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andy fardell May 2013
The bitter pill has a taste like no
Other
The sweet allure of wanting
Can hide all but the strongest of
Will
Yet we all know that in the end
Life
Does not bed on roses
Life
Does not play your game of cards
Life
Has no understanding
No thought for your breaking heart
The taste remains
Bitter  
Sour
Wrong

I no longer need this victim
My life no longer wants
I'm happy as I live here
The taste has all but gone

However in the end
We all know the pill remains
Waiting
Needing
Being
A friend
Until the
end
andy fardell Feb 2011
Bang!!! ...thats how it feels to wake up from the black
thats how we stire from beyond ..thats how we live in this world
Bang the black is near ..it shivers my fear ...
Bang!!!
now im scared
andy fardell Jun 2011
As I lay there at the break of dawn a chorus fills my ears
blackbirds sing their heart a din that some might really fear
yet in my heart I feel the break that nature has begun
the dawning of a new life a day about begun

a sound so rich it warmed my soul was music to my ears
so sweet so loving everyday it warmed me to near tears
do we ever get the chance to feel the sound we love
a song so rich yet never read a blacbirds voice from god
andy fardell Dec 2013
I can feel the blackness coming
My Christmas ghost of past
Fake smiles all gone
I had it
No laughter
Gone the blast

No presents for a tree not cut
Or dinner for no guests
A lonely morning wakes for me
Just like it
All the rest

I wonder could I be more down
Would money make me laugh
Baa humbug to the happy crowd
A bottle comes
My drowning friend

And in my haze I call my mind
From times so long in past
When we all sat and laughed a lot
sang hymns from long ago
When we all wrote how good we'd been
The sack lay at our beds
The opening of the 4am
Woke parents from those zzzz's

This Christmas day my head all high
On smells from dinners feast
A place so full of papers ripped
No carpet at our feet
When grandad came with so much more we wooed
At grandmas smile
A time when all the family called
That was my Christmas smile

Now here I lay in bed I stay
My head been on the rocks
The house is
cold
All lonely now
The candles fizzed away
No cards just
dust
My memories
bust
It's just another day
andy fardell Feb 2012
The white snow turned to black
my heart pained
no! no! no! no !..heart attack
no! no! no! no !..heart attack

the feeling inside was all to see
put out this fire ....look at me
my mind was lost into the black
no look
no!no!no!no!.. heart attack

put out to sea set sail to sink
another soul lost out to drink
red eyes in view no looking back
no look
no! no! no! no!..heart attack

Remember Jim? not many do...
one day all will stay unglued
a stone unloved.. a crayoned name
times like this time nothing changed  

no looking back no time to fear
no ! no ! no ! no ! heart attack
no ! no ! no ! no ! heart attack
andy fardell Feb 2012
a world I can not live without in a world where only madness doubt
money make us mad and bad it calls us to the cause in fools we fight
for food and peace is what we aim yet fighting killing take the blame
when will all this terror stop as children die as oil drops

the few that rule us tell us yes we have to do it for the best
but where is debt if banks burned down ?
manufactured ...whos the clown?

we still dont get it dont we just.. we fight and give our daily blood
for bankers bonus and churches gold or arabs oil that few can hold

the blinded lead the blind ..as a sadness few so see the real time
explore the new with eyes wide open until they crush no word be spoken
the paper rules as passport show there is no hiding in this hell

be born into this world ..as we all are ...naked free no battle scars
dont let them tell you its for the best ..you have no choice the book is read
you think of freedom is in your grasp i hate to tell you never had ..
a shame is where we all are now
the rich get richer pull the cow ..
andy fardell May 2011
a blackend cloud on a darkend day blow wind blow this gloom away
feel the cloud touching out feel its power feel its clout
cotton candy so they look yet pure danger evils touch

blow wind blow my thoughts away leave me clean for today
give my soul some peace for once give it feedom give it love
charge my mind with happy days fight the fire damp the blaze

clean me out so i can see ..see a future ,happy free
andy fardell Dec 2012
A blackened cloud on a
darkened day
Blow wind blow
This gloom away

