Thankful.....

I am thankful for the friends I have
few...but good and true

I am thankful for earthly angels
In my life I have two

I am thankful for a family
so close yet far away
For they love me unconditionally
even when I go a stray

I am thankful for the soul
that I possess
and when I see true human
tenderness

I am thankful for this heart and mind
and the ability to leave the darkness behind

I am thankful....

thankful to be free

I am thankful...

thankful to be me

How do you fight an enemy
that knows you inside out?
How do you crush that skull
and pull the bad parts out?
How do you stop its breathe
when it steals it from you?
How can you find happiness
when it only knows gloom?

How can you fight an enemy
when that enemy is you????

The coldness that pleages my fingertips
is slowly creeping to my heart
I dream of sun filled days
longing to catch fireflies in the dark

I lust for the touch of warm sand
as I lay upon the beach
I long for the echos of happy children
riding their bikes amongst the streets

Winter's fridged kiss
seems to numb my senses
I feel as though I don't care as much
That I'm losing my defenses
I need to find a new love
this one to cold to hold

I long for spring to come to town
give me a kiss of hope
melting old winter down
To bring me a bouquet of flowers
and a warm embrace of sun
Heat up the blood that flows so cold
Light up the passion that once was so bold

Hello old friend
it's been awhile
Good to hear your laugh
love to see that smile

Come and sit with me a spell
tell me everything or nothing
for it's all just as well

I have dreamed that you came to me
answering my wishes true
and in nightmares I ran away
so you could not see me blue

I have missed you
old dear friend
as if I lost myself
and now I have you once again
I hope this dream will never end

Beware the serpent of ancient times
his tongue is tainted with inhuman lies
The promise of power and peace as he slithers,
gifts that he has no intent to deliver

Guard yourself from the bonding of all
for it will lead us to Eden's fall
A glimse into seven years of tribulation
When those of God will suffer segregation

Take no mark that they beseat you
Ignore the mind...the soul will stay true
Follow the word for the path lies within
Accept the love to banish the sin...............

You head for the sun
head for the light
I linger behind
in the shadows of night

Your fearless and brave
I'm a lost , lonely slave

You say life is everything  you strive to make it
I say if life throws you a life line ,than you better take it

You are my life line, my saving grace
I know me saying that puts a smile on your face
For you admitting your not always strong
is as simple as singing along with a song
For me admitting I am wrong, and stubborn too
makes me feel lonely, bitter, and blue

So I walk with you now into the light
following the sun , beaming so bright
Leaving behind the cover of night
Holding your hand , and holding it tight

The silence in your eyes
the peace within your breath
Like a camp fire glowing
against a harvest moon
you drawl me in
and make me feel at home

The gentle depth of your voice
the moments of laughter
like a happy song
you lift me high
to soar through cloud nine
letting me know that I'm not alone

I sometimes think I knew you
in another place in time
For the moment that I met you
I knew that you were kind

Like a sweat dream
you make me feel safe
and some how so free
Yet, sadly there is a barrier
that separates you and me

Perhaps it the familiarity
we as strangers should not know
that separates the reuniting of two
friendly old souls

I cherish you for how ever long you stay
I know I will always remember you this way
and perhaps if in this life our paths shall part
We will meet up again amongst the stars,
remembering each other as we pass through
the sands of time.

I lay here in these shambles
an arm's reach from the door
laying in the jagged pieces of my heart
broken stained glass upon the floor

reflections of red speckles
shimmer on the wall
and I breathe a darken breath
as I grasp the taken fall

I wait for the darkness to come
to hide this shattered heart
to take away the dancing red
for night to play it's part

And if you come back
by morning's light
to perhaps repent

You will find not a trace of me
no lovely moments spent

Nor will you find my shattered heart
none of the pain that you had sent

But, if you are so foolish
to find your way here at night
I will be waiting for you
With a venomous bite

I will take away your sun
Take that beaconing light
I will steal your heartbeat
and replace it with insight

The darkness it would like you
embracing that shallow heart.....

