tears from god fall awakening the earth
for its thirst is deep its need not doubted
hungry for the taste of life in bloom

I hear the gentle music that falls from high
its his decision we have no choice
breathing new life and saving others

My heart cries a thousand beats into the night of dreaded heat
feeling so that feelings go ..dam the past and blow the blow
see the sky turn into red ..calmness falls do we forget

future lies not with this earth ..yet we hang for all its worth
money had its place in past ..time to move on do behast
head feels from another world ..heart is dying for the cause

death is the end life is the begining
yet its all the same
water is not made
life is not created
money has no value

one day age will be old and you will be past
young will mock the life you once had
working for nought to pay the debt
my mind in collapse

the spot on the moon did pass as i saw 3 cats
running in my eyesight running from the black
then I saw a rat.. that jumped in front of me
crossing to the other side ...hungry for its feed

was this a feeling or somewhat memory
of living in the past a previous live in me
or maybe luck was on my side ...the spot on such a moon
a sign from someone looking down.. upon my life of gloom

the sign did make me smile as it all came as one ..
a thought into the future ..a new way looking on
a fog that wouldn clear my eyes had been so long and gone
a new way now into my life ..the old one memories on

My mind is on fire ...can you see it burn
its heat is is desire.. a bar-b -cue turn
logic dictates that to touch will inflate
my big headed ego a mind in a state

my body is aching from work in undone
it feels so asleep yet a new days begun
can feel my bones wanting another sleep in
but mind is a calling wake up time again

alive and awake is how its begun
the death in the family has finally moved on
i feel so alive that I want to join in
my mind is alive now ...now let us begin

Is heaven in a shoe box ...has god just waved goodbye
did life just pass you over as your about to fly
was you so bad that life betrayed thee
could you have done so much more
Is heaven in a shoe box ..closed up for the night

Devils is in the detail ...or so we,re told so much
so why do we so bother if life was simply such
no-one told you how its done and no-one questioned why
devils in the detail ...go mess it up lets fight

So pick your box and find within ..the shoes that fit your life
its your one chance to change your way a new day that begin
no more detail no more sin just heaven in a shoe box
its open lets begin ........

Pain behind my eyes

eyelids that wont close as dawn awakes ...oh the dread of another day
pain behind my eyes yet no end from the pills that blind my soul
lifeless in a world so full of gold so full of hope
torture from the past now hunting for my very future
pain behind my eyes yet no end from the pills that blind my soul

stretching ...waking yet sleep evades another days night
Pain behind my eyes yet no end from the pills that blind my soul
see the world from a place ...a place in fear of death
light into my eyes show no life begun just a past behind
Pain behind my eyes still no end from the pills that blind my soul

The open window

The open window showed no life inside yet a shadow fell
stooped over a desk the lonely man wallowed in the paperwork ..
that bestowed him for many years yet why have this honour
an honour of chains that gave many links to the time served
he looked as he always did into the outside world from once he did live
a life so far away ..a family lost in the grind of the day that was his dream
now faded away

The open window showed a life that never lived ..a chance once missed
a dream one wish.. yet paperwork came with money.. yet no fame..
eyes looked out yet no light shone ..all gleam gone a future done
the man shook his head as he remembered good time remembered the best
stooped over his desk as ink dried pushing his pen
a picture nearby that nearly brought a smile as he reached to touch
a ring that shatterd the silence in him another call another meeting
The open window closed as the cold wind washed inside .they say
fortune favours the brave

As I lay there at the break of dawn a chorus fills my ears
blackbirds sing their heart a din that some might really fear
yet in my heart I feel the break that nature has begun
the dawning of a new life a day about begun

a sound so rich it warmed my soul was music to my ears
so sweet so loving everyday it warmed me to near tears
do we ever get the chance to feel the sound we love
a song so rich yet never read a blacbirds voice from god

as my senses come alive.. my mind in overdrive
my eyes yet not awake ..yet song i hear ..no mistake
a beauty sound outside ..a blackbird voice in cry
my eyes still so asleep awaken mind from deep

not wanting day begun ..a daylight warms my home
a light does shine inside ..awake my eyes alive
I open them with strain.. my dream near gone again
until another night when all becomes real life

so early in my mind i seek more sleep inside
to stay all warm in here a bedroom blissness MMMMmm!!
so live another day.. awake again make no mistake
enjoy what you so have a life to live a day to break

