I have walked a alonely path
feeling in the darkness
tripping and falling
and still I press on..

Searching for you
I fear not this night
I know in my heart
I will find you
when the time is right...

I hear the wolves howling
I sense the owl amoung the trees
I stop and twirl around me
and I fall unto my knees....

I reach up in the darkness
my fingers stretched up high
I pray that you come find me
For you are the holder of the sky...

You reach your fingers down to me
like sunbeams through the trees
warming my heart from within
I gratefully breath in life again....

I beg you not to leave me
to take your precious light
You tell me to follow you
and your guidance through the night...

I follow without hesitence
and you lead me to a clearing
I look ahead across the distance
and see a being gleaming...

You tell me not to fear him
he is a gift from you
to comfort and protect me
And, I will complete him too...

He walks towards me
as if he walked out of a dream
and, he looks upon me
as if I have done the same...

We hold each other
and the sunbeams brighten
For the "One" has granted us the gift
Of a soulmate to share this life.....

I watch you through my eyes of glass
A tempting sight from first glance
So innocent and gentle is your way
Nothing like you has ever come my way
You shimmer in the light of the shining sun
You and your friends having fun

I must be careful where I tread
my kind is not welcome or so I have read
I see you from behind the clouds playing silly games
I wish to feel this joy as I hide my steamy shame
my kind would disown me for visiting such a place
Yet I am drawn to you , your beauty and your grace
but I do not belong here and this I must face
If only for a moment I could catch you in flight
I would not hurt , or tarnish your golden wings of light
Just to gaze at you and for you to see me too
Not the creature I am but, what I would be for you
Then I would set you free
and perhaps become more than the monster I have been made to be....

The dawning of a new year
brings a rebirth of hope
For the feeling we can do anything
will surely help us cope

We should be grateful
for each and every new day
Try to be ambitious
To shield the fear away

Embrace the ones we love
and perhaps the ones we don't
Accept each soul for what it is
for change for us it won't

We all have a place
a precious part to play
we all need to feel love
and saved when we go astray

Let's make the most of this new year
Accepting one another with happy tears
Loving each other for the gifts that we are
and remember each one of us is a shining star

Crashed upon this deserted land
I stand alone ,no one , not hand in hand
I cry and cringe in a fetal rolled up ball
Wailing until there are no more tears to fall
Hurting,broken,left alone
no love, no life, no one to call my own
No friends , No family, just memories of the past
I cling to these with every breath, just trying to make them last

I wonder why I'm so unworthy, why they left me here to die
Was I such a bad person, was my everything a lie
I sometimes feel anger, sometimes feel sad
but most of the time , I feel numb, which in turn ,makes me feel bad

I think back to all those memories and realize one fatal truth
It was me who pushed away, locking myself in this silent booth
Opening up, sharing myself was just to hard a task
Now I'm left with nothing, but this worn out, ugly mask

So I deserve to be stuck here
To rot from my own fear
I crashed myself so recklessly into this sandy grave
Trying to get away from all the love they would have gave
So now it is so painfully visible to see
I am a prison unto myself on this Island called me

Autumn waltzing
Leaves are dancing
A scene of loveliness

The wind it blows
To free the souls
Intriguing the world


The moonlite night
It's whitish light
Illuminating

I will take a chance
and dance the dance
Maybe love will find me

Beware the serpent of ancient times
his tongue is tainted with inhuman lies
The promise of power and peace as he slithers,
gifts that he has no intent to deliver

Guard yourself from the bonding of all
for it will lead us to Eden's fall
A glimse into seven years of tribulation
When those of God will suffer segregation

Take no mark that they beseat you
Ignore the mind...the soul will stay true
Follow the word for the path lies within
Accept the love to banish the sin...............

The child in me still believes
in magic and fairytales

I daydream of a time
where love can concor all
and someone will catch us when we fall

I dream at night
of angels in flight
and the darkness is lighted
with a rainbow of sight

Oh, if life could only be
As wonderous as a child can see

A blanket of white
caresses the night
the tree gently a glow
lights softly dancing
on shimmering snow

The winter wind whistles
a sweet melody
as children lay down
to unleash their dreams

The snowman he smiles
the angels they wink
Heaven on earth
Just feel it , don't think

The magic is flowing
through every living soul
connecting the young
with the spirits of old

Embrace it
take it in , let it all come back
bring back the innocence
that as adults we all lack

Show your love
wear your heart on your sleeve
Forgive those who hurt you
Open your heart to believe
Your soul will do the rest
Hear the calling .....pass the test.