Feel the clouds
touching out
Feel It's power
Feel It's clout

Cotton candy in
above
Yet pure danger
This evil touch

Blow wind blow
My thoughts away
Leave me clean go away

Give my soul some peace
Give It freedom
Give release

Charge my mind with happy days
Fight the fire
Damp the blaze

Clean me out
So I can see
See a future
Happy
Free
andy fardell May 2013
Can feel the pressure
This place my harm
No words of pleasure
No thought's of calm
The change in pace does nothing
Right
I feel my boil
I feel the fight

They stare a look
My head betrays
This bubble burst
My crested wave
In deeper breath yet still I'm
Red
This clenching fist
The raging edge  

A time full tick
The wait continues
Shout my number
Free this wheel
Shout my name please give me
Hope
Let me out this place
My hell
andy fardell Feb 2011
I slept today and fed away
my love of life and all its strife ..I thought id had it
but then I woke ..and life became a whole new scope
I,d drown in water.. be blown away
life expelled ..no new day
did shake my heart when I awoke that life still lived a breath ..no hold
jut laid in bed ..heart a beatin .waiting ,thinking was I dreamin
andy fardell Dec 2012
The sky shone of a morning song
Colour's that showed earths delight
Red and yellows be
Sky's inferno
Born a new day of delight

Fresh is the air that waits
for all to breath
Cleansed by darkness
Fazed by dreams
Dreamy eyes awaken
to unknown

Woken from a deepened lull
Woken into mornings glow
Woken from a place
called home

Sky so wanted
So i could see
A mornings glow
A love complete

Look up high as stars
do fade
See inferno
See the blaze
bow to the birth  
A day on planet earth
andy fardell Oct 2011
born to run- away so fast coming at me -no way past
need for speed - no delay - time to run -run away
feel the heat upon my back -time to run -run so fast
nearly touching -feel the fire -on my back -no desire

out in the open -away for good -run away -away at last
breathing fresh- as all is fire -run away - free from past
fields of freedom - run so fast -away from trouble -run the blast
born to run away from hurt into the open sun does burst
andy fardell Apr 2013
This blur held me
As dust fell upon dust
The speeding devil
A race upon not won

A corners cut
From a crosses held
The end a must
A drivers tale

This leadened foot
I know so well
Can only lead
Forgotten tale

This is the end
The crash foretells
A marriage broken
The in
Exhaled
andy fardell Apr 2012
I can feel you breath
breath on my skin
it sends a shiver
Lovers grin

To know you near me
as dawn awakes
My lovers here
no mistake

I feel your breath
upon my skin
so warm and sweet
a tender grin

To have you close
and in my arms
My heart beats faster
Loves a charm

Ive loved you years
but rarely say
I love you darling
every day **
andy fardell Apr 2013
This blur held me
As dust fell upon dust
The speeding devil
A race upon not won

A corners cut
From a crosses held
The end a must
A drivers tale

This leadened foot
I know so well
Can only lead
Forgotten tale

This is the end
The crash foretells
A marriage broken
The in
Exhaled
andy fardell Dec 2024
The headaches became a scream
Gnawing at my innards
Washing out my soul
Enjoying the taste

My heart is fading
I can feel it's quell
Slowly dripping away
Cooling this skin to a chilling end

And out I stare
Wanting the more
To end it wrong now
Breath in taste the fear

Breath in taste the fear
Seal up beat my heart
Breath in taste the fear
Don't break my heart
andy fardell Feb 2011
I woke as the breath caught me ..waking me so suddenly
death was calling but i declined and drew some more
i could feel it wanting wasting me that breath so near so far we see
dreams came and washed away yet deaths dire breath still held over
its face so close yet none could see the final day it died away
andy fardell Nov 2011
step outside to realise your future snapped in two
a crash to harm those round us ....
fear the quiet ....join the queue
noises from a picture tells silence dreaded all
the dawn of horrors about to be born

No view to hide nor stay the sudden harm
cries so needing so wishing .....
all really was calm
yet darkness taketh angels
as devils plays outside