Hard as nails
A man of steel
But ,under that outside shell
dwelled a heart as strong as well

He did not take any slack
He expected your best and that's a fact
But , he would always have your back
He helped the family become stronger
because of that

He would joke around the campfire's light
That notorious Mooga Mooga bird would take it's flight
We would all laugh , for he was a true delight
He was his softest on those campfire nights

My Uncle Denny , He was a good man
Never afraid to take a stand
Protecting us all each and everyday,
from people who would put us in harms way

My Uncle Denny, he sure could cook
One taste of his chili and you were hooked
His beef barley soup was truely devine
And his Barb-Q creations were one of a kind

He was a good man I say it again it's true
One of the best I ever knew
He will be missed more than I can say
We must celebrate life each and everyday
For I know in my heart he would want it that way.....

I stand in front of the mirror
and glare at my reflection

I do not look as I see myself
and it eats at me like an infection

I can not explain this reaction
a lack of personal satisfaction

I wish I could release this tormented soul
be happy with what it is and accept that I am getting old.....

She was the one who shielded me from the cruelness of the world
Taught me how to howl and leap at the dangers that are hurled

She was there on all those sleepless nights
And,we would stay up talking until the mornings light
I learn to be the Alpha ,though she was always Beta
She would shy from confertation, I have learn to bite its throat
And, then sweet victory, I savor.

I also learned down in my heart ,if I must ,I can make it alone
the lone wolf on her own trail,howling at the moon ,never tucking her tail

I want to say thank you for all that you are
And, How I miss those midnight talks , now away we are,so far
But, think of me as I know you do, before you lay to sleep
Look up at that moon and give it a howl, a long one strong and deep
And, I promise Mom, that I will to, give a howl furious
Together always in our hearts.....Now that is Love Victorious!

In the eyes of the child
he is a great king
With knowledge that reaches
beyond our well being

We are the lions
we are the lambs
some proud and some meek
We look to him for guidance
to the path we seek

He is of the sun
the earth
the moon
he is the beam of light
that shines into our darkened rooms

He is there in the heart
where the child still dwells
Unconditional love is the story he tells

Some of us are lions roaring so proud
he gives us the freedom to sing our song loud
Then there are others...so soft and so sweet
gentleness is there way ...the lamb...the meek

He guides
He loves
He is the mystery
and in the end
we will have
the answers
for the questions
we seek

I sometimes speak in riddles
a little *** for tat
A simple exchange of random thoughts
that flow to a rhythm all it's own
Sometimes it comes in metaphors
sometimes it clear as a bell
But, always it is straight from the heart
Always it's cleansing to the soul
I can share my wishes and my ever changing dreams
I can expose my deeps fears and my sneakiest of schemes
I love the world of poetry
It's the only place I call home
For even when I sit here by myself
Somehow I am never alone.................

I lay awake in the still of the night
While the crickets sing in the pale moon light
I remember how it used to be
When sleep would come so easily
I would drift upon a cloud so shimmery and white
I felt like an angel taking her first flight

That was before the clouds turned grey
Before my innocence was ripped away
And now the darkness fills my skies
With nightmares that trample my mind
Dark visions of anger and pain
Demented creatures lost and insane
Endless falling ,spinning out of control
Why can't I just let it go

Please God if you hear me grant me this gift
Peaceful dreams of a life well spent
Give me back my soul and take my hand
Please give  me back to dreamland

I have walked a alonely path
feeling in the darkness
tripping and falling
and still I press on..

Searching for you
I fear not this night
I know in my heart
I will find you
when the time is right...

I hear the wolves howling
I sense the owl amoung the trees
I stop and twirl around me
and I fall unto my knees....

I reach up in the darkness
my fingers stretched up high
I pray that you come find me
For you are the holder of the sky...

You reach your fingers down to me
like sunbeams through the trees
warming my heart from within
I gratefully breath in life again....

I beg you not to leave me
to take your precious light
You tell me to follow you
and your guidance through the night...

I follow without hesitence
and you lead me to a clearing
I look ahead across the distance
and see a being gleaming...

You tell me not to fear him
he is a gift from you
to comfort and protect me
And, I will complete him too...

He walks towards me
as if he walked out of a dream
and, he looks upon me
as if I have done the same...

We hold each other
and the sunbeams brighten
For the "One" has granted us the gift
Of a soulmate to share this life.....