I tried to see the world as it is
Hiding my heart , as if to protect  it
But, no matter how I try
I can't seem to get these clouds out of my eyes
Maybe it's because I am a dreamer
Perhaps I was never ment to be a blue collar skemer
I live my happiest moments
in dreamy visions of tomorrow
Not realizing at the time
That now is passing right on by
Curse these reality illusions
That blends with now and then fuses
Leaving me in a state of warpness
Viewing real reality as rather hopeless
Choosing then and now
to live my life
with my heart on my sleeve
Clouds in my eyes
and wind in my sails
floating wherever
this life takes me
Wrapping myself
in the things that forsake me
Using them to warm my soul
against reality's cold wind blow
And as for love I'll take what I can
For love is the one true gift given
to mortal man

You complient me in away
I didn;t think  exist
Cover me with kisses
of friendship and bliss
You shattered my wall
my pilar of ice
and make me feel confortable
whening I;m rolling them dice
I dream of you in darkness
and meadows of light
I vison you in circles
like vultures of the night
You make me plunge so deeply
Into my morbid mind
that there is nothing left
but words that are to kind
You cleverly force a smile
when a snear is all I've known
You make me resist the urge to run
when the voices tell me go......

In the darkness I have stayed
while in the sunlight the children play
I keep my distance from the light
clinching my hands and my eyes closed tight
Afraid of the sun beaming bright
so vibrant and energetic and powerful against the night

And when the sun finally goes down
then I can be silly and  act like a clown
dancing in the livingroom
Singing in the rain
The moon and stars enchant me
their soft white light enhance me
I feel I am free
I guess I am just a creature of the night
Welcoming it's mystery until the morning light

I sit here alone in the dark
sitting here only with the light of the night
I wish not to argue or to start a fight
I pray only to leave this life
to take that magic flight
No one would notice
No one would care
The world would keep spinning
perhaps a little faster
my absence would not end the world
my leaving would not cause a  earthly disaster
why am I so different
fearing the life
unlike the rest
that fear the death

Down at the disco
some cool cats hang
so many faces
with so many names

There's Mighty Jack
guarding the door
Sass him to much
you'll be kissing the floor

Chris he'll serve you the best **** drink
then give you some advice
that will make you stop and think

Neva owns the dance floor
she's as sweet as pie
always blows you a kiss and a wink
when it's time to say goodbye

D rocks the jams
always keeps them hot
will make you get your groove back
if it's something  you ain't got

James he's the manager
keeping things cool as ice
He believes a good time
should not become a vice

You long for the stillness of the night
The wanting for me to hold you tight

Your blood it calls me from across town
Becking to come to you, in my blackest gown

I have warned you not to play this game
I know the ending far to well, and it's an awful shame
Yet you beg and cry and call
You know the risk and want the fall

Your windows open and I glide in
amoungt the fog of lovers sin
I lower my head to your pulsing neck
and then I give you just a simple peck

You want me to take you , to set you free
You do not understand eternal misery
There is no freedom in this you seek
You,who is to caring and, far to meek
You lack the savagery this existance requires

I smile sheepishly, as you cry in rejection
Sparing the grief of this eternal infection

I slink away leaving you to your life
Believing in the untrue
I never ment to hurt you
I would have like to stay
Draining you was wonderful
each and every unday.

I wonder what it will be like
when I am old and grey
It seems so distant
and yet I know it's not that far away
Will my children love me still
will they think I served them well
Will they treasure the childhood I gave to them
Or feel it was pure hell
Will they lock me in a nursing home
and let me die alone
Will I spend each early night
sitting by a silent phone
Is it possible my biggest thrill
will be a doctor's visit
I dred these thoughts
and yet they come to haunt me
I hope that life is good and sweet
I know I have but one chance
There is no big repeat
I hope I will leave the world
a little bit sweeter
I hope I can stay balenced
and not end in a teeder

