The year did pass and felt so quick
another year without his whit
he played his golf upon the new
it was his last until his due!!!
.......................................
I died a year or Two.. a wake I guess
but now I think of him no less
He loved and liked and made me cry
........................................
why oh why did he so die
........................
I know look back and want to say
so so much got in our way
Dad ..you *** you got me good
Boy I loved so so much

I hate Tuesdays .....
its a pants day.
a none day
a one day

I hate Tuesdays ...
its a new day
the first day
of the week

I hate Tuesdays
but love
Sundays
Its bacon
roast beef dinner
Hovis bread for tea
and top gear on the telly

everyday should be Sunday

the best day of the week

The wind did blow around my soul
it parted life and breath to be
its coldness somewhat eatin out
its bitter biting deep and proud

still I walked into the breath of mothers life
a fog of death or maybe life
it crawl around and tried to tickle but I was ready

I RAN ...

I ran so fast ...I couldn breath
the fog ...the cold was chasing back
I turned and twisted but fight it did
So close so far ...yet breath give in !!


I crashed the door and stepped inside
my home ..its smell so sweet...so light
kettle on and tea to brew
i beat the cold and fog that blew
Until the next time for which I knew
the fog and cold would come to stew

the art of speaking is a thing of beauty r so its read
so why do you still keep banging in me head
ive said manyand felt a few
a head a bangin away we go

the thoughts I had just bounced around
and left me somewhat so spell bound
so here I sit awaiting thoughts
or maybe life of a sorts

to cry when you want to love
to smile when you want to give
to hold when you want to run

unconditional love

to listen when your hurt
to want when you have to give
to love when you want to hate

unconditional love

Love is life
a life of love
two bodies as one
two hearts colide
creating one
for life of love

Tell us the truth..
or lie some more
politicians dare decide our law

just once would be nice instead of pap
just one real thought not under attack
tell us the truth and lie no more
tell us reality no stories i plore

lie like you do and we wont vote
lie like you say and we wont show
llie through your teeth and god forbid
you turn in your grave and face
his death

red ..no white.. no golden blue
the moon so stood for all to view
in my face and shining bright
the joy.. the glow a true delight

The moon did shine a glow so pure
my eyes did see a sight amore
I wanted more but sad to say
the moon did hide for the day

that night I looked and no did see
no moon no stars no sightly sea
so maybe when i look again
I,ll see that moon .a heaven sent

I dreamed a dream of many dreams a dream that said so much
I dreamed of peace and freindliness I knew I dreamed in dutch
I dreamt of love and fairys flying or maybe thats to butch
but I dont care cos I did dream of mum and dad above

dreams untold about to fold
dreams of hugs and love to hold
dreams of kisses and lips so touched
love and hope and wanton touch

I had a dream the other day
my dad did visit and smiled his way
my mum just moaned cos thats her way
but dont be bothered
cos i wouldn .....want it.... any.... other way !!!!

a rose for your hair
a kiss for your lips
a heart i so give
a love so so bliss

a taste of your skin
the smell of your mist
the warmth of your hold
a love so bold

a kiss i so want
a hold of your heart
a touch of your hand
my love for you holds

You blew my heart away
you blew my mind
it started out there
and left behind

you kissed my inner side
and out there too
my darling wifey
I so love you x

So its the weekend ...the deep end
time for chillin ...beerin and feeding our souls
room for sleeping ...wantin and needin time out

watch some footy eat me breaky and drink lots of tea
grab me hangover ...drink some oj ..eat me eggy on toast
sunday dinner ...roasty tattys and beef on the bone
Hovis ...salmon sarnies or leftovers me boast

time of argues ..family values and shoutin each out
time for reason ,time for grandpas and cousins to visit afar

So the weekend ..what a weekend
time for monday morning blues

snorring in me right ear
snorring in me left
snorring from me right side
now i,m blooming deaf


dug her in the rib
kicked her on the shin
silence for a moment until
the din begins

Can hear it even down here
sounds like she,s drilling from above

Silence i so want
silence so I dream
silence in me ears
baby oh pleasssssssssssssss!!