I plunge my fist into my chest
into the heart that lays at rest
Pulling out the darkness that has consumed it
It's tar like subtance reeking of hell's pit

Leaving a big empty hole that needs to be filled
With love so true until it is healed

Now if only to cleanse the soul
but it's so hard to catch
Floating around within me
like a ghost
For to my soul I am the intrigued host

Down at the disco
some cool cats hang
so many faces
with so many names

There's Mighty Jack
guarding the door
Sass him to much
you'll be kissing the floor

Chris he'll serve you the best **** drink
then give you some advice
that will make you stop and think

Neva owns the dance floor
she's as sweet as pie
always blows you a kiss and a wink
when it's time to say goodbye

D rocks the jams
always keeps them hot
will make you get your groove back
if it's something  you ain't got

James he's the manager
keeping things cool as ice
He believes a good time
should not become a vice

I have always thought I walked alone
down lifes winding path
But, something has opened my eyes
and made me rethink the universal math

Why is it when I need someone
they always seem to know?
A phone call, a message,
just letting me know I'm not alone

What made that person reach out to me ,
just out of blue?
and then it dawns on me
the reason is you

You reach out in very subtle ways
to let us know your there
Something as simple as a need to call
to let someone know we care
It's actually you compelling us
putting the thought in our mind

I realize I am not alone
and that you,our creator is kind
Thank you for quencidences
for lightbulb thoughts,
and those near misses.

Thank you for synchronicities
Opening my mind and making me think
For opening my heart to your mysteries
Thank you for those lovely God Winks

When the skys become a golden ray
the leaves all turn...a rainbow display
I welcome this change with open arms
The witch's winds...falls most powerful of charms
complimented by a campfire's warm light
The harvest moon to light up the night

I feel connected
I feel reborn
I love the magic
this season performs

I feel as if I could conquer the earth
It's mystic powers assist in my spiritual rebirth
Nature's most radiant  time
Enchanting my soul
Empowering the rythme

I try to look within myself
afraid of what I'll find

Sometimes so much anger
I feel I am a danger

Sometimes so much love
I fear I will drown

Often so much numbness
Do I actually exist

Often so dreamy
like a child with a wish

I see my reflection
so blank, so bare

A face in the mirror
with so many masks to wear

Autumn waltzing
Leaves are dancing
A scene of loveliness

The wind it blows
To free the souls
Intriguing the world


The moonlite night
It's whitish light
Illuminating

I will take a chance
and dance the dance
Maybe love will find me

When your appearance lights the room
mesmerize

When I sink into your eyes
hypnotize

When you speak , my heart skips
fantasize

When you leave, my soul sinks
realize

I see you in the distance
a face among the crowd

An aura all around you
like the sun shining down

I want to get to know you
so strange this is for me

I tend to shy away and hide
from encounters that could be

Yet, I find myself walking toward you
fearless and aware

That hearbreak could be knocking at my door
and for the first time I don't seem to care

Then you look to me and smile
and I feel myself beam bright

Stranger than fiction
a sweet encounter
of  love at first sight

I have the torso of a human
and fittingly a horses ***
I am brutely honest, always
putting my foot in my mouth
I do not wish to lead you
and yet I will not follow
I can be a little silly
An optimistic to a fault
I view life through rose tinted glasses
that are tinted by my heart
All of this , I embrace with pride
It makes me who I am
I am not perfect
And would not choose to be
I am happy being saggitarius
I am content with being me

The sun is trying to shine
to break through the dark day clouds
It's trying
Trying
Trying to strive
Yet those dark clouds keep clamping it down
Shine on bright one
You will win I know
Stronger than the world you are
Stronger than those clouds
It takes some time
sometimes
for they are oh so many
and you are just one lonely one
but, if you keep on shinning
You will overcome
And, if they hold you down
with the tears of their rain
Remember with your sunshine
a rainbow you can make....
Beautiful in color
a symbol of hope
symbol
hope
Just enough to light a path
light it
light the way to cope