I lay awake in the still of the night
While the crickets sing in the pale moon light
I remember how it used to be
When sleep would come so easily
I would drift upon a cloud so shimmery and white
I felt like an angel taking her first flight

That was before the clouds turned grey
Before my innocence was ripped away
And now the darkness fills my skies
With nightmares that trample my mind
Dark visions of anger and pain
Demented creatures lost and insane
Endless falling ,spinning out of control
Why can't I just let it go

Please God if you hear me grant me this gift
Peaceful dreams of a life well spent
Give me back my soul and take my hand
Please give  me back to dreamland

Each  day a new chance
Each song a new dance

Each wish I wish for you
Each spell I cast for you

Each dream I dream you
Each tear I cry for you

I wonder do I cross your mind
every single day
I wonder if I have ever crossed it
in a special way

Each day I hope
Each day I dream
Each day I sing
Each day I grin

Always when I think of you
the clouds seem to dismiss

Always you leave my mind
in a silly,rainbow bliss.....

The sun is trying to shine
to break through the dark day clouds
It's trying
Trying
Trying to strive
Yet those dark clouds keep clamping it down
Shine on bright one
You will win I know
Stronger than the world you are
Stronger than those clouds
It takes some time
sometimes
for they are oh so many
and you are just one lonely one
but, if you keep on shinning
You will overcome
And, if they hold you down
with the tears of their rain
Remember with your sunshine
a rainbow you can make....
Beautiful in color
a symbol of hope
symbol
hope
Just enough to light a path
light it
light the way to cope

How do you fight an enemy
that knows you inside out?
How do you crush that skull
and pull the bad parts out?
How do you stop its breathe
when it steals it from you?
How can you find happiness
when it only knows gloom?

How can you fight an enemy
when that enemy is you????

I love the morning
when I wake from dreams of you
Wishing one day they could be true

I know this is just a waste of time
for you were never ment to be the rhythm
to my rhyme

And when we meet you are so kind
I wish we could leave time behind
Standing still, letting the world go by
For only a moment ...then a silent sigh

Then we meet again ,among my dreams
full of lovely blue and silver moonbeams
A night of peaceful company

Waking in the morning cherishing these visions
even if they are only illusions
Thinking of you and those lovely moonbeams
Living with the envy of dreams

I find you in my dreams
a vision in black
not posessing anything
but my heart upon your hat
you laugh at me so foolishly
as I cry at your decline
You whisper "it will be alright"
An wipe the tears from my eyes

I ask why I can't not have you
why you push me away
yet you call me sunshine
and send the dark clouds away

You lift your glass to your lips
and take a pausing sip
You say" love comes in diminsions,  this an endless emotional trip"
You smile sheepishly and ******* a kiss
then you stand and say goodbye ending my night time bliss

I awake as always,longing to be yours
knowing only one thing to be true
My real world is empty without the essence of you

Love and Hate
Soul and Mate
Give and Take
Real and Fake
Stop and Flow
Know and Show
Mine and Fine
draw and line
eyes and cries
live and dies
good and evil
doom and hope
ying and yang

Four letter words simple and true
Are easy to use to desribe me and you

I feel an empty darkness
a hole within my heart
A missing piece
that has been torn right out
Why can't I heal myself
why can I move on
Before the heart I have left
blows up or falls apart

I hear the echos of past
they taunt my thoughts
with the pain they cast
Haunted by an unlasting love
my heart the house
My soul the home
so lost and all alone
The ghost in my heart
the unwelcomed guest
The love I have lost
an unconcored quest

I have always thought I walked alone
down lifes winding path
But, something has opened my eyes
and made me rethink the universal math

Why is it when I need someone
they always seem to know?
A phone call, a message,
just letting me know I'm not alone

What made that person reach out to me ,
just out of blue?
and then it dawns on me
the reason is you

You reach out in very subtle ways
to let us know your there
Something as simple as a need to call
to let someone know we care
It's actually you compelling us
putting the thought in our mind

I realize I am not alone
and that you,our creator is kind
Thank you for quencidences
for lightbulb thoughts,
and those near misses.

