ground shaking at mothers waking... feel the tremour through the dawn
earth is rattled ....showing strength to do us harm
building fall as cities wake to terrors harm

water washing dragging all..spread throughout the oceans breadth
people hoping ,hiding, running fear inside them born
wish them well and all to safety mothers earth be back to calm

dimished like a ghost passing through
that life no more ..means life too you
failures inner mist broken from the heart..
once so strong now time will tell the path

future becoming lost in the truth
that life no more ...means life too you
a sparlkle that shines no more ..a wish
a waiting a wanting more ....

My son you are a star..my number one by far
you always make me laugh and tease me cos im daft
its great when we do buff and coding is real good
now looks yes there all mine but yours will be just fine
cos my genes are in you ..unlucky mummys too

Son you are a star ..my number one by far
your kinder than the rest and always give your best
footy is your game and boxing makes you brave
you used to be so small now tower over all

Son you are a star ..my number one by far
you help me every day and give your heart in so many ways
you love to stay around and make us laugh when down
dont change cos your the best
my son ..my star i love you more than the universe x

I fear the face that fears of doubt and lost thrown years all lights gone out
still regrets of things not done the facing fear a life begun
many times i wondered why the fear in me became my lie
time to turn the page in time time to move the opening line

sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
winter lining still has its hold
teeth that do chatter to shiver through my bones
see my air be breathing ..god its ****** cold
wind that be blowing round my little home
summer hurry up i want it hot not cold

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sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
feel the finger of the ice man grappling ..grabbing hold ..
winters lining still out there not giving up the ghost
wanting ,freezing life.. still freeze me to the bone
teeth that do chatter ....no sound that says hello
they click and do clatter no stopping in this cold
see my breath be breathing...crystals in the air
******* warm from in me chilling me i fear
wind doth blow right round me even in my home
get the fire burning oh my god its cold

sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
winter lining still has its hold
teeth that do chatter to shiver through my bones
see my air be breathing ..god its ****** cold
wind that be blowing round my little home
summer hurry up i want it hot not cold

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sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
feel the finger of the ice man grappling ..grabbing hold ..
winters lining still out there not giving up the ghost
wanting ,freezing life.. still freeze me to the bone
teeth that do chatter ....no sound that says hello
they click and do clatter no stopping in this cold
see my breath be breathing...crystals in the air
******* warm from in me chilling me i fear
wind doth blow right round me even in my home
get the fire burning oh my god its cold

why does my shadow.. seem darker today
was it the weather ...sunny maybe grey
why did i feel that rain was tipping down
yet when i looked up.. blue skies all around

why did my mood ...swing from left to right
mabye im sorry for all what said last night
maybe im just sad... that all around seems dull
maybe the light has gone for good ..who knows

time i woke and breathed fresh air
time to put things right
time to plant some flowers and watch them grow ..thats right
time to raise ones eyebrow and crack a smile or too
time for new begining ...
join me be my crew

money in it money out what is life all about
scrimp and save for what we hear
life in homes for old dears

yet we plod along the way
nodding on no futures grace
money rules money hurts
thems the rules aint life a b#tch

I wake from night still tasting evening
wine and pasta filled my soul
head throbbing from nectars gold
wishing never ever again

down a bottle yet want no more
until the thirst become the norm
tastes of a golden apple ...more more more

want water yet golden wine takes my breath take my life
life of torture life of famine
life of thirsting life in decline

my eyes stay closed as i awake
darkness staring daylights grace
do I venture into daylight
eyes stay shut into the mist

I hear voices yet move aint there
talking at me still i stare
blackness looking out i see
wishing daylight i should be

doctors.. nurses say all this
yet the dark and blackness lives
wake me from this so called dream
bring me life ..reality

I saw his shadow and warmed at his smile
my dad my mate my soul plus one
he never ever saw me other than his son
faultless little bundle from heaven maybe hell
saw him sat beside me wanted
wishing me was here wanting so to call him brought me to a tear

Can hear his voice so sweetly ...laughing so out loud
remembering all those good times
scarborough sounds about
yet there I was this daytime looking over there
seeing daddys shadow sitting the chair ..made me sad and happy
that thoughts I knew he had
son just be ones happy ...
dont worry im alright

I hear the drops as they fall
banging louder in the squall
memories of a nother day
washing thoughts of age away

yet they bring a new me you
smell the freshness..smell of new
yet I feel so part a past
wishing future never last

time to wash away some dirt
time to move on in overt
time to clean the past away
wishin washing every day

sitting here again ...life without the din
waiting for the future missing from the past
sitting here again..time just pasing time
wondered round the corner ..different path ,different life

sitting here again ..thinking of the future
thinking lifes regrets
sitting here again ..saddness next to sorrow
said i wished id said so many things

sitting here again..smiling at the loves
life has paid to me
children playing, lovers holding
life in perfect peace

