the death inside me still craves another fight
as my blood keeps feeding a feeling all aint right
veins pop as blood begins to boil
death inside me ready for the fight

eyes that start thus glowing
madness seen the light
death awakens screaming
somewhat some delight

body fighting..fingers tingle through
nearly ready..ready but are you
stretched and fully working
timing all is right
crave a new begining
bring it on alright

The day creeps nearer
the date is calling
my heart still beats a beats thats fallin
time to find the truth no dare
time to live a life ..no beer

ten days so long yet even closer
to find my fate ..win or looser
no job ,no cash ,no way of knowing
fates new blow ..stay ..or going

I know that folk will laugh and fear
once my comeuppance for all those years
so time to duck and dive some more
time to fight them from the doors

being down but still not out
I'll fight that fight and beat them all
staying stong and living on
thats the plan ..what could go wrong ?

Have I changed for all to see that change was really best for me
younger wiser yet troubled soul that was so awful in days of old
time reflects the things we miss yet opens up our heart of memories
Time moves on as we fade away for someone new to take our place
so what do we become in years.. a faded memory a lost few tears
a tombstone path that all do follow .. ecthed in love from loved ones sorrow
Memores lost yet marks so made upon this planets earth for without our lives thered be no more me and you or memores ...

So tired ...yet ..no sleep comes to me
even as i ache with thought
another day with pain yet no solace to spawn
skin tingling with fire yet no flame to wash away
sleep come to me so that.. dreams
get me through another day

darkness outside and darkness within
still no sleeping no calming begin
candles burned out no life left within
heartbeat decided a life spent in sin

headless spinning a new dawn shines on
the sleepless within me fights yawning begun
time to breath in a freshness to start
a new life within me a path an new start

Head just full of pieces
I'm all gone up in bits
a body gone in meltdown
my candle gone to wick
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!!
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!!

On evidence I'm dead!!!!!!!!
the people cried with joy
I know that I'm done breathing
But breathing was the best!!!!!!
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!!

Can feel my body tearing
ripping me to shreds
this pain just better do one
the beating in my head  
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!  
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!

On evidence I'm dead!!!!!!
the people cried with joy
I know that I'm done breathing
but breathing was the best!!!!
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!!!
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!!!

These fingers gone to jelly
my mind a washed out mush
the twinkles are not glowing
a foot about to rot
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!  
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!  

On evidence I'm dead!!!!!!
the people cried with joy
I know that I'm done breathing
but breathing was the best!!!!
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!!!
on evidence I'm dead!!!!!!!

feel the days are numbered ..our time has come
they've won us over ..a new way in
the battles done yet just begun
a tide has turned a government won

28 days is all it took to wipe us out
to drink our blood as they thirst
a start so sweet we couldn't tell
the war was over our time to hell

a child's cry a fathers breath
they didn't care upon our deaths
the few knew all
our day was done
just 28
to an end begun

a start from fresh for a few thats left
but just in case the army's grace
to keep us right and walk the talk
until we follow as cows do walk

the new way in was all we heard
like cattle to the end of earth
no crying out no chance to scream
welcome to the new world dream

The look the view was one of awe ..seeing trees shimmer in silvers thaw ,crystal lights for all to see ..sun glisten from these object dripping lifes gold thats free,
meadows .. fields becoming one as snow so white takes over once again to show its beauty to the world ...baron yet so full of life the fields of dreams to keep us alive.
We know that soon the spring will come and life so fresh will begun but not so yet as we so wish its winters blast thats in the mist ,snowflakes falling all around that special flake so fresh so astound
They fall so light gods magic touch ..fields of flakes of white and cold.gentle yet so pretty and soft to touch these fields of white that we all love.

The silence screaming in me head
give me something please i beg
talk to me so i may live
silence deadened all forgive

inner rage yet outside peace
wanting life to re-release
thought my head would cope so well
fear the silence all not well

chains so heavy yet quiter still
talk to me ...hear me
heartbeat ..fear me
silence ..scare me

I saw the sign ..it wouldn go ..
a warning ..saying not to look
but look I did and now its time
to walk that road to walk that line

sun behind me and dust around
blackness down the road of time
shadow falls its only one ..mines a stretching so so long
falling of the end no fun!!

the end approaches I feel it near
grasping me and all my fear
the road is open for me to flow
wanting me to get in toe

Fight the fear fight the dread
time to close the road I said
many years its staying shut
until my life becoomes a rut