The times that are a changing
change right in front of me
time to climb the olive tree ..time to set me free
times they are a changing..time to turn the key

age the soul but leave my mind
keep me young and fill my eyes
show me beauty show me love
live a life as i could

times they are a changing
changing life in time
time to live the life of good ..time to crack the mould
times they are for changing ..live your life be free

a blackend cloud on a darkend day blow wind blow this gloom away
feel the cloud touching out feel its power feel its clout
cotton candy so they look yet pure danger evils touch

blow wind blow my thoughts away leave me clean for today
give my soul some peace for once give it feedom give it love
charge my mind with happy days fight the fire damp the blaze

clean me out so i can see ..see a future ,happy free

should day become tomorrow ..a day that i should die
would life upon this planet care.. would people laugh or cry
would time go on un-noticed ..would people hold their breath
i very much so doubt it my life now sudden death

do flags get flown because im out and nearly 6ft down
i very much do worry not i bet no sudden frowns
my life is that a tiny ant ..that ****!! no longer there
i bet a younger ant like me be ready that i fear

In times gone past we hasten had forgotten all our pals
remebering of the dead we know yet someone filled their souls
will we become a memory fad that people just dont share
a stone inside a churches yard bare of love and care

My death will go so no one see's a greif of family life
my freinds,my love and closest ones will mourneth me
a day of life be had
time will heal those wounded souls and time will fade away
leaving just a dusty stone crumbling day by day

I cant explain it but a calm is over me
ive lost all of my anger and freedoms set me free
Eltons playing as I drink me tea and I think its gonna be all fine
all fine and free

rocket man is flying and i feel just as fine
fine as a flower about to come to bloom
sunnier that the pond that glistens back at me
happier than a bird in flight and free

feel so free and love this life
its one chance in destiny a chance thats all mine
free is waking when sun comes up
free is singing me songs of love
free to finally be me

why do I feel so empty and why do I feel so low
is earth about to fall apart is life so through and through
have birds stopped singing lullabys has sun gone in for good
time will be the telling point
time to move to hell

will it be so better being underground
dark amongst the devils ..breathing deathly charms
heat from all souls on fire stoaking all their sins
maybe best I dont look down repeateth all my sins

time I looked into the sky and held my head up high
time to fight the fire burn ..fight it with my life
time i blessed the earthy good so rich and close to me
time i lived a brand new life
a life a time be free

chippy churpy happy birds
so full of joys of spring
hear their voices singing out
a wonderous glorious din

wake up to a song of summer
just around the bend
sing the spring into the day
a fabulous day again

chippy churpy sing along
tweeting as we go
bring a smile into today
and share it with your freinds

could see the shadow from the corner of my eye
see them standing waiting by
could feel their presence wanting me
see there coldness needing me

could feel their looks just staring out
see their blood all red and loud
could feel their noise all over me
see their touch out grabbing me

from the corner of my eye i waited standing by
a shudder from way down low
a feeling time to go
a breath not taken yet from the smell of deadend flesh

as i blinked i gave a cry
a feeling deep inside
a time to look away
from the corner of my eye