The road left long and grey,bordom in a way
seemed so straight so full of sorrow
no feeling,no love nor beauty given
a road of death  ..devil driven

The sun appeared a smile did grow
my heart skipped a warmin glow
the glare shown bright a gazzling sight
warming skin a sun so bright

driving home to get there soon
fight the grey the so called gloom
streams of lights before me glow
darkness stretching through the ticking time into the night
soon be home

The shaken earth that so so stood shook against all thats good
people ran and hid for cover fearing life and soon to suffer
burried in a living grave we hope and pray that all will save

our mother earth shows many sides and cares not who is victimised
we bless each day its not our last and hope to see the fresh green grass
my thoughts go out to all thats hurt and pray that
mother ....earth is quiet .....Shhhhhhh!!!

Just a little thought to all the peeps in New Zealand **

the roadside ghosts are there to see
crosses bear lifes misery
yet we trundle flying by
wishing.... hoping ...its not our time

I see their faces and feel the pain.. the ghosts standing waiting shame
the fog that shows them in the light only coming out when night
why can me and only me see the ghostly shapes that be
the roadside ghosts i fear them most
feel the creeping
shivers me whole

i,d smelt that smell before ...death was at his door
he didnt know it ..yet i could smell it death would have him soon
he carried on as if nothing wrong yet i could smell so well
death was waiting ,panting stinking death was at his door

my nose did linger ,a smell so vile yet memories made me sad
that smell so well... that i knew dealt a deathy blow.. it sent a shiver

he looked quite well but soon would show the stench of ground below
freinds would crowd a grief alound ..showing respect now due
said good bye but did not cry as they melted away like snow

the ticking time ...shys away from real truth
that the moment is gone along with our youth
never to be had
no looking back
wishing it all again

the time we knew,,worlds now apart
yet wishing i spoke those words
hoping i said those thoughts
thinking im lost ..whatever the cost ..all hurt

the ticking time passed me by without a care in the world
straight through me as i blinked ..devouring like a drink
left so thirsty and alone .....all alone and so quiet
time passes by and youth becomes the past
when its time its our time to meet
memories now oblique..
time done its deed

My dream became my other world so real or is this fake
I dreamt of many crazy things like floating in a lake
i must be mads cos I dont swim and sink just like a brick
my dreams are more reality than I could ever think

I pinched myself so I could see the difference from the two
but would I really tell apart the dreaming from the truth
time will tell when one does wain and all becomes a blurr
the dreaming and reality ..I concur

Bang!!! ...thats how it feels to wake up from the black
thats how we stire from beyond ..thats how we live in this world
Bang the black is near ..it shivers my fear ...
Bang!!!
now im scared

Most of us just never will know when him up there decides hello
but some do plan for when its near ,no sky to see just many tears
no kids to cry get out the way or christmas cards or big birthday
to want to know or be it told must be bad for all who old
Yet strength ive read in someones sorrow they live today and not for morro
for plan they do as body tires a brave young lady a real fighter

I wish her peace and family strength the bravest thing ive heard in a long time Donna is 17 and has a rare form of cancer and has planned her own funeral Bless you donna and all your family

My soul crys yet another day ..feelings so near so far away
turned that corner that turned on me ..made my life ones life away
yet i want so more to see a life of livings destiny
ropes of chain surround my whole waiting watching bait the cold
one day soon i'll see the light ..all lifes future life begun

The year did pass and felt so quick
another year without his whit
he played his golf upon the new
it was his last until his due!!!
.......................................
I died a year or Two.. a wake I guess
but now I think of him no less
He loved and liked and made me cry
........................................
why oh why did he so die
........................
I know look back and want to say
so so much got in our way
Dad ..you *** you got me good
Boy I loved so so much

I hate Tuesdays .....
its a pants day.
a none day
a one day

I hate Tuesdays ...
its a new day
the first day
of the week

I hate Tuesdays
but love
Sundays
Its bacon
roast beef dinner
Hovis bread for tea
and top gear on the telly

everyday should be Sunday

the best day of the week

The wind did blow around my soul
it parted life and breath to be
its coldness somewhat eatin out
its bitter biting deep and proud

still I walked into the breath of mothers life
a fog of death or maybe life
it crawl around and tried to tickle but I was ready

I RAN ...