Thank you for synchronicities
Opening my mind and making me think
For opening my heart to your mysteries
Thank you for those lovely God Winks

Spining and swirling
I can't find my feet
Lost in a mind
detoured by defeat
I can't believe you beat me
I can't believe you won
For you the game is over
For me it's just begun
You walk away grinning
thinking your on top
but, this is where you're mistaken
I 'm not so easy forsaken
I will make a come back
just you wait and see
with a whirlpool of emotions
I'll shall **** you down
and giggle sheepishly as you slowly drown

The days and years they have gone so fast
I can not catch up, can not seem to grasp
And this ever growing urge to make time stand still
to keep you just the way you are pure and so secure

I want to keep you save, to always hold your hand
I know I can't keep you here and this I understand
It does not make it easier to be aware of this
I want to always have this special bonding bliss

I can't stop time
I can't keep you young
I can only hold you tight
Try to teach you wrong from right
Show you all the love I have
Cherish these moments
Be proud and be glad

I never knew the termoil ,that comes with raising young
Already I feel the pang of seperation and it has yet to have begun....

Hello old friend
it's been awhile
Good to hear your laugh
love to see that smile

Come and sit with me a spell
tell me everything or nothing
for it's all just as well

I have dreamed that you came to me
answering my wishes true
and in nightmares I ran away
so you could not see me blue

I have missed you
old dear friend
as if I lost myself
and now I have you once again
I hope this dream will never end

Take a stroll down any street
and this is what you'll find

The lonely , the lost , the misunderstood
It's a shame what the mind can ignore

Rarely eyes fall upon these lost souls
Sometimes they are people
who have lost thier way

Sometimes forgotten playgrounds
where the child once played

Sometimes old buildings
that hauntly echo
a once vibrant time

It is a shame that we can just leave
them all to rot
as we go on our merry way
making more memories
while these forgotten people,places, and things
just simply exist

Hard as nails
A man of steel
But ,under that outside shell
dwelled a heart as strong as well

He did not take any slack
He expected your best and that's a fact
But , he would always have your back
He helped the family become stronger
because of that

He would joke around the campfire's light
That notorious Mooga Mooga bird would take it's flight
We would all laugh , for he was a true delight
He was his softest on those campfire nights

My Uncle Denny , He was a good man
Never afraid to take a stand
Protecting us all each and everyday,
from people who would put us in harms way

My Uncle Denny, he sure could cook
One taste of his chili and you were hooked
His beef barley soup was truely devine
And his Barb-Q creations were one of a kind

He was a good man I say it again it's true
One of the best I ever knew
He will be missed more than I can say
We must celebrate life each and everyday
For I know in my heart he would want it that way.....

I am of the wind
my dark hair flowing
whirling and twirling
as the power is growing

I am of the moon
to tempt and to charm
to light up your darkness
as you lay in my arms

I am of the night
the starlight dwells in my eyes
make a good wish
you might get a suprise

I am the mystic
mystery my home
the darkness my blanket
my love
the unknown

The end it never really comes
one story folding into the next
Like the longest story ever told
with an ever changing plot
We each add a special twist
some pages are happy
some so sad
some of them are envy
while others are just mad
Some fill us with a joy that can not be measured
Others awaken us to life's simple pleasures
The pages keep adding , new ones each day
This is the flow of life, This is Infinity's way

It is good to be back
among old friends devine
To walk in the sun
with those that do shine
To taste again of poetic sins
in all of it's glorious blends
To feel it once more pulse
through my veins
And,realize ...I was not ment to be sane.

You head for the sun
head for the light
I linger behind
in the shadows of night

Your fearless and brave
I'm a lost , lonely slave

You say life is everything  you strive to make it
I say if life throws you a life line ,than you better take it

You are my life line, my saving grace
I know me saying that puts a smile on your face
For you admitting your not always strong
is as simple as singing along with a song
For me admitting I am wrong, and stubborn too
makes me feel lonely, bitter, and blue

So I walk with you now into the light
following the sun , beaming so bright
Leaving behind the cover of night
Holding your hand , and holding it tight

I think of you often
more often then not
And then become angry
for it torchures me alot
I know you think I'm kind
but, nothing more than that
I wonder why I'm content,
to gaze at you from the back
I will never be anything to you
but, a girl you have to know
I have so many feelings that I will never show
You are so refreshing though
Like an angel in my life
You make me feel good about myself
If only for a moments flight
I am happy that you know my name
and always give me my own smile
I wonder if you know at all
If you've known it all the while....