I saw the sheets of steel
fall across the sky
The wonders of life
Dressed in cloud's

Darkness portrayed yet
New life reaching out
To smell the rain before
It's near me
To feel its power

Earth's life has new buds
About to bore fruit of life
Drops as big as rocks
bounced of the dry soil
Marking the earth that was so
ready to give

Drenched in the liquid of life
So simple
Yet so strong
Such a beauty to see life
Born to be free

Clouds open their souls
Do relinquish their hold
As earth takes a breath
to a new dawn born again
I bow to the beauty that
my eyes let me see

Sometimes I feel like it's not me
Here
My dream
My world
My life
Sometimes I see the earth unclear
My vision
Lost
Gone paradise  

Sometimes my look upon the sky
I see grey
When all is white
I see black when all is bright
Sometimes when I sleep not at this night
I feel so wrong  

I wish I knew the why of reason
I wish I knew the reasons why
I wish I looked up from the heavens
I wish I saw the blue of sky

I want to smell the new of spring
I want to see life born again
I want to taste the salt of rain
I want to live my life
Again

One day will all be clear
Will my want become a fear
Will my wishes blow away
Will my heart be broken
Blackened day

Sometimes we don't know what
We have
Sometimes don't live as if its past
Sometimes be thankful what you see
Sometimes just be

Thin whispery clouds formed around the distant hills
as I looked out into the vastness
Moonlight reflected from the dew as the dawn did open
Little fairy's danced before my eyes seeing life be born
And the sky did open

Light became light to the roar of sunlight warming the earth
Shadows formed to hold the darkness of night just a little longer
I stretched to the start of a new days dawning
Feeling my skin warm to the glow of the fire started in the sky
Life was waking ..I was alive

Cool breath from the night still filled my lungs as I exhaled the dark
to breath in the day
The sweet sweet taste of morning felt so good so fresh so alive
This was the taste of Earth
This was the taste of living

Eaten away by the men at work
We fail to see the light
Our own denial drowns out
our hearts
These fainted lies to
the masses

Yet bowed in our heads as
we weaken
Be told this way to live
Taxed out minds to follow
the path
The dammed that never breath

Relight the fires that doused our lives
Rejoice the broken way
Empower that
you feel inside
Not slip it
slide away

The light is good let blinded
see
A new beginning made
A year to make
this land be free
New freedom
So it be

Gone into a world that's not quite there
gone into a world of look and despair
fighting through the haze of a drunken gaze
that look so hated a mind in daze

taken to the thirst of another day
wanted to hate it but liquor has its say
sip until a gulp then the worst is over
tastes so sweet my four leaf clover

memories gone all friends departed
drunken dust so warm so hearted  
gutter life from once departed
one way ticket out
a bottle started

as I look on past those eyes
a calling falls to me
Time I took a breather time i looked and seen
see the crackle see the red
hope its just the work I do and nothin I may dread

My heart is saying all is fine ,my eyes say so much more
time to take another path
time to live the green
all is golden as glass is drunk
leaving so the aftermath of stolen hearts and soul

wake until the taste is gone
yet taste I crave so more
headache stolen for the day ....tomorro waits to fall
see the future ask my face a new way is begun
welcome to another place
a darkness falls away

to cry when you want to love
to smile when you want to give
to hold when you want to run

unconditional love

to listen when your hurt
to want when you have to give
to love when you want to hate

unconditional love

Last night i had a dream where heaven came to me
did follow this road so beautiful the drive was oh so free
led me to a place... a heaven ...a place for me

the sea was so exciting ...crashing waves in jest
a church left in the turmoil of battles gone and hence
the ruins felt so so right they looked not out of place
sea smelt of the saltiness yet bacon in the breeze

a cafe puffed smoke from near the front so small
it fit a few
bacon cobs a plenty ..and tea so right not stewed
two dogs did try and lick me ..they smelt a freind in me
my heaven came to be my life ..its name obscured from veiw

A map i found now of this place that hid so well from all
they called it bourne ..i didnt know and never been before
I woke up from my dream and knew what I had found
a heaven from my inner side a calmness now was found

If only he could see the picture that i see in he
If only he could view that look
His life no more
A deadness on his door

No smile to crack
No looking back on once was is no more
His daily chore to breath
A fight lost in eyes faded to the clouds

What was youth forgotten proof
A childhood dream on heavy shoulders
Now his song until breath all gone
No more hell

