My dream became my other world so real or is this fake
I dreamt of many crazy things like floating in a lake
i must be mads cos I dont swim and sink just like a brick
my dreams are more reality than I could ever think

I pinched myself so I could see the difference from the two
but would I really tell apart the dreaming from the truth
time will tell when one does wain and all becomes a blurr
the dreaming and reality ..I concur

could see the shadow from the corner of my eye
see them standing waiting by
could feel their presence wanting me
see there coldness needing me

could feel their looks just staring out
see their blood all red and loud
could feel their noise all over me
see their touch out grabbing me

from the corner of my eye i waited standing by
a shudder from way down low
a feeling time to go
a breath not taken yet from the smell of deadend flesh

as i blinked i gave a cry
a feeling deep inside
a time to look away
from the corner of my eye

I hear the voices in my head ..they tell me tales
tales not read
I feel a blackness over me.. the voices calling
set them free
strange the madness ..i feel great ..
no more worries ...no more hate

feel a wildness in my eyes ..see the stranger star.be skyed
am i crazy is that bad
feel the blackness feel the mad

set me free from all these things let me love and live again
calm the sound thats so within ..free the soul
let life begin

The crows nests stood i saw them there proud and loud standing bare ,it was some sight to see no leaves just full of twigs from many trees ,yet daunting was that sight behold of many twigs formed in mold.those trees did state a ghostly feel that scrapped and scratched your mind betold

I saw his shadow and warmed at his smile
my dad my mate my soul plus one
he never ever saw me other than his son
faultless little bundle from heaven maybe hell
saw him sat beside me wanted
wishing me was here wanting so to call him brought me to a tear

Can hear his voice so sweetly ...laughing so out loud
remembering all those good times
scarborough sounds about
yet there I was this daytime looking over there
seeing daddys shadow sitting the chair ..made me sad and happy
that thoughts I knew he had
son just be ones happy ...
dont worry im alright

did i win? ,was i rich ?,damm them numbers ..nought came in
bet my soul ,didna save my skin ,still i lost win no win
so its dosh ,cash less me but im not poor with family
heard success is raising the bar ...bar of life or bar of strife

I have the best ,family life with health and child.. and ...what a wife
so when its measured in jobs and work ,forget that charge its love to shine .....
who will be there at your death ?,your boss who you worked for blood and sweat ??
your wife and kids and family grief ..they will cry and need relief
so when success is in your hand ...feed the love and understand
family first and all to follow,money aint success just sorrow

Dance all to the moonlight
Dance before the moon
Dance before the daylight
To a fairy dusted plume

Dance all to the star bright
Dance before the stars
Dance before the sunrise
To a sugar coating light

Dance into the dark night
Dance before the light
Dance before the daybreak
To a vampire crazy life

Vampire crazy
Life is for the blood
Vampire lazy
Plasma in the hood
Vampire crazy
Dinner night time treats
Vampire lazy
Darkness I retreat

Feel the moon fall away
As the lightness of day
Stretches over and over
the dark

As a new day begins
So my sleep must come in
As I smolder a sunlight
away
Until I see dark then we must do
All part
Till we dance to the moonlight
Nights day
Dance to the vampire's way

Dance if you wanna.. dance the night away
dress like ya mean it.. dance the night away
boogy on the boogy ..day and day after day

dance dance dance
feeling so so right
boogie boogie woogie
dancing to the right

sing like a superstar ...driving in ya car
sing to the beat ...tapping down your street
hum hum didi dum ..words dont know the means
but dance if ya wanna ..dance the night away

dance dance dance
feeling so so right
boogie boogie woogie
dancing to the right

dressing ike ya dad ..laughing on the beer
not like ya lad ..cool and pierced his ear
hat ..not cap you say ..cos that aint right round here
but dance if ya wanna ...dance the night away

dance dance dance
feeling so so right
boogie boogie woogie
dancing to the right

dance .....dance .....dance !!!

