what are we really on about when we see breaking news
do i pity sad thoughts and wish away bad blues
it pains me to the bone how we are so brainwashed
to feel the hype of stardem is height that we should love

so what about the average folk that go about their lives
saving lots of others or cleaning to get by
why are we so focused on what the media say
when they just fill us up.. another brainwashed day

time we had a different way of feeding us with thoughts
maybe thats because we'd riot like they did before
20 months for t-shirt theft yet politicians walk
how can this be justified i really do deplore

change our ways and feel the free.. its time we took control
fight for freedom live the life ..its coming to the fore
or maybe we just fade away and cattle we become
chewing on the grass of life ..fattening so begins

waking to the fresh of dawn my body aches another snore
feel the need for sleep i do ..wakey wakey teapot brew
damm the night that had me hooked.. tv ,beer and loads a grub
just five more is all i ask sleep a little ..alarming bash

the pain is there yet no one see's
hidden from the light ..not hidden from me
itching and wanting all my time ..
the pain grows stronger as i decline
pills and potions ..not for me
cos Im a man ...just you see
tears do flow but all are dry
a man dont do some ..all disguise
pain inside is having fun
eating up its work near done

my body aches a thousand things
yet I dont want a thing
my arm has lost its will to move
the bruise is spreading thin
my wrist is smashed and doesnt work
it failure worries me
an elbow on the end of life
a life about to sink

a mind thats fell away in parts
a shattered living soul
yet on my face a thousand lines
that shows a broken fool
was i so born to end this way
a shame for all to see
but once the end is near ..not far
my world will fade away

feel the wind blow through me as I wander up through time
wandering where my past is and all thats left behind
staring at the moon ,it side we only see
im left to feel the wind blow softly feel the breeze

thoughts on freinds and loved ones that fell away in pasts
wondering on their lifes now ..did they really last
are they in the sun and feeling good on earth or maybe six foot under
pushing up the dirt

wonder if they feel the wind like i feel ...so fresh
do they ever think of me ..has my thoughts been left
will someone remember me for being who i am
will they feel the wind like me ..i hope they really can

born to run- away so fast coming at me -no way past
need for speed - no delay - time to run -run away
feel the heat upon my back -time to run -run so fast
nearly touching -feel the fire -on my back -no desire

out in the open -away for good -run away -away at last
breathing fresh- as all is fire -run away - free from past
fields of freedom - run so fast -away from trouble -run the blast
born to run away from hurt into the open sun does burst

a life in circles is how we move
breath of lefe inhaled - expeled
one the begining the other some end
a life in circles natures freind

round and round it all comes clear
a life in circles with nothing to fear
some are small and perfectly round
some are bigger -shapes unfound

only us can shape its size
all we need is is chance in life
perfectly formed -large and proud
a life a circle- so profound

could change about to happen be on the cards for me
a destiny begining a new life to be free
an opening on the cards a new life.. release indeed
a change a new begining ,begin and set me free
my time is served and ready so freedom cometh me
give me the chance to win again .
so live life ..
breath the free

sitting here as time evades
the woken state of clouds of haze
head so clear i blinded out
what was life so real about

mind in wander how we live
what is love that we do give
do i fear my death so early
why the thought that shivers me.. really

generations past and present (cry)
wonder if they thought as i
did they live and love their lives
or just sit out and pass by

a smile that melts a thousand hearts
my tears cry out for you
a laugh that warms my inner soul
blows music to my ears
your touch so sweet and tender
lights passion to my heart
my love
my love
i love you so
my sweet ..so sweet sweet heart

Last night i had a dream where heaven came to me
did follow this road so beautiful the drive was oh so free
led me to a place... a heaven ...a place for me

the sea was so exciting ...crashing waves in jest
a church left in the turmoil of battles gone and hence
the ruins felt so so right they looked not out of place
sea smelt of the saltiness yet bacon in the breeze

a cafe puffed smoke from near the front so small
it fit a few
bacon cobs a plenty ..and tea so right not stewed
two dogs did try and lick me ..they smelt a freind in me
my heaven came to be my life ..its name obscured from veiw

A map i found now of this place that hid so well from all
they called it bourne ..i didnt know and never been before
I woke up from my dream and knew what I had found
a heaven from my inner side a calmness now was found