I wonder what it will be like
when I am old and grey
It seems so distant
and yet I know it's not that far away
Will my children love me still
will they think I served them well
Will they treasure the childhood I gave to them
Or feel it was pure hell
Will they lock me in a nursing home
and let me die alone
Will I spend each early night
sitting by a silent phone
Is it possible my biggest thrill
will be a doctor's visit
I dred these thoughts
and yet they come to haunt me
I hope that life is good and sweet
I know I have but one chance
There is no big repeat
I hope I will leave the world
a little bit sweeter
I hope I can stay balenced
and not end in a teeder

In the darkness I have stayed
while in the sunlight the children play
I keep my distance from the light
clinching my hands and my eyes closed tight
Afraid of the sun beaming bright
so vibrant and energetic and powerful against the night

And when the sun finally goes down
then I can be silly and  act like a clown
dancing in the livingroom
Singing in the rain
The moon and stars enchant me
their soft white light enhance me
I feel I am free
I guess I am just a creature of the night
Welcoming it's mystery until the morning light

The Lady with long jagged digits
that bend so strangely when she fidgets
beacons me to come and play
a game of self involved rage

The man with the gentle hand
who can not seem to understand
why I cry for smiling faces
and laugh with those obsessed mind races

Stress induced land of OZ
no reds shoes to click me home
so on I spin without a cause
Twisting,twirling, fighting alone

They yell for more of my soul
I shall not repent
For the time they feel so ill spent

I dance alone within the rain
while the rest think I am Insane
I throw my head back
and give out a howl
To hell with the vultures
That wait for my fall
To hell with their sanity
the spirit it robs
To hell with their visions
To hell with them all

Love and Hate
Soul and Mate
Give and Take
Real and Fake
Stop and Flow
Know and Show
Mine and Fine
draw and line
eyes and cries
live and dies
good and evil
doom and hope
ying and yang

Four letter words simple and true
Are easy to use to desribe me and you

Today is a new day
A chance to start again
A dream can become a wish
A wish to become A vision
A vision to become reality

We must take the step
off the cliff of mistakes
to find out if we can fly
to heavenly happiness
or plummit into the hell
of our own existance...

Today I will dream,wish,and invision happiness...
1,2,3 deep breathe and.....step!

The night it welcomes me and wraps me in it arms
I have no reason to fear the night, with it's moons' aluring charm
The stars they do a dance for me along the midnight sky
And I lay back and watch the fireflies blink by

I hear the cricket's synphony
and it seems they play it just for me
I close my eyes for just a spell
and can't escape a tantilizing smell
Moon flowers my favorite
and you see, they bloom only at night
just like me.....

There once was a girl
that dreamed of a world
without such affliction
there was no addiction
A place safe to play
on a nice sunny day
No need to run in fear
no one was a stranger here

She had this world in her hand
gently she would hold it
But, one day she grew up
and reality broke it

Now she sees the scary faces
and smell the darkness of lonely places
She hold her little ones so dear
clinching them to her chest in fear

She watches with an eagle's eye
all the strangers passing by
As her little ones sit and play
unaware of the darkness that surges
through their world of innocent games...

There once was a girl who loved the world
now she is a woman....and things have changed
She has no faith in the stranger passing by
She knows there might be a wolf lurking inside.

The fire of life
a flame of passion
The love of a gift
is nature's attraction

A spirit in search
a soul that's in need
A heart that is scarred
by one's careless deed

A grasp for the light
while asleep in the night
A dream that can save you
from eternal twilight

A song that plays softly
within your head
The angel's face you see
while you lye in your bed

Tricks of the mind
when life is unkind
Embrace the unknown
perhaps the answers you'll find

Fickle fortress is her lair
A silent maiden is waiting there
don't misjudge her ,for heavens knows
She need no rescue, she comes from below

You waltz in sword in hand
ready to defend for your a galent young man
you realize not that , this is a trap
better back up,while you have the chance

The room is shaking
the spinning wheel turns
As sinners do
the maiden grins
She takes your hand
and drags you down
She takes all you have
Even your sound

Back to rest
she lays down
until another
fool comes around

You my angel of only two
no longer do you simply coo
For now you  have the love of song
and you love to sing it all day long
and you sing it so softly sweet
with your own timing and beat
twinkle, twinkle
your eyes beam bright
you reach for those stars
and their  twinkling light