Laying here on my death of bed
a thought just came to me
what if I could start again
a new life ...life for free

I just dont know where my past has gone
so come tomorrow I'll have some fun
for let today become
to a present lost in yesterday's yesterday

for tonight I'm gonna rock the night away
see the light see the day
beer in my head
a fuzz all around
time to go boogy sing to the sound

rock the night away
sing to the sound
rock the night away
dance out loud

breath that felt so deep as darkened in my soul
a cloud that felt so black a sight could not be held
a feeling of the hate and anger deep within
this battle aint yet over a war is set begin

how can you feel so inner yet show the world your cold
a heat that burns the fire that eats you ....
brave the bold
  
one chance into the fight we go
no option give you in
sharpen all your steely might a war we can do win

here is a darkeness i cannot hide
a fear about to colide
a worry thats eatin me
my darkness its so in me

Can feel it in my bones
its drooling of holding home
I can taste it when I breath
taste the darkness thats feeding me

I look and see it there awaiting and not a care
It wants me ..wants me now
The darkness about in devour
my soul repels yet darkness holds
down and down I fall

Dawn Chorus

I know they are ready
Yet the deadly silence waves at me
In my head the noise
Creeping around my body
I'm Awake

Blowing at the tree I see them
A dawn to come
A scratch to reap
Down my back in madness
I scream of silence
I'm Awake

Sing to me little bird
Bring my smile
For now I am ready
To live ...for a while
To dawn my sadness
I'm Awake

And so be it
One more day to fear
Notching away on wood
Sing my song little bird
Sing my song
I'm Awake

wakin is not death but a death of life awake

death is the end life is the begining
yet its all the same
water is not made
life is not created
money has no value

one day age will be old and you will be past
young will mock the life you once had
working for nought to pay the debt
my mind in collapse

As eyes close.... my mind opens to a
thousand pictures
Flashes faces pain and grief
Thoughts of times long ago
seem so real I pleads
Sleep evades ..the visions flourish
Mind instilled another life
Real against reality as heart beats
to deathless sleep

dementia

I fear my mind it slips away
a fear of fear a fade away
its started now and scares me bad
my mind is slipping am i mad

No telling time as I forget
what day it is what place I'm at
to finish what I start
my memory gone
a frazzled heart

I see it in their eyes
that look of care yet hope no lies
a tear does form i know not why
my mind is gone
why did I cry ......

Oh jeez I know yor there
ya fighting me a war in here
I know your in my head
depressing your the best

Can feel you on my shoulders
just waiting for the lull
when smiles do fade to whiskey
I know you'll have ya fill

But this time I'm all ready
no pills no down the line
I'm coming out a fighting
and winning is my time

I've had enough of sorrow sad
that look from other folk
me head is standing up and right
no looking down no joke

Depressing that your leaving here
but we all know your game
you'll wait for disappointment
your wait will be in vain

As I breath I feel it
Stirring that
Pain
Inside has started churning
Chest feels weak as I
draw breath............
Fighting for a living death

Pops of anger shoot my veins
Coursing
Looking
Gaining aim
Fingers
Toes and god knows where
Pain does cometh
With its fear

Hold my breath its gone away
No
No
No ..to soon to say
It's spreads inside yet I cant stop it
Eating, living
Feeding ,dying

Bide my time as death
comes calling
No more pain and no more crying
Feel that itch is this
the time
Breath so short so
In decline

Time did call and float I did
Saw a world that I not lived
No more pain this freedom waits
At his doors a knock
I gave

Welcome arms from someone
strong
Welcome to a world of
Love
Welcome to a world of
Peace
Welcome to your
Destiny

Do I really do it ?..Do i stop right there?
stop the fight for freedom..
do I really care ?
Is it time to let it go ?do I give in now?
has my time gone past me ?
even at this hour?