As i breath i feel it stirring that..
pain inside has started churning
chest feels weak as i draw breath..
fighting for a living death

pops of pain shoot through my veins
coursing ,looking ,gaining aim
fingers, toes and god knows where
pain does cometh with its fear

hold my breath its gone away
no.. no.. no ..to soon to say
its spreads inside yet i cant stop it
eating, feeding,living ,dying

bide my time as death comes calling
no more pain and no more crying
feel that itch is this the time
breath so short so in decline

time did call and float i did
saw a world that i not lived
no more pain and freedom waits
at his doors a knock i gave

welcome arms from someone strong
welcome to a world of love
welcome to a world of peace
welcome to lifes destiny

looking out on a cloudy day
sun and haze come my way
yet all inside is lost not found
how surreal how profound
heart still reaching loves once lost
head so down deep deep mud

looking out as rain falls wet
feel inside feeling dead
want that freedom life can hold
feel the need to break the mould
chains so wrapped i cant break free
free of live a live to breath

looking out as sun does shine
feel the warm feeling strong
chains no hold and death afar
breath the air breath the fire
stand up strong and look outside
time to change as i desire

can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain
its there right inside of you
its there for all to see

feel it in your dreams
wanting breaking free
can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain

lost and gone forever
never to be seen
family ,freinds and lovers
faces in the sand
can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain

pictures from another world
times from long ago
memories held for evermore

can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain
emptiness has its hold on you
tears wet.. to ease the pain

the wind did blow around me so
felt fresh and new to the spring
heat in the sun ..a joyous day has begun

flowers spawn awaken to the dawn
birds so alive ..a noise maybe a yawn
cows make their way ..milk please today
smile as a new day is born

wikka wakka wikka wakka
smiley on a plate

wikka wakka wikka wakka
smiley on a face

wikka wakka wikka wakka
what a smashing day

The year did pass and felt so quick
another year without his whit
he played his golf upon the new
it was his last until his due!!!

I died a year or Two.. a wake I guess
but now I think of him no less
He loved and liked and made me cry

why oh why did he so die

I know look back and want to say
so so much got in our way
Dad ..you *** you got me good
Dad I love you so so much

Twas 1942 my fathers day was due
he came upon this earth a babies brand new birth
they said he wouldn make it without his daddys blood
and thats what made him special ..a special kind of love

Twas 1966 my birthday ..a blessing in disguise
could only all have happened.. with my fathers fatherly love
i came upon this earth and caused a scarey stir
another babies breath a breathing from the air

Twas 1997 my son did come about ..was born to be so special
with that i have no doubt
so luck should have our family that i can give some thanks
cos tomorow was his birthday my dad my true best freind

tracks appeared across the light blue sky
like shadows in the snow
planes crossing way up high
wonders at where they go
breath the cold fresh air as springs about to show
clear skies for all to see as sun brings heat and glow

flowers shoot and freshness comes
a new day dawn is on
garden grows and blossoms out
as birds do tweet and song

time for clean and nice fresh beds
time for summers sun
time for throwing cobwebs out
and dust the dust thats gone

spring is here i feel it so
yet May is not yet over
never cast a clout till May be out
or find a four leaf clover

the sky shone of a morning song ..
colours that showed earths delight
red and yellows skys inferno
born a new day of delight

fresh air waits for all to breath
cleansed by darkness fazed by dreams
woken from a deepness low
woken into mornings glow
woken from a place not home
dreamt awaking eyes unknown

sky so wanted so i could see
a mornings glow
a love complete
look up high as stars do fade
see inferno see the blaze

the caw was so significant ...it chilled me so
the crow just perched there standing still
no other was around him a coldness fell about
was today the day death gave a shout

i shivered so the thought ..that time was nearly due
my life was so not over yet could be through and through
as i looked the caw became a shout the bird he did a flutter
i covered my ears with my eyes ..was i about to die

yet here i am still on this place
another chance to live and master grace
yet as i close my eyes.. i can still see the crow
no doubt one day he will come for.. me and you

I didnt really need it but thought it was so nice
a lovely cup of coffee and nothing for a price
it made me think of kindness that people sometimes do
instead of charging bucket loads
and robbing me or you

yesterday was different the parking man did lie
he robbed me all of 50 quid yet told me all was right
i wont forget his lying eyes and hope he trips and falls
that coffee gave this morning never taste so good

ground shaking at mothers waking... feel the tremour through the dawn
earth is rattled ....showing strength to do us harm
building fall as cities wake to terrors harm

water washing dragging all..spread throughout the oceans breadth
people hoping ,hiding, running fear inside them born
wish them well and all to safety mothers earth be back to calm

dimished like a ghost passing through
that life no more ..means life too you
failures inner mist broken from the heart..
once so strong now time will tell the path

future becoming lost in the truth
that life no more ...means life too you
a sparlkle that shines no more ..a wish
a waiting a wanting more ....