Heaven gain a few more
their ride a final time
andy fardell Nov 2011
Can you feel the shadows
can you feel their pain
silent from the onset
scared to look again

knowing that they follow you
wishing they would go
haunted by the memories
from a time let go

Can you feel the shadow
its ready will you fall
ready darkened places
taken ...coldness claw

follow what you feel is right
let em fade away
step into a better world
darkness taken..brighter day
andy fardell Nov 2011
the death inside me still craves another fight
as my blood keeps feeding a feeling all aint right
veins pop as blood begins to boil
death inside me ready for the fight

eyes that start thus glowing
madness seen the light
death awakens screaming
somewhat some delight

body fighting..fingers tingle through
nearly ready..ready but are you
stretched and fully working
timing all is right
crave a new begining
bring it on alright
andy fardell Jul 2020
Be I brittle tonight
simple
sad
this lonely

Be I crackled tonight
edgy
Quiet
This tired

Be I me tonight
Waiting
Wanting
This lying

Brittle and cold
Cometh ready to snap
Branches of old
I fight thee
andy fardell May 2013
See I knew it
I'd read the score
When she looked back
My love's amore

When she looked back
My heart fell out
One love one way
There is no doubt

I should have listened
Learned the rules
Played the pirate
Played the fool

But like a fish in the ocean
I'd never learn
The baited hook
The wriggly worm

See it was the eyes
That won me over
A grey of green resist
Did send a shiver to my heart
The falling of the cliff

Oh how I wish that she would stop
Please please come back this way
Don't look round and walk the walk
I love you babe please stay

3 weeks have passed
My heart still waits her  
Wishing for the key to lock
I think she's gone
I think she's left me
Shipwrecked in the land forgot  

Will I listen
Will I learn
I doubt my feelings  
I doubt  my heart
For all that we do take on board
Won't educate this broken heart
andy fardell Sep 2012
Where is my head cos its gone out of here
It went for a ride on bus 79
Where did it go?
What did it see?
The bus 79.... is free
The bus 79 yippee
On bus 79 you'll see

Lets go for a ride on bus 79
Lets go to the ocean for tea
Lets hop on along and sing a great song
On bus 79 we'll be  
On bus 79 we'll be
On bus 79 yippee  

You bring uncle Harrold and auntie Mc Barrell
Fish supper for us by the sea
The bus 79
We'll sing all divine
We'll sing for our supper
You'll see
We'll sing for our supper
You'll see

Lets go for a ride on bus 79
Lets go to the ocean for tea
Lets hop on along and sing a great song
On bus 79 we'll be  
On bus 79 we'll be
On bus 79 yippee  

Tis getting quite late as sun hits the waves
Is time for the bus to go home
The bus 79
We had a good time
Lets sing till we can no more
Lets sing a good song
Come join in the fun
On bus 79 to your door
On bus 79 to your door
andy fardell Oct 2011
wings flapped in air not seen
as beauty desended upon the earth
green and white all golden in light
the butterfly flew

a gasp of breath did i request
as flight did show ...some god we know
a beauty sight.. in pure flight
a sign of life that had me cry

butter ...fly into the light
as I hang sight such wondeous delight
delicate wonders in such a world of hate and pain
less we learn to love this world
andy fardell Oct 2011
The itch has taken over ...can feel it in my bones
the need for beer or lager is greater than the known
so want that buzz that feeds my thoughts ...that dulls them to the bone
that head buzz in the afternoon ...so love the way it goes

I wake up in the morning and think about the day
so want that buzz inside of me ..when is the time to late
they say you are the master but we all know the truth
the buzz is out to get you and take away your youth

it takes away your freindship a family gone afar
but you still feel the buzzing a thought not gone away
the only way to fight the feel is turkey cold and dry
live today forgo the past the futures on its way
andy fardell Jan 2012
I knew that this would happen
but put it out my mind
I even gave a warning
a madness wasnt wise
yet still you took the cake
and let it turn your soul
the weirdness took your night away
and lost your freind from old
it made me so so mad inside
I really was to pop
but yes i have control these days
so let it all just drop
a shame that we did end this way
I really cannot tell
the cake has got to stop my freind
or god will be your hell
andy fardell Oct 2011
what are we really on about when we see breaking news
do i pity sad thoughts and wish away bad blues
it pains me to the bone how we are so brainwashed
to feel the hype of stardem is height that we should love