The path closed as i started to run
even as my life begun
I wasted chances that no -one saw
I must be mad they all deplored
oh so well its time to see ..put me feet up
breath the deep

So in i am some place like hell
purgatory for my cell
yes its my fault so they say
devil works his mysterious ways

I felt so tired ..i needed sleep
a wave ..a calm called in on me
was then that i saw some horror
my death my find my body soured

I saw them there ..the finders breath
they called my wife to give the death
I saw my love console our son
a shock a heart.. completly gone

I saw my body just took away
what a waste an end of days
it scared my soul it scared my head
i didnt sleep.. how did you guess

Inside I'm breaking up
I've given all I am
I' fed up of the lies and cheats
don't wanna kick the can

This world is all corrupt inside
unless your in the know
A symbol of the life we lead
controlling is the flow

They talk as if we love their hear
but we already know
They talk to us invoke the fear
and hope that we all go

Our leaders of this old new world
in doom our soon despair
One day the few will laugh at
us
The fools we all do know    

Disgrace the human race

I can see you see me too
In a view
Hidden from that look
of you

This sight before my eye
Pure beauty in a sparkled light
A smile that broke my heart
to pieces

Scattered fell a love
Restarted
I'm in my mind our love
Not parted

I knew it from the start
That look
In love
My glazed gone vision

I've always thought it true
you are the one .......
The true
Divination

Through the depths my mind still wanders ...fighting facing hell on life .feel the burden that all do ponder wondering??? what is point ??...what is the point ?? a smile ,a laugh or tears of sorrow ,feelings so numb that none do care is this the life we fear ......i fear

Through the depths my mind still wanders
Fighting
Facing hell on life
Feel the burden that all do ponder
Wondering?
What is the point ??..
What is the point ??
A smile
A laugh or tears of sorrow
Feelings so numb that none do care
Is this the life we fear
......i fear

the boy that dreamed a dream
a futures life of dollar and cream
his thoughts were of good on this earth
no nasties lurking.. snakes unfurled

as teens took on toll.. the mighty hormones
kicked thus rebelled
yet dream was still right.. get in there
a futures bright light shone so in there l

twentys came and did fly and now his 30s dream decline
its still inside to see ..his dream of legends and the cream
infamous for family and few the boy no more
just part of the crew

in forty he worked hard to keep his family
dont fall apart
his dream of the cream was still there but now quite faded
his despair

when fifty he looked so much old
the work had taken him
ill heath unfold
and what was left of his dream
gone away ..ditch the cream

but what did he gain for his loss
love and family..freinds he could trust
his dream was of big and all knew
yet he had more
as family grew

Most of us just never will know when him up there decides hello
but some do plan for when its near ,no sky to see just many tears
no kids to cry get out the way or christmas cards or big birthday
to want to know or be it told must be bad for all who old
Yet strength ive read in someones sorrow they live today and not for morro
for plan they do as body tires a brave young lady a real fighter

I wish her peace and family strength the bravest thing ive heard in a long time Donna is 17 and has a rare form of cancer and has planned her own funeral Bless you donna and all your family

Into the black ...into the night
the door of death appeared ..no given fright
so sudden and so quiet
its ready for your soul
so sleep a little tighter as the devil takes it goal

Into the black... into the night
the door of death awaits you so give in..goes the fight
no pain or sudden anguish
no body to give fight
its time to take your place in hell thus join the chains of harm

For me there is no worry for waiting list is long
I'll be another 70 years before i come along
by then you'll be a master of chains around your neck
a weight upon your shoulders a well you should expect

The day creeps nearer
the date is calling
my heart still beats a beats thats fallin
time to find the truth no dare
time to live a life ..no beer

ten days so long yet even closer
to find my fate ..win or looser
no job ,no cash ,no way of knowing
fates new blow ..stay ..or going

I know that folk will laugh and fear
once my comeuppance for all those years
so time to duck and dive some more
time to fight them from the doors

being down but still not out
I'll fight that fight and beat them all
staying stong and living on
thats the plan ..what could go wrong ?