You look at me with innocent eyes
you know not what you see
You view me in a loving way
so new this is for me
You break my heart with a tear
and mend it with a smile
You make me chase you endlessly
but it's worth ever mile
I can't believe I  made you
so magnificent you are
I never loved so true
sometimes it almost hurts
I've never felt such happiness
it's seems at times I'll burst
I know now why my parents did
all things they did
I can't believe the joy that comes
from a simple word like kid

You stand at one side and I another
an enormous ball, like no other
You smile at me , and my heart is up in flames
My body heat rises, like the lement of the insane
You grin at me, you know I'm yours
and strut across this endless floor
It seems forever before you reach me
taking my hand and my heart completely
I have no choice but to follow
to die with love, or to shrivel up hollow
You lead me to the center of the room
The music is loud , with haunting echos that boom
We dance in perfect rhythm as the hissing crowd watch
Engolfed in you, I care not the cost
To dance here with you always
that where I must stay
Unable to leave you, unable to stray
I knew you in life ,just as a friend
Now I am a part   of  you, in this dance that won't end
How come it was not like this when we lived and breathed
How did we come together in the dance of the deceased
I am glad your my partner....thou I am suprised
I hope I never wake up from the dream I've realized...

I hold your little hand as you tell me of your day
so sweet, so innocent , so easy is your way

It makes me realize just how precious you are
Like a sweat dream , like a shooting star

So I hold you tightly, and kiss your sweet head
and sing you a lullaby as I carry you to bed.

Sweet dreams my little one with the ever growing spark
the inquiring innocence that tugs at my heart....

I don't know what to do with me
I don't know who I am
It seems that I have lost the me
The one who gave a ****
Sometimes I feel so hollow
like an emply mason jar
I try to be normal
But, it only goes so far
I wish I knew happiness
the kind that always last
it seem the only joy I know
come from a useless past
I want the pain to go away
I want to just breath in
Take the life I once enjoyed
even if I have to blow it out again
I wish I could find my soul
Where could it have gone
I need it back so I can find my missing heart song
I need that glow to light my way
and lead me through the night
Put it in my mason jar and ***** that lid on tight

Take a journey if you dare
of passions and thrills beyond compare
You'll see visions cold as ice
and feel the fire but, for a price

We make the best drinks ,your mouth has ever posessed
we make them with care and a little tenderness
They'll knock you off your feet, that for certain
Preparing your mind for whats behind the curtain

We show you all the tricks for living a happy life
maybe you'll be lucky and win the door prize
You'll return home a brand new man
less your essence but, this we need you understand

So come on down,don't be shy, live the life you were born to die
We grant wishes, influience dreams, make it happen,that's one of our schemes

You'll never ask for a thing again , posessing it all to your hearts content..... One warning of caution I must pass on.....Heaven doesn't take anyone who's answered the curtains call....So watch your step it's a hell of drop....Enjoy the show....just close your eyes and.........FALL

I've always been told
monsters don't exist
I know this is a lie
I see it in the eyes
I felt in the fist

I know what evil looks like
just like you and me
I see it in the mirror
looking back at me
I hear it's furious roar
When the yells are freed

It lurks just beneath the surface
waiting to pouce
Draining our humanity
devoring every ounce

I have come to realize
So painful to see
Those monsters do exist
They exist in you and me.....

The angry ones
will change their tones
when the sun sets this day
For the moon will shine
blue light devine
to sooth the savage rage

In twlights hands
the hearts of man
and of beast alike
will come to dance
and with this chance
we will all unite

Laughter will echo
across the land
Spreading the joy
of this earthly band

We will owe it all to the night
To the dreams that take to flight
To the hopes that keep us young
To the love that makes us one....

I wish I ...could show you ..how I feel...
I wish that you ...would know that ....it's real....
I wish that I... could hold you.. forever....
But wishes are like dreams
they soon fade away.
when the morning...
kisses the day...

I wish  I...could be ...the hero...
that you wanted....
I wish  I....could be... the warrior...
that you ....dream
But, I am half...
maybe less..
of what you need....

I wish for every happiness... to bestow you...
I wish for love.. to find you...and hold you..
But, wishes are likes dreams...
they soon fade away ....
when the morning.... kisses
the day....

