I remember the time,
When it poured down,
Chasing away the brightness,
Chasing away the summer heat,
The time I desire solitude,
The gloomy afternoon,
The dark noisy nights,
The water hitting the roofs,
And hitting the streets,
Cars splashing in puddles,
Like kids playing in them,
Alas
The time is here again,
When I feel gloomy,
But complete again,
I walk out of my home,
Welcoming the clouds,
Embracing their gift to me,
And I close my eyes,
And tell myself quietly
The rains are here again.

I know ma,
I don’t tell you ever,
How much I care,
I feel shy, sometimes scared,
If I could live up to you,
Wishing to undo those times,
When I hurt you,

You feel I refuse to grow up,
It’s because I wish not to,
Growing up would mean,
I would be independent,
Doing things for myself,
But I don’t know,
What I would do,
What I would be,
Without you

That’s why I have you wake me up,
Every day, in the morning,
Your face is the first I see,
The times you chide me,
For little things,
I know it’s alright,
Because you’re caring for me,
And I know I’m your child,
And I always will be

I know ma, on many things we don’t see eye to eye,
All that you've given me compares to nothing anyone else could give or buy for me,
For all your belief in me as a being,
You ever existing love despite the wrongs I did,
I know I tend to stray to wrong deeds,
But your determination to my life brings me back,
I know we've had our fights,
And I've learned in the end you’re always right,
I wish I could take back the times I made you cry,
Every time I did I died a little inside,
I hope today to be the person you know I will be one day,
To make you proud I lived the right way,
When I see you I know the world’s going to be alright,
Because whenever I fall, you’re always here to hold me,
Wipe my tears, and help me face Life.

I know I’m safe seeing you again each day,
I fear losing you when into the world I set you free,
I wish I could keep you in front of my eyes forever,
To let you never feel lost and alone ever.
So hard to say goodbye,
Leaving you each day,
Never seeing you again scares me,
Parting to meet again will always be.

We looked down at ourselves,
The sky behind a cold fire,
Seemed to me like I was flying,
But the wave crashed into foam and reality
And I was reminded of my place here,
For the sky belonged to the cotton clouds and sinking sun,
The sand under my feet moulding itself to our presence,
The wind blowing away the world behind,
And in this moment on the white sand we lay,
This last forever I pray...

On the bed besides me it was cold last night,
I dreamt of waking with you,
A dream that felt so right,
The loneliness inside with the darkness grew,
The loneliness without you that I now come to fear,
Wish you were here...

The solitary walks on the beach,
The ghosts if your footsteps besides me haunt my imagination,
The warmth of the sunset beyond my reach,
For you I die every moment, my aching heart the indication,
Please don't let this end in a tear,
Wish you were here

I searched for you for a lifetime,
It felt like the impression of your being rested in my soul’s memory,
I never had to know you to know who you are,
But was it something of how I wanted it to be?
Was it just a figment of my imagination?
I feel my want for you put my senses in illusion,
Showed me colours in the world of grey,
Because I refused to see more than my desire,
I lived in my bubble of lies,
But the day when the price to pay came,
I finally told my heart what the rest of me knew,
That you were never mine to have,
You always belonged to someone else,
I will break my smile for some time,
Lock myself in a box and grieve,
Till the day come when I again learn to smile,
When I see you in another face,
And pretend I know her like I really knew you/And think I know her like I really knew you
Keep turning the pages despite the paper-cut