Why oh why do we do it ...
Why oh why do we care ...
4o'clock in the morning
it aint really fair

bed is the place I'd rather be
warm and toastie inside
all wrapped up and still to tired
far to cold to be outside

Have to work to pay the bills
why oh why oh why

Do we die when we sleep or do we dream a death
do we breath we sleep or exhale our soul
do we wake and remember or just born again
i know not but know some

Do we live so that others die
do we die so that others can cry
do we have a point
I know not why

Do we fight to save a few
do we love so that loves shines through
Do we want yet need so less
I wish i knew

Do you remember a photo lost
do you wish you hadnt forgot
do we care
I cry !!!

last night i thought my hell was alive and very well
parked in a place that really really smelled
but as I sat there eatin pies and peas
I lokked over me shoulder and changed my very grief

soilders sitting ...having just a brew
no doubting about what they must do
all kitted out in sand style so hostile grounds to be
we pray and wish a safe and happy return

So next time i feel so hard done
so grief and derg inside
i,ll stare out to the sunlight and veiw the other side
be safe my friends be safe
as we stand by your side

Baby sugar baby .....I need you now
honey sugar honey .....my thirst you so

taste so good ...feel so light
gliding down ones throat

body rejects ...has no regret
I thirst you so

hypo no no
i know the way

jabby happy

Early is the wrong time
a long time to be on
early is to early to wakey up inside
early aint so easy.. aint no freedom to live
earlys just to early to get out me pit

so stay in bed and dream a little
live a little at night
wake to some songbirds some sunshine breaking in
wake stretchin armiiess and leggiees and lots of tea
wake up at the right time and not the early we live

stood up and it changed
stood up and i wobbled
stood up way to soon
now sittins all I do

head went one way I went the other
didnt know what to say way eh!!!
felt a quiver felt a chill
a hand I didnt want

feeling right now..feeling good
feeling as I really should
so go away ya quiver go away ya fall
stay strong and upright ..dont ever ever fall

I felt a cold that touched me
it felt like death was due
so I pushed it out ...it left me
my time aint yet .....blow you

a cold i really didnt like or want or ever know
a steel a feel a desperate need to run and duck below
yet heat and fire consummed my health a glow of such intense
so why so cold this hand that touched my heart and very soul

So live as everyday might be the one that takes a shine
a cold hand round your heart a feel about your soul
a grip thats got you good and tight a vice thats not to go
So live as well as you may do and dont be scared inside

fight it till the bitter end what have you got to hide

I felt so tired ..i needed sleep
a wave ..a calm called in on me
was then that i saw some horror
my death my find my body soured

I saw them there ..the finders breath
they called my wife to give the death
I saw my love console our son
a shock a heart.. completly gone

I saw my body just took away
what a waste an end of days
it scared my soul it scared my head
i didnt sleep.. how did you guess

twas a night of nights that stole the show
that fell before our feet
the evening did so call us in ...
draw us neatly to the heat
that gold... that amber gold of hate
consuming so it did..beaten no retreat.

eaten from the inside ..not knowing what was wot
the ale did its job
what more that we forgot
I nearly..nearly lost him
me pal me bestest mate

so close to total hate i was
a fear ... knowing not to hurt
I left in hope ...a mist to fall away i wished
its redness so revealing
my love and so my hate

So waking in the morning ..
my mind a little clear
a fool he so did see or was it the beer
I laugh and joke our foolish thoughts
brothers to the end
it takes allsorts
me brother ...me tru.. true freind

The day creeps nearer
the date is calling
my heart still beats a beats thats fallin
time to find the truth no dare
time to live a life ..no beer

ten days so long yet even closer
to find my fate ..win or looser
no job ,no cash ,no way of knowing
fates new blow ..stay ..or going

I know that folk will laugh and fear
once my comeuppance for all those years
so time to duck and dive some more
time to fight them from the doors

being down but still not out
I'll fight that fight and beat them all
staying stong and living on
thats the plan ..what could go wrong ?

They still dont get it ..said brain to mouth
the fools ..the muppets ..no nounse about
its in ya head and bursting out
true tanlent awaits ..and waits not loud

Frustration fueling health and pain
mounting ,loosing and none to gain
another bill amounts inside
another wager festers wide

So call to all and all to one
I still do fight as fight goes on
I aint so over yet I feel
life is treating me not real

Only an hour to go ,only a lifetime to show
one little hour for the rest of my life ...only an hour to go
could only be 60 mins or so ...only an hour to go
feeling so dry ..only an hour to go

a wait for 2 weeks but only an hour to go
a change may be for life to be come my one little hour ago
sugar no show sugar to flow
just one little jab an I'll know

a life so so sweet and still lots to see
an hour just me hour to go
I smell nasty things yet feel so in peace
an hour ..my hour .. near so so near
i hope