so what about the average folk that go about their lives
saving lots of others or cleaning to get by
why are we so focused on what the media say
when they just fill us up.. another brainwashed day

time we had a different way of feeding us with thoughts
maybe thats because we'd riot like they did before
20 months for t-shirt theft yet politicians walk
how can this be justified i really do deplore

change our ways and feel the free.. its time we took control
fight for freedom live the life ..its coming to the fore
or maybe we just fade away and cattle we become
chewing on the grass of life ..fattening so begins
andy fardell Apr 2014
The drag of the day goes on
Even the weather feels my pain
For the rain cannot cleanse me
Nor the wine heal my whole

As another year approaches
Another year is gone  
Some memories that have faded
Yet some they stay so strong

I wonder where your dust is
I wonder where you've gone
Yet inner me still hurts so
The pain can never heal
Another day without you
I wish this gone so real

I wish there was a heaven
A place that I could go
So we could walk another round
And talk about ..ya know

But I know you and off this world
The chance we have is one
So sad I'll be till time be done
My pain
My world
My life
andy fardell Feb 2011
Have I changed for all to see that change was really best for me
younger wiser yet troubled soul that was so awful in days of old
time reflects the things we miss yet opens up our heart of memories
Time moves on as we fade away for someone new to take our place
so what do we become in years.. a faded memory a lost few tears
a tombstone path that all do follow .. ecthed in love from loved ones sorrow
Memores lost yet marks so made upon this planets earth for without our lives thered be no more me and you or memores ...
andy fardell Oct 2011
could change about to happen be on the cards for me
a destiny begining a new life to be free
an opening on the cards a new life.. release indeed
a change a new begining ,begin and set me free
my time is served and ready so freedom cometh me
give me the chance to win again .
so live life ..
breath the free
andy fardell Feb 2013
In my hand there holds a cherry
Bitter sweet
Shiny bright

Eaten at your peril
A paradise delight
Taken at your will

In my hand is the promise
That good is good
Life is life

Take the fruit
Sweet the lips
Wake your mind

Now you owe me
I own you whole
A cherry taken
The masters goal
andy fardell Jul 2015
Into the journey the masses follow
Be them of a sad way
For me
I walk it my way
I lead my waltz

My map is not written
Nor the novel read
In fact only when my dust is blown
And the clouds ******* vapor
Will the road become clear

Read my thoughts
Digest my blood
Live it on the edge
Become the one
andy fardell Feb 2011
The time is near and bells are ringing ..christmas cheer for all to have
santas sack is full and briming ..children waiting wanting all
tree is up and lights a glowing ..mince pies warmed and ready now
so smile and wish you all a merry...
christmas cheer for one and all
andy fardell Dec 2011
a Christmas cheer to all you folk
a happy time we pray
freinds so near some afar
a Merry Christmas call

a time to sing and drink a toast
to you and one and all
time to say a prayer or so
to lost ones...to recall

may you relax ...enjoy this day
eat to much ..and laugh away
time to give to not receive
time to remember ...why

so raise you glass
enjoy this toast
and wishing you all well
a Happy Christmas one and all
under some mistletoe
andy fardell Dec 2012
A Christmas cheer to all you folk
A happy time we pray
Friends so near some afar
A Merry Christmas say

A time to sing and drink a toast
To you and one and all
Time to say a prayer or so
To lost ones...to recall

May you relax ...enjoy this day
Eat to much ..and laugh away
Time to give to not receive
Time to remember ...why

So raise you glass
Enjoy this toast
And wishing you all well
A Happy Christmas one and all
Under some mistletoe
andy fardell Dec 2012
Music playing on the radio
Sunlight stars shade out the night
Time to fire light the mistletoe
kisses sweetly on my lips

Christmas coming round my house tonight
Christmas star shining all bright
Born a king from Bethlehem this eve
This is our Christmas time
Our Christmas time