How you love to sing
about those diamonds in the sky
and  if I could ,up we would fly
and pluck a star down
just to keep
to light your pillow as
you sleep

Sharing a song is such a good way
to tuck in the heart
and end a long day

The soul can not be tamed
it's fire can not be extinguished
It can be weakened
It can be hidden
It can not be stolen
but it can be given
Though it never truly departs
from were it began
Always it is searching
through the passages of man
Always absorbing knowledge
from the encounters of the heart
Always adding insight
to the unconscious mind
Never ending it's quest
to complete it's self

I wake up every morning
to see your smiling little faces
So free you speak of your dreams
never confined by social graces

Imagination one of your greatest friends
taking you places that I have once been
fairies and princesses, dragons and knights
You tell me your stories of happiness and fright

You make me remember my long ago friends
that only I could see ....they were oh so very special to me
You make me believe in miracles and magic and hope

You give me such a special gift
one only you can give
the gife of a youthful mind
for the magic is there and it's easy to find
You teach me what I once knew so well
That in our hearts is where the child dwells

I love the morning
when I wake from dreams of you
Wishing one day they could be true

I know this is just a waste of time
for you were never ment to be the rhythm
to my rhyme

And when we meet you are so kind
I wish we could leave time behind
Standing still, letting the world go by
For only a moment ...then a silent sigh

Then we meet again ,among my dreams
full of lovely blue and silver moonbeams
A night of peaceful company

Waking in the morning cherishing these visions
even if they are only illusions
Thinking of you and those lovely moonbeams
Living with the envy of dreams

He is of the ocean
so mighty and deep
I can not resist
be knocked off my feet

He is of the sun
so hot and so bright
He burns up my memory
with delicious insight

He is of the moon
tall, dark, and handsome
Lightning in his eyes
holds my heart for randsom

We are of the stars
for eternity we will shine
One day we shall blend
Becoming "One" so devine

I sit here alone in the dark
sitting here only with the light of the night
I wish not to argue or to start a fight
I pray only to leave this life
to take that magic flight
No one would notice
No one would care
The world would keep spinning
perhaps a little faster
my absence would not end the world
my leaving would not cause a  earthly disaster
why am I so different
fearing the life
unlike the rest
that fear the death

You complient me in away
I didn;t think  exist
Cover me with kisses
of friendship and bliss
You shattered my wall
my pilar of ice
and make me feel confortable
whening I;m rolling them dice
I dream of you in darkness
and meadows of light
I vison you in circles
like vultures of the night
You make me plunge so deeply
Into my morbid mind
that there is nothing left
but words that are to kind
You cleverly force a smile
when a snear is all I've known
You make me resist the urge to run
when the voices tell me go......

I feel an empty darkness
a hole within my heart
A missing piece
that has been torn right out
Why can't I heal myself
why can I move on
Before the heart I have left
blows up or falls apart

I hear the echos of past
they taunt my thoughts
with the pain they cast
Haunted by an unlasting love
my heart the house
My soul the home
so lost and all alone
The ghost in my heart
the unwelcomed guest
The love I have lost
an unconcored quest

The child in me still believes
in magic and fairytales

I daydream of a time
where love can concor all
and someone will catch us when we fall

I dream at night
of angels in flight
and the darkness is lighted
with a rainbow of sight

Oh, if life could only be
As wonderous as a child can see

I hold your little hand as you tell me of your day
so sweet, so innocent , so easy is your way

It makes me realize just how precious you are
Like a sweat dream , like a shooting star

So I hold you tightly, and kiss your sweet head
and sing you a lullaby as I carry you to bed.

Sweet dreams my little one with the ever growing spark
the inquiring innocence that tugs at my heart....