I ran so fast ...I couldn breath
the fog ...the cold was chasing back
I turned and twisted but fight it did
So close so far ...yet breath give in !!


I crashed the door and stepped inside
my home ..its smell so sweet...so light
kettle on and tea to brew
i beat the cold and fog that blew
Until the next time for which I knew
the fog and cold would come to stew

the art of speaking is a thing of beauty r so its read
so why do you still keep banging in me head
ive said manyand felt a few
a head a bangin away we go

the thoughts I had just bounced around
and left me somewhat so spell bound
so here I sit awaiting thoughts
or maybe life of a sorts

to cry when you want to love
to smile when you want to give
to hold when you want to run

unconditional love

to listen when your hurt
to want when you have to give
to love when you want to hate

unconditional love

Love is life
a life of love
two bodies as one
two hearts colide
creating one
for life of love

Tell us the truth..
or lie some more
politicians dare decide our law

just once would be nice instead of pap
just one real thought not under attack
tell us the truth and lie no more
tell us reality no stories i plore

lie like you do and we wont vote
lie like you say and we wont show
llie through your teeth and god forbid
you turn in your grave and face
his death

red ..no white.. no golden blue
the moon so stood for all to view
in my face and shining bright
the joy.. the glow a true delight

The moon did shine a glow so pure
my eyes did see a sight amore
I wanted more but sad to say
the moon did hide for the day

that night I looked and no did see
no moon no stars no sightly sea
so maybe when i look again
I,ll see that moon .a heaven sent

I dreamed a dream of many dreams a dream that said so much
I dreamed of peace and freindliness I knew I dreamed in dutch
I dreamt of love and fairys flying or maybe thats to butch
but I dont care cos I did dream of mum and dad above

dreams untold about to fold
dreams of hugs and love to hold
dreams of kisses and lips so touched
love and hope and wanton touch

I had a dream the other day
my dad did visit and smiled his way
my mum just moaned cos thats her way
but dont be bothered
cos i wouldn .....want it.... any.... other way !!!!

a rose for your hair
a kiss for your lips
a heart i so give
a love so so bliss

a taste of your skin
the smell of your mist
the warmth of your hold
a love so bold

a kiss i so want
a hold of your heart
a touch of your hand
my love for you holds

You blew my heart away
you blew my mind
it started out there
and left behind

you kissed my inner side
and out there too
my darling wifey
I so love you x

So its the weekend ...the deep end
time for chillin ...beerin and feeding our souls
room for sleeping ...wantin and needin time out

watch some footy eat me breaky and drink lots of tea
grab me hangover ...drink some oj ..eat me eggy on toast
sunday dinner ...roasty tattys and beef on the bone
Hovis ...salmon sarnies or leftovers me boast

time of argues ..family values and shoutin each out
time for reason ,time for grandpas and cousins to visit afar

So the weekend ..what a weekend
time for monday morning blues

snorring in me right ear
snorring in me left
snorring from me right side
now i,m blooming deaf


dug her in the rib
kicked her on the shin
silence for a moment until
the din begins

Can hear it even down here
sounds like she,s drilling from above

Silence i so want
silence so I dream
silence in me ears
baby oh pleasssssssssssssss!!

Why oh why do we do it ...
Why oh why do we care ...
4o'clock in the morning
it aint really fair

bed is the place I'd rather be
warm and toastie inside
all wrapped up and still to tired
far to cold to be outside

Have to work to pay the bills
why oh why oh why

Do we die when we sleep or do we dream a death
do we breath we sleep or exhale our soul
do we wake and remember or just born again
i know not but know some

Do we live so that others die
do we die so that others can cry
do we have a point
I know not why

Do we fight to save a few
do we love so that loves shines through
Do we want yet need so less
I wish i knew

Do you remember a photo lost
do you wish you hadnt forgot
do we care
I cry !!!

last night i thought my hell was alive and very well
parked in a place that really really smelled
but as I sat there eatin pies and peas
I lokked over me shoulder and changed my very grief

soilders sitting ...having just a brew
no doubting about what they must do
all kitted out in sand style so hostile grounds to be
we pray and wish a safe and happy return

So next time i feel so hard done
so grief and derg inside
i,ll stare out to the sunlight and veiw the other side
be safe my friends be safe
as we stand by your side