Snow dashed reindeer's ride
As fairies light the sky this night
Presents fall from a gift of hope
In time for families time

Christmas coming round my house tonight
Christmas star shining all bright
Born a king from Bethlehem this eve
This is our Christmas time
Our Christmas time  
  
See the morning rise in joy  
Hear bells of Christmas time
Children's laughter loudly
Bless sweet child
This is our Christmas time
Our Christmas time
andy fardell Oct 2011
a life in circles is how we move
breath of lefe inhaled - expeled
one the begining the other some end
a life in circles natures freind

round and round it all comes clear
a life in circles with nothing to fear
some are small and perfectly round
some are bigger -shapes unfound

only us can shape its size
all we need is is chance in life
perfectly formed -large and proud
a life a circle- so profound
andy fardell Sep 2013
Closer to the clouds I breath
As my heart lays near
The creaking door sounds another closure
Thankfully the blue blue sea welcomes my return

Baited to the full I wade beyond my depth
Waiting for your eyes to find me
I know your out there
You know I know
So please be gentle
I'm wounded and broke

See My only wish is to stay dry
To keep these tired and worn feet
on solid ground
To meet you
Stay with you
Live with you
Love you

Closer to the clouds I breath
Closer to the sun I feel  
A warmth that beats my heart
knowing your near
Lay with me
Love me
andy fardell Aug 2024
To the person I've become
I like you a lot
That anger that became you
No longer rages

As life goes on its ending
I hope you read me well
So understand my wanton
I lived a mental hell

Yet peace becomes my coat
So made of colours many
I will wear it well
till
It bleeds my crimson death

You may see this coat of colours  
These words all in the past
Tis written on these papers
A life I didn't laugh

I like the future me inside me
It's better than the past
Yet time has come my enemy
To
Live it while it lasts
andy fardell Mar 2011
I didnt really need it but thought it was so nice
a lovely cup of coffee and nothing for a price
it made me think of kindness that people sometimes do
instead of charging bucket loads
and robbing me or you

yesterday was different the parking man did lie
he robbed me all of 50 quid yet told me all was right
i wont forget his lying eyes and hope he trips and falls
that coffee gave this morning never taste so good
andy fardell Feb 2011
Cold is the wind ,cold is in the blow
blasting through me like nobody knows
feel it on my face tearing at my eyes
the cold is biting back and I just want to hide

snow fall on the ground ,higher than the grass
all is white all is quiet not a sound behad
footprint show the walkers dogs and followers shiver by
snowfall on the rooftops and chimneys puff their white

cold is the wind I feel it through and through
but i is all tucked up in here with fire ,logs and stew
venture out ,I'd sooner not when wine a plenty and foody lots
so stay inside ..rest your feet.. enjoy the warm and drink a cheers
andy fardell Nov 2013
This weeping child within me screams into the night
The light doth never shine
Nor the moon beam into my lair
Cold is the cold
That takes me

The darkest of days have come for my blood
And who am I to deny such
My soul is weak and my body cold
And my cry goes on

A sweet sound of my madness
Has bore its fruit of temptation
For I be the famished
The thirsty
The wanted
And so they wait
For its all to easy to fail
All to easy to walk

This faded edge so worn
Comes that much clearer
In tears turned ice
Please come
Please warm me

I only want your heart
I only need your love
I only want you
You
Just you
andy fardell Dec 2012
Cold Part 1

Cold is the wind
Cold is in the blow
Blasting through my inner me
Like nobody knows
Feel it on my face
Tearing at my eyes
The cold is biting back and I just want to hide

Snow fall on the ground
Higher than the grass
All is white
All is quiet
Not a sound be-had

Footprint show the walkers dogs
See followers shiver on
Snowfall on the rooftops
As chimneys puff their song

Cold is the wind
I feel it through and through


Cold Part 2..........