She was the one who shielded me from the cruelness of the world
Taught me how to howl and leap at the dangers that are hurled

She was there on all those sleepless nights
And,we would stay up talking until the mornings light
I learn to be the Alpha ,though she was always Beta
She would shy from confertation, I have learn to bite its throat
And, then sweet victory, I savor.

I also learned down in my heart ,if I must ,I can make it alone
the lone wolf on her own trail,howling at the moon ,never tucking her tail

I want to say thank you for all that you are
And, How I miss those midnight talks , now away we are,so far
But, think of me as I know you do, before you lay to sleep
Look up at that moon and give it a howl, a long one strong and deep
And, I promise Mom, that I will to, give a howl furious
Together always in our hearts.....Now that is Love Victorious!

The world is full of people
who search for eternal youth
Buying into lies
to avoid the ultimate truth
But, I have my own little secret
and it's kept within my heart
a picture book of memories
more precious , and with dignity
than any expensive vanity
You see it is simplicity

For when I speak to you
it takes me back in time
to the me I once knew
A little girl with dreams
and precious schemes
Someone who could
do anything
be anyone
lived her life just for fun
A life that had yet begun

When I give you a gentle embrace
All over again I see that little face
And remember all the good times
I even remember my very first rythm
I can't believe how fast time flies
and now I have my own little ones
with those big dreams in their eyes
And I share with them the fairytales
That you passed on to me

Thank you for the memories
and life lessons learned
Thank you for keeping me young
For saving the little girl
carefully in your heart
For walking with me down life's trail
For always loving me
through trimph or fail...

Happy Birthday Dad!!!!

My little man I understand
you can build a mighty track
and put to work those little trains
with names and faces
they'll go places
under bridges and over hills
hang on tight , don't slip those wheels
choo-choo you shout
your oh so thrilled
you've made a world all your own
setting up ever track and every stone
And now we go chugging along
and singing many trainy songs
How I love this simple time
watching you find yourself
in a world that you designed

The night it welcomes me and wraps me in it arms
I have no reason to fear the night, with it's moons' aluring charm
The stars they do a dance for me along the midnight sky
And I lay back and watch the fireflies blink by

I hear the cricket's synphony
and it seems they play it just for me
I close my eyes for just a spell
and can't escape a tantilizing smell
Moon flowers my favorite
and you see, they bloom only at night
just like me.....

He is of the ocean
so mighty and deep
I can not resist
be knocked off my feet

He is of the sun
so hot and so bright
He burns up my memory
with delicious insight

He is of the moon
tall, dark, and handsome
Lightning in his eyes
holds my heart for randsom

We are of the stars
for eternity we will shine
One day we shall blend
Becoming "One" so devine

The Lady with long jagged digits
that bend so strangely when she fidgets
beacons me to come and play
a game of self involved rage

The man with the gentle hand
who can not seem to understand
why I cry for smiling faces
and laugh with those obsessed mind races

Stress induced land of OZ
no reds shoes to click me home
so on I spin without a cause
Twisting,twirling, fighting alone

They yell for more of my soul
I shall not repent
For the time they feel so ill spent

I dance alone within the rain
while the rest think I am Insane
I throw my head back
and give out a howl
To hell with the vultures
That wait for my fall
To hell with their sanity
the spirit it robs
To hell with their visions
To hell with them all

You love the heat of the morning sun
as it shines within the window
I would rather cover my face
and await for the shadows return

You enjoy the brightness of every light
in the house on display
I would rather burn a million candles
illuminating the walls as we play

You beg me, please just leave
one light burning bright
unlike me it seems you see
in the darkness things that give you fright

It  is so silly to me
But I grant you this wish
A night light shining bright
A kiss to tuck you in safe and sound
and a sign thats says
"Please, Don't turn of the lights..."

It happened one day
and it happened this way
The space in time
where a dream and a rhyme
They some how combined
Blending and flowing
sparking and glowing
creating  a creature
with mystical features
With the ability to rhyme
to tell a story and keep in time
to see the world with kaldoscope eyes
To tell of it's secrets and darkest of lies
To speak softly of the sweeter  things
The flow of the trees , and the bird as it sings
A breed that blended among the others
For they too could be fathers and mothers
Brought here to enlighten the earth
This is the story of the poet's birth.....