The house felt so quiet with only the hum from the fan
Cooling my only contact with the outside world
Only I could hear the pattering from the spiders run
From their frenzied night time feast
My spine felt a shiver
The glow had faded from the fire and my palms sweated
At the thought of my insanity  
Yet here I must write
Write
To keep the demons at my door
Write
To stop them crawling into me
Write
To stop the feel as they whisper into my silence
I close my mouth and scream

So here I write soliloquies
Here I write my soul
It's here I write my madness
The writing on the wall
A poet writes of nothingness
No meaning
Break the rule
The madness from the shadows speak
All quiet breaks

Poor the soul

The golden hour wakes me, I'd fallen yet again
All bottles have been broken
Empty for the drain
I wallow in my pity,the gallon drum awaits
Drinking for my future
Drinking for my wake
A poet so I be
Famously broken
Fabulous me

The house felt so peaceful as my normality returned
The writing left in front of me all ready for the burn
I seek another moments grace
Please madness come
Return
My writing comes that different here
An era that I spurn
Now poets will remember this in writing that they feel
A time for loosing all inside
A craving feeds the feel
It's hard to speak when no one knows how crazy that you are
It's poets talk we really crave
The
Writing on the wall

The beast has returned
With a taste for blood like no other
My soul has succumbed to the devils liquor
And it tastes good

No inhibitions left for the trail behind
As my voice fans the fire of a fool and his gold
The weak shall not worry and the strong bemuse at my
Sadness and sorrow
With my head bowed I walk away
Broken yet again from the nectars wish
In my search for the freedom these chains do desire

Yet still I thirst
Yet still I want
I cannot hide from these wishes that crave my desire for freedom
Oh freedom
Sweet sweet freedom
How I crave thee
Leave me alone so I may live my life in a peace like all others

The beast has returned

With my opened eyes the world came to my focus
Here before me through the glassed prison
Called home
The mist had taken control
And this was my wake

The world had lost its colour
My life had broken down
This heart was left in pieces
Last night I was the clown

Another faded evening
Of wanted love and care
Instead I drank for freedom
I drank because I dared

At first they wanted friendship
A happy place to be
The drinks all round god bless em
Until the wait and see
Until the wait and see

My inner man did show them
The real one inside
All plots are going broken
I'm ready for the ride

The last of night was over
My head did bow in shame
The dawning of the future
The mist did lay its claim

So now I wait
Let the mist fade  

Give me peace for just an hour
Release me let me free
Let me free

The sign of a man is not defined by his age
A man is defined
By his love
His compassion
His care

My son is already this man
A real man
Where age and wisdom
Comes flowed in his grace
And I be the honoured

For I am lucky enough to be his father
His friend
To see him grow
Become the man
I love to know

Live out your life son
Live on your dreams
So proud I am
You turn the age
That on this day
Become
EIGHTEEN

As the sun rises and the clouds clear from my mind
Come back my lover
Come back my way
Don't forget what we loved for
Please oh please do stay

The glasses full on empty all hope now washed away
I need you here beside me
I want you every day
Come back my lover
Come on back my way

I wish a new horizon in one we holding hands
Come back my lover
Come back my way
Don't forget what we loved for
Please oh please do stay

Four weeks and still I'm waiting our time is nearly up
My love for you is fading
I drink another cup
Come back my lover
Come back oh please I pray

A sigh of sadness leaves me I'm on another stage
Please call me in the morning
My love for you is grey

Come back my lover
Come back my way
Don't forget what we loved for
Please oh please do stay

Letters in the Alphabet

To some words mean everything
To me its all in the music

You see Abc gave me that
Lexicon of love
And I could only Imagine what
Lennon thought
Yet Pulp gave it all for the
Common people
But Bowie was my Hero
Good old Amadeus Rocked me at parties and
Boy George never hurt me as my
Enigma would always return me to innocence
Whilst at the back of my mind I would
Muse to thinking Time is running out

Let the petals fall away
Be my eyes in motion
As beauty bestows the very words
You breath
No flower has your colour
No rainbow has your look
An angel heaven sent
Is what you are to me