Look back on what he become
A life lost
gone for ever more

sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
winter lining still has its hold
teeth that do chatter to shiver through my bones
see my air be breathing ..god its ****** cold
wind that be blowing round my little home
summer hurry up i want it hot not cold

............................


sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
feel the finger of the ice man grappling ..grabbing hold ..
winters lining still out there not giving up the ghost
wanting ,freezing life.. still freeze me to the bone
teeth that do chatter ....no sound that says hello
they click and do clatter no stopping in this cold
see my breath be breathing...crystals in the air
******* warm from in me chilling me i fear
wind doth blow right round me even in my home
get the fire burning oh my god its cold

Did I really feel that pain... that so inside did me again
thought Id had to much of that ..oh **** its got me back and back
need to watch myself some more ,no parties ..wakes or fiesty bars
water ...soda that will do.. no beer for me nor ***** blue

Spider webs fall my hands
My age has found a new meaning
Long gone is the softness
Far away is my youth
Grey and old in my outlook
Tired and so cold are my views

Birthday child is gone from here
Birthday boy no more
Time is winning out this war
Time is drawing near

Looks in the mirror to a faded view
Softness in my haze
Hair now parted colour lost
Grey this ear to ear
Grey this ear to ear

Birthday child is gone from here
Birthday boy no more
Time is winning out this war
Time is drawing near

Shine a dazzle from my brow
Lines to show mature
Bones that creak to the open door
Time is drawing near
Time is drawing near

wakin is not death but a death of life awake

A song came on the radio
a memory from afar
a sadness yet a smile of mine
come on feel the noise

I had to turn it up so loud
my ears began to sing
as music from my very past
brought tears upon my chin

I thought that was the start of starts
to start my weekend off
but no this radio gave much more
for ears and memoires

More tears appeared as Freddie sang
brought thoughts of long ago
my mum gone out so dad did shout
come on my son its time
as our radiogram blasted out our song
repeated many days  

More tears appeared as song was sung
i nearly crashed my car
such thoughts of times so long ago
My memories in a jar

My head was down as bad my day had come
a life on here had done me harm a place that few do roam  
was standing in the queue of life to pay my way ahead
That was until i realised my life was still to had

It wasnt me that changed my mind it was the queue I'm in
The angel standing next to me did have it ... but she grinned
That smile of hope and wishing why its her and not the truth
that god was trying to claim his angel early in her youth

I let her pass a chit and chat ...her taste for life not gone
my head did shake to what i had ...and what I had to come
So sorrow gone for my poor past ..just future and look up
no shuffling down my feet in line
a life is to be had    
a life is to be had

Fields turned yellow like the sun from the old rain
that felled like paint on a canvas
Red Kytes hovered a dinner in their grasp
amongst the golden wash of life
Trails of steel from above left lines of snow
into the clear bluest sky
as the silence of nature bleated volumes
The earth on a good day from a mad mad world

The cool wind blew gently over to a wave without a sea
as my eyes shone to the wonders of earths senses before me
and it felt good
Hills from a distance showed a landscape
built on years of time from a land riddled in blood
in a yesteryear that we chose to forget
Yet in the centre of the field stood a lonely old tree
Its life still strong after Gnarls of time etched in
pain for all to see and feel
New buds bore a life to prove a life to live
And this was a time to live

a time to grow...a time to give
To give love to this earth
Our earth ....Our mothers earth

I wake and yet its today ..a day of wantin away
Tomorro I dont want to hear ...a fear a shiver... a spear
a death I so not want to see yet death was so close i could flee

He died yet is so part of me.. a pappa.. a dad ..a gentry
my rock my heart so I miss ...his sound vice and so smile a bliss
never hatin or questioning my..just a love.. a heart so inside

So dad that I miss ever more
I remember your sound and cant help the tears I still tore
you said that you were ok ..yet death was a second away
tomorro does bring you afore my love..oh my rock my ....
PAPPA!!

they know ya know thats why their here
waiting for the time is near
summer gone yet has it so
the cold is missing
bite us show

ground so dry its nearly dust
farmers worry .. worry us
flowers springing summers glow
apples drop yet still some show
frost not bitten summers breath
grass lush green a golfers fest

they know you know thats why they fly
staying here above ones eyes
food for thought that things have changed
spinning world on different aims

Time to look into the sky
are we spinning just not right
been said that birds sing sparrow cries
cos they know that time aint right
our summer in december