My son you are a star..my number one by far
you always make me laugh and tease me cos im daft
its great when we do buff and coding is real good
now looks yes there all mine but yours will be just fine
cos my genes are in you ..unlucky mummys too

Son you are a star ..my number one by far
your kinder than the rest and always give your best
footy is your game and boxing makes you brave
you used to be so small now tower over all

Son you are a star ..my number one by far
you help me every day and give your heart in so many ways
you love to stay around and make us laugh when down
dont change cos your the best
my son ..my star i love you more than the universe x

I fear the face that fears of doubt and lost thrown years all lights gone out
still regrets of things not done the facing fear a life begun
many times i wondered why the fear in me became my lie
time to turn the page in time time to move the opening line

sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
winter lining still has its hold
teeth that do chatter to shiver through my bones
see my air be breathing ..god its ****** cold
wind that be blowing round my little home
summer hurry up i want it hot not cold

............................


sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
feel the finger of the ice man grappling ..grabbing hold ..
winters lining still out there not giving up the ghost
wanting ,freezing life.. still freeze me to the bone
teeth that do chatter ....no sound that says hello
they click and do clatter no stopping in this cold
see my breath be breathing...crystals in the air
******* warm from in me chilling me i fear
wind doth blow right round me even in my home
get the fire burning oh my god its cold

sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
winter lining still has its hold
teeth that do chatter to shiver through my bones
see my air be breathing ..god its ****** cold
wind that be blowing round my little home
summer hurry up i want it hot not cold

............................


sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
feel the finger of the ice man grappling ..grabbing hold ..
winters lining still out there not giving up the ghost
wanting ,freezing life.. still freeze me to the bone
teeth that do chatter ....no sound that says hello
they click and do clatter no stopping in this cold
see my breath be breathing...crystals in the air
******* warm from in me chilling me i fear
wind doth blow right round me even in my home
get the fire burning oh my god its cold

why does my shadow.. seem darker today
was it the weather ...sunny maybe grey
why did i feel that rain was tipping down
yet when i looked up.. blue skies all around

why did my mood ...swing from left to right
mabye im sorry for all what said last night
maybe im just sad... that all around seems dull
maybe the light has gone for good ..who knows

time i woke and breathed fresh air
time to put things right
time to plant some flowers and watch them grow ..thats right
time to raise ones eyebrow and crack a smile or too
time for new begining ...
join me be my crew

money in it money out what is life all about
scrimp and save for what we hear
life in homes for old dears

yet we plod along the way
nodding on no futures grace
money rules money hurts
thems the rules aint life a b#tch

I wake from night still tasting evening
wine and pasta filled my soul
head throbbing from nectars gold
wishing never ever again

down a bottle yet want no more
until the thirst become the norm
tastes of a golden apple ...more more more

want water yet golden wine takes my breath take my life
life of torture life of famine
life of thirsting life in decline

my eyes stay closed as i awake
darkness staring daylights grace
do I venture into daylight
eyes stay shut into the mist

I hear voices yet move aint there
talking at me still i stare
blackness looking out i see
wishing daylight i should be

doctors.. nurses say all this
yet the dark and blackness lives
wake me from this so called dream
bring me life ..reality

I saw his shadow and warmed at his smile
my dad my mate my soul plus one
he never ever saw me other than his son
faultless little bundle from heaven maybe hell
saw him sat beside me wanted
wishing me was here wanting so to call him brought me to a tear

Can hear his voice so sweetly ...laughing so out loud
remembering all those good times
scarborough sounds about
yet there I was this daytime looking over there
seeing daddys shadow sitting the chair ..made me sad and happy
that thoughts I knew he had
son just be ones happy ...
dont worry im alright