So tired ...yet ..no sleep comes to me
even as i ache with thought
another day with pain yet no solace to spawn
skin tingling with fire yet no flame to wash away
sleep come to me so that.. dreams
get me through another day

darkness outside and darkness within
still no sleeping no calming begin
candles burned out no life left within
heartbeat decided a life spent in sin

headless spinning a new dawn shines on
the sleepless within me fights yawning begun
time to breath in a freshness to start
a new life within me a path an new start

here i go again with this line ..a track begin
no sleep to comfort me ..no head to clear to breath
my mind is fizzled out ...a break out give the shout
stir the hidden beast.. inside me set him free

I know he's ready now as eyelids sag and bow
will he break the free ..bonded on to me
madness is so close as tire takes its toll
monsters fall asleep and let me be the me

if only you could feel the pain that was so real
monsters crying shout ..let us all come out
scratching from inside they cry to be alive
as you fall asleep the monsters get to breath

My heart sank as my eyes viewed the sun
it was low as shadows grew longer into the darkening skies
night was fast approaching and the end to another day was nearly done
beauty would disappear as blindness became me

was this the last time i saw such awe
was the balance we so abuse on this earth still be here tomorrow
who are we to be so in control yet leave the starving
time will tell when tomorow becomes our hell

live for this day as if you need to
dont waste whats there to take.. to breathe.. to touch
earth will never forget you as dust fills the gaps
to start again dont live from the past

what a beautiful face as i looked her way
she didnt know it that i loved her eh
as she walked my way and spoke in haste
my love for her still grows in pain

what a lovely look from her to me
a look that gave me all i need
that smile that took my breath some where
a look of love fell into air
what touched me out as i felt her skin
electric daggers serious pins
i felt alive like never before
a look of love fell through my door

and now she's mine for ever more
my love my one that i amore
i love her in so many ways
my lover ..soulmate ...inamorata

darkness all around me as I lay about to sleep
was thinkin of the future was future without me
would I wake up to see the light a new day born I hope
or woud my body fade away last breath gone up in smoke

I guess you know the answer as I sit here writing this
but are you here to read my thoughts to share my wakened bliss
I'll never know the answer unless you speak through god
or maybe we will meet again along well trodden path

my thoughts of black did hide... a deep and darkened fear
was I about to miss all this... a fate.. nor goodbye cheer
I know ..I know the answer ...will come to me one day
when I have passed upon this earth and words just fade away

as I look on past those eyes
a calling falls to me
Time I took a breather time i looked and seen
see the crackle see the red
hope its just the work I do and nothin I may dread

My heart is saying all is fine ,my eyes say so much more
time to take another path
time to live the green
all is golden as glass is drunk
leaving so the aftermath of stolen hearts and soul

wake until the taste is gone
yet taste I crave so more
headache stolen for the day ....tomorro waits to fall
see the future ask my face a new way is begun
welcome to another place
a darkness falls away

I drew a life of a thousand faces yet none were as loverly as you
as i closed my eyes I saw that smile as it sparkles and twinkles my heart
you remind me of good like sunsets of gold and amber that fill up my life
my love for you babes is all that I ask in return for the love of my wife

Breath the air fall on my face as I see the world
no ties nor chain are now in place
i feel so free from all the harm
no more worries no more charm

See my glass so full it spills
see the real world feels a thrill
chains all broken so I can breath
breath the air breath the free

rules forgotten now dispersed
wishing you saw what i have met
join me in the new world seen
join me on a venture green
open your eyes to air unseen

I saw the sheets of steel fall across the sky..
the wonders of life dressed in a cloud
darkness portrayed yet new life reaching out
to smell the rain before its due.. to feel its power
earths life has new buds about to bore fruit

drops as big as stones bounced of the soil
markin the earth that was so ready to give
drenched in the liquid of life
so simple yet so strong

such a beauty to see life born to be free
clouds open their souls and relinquish their hold
as earth takes a breath a new dawn born again
I bow to the beauty that eyes let me see