My hands doth hold the key to time
yet cannot stop the grains that fly
waiting ,hoping wanting more
feeling life ... so insecure

changed my life and changed my ways yet still out searchin
better days

dreaded is that first day back and so the dreaded time attacks
tomoro comes another day and so the dreaded falls away
Time to love what we so have and throw the dreaded
in the sack

I dream a new tomorrow
A dream from yesterday
I dream no more this madness
My dream so far away

Dreaming of the sunshine lover!!!!!
dreaming through the day
one day I'll dream its better never!!!!!!!
dream another day

I wish my dreams were real
So I could hold his hand
I wish my dream come true
Say mum I love you too

Dreaming of the sunshine lover!!!!!
dreaming through the day
one day I'll dream its better never!!!!!!!
dream another day

I dream just tears of smiles
All pain is gone away
I dream of money heaven
My debt stuck at the gate

Dreaming of the sunshine lover!!!!!
dreaming through the day
one day I'll dream its better never!!!!!!!
dream another day


I wish that I had that one more chance
To change the way I've been
I wish true peace for everyone
Not just for you and me

Dreaming of the sunshine lover!!!!!
dreaming through the day
one day I'll dream its better never!!!!!!!
dreams dont go away!!!!!!

I dreamed a dream of many dreams a dream that said so much
I dreamed of peace and freindliness I knew I dreamed in dutch
I dreamt of love and fairys flying or maybe thats to butch
but I dont care cos I did dream of mum and dad above

dreams untold about to fold
dreams of hugs and love to hold
dreams of kisses and lips so touched
love and hope and wanton touch

I had a dream the other day
my dad did visit and smiled his way
my mum just moaned cos thats her way
but dont be bothered
cos i wouldn .....want it.... any.... other way !!!!

shadows cast into clouds of sand as footprints leave their mark
voices so full of fun with not a care in this world
summer sun washed over by the crash of thunder
the sea shouting against the shells to your ears

blue whispery skies feed warmness to the skin
as weeks of a worklife pass to say goodbye
ice cream melted to cheeks as tissue lips from a nan
feed a childs cry
this is what we live for in a world so left behind

donuts sugared a thirst as sticky fingers lay ******
fish from an ocean battered or fried to the best ive ever noshed
sounds of the beach washed over me as grandads snores a snort ..
too much lunchtime pie i guess ..deserving resort
dreams of a past ...dreams of another

football played and dogs all wet scenes from a beach
alive still ...kids gone red
searing sizzles from a sun at its best as rounders run
or frisbee fetched
photo taken a collection booth ..memories made as dreams come true
dreams of a summer
dreams of a summer

I wake from night still tasting evening
wine and pasta filled my soul
head throbbing from nectars gold
wishing never ever again

down a bottle yet want no more
until the thirst become the norm
tastes of a golden apple ...more more more

want water yet golden wine takes my breath take my life
life of torture life of famine
life of thirsting life in decline

out the frigde and in me gob
taste of wine it feels so good
down the hatch and in me tum
now im ****** and need sum grub

feel it slip so down my throat that taste of heaven
burning so
taste that summer so long ago burning heating
body glow
feelin drunk yet only tiddled
soon be drunk and really piggled

attention !!!attention !!!
stand up and right
the soldiers protection
through the night

every minute on...
every day here
they stand to right us
thankless fear ..
no food nor water pass their lips
nor never moving
stiff the upper ....R.I.P

Through snow or rain
pouring same
they keep on guard
never sway
in heat of fog  
stand so strong
yet we forget them
sometimes wrong

some are old and gone the words
yet still they stand and guard us verse
the churchyard soldiers past to terse
without them here
there'd be no us  
no memories of our families past
the soldiers of our life
Du Hast !!!

why does my shadow.. seem darker today
was it the weather ...sunny maybe grey
why did i feel that rain was tipping down
yet when i looked up.. blue skies all around

why did my mood ...swing from left to right
mabye im sorry for all what said last night
maybe im just sad... that all around seems dull
maybe the light has gone for good ..who knows

time i woke and breathed fresh air
time to put things right
time to plant some flowers and watch them grow ..thats right
time to raise ones eyebrow and crack a smile or too
time for new begining ...
join me be my crew