I love the look you love
Lips touch for your skin
The purr of a longing kiss
of red velvet
As you become my side
Silently you tell me
Let me tell them all
Our love
Let the petals fall away
My love
Fall
Fall
Away

This blur held me
As dust fell upon dust
The speeding devil
A race upon not won

A corners cut
From a crosses held
The end a must
A drivers tale

This leadened foot
I know so well
Can only lead
Forgotten tale

This is the end
The crash foretells
A marriage broken
The in
Exhaled

This afternoon all clocks went wrong

This afternoon the clocks suddenly stopped
My father had died
I watched his vision fade
I held his last breath

My heart cried for just one more moment
One more word
One more squeeze from his cold pale
Hand  

The house became silent
Only the tears of my broken mind
Falling
Gushing
Deafening
My thoughts of a cold empty world
I knew was my place  
Life was over

The weeks passed as minutes
The months as seconds
My days now blurred to a
Fuel filled haze of sorrow
Washed in alcohol that never cured
The hurt

This afternoon all clocks went wrong

And my inner flower blossomed
My world became afresh
My purpose was all to see
It was my time to be a father

My time to show my son
My time for love
To care
My time to show him
Life  
My time to show the lessons
A time for life
Begun

The stain of tears
Hidden in her russet locks
As she drifted away from
Her destiny

All behind in sorry
No blame of yet to come
A love so now departed
It is the lady's song

Come to me my lonely
Swim the wanton shore
Hold my hand my darling
For you
My evermore

Forlorn and empty inside
The raging storm leaves only the cold wet tears of time
God knows I tried
So so empty inside
God knows I've tried

Maybe the next world will smile at my heart
Take my arms
Show me another way
Banish my pain
Kiss my broken soul

Till then
Darkness take your feast
Consume me in bitterness
Quench me in your drunken thirst
Death come quickly

Into the laying sun I walked
Long strides of freedom
Echoed inside me
And from these squinting eyes
I could smell spring
Taste the fresh
Feel the new

The sound of a song thrush nearby
Welcomed me
For I was now free
Free to walk
Free to run
Free to roam the earth
My destiny be my master

Forty and the more it had taken
Tears of terror in my past
Fears of failure did all surround me
Now all be forgotten
See my strides are very long
And my lovely awaits
Tis love

I shook hands with my son today as we played
The greatest game of golf
Ever
Till yesterday when I shook hands with my bud as we played
The greatest game of golf
Ever
Then I remembered the last game I played with my father before he left this world And that too was
The greatest game of golf
Ever
In fact every single game of golf I've ever played has been
The greatest game of golf
Ever
And with all that in my mind I realise how everyday is
The greatest day in my life
Ever

There is no second chance
A time to wish again
Be sorry for my faults
So be there many
See the time
So today shall be my greatest day
Ever
As I turn to my wife as she breaths gently from her softness in sleep
When I wake to the sounds of breakfast made
Hear my dog prancing for food

Today shall be the greatest day
Ever
When I laugh in the mirror
At a face
Not pretty or fine
Yet today is another
To eat lunch all together
Watch footy
See our son play his best
How lucky
My test

Today shall be the greatest day
Ever
When we all sit at home
Laugh
Moan the groan
Say night till the morn
As the greatest day
Ever
Becomes
A new dawn

No meaning in this life
As fire rages out
All shadows disappear
Till the end
In dust

Yet the sun will shine like a
Bright star in the sullen sky
Shimmering
To the emptiness called
Earth

This universe lives
Breathes
It grows
So one day we will meet up again
Somewhere
We knows

Shhhhh I say
It's here so quiet
The music of the world sounds silently to my ears
No songs of joy
Nor laughters ploy
Such a sad lonely world I fear

Before there was silence
The world did rage against itself
As countries did battle
Over dust unto dust
No lessons of happiness
Until the quiet

Now only echoes of faces fill this earth
Shadows of dreams reach my mind
I am the only one
Left to shout the silence

How do I survive my future
Be no chance of moving on
Let the silence come greet me
The end is near
Earth is in song