If only ...i said yes
if only i'd said no
would i be me and you be you
if only i had loved instead one shoved
would i be here ...who would know

if only ...i turned left
would you have seen ..my face so confused
so incomplete
so full of love ..yet full of hate

if only ...you were here
a hug to break..a smile not fake
if only ....my mistake

here is a darkeness i cannot hide
a fear about to colide
a worry thats eatin me
my darkness its so in me

Can feel it in my bones
its drooling of holding home
I can taste it when I breath
taste the darkness thats feeding me

I look and see it there awaiting and not a care
It wants me ..wants me now
The darkness about in devour
my soul repels yet darkness holds
down and down I fall

I got it right ,I knew the score
no sugar to eat,no choccy galore
treacle **** gone vamouss,cream cake up the wall
but my health I do keep
I now know the score

Tis strange to be told ..your getting so old
to be given a chance is fine ..let us dance
I call myself lucky ,it could be much worse
i walk and play football and loose bad at golf
I wake up to see ..my son smile back at me
so get a big grip you soft sad old ***

aint it bright to see the light a joy behold fresh air untold
the sun does shine so warmin face that felt so cold a lost embrace
deep within the glow returns ..a fighter a winner a breeze contend
deep deep breath abode does take the chance to live a love to slave
feel it sap the goodness in and blow away that awful sin
So cry out to the sun above good to see and one to love
our time to pray to its real power a love a hate do we devour
but for what can we not do the suns so darkness let light shine through

So so tired this mornings of mornings
so so sleepy today
oh so tired of yawning this morning
oh what long old day

awake yet so sleepy ..i cant understand
i slept like a baby and early so sad
but heavy lids are pulling me down
to sleepy ead and snoozy again and again
tired so tired of yawning around

I tried lots of coffee and food i ate plenty
but tired is a feeling that tired all the time
to wake so afresh and happy would i
as soon as my tire some would go underground

I must be mad I must be crazy
or am i daft or just so lazy
i feel that i may fall apart
my life has lost its brand new start

barriers and yes men fighting me
when all i want is food for tea
people saying simple things
that hold me back so loosing wings

dont they see the real me
the fun the free the one belief
I just want a peacefull life
thats full of love and free of strife
it aint so much yet i cant see
it cant be you it must be me

Beer in me head and beer in me soul
maybe I am and maybe its old
say what you like be as you please
dont take the *** when I displease

Oh boy I saw it ...it hurt way bad
the mirror image of old and sad
I thought i was a young guy
just plodding along
and then I saw it and all was wrong

I hated that man that I didnt know
starring back no smile or glow
age had taken youth away
yet I was young ..yesterday

A shock did follow that age had won
it took its time ..now times begun
I knew from then that seconds out
a time reflected aged and stout

So heart and head still youthfull wish
body not so age- eth with
fingers crinckled lines are drawn
fighting so ...a seen new dawn

one thing so.. we all will do
knock on deaths door ..me and you !

I wake and yet its today ..a day of wantin away
Tomorro I dont want to hear ...a fear a shiver... a spear
a death I so not want to see yet death was so close i could flee

He died yet is so part of me.. a pappa.. a dad ..a gentry
my rock my heart so I miss ...his sound vice and so smile a bliss
never hatin or questioning my..just a love.. a heart so inside

So dad that I miss ever more
I remember your sound and cant help the tears I still tore
you said that you were ok ..yet death was a second away
tomorro does bring you afore my love..oh my rock my ....
PAPPA!!

They creep and follow where none do go
the shadows hunt the light no show
I felt them want to take my depth reachin ..wanting darkness letch
pray that light does shine on through ..the shadows follow wanting you

Feel ther coldness and so cold ..darkness has its brand new hold
wrapping slowly round it goes ..taking light and turnin old
wrinkles soon do so appear..aging you and breathing fear
leave the light on so I say and shadows oh just go away

I slept today and fed away
my love of life and all its strife ..I thought id had it
but then I woke ..and life became a whole new scope
I,d drown in water.. be blown away
life expelled ..no new day
did shake my heart when I awoke that life still lived a breath ..no hold
jut laid in bed ..heart a beatin .waiting ,thinking was I dreamin

did i win? ,was i rich ?,damm them numbers ..nought came in
bet my soul ,didna save my skin ,still i lost win no win
so its dosh ,cash less me but im not poor with family
heard success is raising the bar ...bar of life or bar of strife