I find you in my dreams
a vision in black
not posessing anything
but my heart upon your hat
you laugh at me so foolishly
as I cry at your decline
You whisper "it will be alright"
An wipe the tears from my eyes

I ask why I can't not have you
why you push me away
yet you call me sunshine
and send the dark clouds away

You lift your glass to your lips
and take a pausing sip
You say" love comes in diminsions,  this an endless emotional trip"
You smile sheepishly and ******* a kiss
then you stand and say goodbye ending my night time bliss

I awake as always,longing to be yours
knowing only one thing to be true
My real world is empty without the essence of you

Take a leap of faith with me
dream a dream that's not ment to be
perhaps some magic will make it come true

Believe in things unseen
In voices unheard
Believe in a stranger
In powers unknown

Take a ride on my magic carpet
drink this drink that will make you shrink
eat a mushroom to make you larger than life
Open your eyes to the other side of the knife

Fear not the relms that this world holds
there are depths still untold
stories to be written
dreams to create
grasp your fear
and free your fate

Perhaps I am crazy
bordering insane
but I feel it on the wind
I hear it in your name
You were ment for so much more
such a magnificent mind to explore

Take my hand
don't be afraid
Let's leave together
we will find the way

The universe is calling
can you hear its voice
It;s telling us to come now
telling us we have a choice

We can be cattle
branded with our humanity
or we can be comets
burning through the galaxy

The choice is yours
I leave in your hands
If you chose not to come
I will understand
I will burn a sign for you
In night's darkness
I will write your name
among the stars
like I always promised.....

Go ahead... No one will notice
They will judge me.....They won't have a clue
A clue...That it was you
Go ahead make him pay.....I can't do it not today
Chicken ****....I am afraid
Then take out yourself....Thats awful to say
You can make it all go away....It would still linger, in my heart it would stay
He deserves it for treating you this way.....He does, your right! Today is the day
Feel better now?....No I feel worse
Your such a sap....I'm human, it' a curse
Soon your have the power of fame.....No love for life though, just a name
You can't have it all ,sometimes you much sacrafice.....His life and my heart , just for a little part

Not your heart you still have that.....What was the cost then? Tell me that!
Something more precious than gold....Heaven help me! you mean my soul!

Didn't you read the small print?.....I can't believe this lement
I've enjoyed this time we've spent...Will I ever see you again
Of course you will we're bond by sin......In the end?
Yes,I will come for you......when?
When? Why when you decend....Until then?

Love that sin....I change my mind!
You can't rewind....I been forsaken?
No mistaken....I don't know what to say
There's nothing more to say it's just the price you must pay....
I wish you never came...
but, I like the game....
My soul's to high of a price...
I know but's it my vice
Please let me go....
I can't even if I wanted it to be so..
There's no hope for me?....
Just enjoy it ,and pretend that your free...
But, I know in the end,where I must go....
Yes , forever with me in the fire down below...
I'm afraid, will it hurt to burn?....
I 'll be with you when it's your turn....
Promise?...
I won't let you down...
Love is cruel isn't it??...
It is my sweet,but just a bit...
How long do I have??...
I can't tell you that...
Until then....
I'll be waiting friend

My little man I understand
you can build a mighty track
and put to work those little trains
with names and faces
they'll go places
under bridges and over hills
hang on tight , don't slip those wheels
choo-choo you shout
your oh so thrilled
you've made a world all your own
setting up ever track and every stone
And now we go chugging along
and singing many trainy songs
How I love this simple time
watching you find yourself
in a world that you designed

You stand at one side and I another
an enormous ball, like no other
You smile at me , and my heart is up in flames
My body heat rises, like the lement of the insane
You grin at me, you know I'm yours
and strut across this endless floor
It seems forever before you reach me
taking my hand and my heart completely
I have no choice but to follow
to die with love, or to shrivel up hollow
You lead me to the center of the room
The music is loud , with haunting echos that boom
We dance in perfect rhythm as the hissing crowd watch
Engolfed in you, I care not the cost
To dance here with you always
that where I must stay
Unable to leave you, unable to stray
I knew you in life ,just as a friend
Now I am a part   of  you, in this dance that won't end
How come it was not like this when we lived and breathed
How did we come together in the dance of the deceased
I am glad your my partner....thou I am suprised
I hope I never wake up from the dream I've realized...

The angry ones
will change their tones
when the sun sets this day
For the moon will shine
blue light devine
to sooth the savage rage

In twlights hands
the hearts of man
and of beast alike
will come to dance
and with this chance
we will all unite

Laughter will echo
across the land
Spreading the joy
of this earthly band

We will owe it all to the night
To the dreams that take to flight
To the hopes that keep us young
To the love that makes us one....