The look
The view was one of awe
Seeing trees so shimmer
In slithers silver thaw
Crystal lights for all to see ..
Sun glisten from these objects
Dripping life's pure
A gold thats free

Meadows .. fields becoming one
As snow so white takes over summers song
To show its beauty to the world
Baron yet so full of life
The fields of dreams to keep us

We know that soon the spring will come
This life so fresh will begun
But not so yet as we so wish
It's winters blast thats in the mist
Snowflakes falling all around
That special flake so fresh
So astound

They fall so light
Gods magic touch
Fields of flakes of white and must
Gentle yet so pretty and softly to the touch
These fields of white from tears above
That we all do love.

Cold is the wind
I feel it through and through
andy fardell Feb 2011
The look the view was one of awe ..seeing trees shimmer in silvers thaw ,crystal lights for all to see ..sun glisten from these object dripping lifes gold thats free,
meadows .. fields becoming one as snow so white takes over once again to show its beauty to the world ...baron yet so full of life the fields of dreams to keep us alive.
We know that soon the spring will come and life so fresh will begun but not so yet as we so wish its winters blast thats in the mist ,snowflakes falling all around that special flake so fresh so astound
They fall so light gods magic touch ..fields of flakes of white and cold.gentle yet so pretty and soft to touch these fields of white that we all love.
andy fardell Jun 2012
Colour me blind as I see no you
paint me black should I feel blue
You smell the same yet people brush green
They don't see the red that you see in me

colour me blind so I can change
taint my hue to be from greed
stain my life to walk this way
the colour stays don't fade please say

Colour me blind to feel your touch
to laugh once more that golden love
I'm here for you in every way
a rainbow-ed kiss to hold each day

Colour me blind as love takes hold
my lovers life brave not cold
no colours bad for none to see
inside heart where I love thee
andy fardell Mar 2011
my eyes stay closed as i awake
darkness staring daylights grace
do I venture into daylight
eyes stay shut into the mist

I hear voices yet move aint there
talking at me still i stare
blackness looking out i see
wishing daylight i should be

doctors.. nurses say all this
yet the dark and blackness lives
wake me from this so called dream
bring me life ..reality
andy fardell Apr 2013
Let the day come back
Let my heart beat again
Let the day come back
Let me hold you tight

That was yesterday
A day before today
That was a word somewhere
A place not here I fear

Give me one last chance
Let me stay right here
Say you love me so
Whisper sweetly to my ear

Let the day come back
Let my heart beat again
Let the day come back
Let me hold you tight

Please don't push away
Just stay a little while
Let the day come back
Come back to yesterday
Come back today
andy fardell Sep 2013
As the sun rises and the clouds clear from my mind
Come back my lover
Come back my way
Don't forget what we loved for
Please oh please do stay

The glasses full on empty all hope now washed away
I need you here beside me
I want you every day
Come back my lover
Come on back my way

I wish a new horizon in one we holding hands
Come back my lover
Come back my way
Don't forget what we loved for
Please oh please do stay

Four weeks and still I'm waiting our time is nearly up
My love for you is fading
I drink another cup
Come back my lover
Come back oh please I pray

A sigh of sadness leaves me I'm on another stage
Please call me in the morning
My love for you is grey

Come back my lover
Come back my way
Don't forget what we loved for
Please oh please do stay
andy fardell May 2014
I don't want to read your words
I don't want to see your letters
I just want you here so near me
To hold you love you tight

So baby please come back to me
Oh baby please don't walk away
So baby please come back this eve
I want you babes
I love you

I don't want to feel the lonely
I don't want to miss your smile
I just want you holding my love
Please stay for me
A while

So baby please come back to me
Oh baby please don't walk away
So baby please come back this eve
I want you babes
I love you

Then you ran away
Left me open heart all broken
Then you left me out
Went and screamed we were
Unspoken  

For now I am the lonely
For now I am the sea
Oh baby please
Oh baby please
Oh baby please
Oh baby please
Come back to me
andy fardell Dec 2011
I feel like flying ..flying high
way up yonder up into night
out in the stars shining so bright
flying high ..high as a kite

join me in motion as we could fly up high
fly to the moon and back in the deep of night
see the earth in glorious light twinkling in darkness
in the mist of night

come fly ...come fly with me now
up into sky ..free from chains
left all behind
come lets fly together lets see a whole new life
come lets fly
come lets fly
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