I hear the voices in my head ..they tell me tales
tales not read
I feel a blackness over me.. the voices calling
set them free
strange the madness ..i feel great ..
no more worries ...no more hate

feel a wildness in my eyes ..see the stranger star.be skyed
am i crazy is that bad
feel the blackness feel the mad

set me free from all these things let me love and live again
calm the sound thats so within ..free the soul
let life begin

My night was broken to the sound i feared
rain did noise from ear to ear
i hate that sound when so alseep
dreams escaped me ...let me sleep

hear the drips from somewhere ...out
drip drip drip there is no doubt
awake and so tired yet still i hear drip drip drip
in me ear

feel the wetness as cars fly by
still the dripness ...madness cry
rain please stop and let me sleep
calm the madness inner me

pray for sunshine in the morning
give us sunlight through the dawning
let me sleep so i feel fresh ..stop the rain
or i'll be yawning

tears from god fall awakening the earth
for its thirst is deep its need not doubted
hungry for the taste of life in bloom

I hear the gentle music that falls from high
its his decision we have no choice
breathing new life and saving others

My heart cries a thousand beats into the night of dreaded heat
feeling so that feelings go ..dam the past and blow the blow
see the sky turn into red ..calmness falls do we forget

future lies not with this earth ..yet we hang for all its worth
money had its place in past ..time to move on do behast
head feels from another world ..heart is dying for the cause

death is the end life is the begining
yet its all the same
water is not made
life is not created
money has no value

one day age will be old and you will be past
young will mock the life you once had
working for nought to pay the debt
my mind in collapse

the spot on the moon did pass as i saw 3 cats
running in my eyesight running from the black
then I saw a rat.. that jumped in front of me
crossing to the other side ...hungry for its feed

was this a feeling or somewhat memory
of living in the past a previous live in me
or maybe luck was on my side ...the spot on such a moon
a sign from someone looking down.. upon my life of gloom

the sign did make me smile as it all came as one ..
a thought into the future ..a new way looking on
a fog that wouldn clear my eyes had been so long and gone
a new way now into my life ..the old one memories on

My mind is on fire ...can you see it burn
its heat is is desire.. a bar-b -cue turn
logic dictates that to touch will inflate
my big headed ego a mind in a state

my body is aching from work in undone
it feels so asleep yet a new days begun
can feel my bones wanting another sleep in
but mind is a calling wake up time again

alive and awake is how its begun
the death in the family has finally moved on
i feel so alive that I want to join in
my mind is alive now ...now let us begin

Is heaven in a shoe box ...has god just waved goodbye
did life just pass you over as your about to fly
was you so bad that life betrayed thee
could you have done so much more
Is heaven in a shoe box ..closed up for the night

Devils is in the detail ...or so we,re told so much
so why do we so bother if life was simply such
no-one told you how its done and no-one questioned why
devils in the detail ...go mess it up lets fight

So pick your box and find within ..the shoes that fit your life
its your one chance to change your way a new day that begin
no more detail no more sin just heaven in a shoe box
its open lets begin ........

Pain behind my eyes

eyelids that wont close as dawn awakes ...oh the dread of another day
pain behind my eyes yet no end from the pills that blind my soul
lifeless in a world so full of gold so full of hope
torture from the past now hunting for my very future
pain behind my eyes yet no end from the pills that blind my soul

stretching ...waking yet sleep evades another days night
Pain behind my eyes yet no end from the pills that blind my soul
see the world from a place ...a place in fear of death
light into my eyes show no life begun just a past behind
Pain behind my eyes still no end from the pills that blind my soul

The open window

The open window showed no life inside yet a shadow fell
stooped over a desk the lonely man wallowed in the paperwork ..
that bestowed him for many years yet why have this honour
an honour of chains that gave many links to the time served
he looked as he always did into the outside world from once he did live
a life so far away ..a family lost in the grind of the day that was his dream
now faded away

The open window showed a life that never lived ..a chance once missed
a dream one wish.. yet paperwork came with money.. yet no fame..
eyes looked out yet no light shone ..all gleam gone a future done
the man shook his head as he remembered good time remembered the best
stooped over his desk as ink dried pushing his pen
a picture nearby that nearly brought a smile as he reached to touch
a ring that shatterd the silence in him another call another meeting
The open window closed as the cold wind washed inside .they say
fortune favours the brave

