You were my best friend.
I messed it all up
With one stupid decision
On a warm Sunday.

I am sorry for hurting you.
My friend is very close to you now
Because of what happened.

I'm fine with that.
Just hearing your name repeatedly
Really hurts after a while.

I really wish I could hate you.
Hate you for all of the
Pain, heartbreak, and Stress
You caused me.

The thing is,
I can't hate you no matter how hard I try.
I still wish the best for you.

I just wish that we could have had
Closure.
But alas, it was not meant to be.

Thankfully, I no longer
Feel anything for you.
Not love or hate, not even a vague liking.

You are no longer the most wonderful,
Terrific person as I thought you were.
Your pedestal has crumbled
And you have fallen.

This is my final poem to you.
This is my final goodbye.
Goodbye Shane. Goodbye my moon.

                                                          
**Goodbye

I’ve
Moved into your bones.
Making myself comfortable in the
Darkest part of you. I swept away all the dust
from your heart. I lit the darkest spots of you with candles.
The endless black is now lit for all to see.
You accept me in without any fear and you
Let me see what you want most in life and
You shared your dreams with me. Your heart
Beats in time with my own. I’ve melted into you.
Yes it is a dark and broken place. A little rundown.
But it is you and you are home. I wouldn’t want to
Be anywhere else. Whenever I’m with you, I’m home.

The world will keep spinning,
Even if my heart
isn't beating.