I hear the drops as they fall
banging louder in the squall
memories of a nother day
washing thoughts of age away

yet they bring a new me you
smell the freshness..smell of new
yet I feel so part a past
wishing future never last

time to wash away some dirt
time to move on in overt
time to clean the past away
wishin washing every day

sitting here again ...life without the din
waiting for the future missing from the past
sitting here again..time just pasing time
wondered round the corner ..different path ,different life

sitting here again ..thinking of the future
thinking lifes regrets
sitting here again ..saddness next to sorrow
said i wished id said so many things

sitting here again..smiling at the loves
life has paid to me
children playing, lovers holding
life in perfect peace

The road left long and grey,bordom in a way
seemed so straight so full of sorrow
no feeling,no love nor beauty given
a road of death  ..devil driven

The sun appeared a smile did grow
my heart skipped a warmin glow
the glare shown bright a gazzling sight
warming skin a sun so bright

driving home to get there soon
fight the grey the so called gloom
streams of lights before me glow
darkness stretching through the ticking time into the night
soon be home

The shaken earth that so so stood shook against all thats good
people ran and hid for cover fearing life and soon to suffer
burried in a living grave we hope and pray that all will save

our mother earth shows many sides and cares not who is victimised
we bless each day its not our last and hope to see the fresh green grass
my thoughts go out to all thats hurt and pray that
mother ....earth is quiet .....Shhhhhhh!!!

Just a little thought to all the peeps in New Zealand **

the roadside ghosts are there to see
crosses bear lifes misery
yet we trundle flying by
wishing.... hoping ...its not our time

I see their faces and feel the pain.. the ghosts standing waiting shame
the fog that shows them in the light only coming out when night
why can me and only me see the ghostly shapes that be
the roadside ghosts i fear them most
feel the creeping
shivers me whole

i,d smelt that smell before ...death was at his door
he didnt know it ..yet i could smell it death would have him soon
he carried on as if nothing wrong yet i could smell so well
death was waiting ,panting stinking death was at his door

my nose did linger ,a smell so vile yet memories made me sad
that smell so well... that i knew dealt a deathy blow.. it sent a shiver

he looked quite well but soon would show the stench of ground below
freinds would crowd a grief alound ..showing respect now due
said good bye but did not cry as they melted away like snow

the ticking time ...shys away from real truth
that the moment is gone along with our youth
never to be had
no looking back
wishing it all again

the time we knew,,worlds now apart
yet wishing i spoke those words
hoping i said those thoughts
thinking im lost ..whatever the cost ..all hurt

the ticking time passed me by without a care in the world
straight through me as i blinked ..devouring like a drink
left so thirsty and alone .....all alone and so quiet
time passes by and youth becomes the past
when its time its our time to meet
memories now oblique..
time done its deed

My dream became my other world so real or is this fake
I dreamt of many crazy things like floating in a lake
i must be mads cos I dont swim and sink just like a brick
my dreams are more reality than I could ever think

I pinched myself so I could see the difference from the two
but would I really tell apart the dreaming from the truth
time will tell when one does wain and all becomes a blurr
the dreaming and reality ..I concur

Bang!!! ...thats how it feels to wake up from the black
thats how we stire from beyond ..thats how we live in this world
Bang the black is near ..it shivers my fear ...
Bang!!!
now im scared

Most of us just never will know when him up there decides hello
but some do plan for when its near ,no sky to see just many tears
no kids to cry get out the way or christmas cards or big birthday
to want to know or be it told must be bad for all who old
Yet strength ive read in someones sorrow they live today and not for morro
for plan they do as body tires a brave young lady a real fighter

I wish her peace and family strength the bravest thing ive heard in a long time Donna is 17 and has a rare form of cancer and has planned her own funeral Bless you donna and all your family

My soul crys yet another day ..feelings so near so far away
turned that corner that turned on me ..made my life ones life away
yet i want so more to see a life of livings destiny
ropes of chain surround my whole waiting watching bait the cold
one day soon i'll see the light ..all lifes future life begun