As I lay there at the break of dawn a chorus fills my ears
blackbirds sing their heart a din that some might really fear
yet in my heart I feel the break that nature has begun
the dawning of a new life a day about begun

a sound so rich it warmed my soul was music to my ears
so sweet so loving everyday it warmed me to near tears
do we ever get the chance to feel the sound we love
a song so rich yet never read a blacbirds voice from god

as my senses come alive.. my mind in overdrive
my eyes yet not awake ..yet song i hear ..no mistake
a beauty sound outside ..a blackbird voice in cry
my eyes still so asleep awaken mind from deep

not wanting day begun ..a daylight warms my home
a light does shine inside ..awake my eyes alive
I open them with strain.. my dream near gone again
until another night when all becomes real life

so early in my mind i seek more sleep inside
to stay all warm in here a bedroom blissness MMMMmm!!
so live another day.. awake again make no mistake
enjoy what you so have a life to live a day to break

The times that are a changing
change right in front of me
time to climb the olive tree ..time to set me free
times they are a changing..time to turn the key

age the soul but leave my mind
keep me young and fill my eyes
show me beauty show me love
live a life as i could

times they are a changing
changing life in time
time to live the life of good ..time to crack the mould
times they are for changing ..live your life be free

a blackend cloud on a darkend day blow wind blow this gloom away
feel the cloud touching out feel its power feel its clout
cotton candy so they look yet pure danger evils touch

blow wind blow my thoughts away leave me clean for today
give my soul some peace for once give it feedom give it love
charge my mind with happy days fight the fire damp the blaze

clean me out so i can see ..see a future ,happy free

should day become tomorrow ..a day that i should die
would life upon this planet care.. would people laugh or cry
would time go on un-noticed ..would people hold their breath
i very much so doubt it my life now sudden death

do flags get flown because im out and nearly 6ft down
i very much do worry not i bet no sudden frowns
my life is that a tiny ant ..that ****!! no longer there
i bet a younger ant like me be ready that i fear

In times gone past we hasten had forgotten all our pals
remebering of the dead we know yet someone filled their souls
will we become a memory fad that people just dont share
a stone inside a churches yard bare of love and care

My death will go so no one see's a greif of family life
my freinds,my love and closest ones will mourneth me
a day of life be had
time will heal those wounded souls and time will fade away
leaving just a dusty stone crumbling day by day

I cant explain it but a calm is over me
ive lost all of my anger and freedoms set me free
Eltons playing as I drink me tea and I think its gonna be all fine
all fine and free

rocket man is flying and i feel just as fine
fine as a flower about to come to bloom
sunnier that the pond that glistens back at me
happier than a bird in flight and free

feel so free and love this life
its one chance in destiny a chance thats all mine
free is waking when sun comes up
free is singing me songs of love
free to finally be me

why do I feel so empty and why do I feel so low
is earth about to fall apart is life so through and through
have birds stopped singing lullabys has sun gone in for good
time will be the telling point
time to move to hell

will it be so better being underground
dark amongst the devils ..breathing deathly charms
heat from all souls on fire stoaking all their sins
maybe best I dont look down repeateth all my sins

time I looked into the sky and held my head up high
time to fight the fire burn ..fight it with my life
time i blessed the earthy good so rich and close to me
time i lived a brand new life
a life a time be free

chippy churpy happy birds
so full of joys of spring
hear their voices singing out
a wonderous glorious din

wake up to a song of summer
just around the bend
sing the spring into the day
a fabulous day again

chippy churpy sing along
tweeting as we go
bring a smile into today
and share it with your freinds

could see the shadow from the corner of my eye
see them standing waiting by
could feel their presence wanting me
see there coldness needing me

could feel their looks just staring out
see their blood all red and loud
could feel their noise all over me
see their touch out grabbing me

from the corner of my eye i waited standing by
a shudder from way down low
a feeling time to go
a breath not taken yet from the smell of deadend flesh

as i blinked i gave a cry
a feeling deep inside
a time to look away
from the corner of my eye