Baby sugar baby .....I need you now
honey sugar honey .....my thirst you so

taste so good ...feel so light
gliding down ones throat

body rejects ...has no regret
I thirst you so

hypo no no
i know the way

jabby happy

Early is the wrong time
a long time to be on
early is to early to wakey up inside
early aint so easy.. aint no freedom to live
earlys just to early to get out me pit

so stay in bed and dream a little
live a little at night
wake to some songbirds some sunshine breaking in
wake stretchin armiiess and leggiees and lots of tea
wake up at the right time and not the early we live

stood up and it changed
stood up and i wobbled
stood up way to soon
now sittins all I do

head went one way I went the other
didnt know what to say way eh!!!
felt a quiver felt a chill
a hand I didnt want

feeling right now..feeling good
feeling as I really should
so go away ya quiver go away ya fall
stay strong and upright ..dont ever ever fall

I felt a cold that touched me
it felt like death was due
so I pushed it out ...it left me
my time aint yet .....blow you

a cold i really didnt like or want or ever know
a steel a feel a desperate need to run and duck below
yet heat and fire consummed my health a glow of such intense
so why so cold this hand that touched my heart and very soul

So live as everyday might be the one that takes a shine
a cold hand round your heart a feel about your soul
a grip thats got you good and tight a vice thats not to go
So live as well as you may do and dont be scared inside

fight it till the bitter end what have you got to hide

I felt so tired ..i needed sleep
a wave ..a calm called in on me
was then that i saw some horror
my death my find my body soured

I saw them there ..the finders breath
they called my wife to give the death
I saw my love console our son
a shock a heart.. completly gone

I saw my body just took away
what a waste an end of days
it scared my soul it scared my head
i didnt sleep.. how did you guess

twas a night of nights that stole the show
that fell before our feet
the evening did so call us in ...
draw us neatly to the heat
that gold... that amber gold of hate
consuming so it did..beaten no retreat.

eaten from the inside ..not knowing what was wot
the ale did its job
what more that we forgot
I nearly..nearly lost him
me pal me bestest mate

so close to total hate i was
a fear ... knowing not to hurt
I left in hope ...a mist to fall away i wished
its redness so revealing
my love and so my hate

So waking in the morning ..
my mind a little clear
a fool he so did see or was it the beer
I laugh and joke our foolish thoughts
brothers to the end
it takes allsorts
me brother ...me tru.. true freind

The day creeps nearer
the date is calling
my heart still beats a beats thats fallin
time to find the truth no dare
time to live a life ..no beer

ten days so long yet even closer
to find my fate ..win or looser
no job ,no cash ,no way of knowing
fates new blow ..stay ..or going

I know that folk will laugh and fear
once my comeuppance for all those years
so time to duck and dive some more
time to fight them from the doors

being down but still not out
I'll fight that fight and beat them all
staying stong and living on
thats the plan ..what could go wrong ?

They still dont get it ..said brain to mouth
the fools ..the muppets ..no nounse about
its in ya head and bursting out
true tanlent awaits ..and waits not loud

Frustration fueling health and pain
mounting ,loosing and none to gain
another bill amounts inside
another wager festers wide

So call to all and all to one
I still do fight as fight goes on
I aint so over yet I feel
life is treating me not real

Only an hour to go ,only a lifetime to show
one little hour for the rest of my life ...only an hour to go
could only be 60 mins or so ...only an hour to go
feeling so dry ..only an hour to go

a wait for 2 weeks but only an hour to go
a change may be for life to be come my one little hour ago
sugar no show sugar to flow
just one little jab an I'll know

a life so so sweet and still lots to see
an hour just me hour to go
I smell nasty things yet feel so in peace
an hour ..my hour .. near so so near
i hope

If only ...i said yes
if only i'd said no
would i be me and you be you
if only i had loved instead one shoved
would i be here ...who would know

if only ...i turned left
would you have seen ..my face so confused
so incomplete
so full of love ..yet full of hate

if only ...you were here
a hug to break..a smile not fake
if only ....my mistake

here is a darkeness i cannot hide
a fear about to colide
a worry thats eatin me
my darkness its so in me

Can feel it in my bones
its drooling of holding home
I can taste it when I breath
taste the darkness thats feeding me

I look and see it there awaiting and not a care
It wants me ..wants me now
The darkness about in devour
my soul repels yet darkness holds
down and down I fall

I got it right ,I knew the score
no sugar to eat,no choccy galore
treacle **** gone vamouss,cream cake up the wall
but my health I do keep
I now know the score

Tis strange to be told ..your getting so old
to be given a chance is fine ..let us dance
I call myself lucky ,it could be much worse
i walk and play football and loose bad at golf
I wake up to see ..my son smile back at me
so get a big grip you soft sad old ***