.

I'm left alone.

Chasing you up the hill,
Panting to a halt on our knees,
Soon lying on the grass
Even when we could see below
Our world, you lay and saw to the skies,
Like every time you lead me,
I'll follow you till I can't,
When I stop I'll remember you,
On a rainy day when I seek the sun,
I'll forget to worry over small things,
I'll remember you when I walk alone in cold nights,
I'll remember your smile that makes me warm,
I'll remember you so when you're lost I can remind you,
You are alright.

Push and pull they play,
Water crashing ashore
Bursting into foam,
A silent murmur calling,
Calling for embrace
We leave footsteps in the sand,
The waves wash the ties away,
Playing in water like we belong,
Embracing the sea, as it toys with us,
Pushing us out, pulling us in,
Swallowing the sun.

Its all a vivid blur,
You danced,
There was surely some cake,
And a lot to drink!
A drink became 4 and I lost count
(Not that I'd admit to the number)
By the end there was spirit and happiness,
We didn't care for tomorrow,
There was us and the night,
May be it was the liquor,
But I was smiling,
As I passed out on your bed,
Closed my eyes and breathed in.

Chasing the hands
While they run away,
Tireless
The musings of every day,
Their charm wears off of me,
I noticed those cracks really late,
The cracks in my house
Showing signs of weathering,
The cracks in my behaviour.

Pretending for so long,
I guess I forgot to live.
Can't say where it all failed,
When I got used to the despair,
Staying awake searching for myself in the dark,
Sleeping off the day light,
Am I broken?
Or just without direction?
Voices in my head tempting me,
To escape to fantasy,
Living wasn't supposed to hurt so much,
Be such a burden...
There is no reset button.
I stopped learning with this saturation.
Its time to wake up and take the blame.