I have the best ,family life with health and child.. and ...what a wife
so when its measured in jobs and work ,forget that charge its love to shine .....
who will be there at your death ?,your boss who you worked for blood and sweat ??
your wife and kids and family grief ..they will cry and need relief
so when success is in your hand ...feed the love and understand
family first and all to follow,money aint success just sorrow

Did I really feel that pain... that so inside did me again
thought Id had to much of that ..oh **** its got me back and back
need to watch myself some more ,no parties ..wakes or fiesty bars
water ...soda that will do.. no beer for me nor ***** blue

My soul is flying way up high ..I feel its love somewhere inside
the blueness of those clouds above not white nor golden just full of love
my strings fell out no bow to strike ..no music sounding only fright
Maybe soon we'll here their tune.. a heart and bow with strings in bloom
Soul so flying way up high come on in its time to ......???

Ice--- scream Ice--- cream I want more
lots of Fardys gore gore gore ...
stick a flake in.. maybe two
I want Fardys what about you

Saucy sauce ..red or green
running down me old ice cream
lick it quick before it melts
Fardys taste so good it hurts

I scream--- Ice cream ..I want more
bring a Fardys to my door
99's so coming my way ..
Ice cream headache ..joy I say

wakin is not death but a death of life awake

Yes I know its gonna happen
I know i have to fall
but at least warn me when deaths about to call
......................................
does it hurt ,what will i feel ,
I guess it wont matter as darkness takes it hold
the hurt is for other left upon this world
......................................
Can i fight it back another day ,will it grab me and take me far away
well peace i hope is all i want and breath to fight another may

I feel it as I sit I feel it when I lay ...
The itchines inside me is fighting me today
stomach fightin pain thats always here to gloat ... yet itchiness takes over
a grin and not do bear ............

Carbs are overloaded yet count away we go
sugar fix awaiting to pain my bigger toe
spots are so a wantin on way to sprout my skin
the ******* even get me where!!!
privacy begins

Dia ..Dia ....betes leave me well alone
pick on someone evil
and make a happy home

Dia ..Dia ..Betes ...let me have some fun
maybe just a choccy bar or scrummy apple crum!!
dip a stick to 6.9 after loads a buns
Dia ..Dia ..Betes got ya on the run

My hands doth hold the key to time
yet cannot stop the grains that fly
waiting ,hoping wanting more
feeling life ... so insecure

changed my life and changed my ways yet still out searchin
better days

dreaded is that first day back and so the dreaded time attacks
tomoro comes another day and so the dreaded falls away
Time to love what we so have and throw the dreaded
in the sack

Raining wet and I breath the dry ,feelin cold against the dawn light of the moon yet my heart beats with fire as my soul still weeps ,raining wet under darkened clouds yet heat within blazing out ,sun so shine and warm my skin,dry my eyes deep within

I feel it course so through my veins
waiting ,testing me again
it wants to rule and take me over
anger ,rage my sugar fever!!!

Family hide and duck my fear
anger ,rage is so so near
feel it gaining ,getting there
anger ,rage ..my glucose lever !!

Take a breath ,do no harm
sit and fight out till the calm
there it stays until again
anger ,rage ..my sugar mist !!

Remember what they fought for
remember why they fell
remember all the killings
and living life in hell

Remember what they did for us
remember who they were
remember all the people
that they did fight and fall

A day to show our pride
a day to bow our heads
a day to moun our family
lest we forget

Friday was the day that I saw them stare
that look that lost lost fear
they came up of the fields and climbed out from their vans
the lost and lonely people working with their hands

their look was so apparent a stare that meant so much
that lost and lonely feeling of fightin loosing touch
i,d seen that look some time aback ..miners clocking off
that stare into the distance of a failure amongst the fatal dust

their hands just dropped beside them ,big yet rough as stone
hurting from the dampness.. working to the bone
that stare stayed still around them
imprinted on my mind
a worker so important... yet lost to depths of time

I saw the sign ..it wouldn go ..
a warning ..saying not to look
but look I did and now its time
to walk that road to walk that line

sun behind me and dust around
blackness down the road of time
shadow falls its only one ..mines a stretching so so long
falling of the end no fun!!

the end approaches I feel it near
grasping me and all my fear
the road is open for me to flow
wanting me to get in toe

Fight the fear fight the dread
time to close the road I said
many years its staying shut
until my life becoomes a rut

Breath ..breath my heart did say
gaspin air dreading day
breath ..breath my lungs did burst
******* fightin through the dirt

Finally oh the breath did come ..
heart did beat a mighty drum
veins a pumping ..life reliving
breath of air so life so giving