As i breath i feel it stirring that..
pain inside has started churning
chest feels weak as i draw breath..
fighting for a living death

pops of pain shoot through my veins
coursing ,looking ,gaining aim
fingers, toes and god knows where
pain does cometh with its fear

hold my breath its gone away
no.. no.. no ..to soon to say
its spreads inside yet i cant stop it
eating, feeding,living ,dying

bide my time as death comes calling
no more pain and no more crying
feel that itch is this the time
breath so short so in decline

time did call and float i did
saw a world that i not lived
no more pain and freedom waits
at his doors a knock i gave

welcome arms from someone strong
welcome to a world of love
welcome to a world of peace
welcome to lifes destiny

looking out on a cloudy day
sun and haze come my way
yet all inside is lost not found
how surreal how profound
heart still reaching loves once lost
head so down deep deep mud

looking out as rain falls wet
feel inside feeling dead
want that freedom life can hold
feel the need to break the mould
chains so wrapped i cant break free
free of live a live to breath

looking out as sun does shine
feel the warm feeling strong
chains no hold and death afar
breath the air breath the fire
stand up strong and look outside
time to change as i desire

can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain
its there right inside of you
its there for all to see

feel it in your dreams
wanting breaking free
can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain

lost and gone forever
never to be seen
family ,freinds and lovers
faces in the sand
can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain

pictures from another world
times from long ago
memories held for evermore

can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain
emptiness has its hold on you
tears wet.. to ease the pain

the wind did blow around me so
felt fresh and new to the spring
heat in the sun ..a joyous day has begun

flowers spawn awaken to the dawn
birds so alive ..a noise maybe a yawn
cows make their way ..milk please today
smile as a new day is born

wikka wakka wikka wakka
smiley on a plate

wikka wakka wikka wakka
smiley on a face

wikka wakka wikka wakka
what a smashing day

The year did pass and felt so quick
another year without his whit
he played his golf upon the new
it was his last until his due!!!

I died a year or Two.. a wake I guess
but now I think of him no less
He loved and liked and made me cry

why oh why did he so die

I know look back and want to say
so so much got in our way
Dad ..you *** you got me good
Dad I love you so so much

Twas 1942 my fathers day was due
he came upon this earth a babies brand new birth
they said he wouldn make it without his daddys blood
and thats what made him special ..a special kind of love

Twas 1966 my birthday ..a blessing in disguise
could only all have happened.. with my fathers fatherly love
i came upon this earth and caused a scarey stir
another babies breath a breathing from the air

Twas 1997 my son did come about ..was born to be so special
with that i have no doubt
so luck should have our family that i can give some thanks
cos tomorow was his birthday my dad my true best freind

tracks appeared across the light blue sky
like shadows in the snow
planes crossing way up high
wonders at where they go
breath the cold fresh air as springs about to show
clear skies for all to see as sun brings heat and glow

flowers shoot and freshness comes
a new day dawn is on
garden grows and blossoms out
as birds do tweet and song

time for clean and nice fresh beds
time for summers sun
time for throwing cobwebs out
and dust the dust thats gone

spring is here i feel it so
yet May is not yet over
never cast a clout till May be out
or find a four leaf clover

the sky shone of a morning song ..
colours that showed earths delight
red and yellows skys inferno
born a new day of delight

fresh air waits for all to breath
cleansed by darkness fazed by dreams
woken from a deepness low
woken into mornings glow
woken from a place not home
dreamt awaking eyes unknown

sky so wanted so i could see
a mornings glow
a love complete
look up high as stars do fade
see inferno see the blaze

the caw was so significant ...it chilled me so
the crow just perched there standing still
no other was around him a coldness fell about
was today the day death gave a shout

i shivered so the thought ..that time was nearly due
my life was so not over yet could be through and through
as i looked the caw became a shout the bird he did a flutter
i covered my ears with my eyes ..was i about to die

yet here i am still on this place
another chance to live and master grace
yet as i close my eyes.. i can still see the crow
no doubt one day he will come for.. me and you

I didnt really need it but thought it was so nice
a lovely cup of coffee and nothing for a price
it made me think of kindness that people sometimes do
instead of charging bucket loads
and robbing me or you

yesterday was different the parking man did lie
he robbed me all of 50 quid yet told me all was right
i wont forget his lying eyes and hope he trips and falls
that coffee gave this morning never taste so good