Wash away my colour

The wind comes in and
It's cold
They tell us lies
Yet
It fits the colour
Hides the truth that
Under
We are all the same

I wear this coat of me you see
A rainbow coloured skin
like yours it's me
Warm
And full of life ..full of freedom

Yet if
I could wash away my colours
Dance upon the rain
Dust my legs in puddles
Under all the same

My red is in my blood
It bleed like all on here
Our heaven be thy earth
This kingdom of insane

So  
Wash away my colour
Treat us all as one
That's what we live and die for
Our hope
A dream begun

To the person I've become
I like you a lot
That anger that became you
No longer rages

As life goes on its ending
I hope you read me well
So understand my wanton
I lived a mental hell

Yet peace becomes my coat
So made of colours many
I will wear it well
till
It bleeds my crimson death

You may see this coat of colours  
These words all in the past
Tis written on these papers
A life I didn't laugh

I like the future me inside me
It's better than the past
Yet time has come my enemy
To
Live it while it lasts

I wanted to take all your pain away
I failed
I wanted it to be all better again
I failed
Maybe my words of love and want and a future to come can help
Maybe

I wanted this week to end three days ago
I failed
I wanted the news but not those words
I failed
Your ache will become you
This challenge to beat all challenges to a future to come
I failed you

Tomorrow is your future
Tomorrow is your time
Don't bitter on the past as those memories will stay rightly as
Tomorrow is today

Grip it and fight it
Show your teeth at heavens door
Because you are the tomorrow
My future
And this world is depending on you
So be the you
Be the future

Strange way to die

My breath all fading
A mess behaving
The calm to end a storm
Raged and all forlorn
The end is number 9

Now 9 was wanting trouble
And trouble came his way
He thought he was a wise one
Ducking out this day
But little did he know this that
2 was in his wings
Waiting for that moment
Ready for its sting

I watched them fight above me
The gods were standing by
I climbed but kept on slipping
3 was by my side
So here I stay some longer
The numbers never lie
My 2 was fighting for me
My death from 9
Denied

Really Number 6

What have you done
Where is my sun
Have you hidden it
Taken all it's glow
July is shivering
Drowning in the rain
Give me back my sunshine
Take away the grey

I want to feel the warmth
Golden coloured land
Sun be in my vision
Buckets in the sand
Ice cream dripping down me
Sweat upon this brow
Give me back my sunshine
Calling number 9

Number 7

I could see the same old curtains
Taste their tang
Stale damp and worthless
Netting stained to match
This house once had joy
It once had love

And yet I walked past it most days
Never noticed the rotting windows
Nor the lack of life
So why today
Was it a reflection of me
Was I in fact just looking in the mirror

In my mind I'm 18 yet my body laughs a giggle
Creaks a groan
That glance of ones reflection
Catching a gasp of grey
Seeing lines and crevasses
From cloudy eyes in deny

So there it is
It's not deep
Not sad
Just an ebb I'm fading too
This number almost up
Seven

Pieces of Eight

The piece fits yet my heart cries a sorrow
Saddened and lonely as I walk the dusted path
Flowers trodden,grass all straw my heaven all a front
These tears a drowning pool

Last night was nearly over
This breath a rasp of roars
A fight on the continue
I live another day

So I must sparkle in this madness
Make every second count
You'll never know the ending
Blackness broken out

The dawn of another sparkle shines
Yet as my eyes stir I can barely see through the haze of a sleepless night
Are the birds singing of happiness
Or is that just my wish upon this world

Can one feel this lonely with so many friends around them
Should they see my smile all cracked and torn
No not ever
It's my mask I bore
And
It feels so heavy
Has Scrooge's friend been busy
I don't know nor care
Just pass me another sip
So I can forget the minutes past

Pulsing through my skin
Filling all those holes
The smile is here again
This mask my only friend
It's back
And so am I

So do not put away tomorrow
Live it like the last
A mask can slip to sorrow
And fade away to past

Do not hide from the clouds
Let the wind blow as it should
Don't become the stranger
Fallen and heavy
I see your mask

It's hurting today
A coming inside of me
And I don't know why

My feelings are grey
And my eyes hurt
Come breath a little out

Maybe the music will play
I'll dance on my heart
Will you watch me sway

Dance on my heart my love
Dance me away
Dance on my breath tonight
Tomorrow can wait

It's hurting today
My best all gone away
And I don't know why

Dance me away
Dance on my breath tonight
Tomorrow can wait

I can feel my body dying
And it's really quite annoying
An ache become a pain
As I wander to racing life
Old age

A grumble deep inside me
Keeps blowing and indeed does frighten thee
My mind so crystal
you could drink
A liquor so bitter be my quince

So now I wait a final call
Short breaths await my curtain fall
This heart is failing
My body raving
The dance of death
Dance the dance of death

Itch

The dawn had come
My fear still alive and wanting
It's crawl to an itch I couldn't scratch nor reach
So I lay to the sweetest sound of the waking blackbird
A song no words could ever meet
Oh I itch

Inhaling the calm yet deep inside I knew
It also knew and I was scared
I was scared to reach
Scared to test my inevitably
Oh how I itch

Licking lips I remembered last night's  golden red liquor
It thins my blood ..Loosens my mind to a dullness
Thus numbs this prickled skin that wraps my soul
Oh I itch

Shadows fading to a moonlight end
I needed sleep
Would this be it
I don't know
Silence on the outside
Fear creeping in
I can feel it Coming
Oh how I itch

The dullest of sounds in life
Piercing my mind
Drowning my sleep
Rain be it on cleansing me inside
The clouds look grey

It's summer in my heart yet here I am shivering
Watching lanes stream across these blurry eyes
***** skies sharing their tears
Quenching an ever thirsting land
Puddles waiting
The birds know

They sing a triumph of green
As I await the glow
Oh sun I need your summer
Shine your beauty
Awaken my smile from
The tortured poets department

My hand slips ...I feel it's grasp gone against those little morsels of time
It's not my face aging
just the mirrors my fingers scrape against as I write
Happy
New
Year

Be I brittle tonight
simple
sad
this lonely

Be I crackled tonight
edgy
Quiet
This tired

Be I me tonight
Waiting
Wanting
This lying

Brittle and cold
Cometh ready to snap
Branches of old
I fight thee

Tis my moment
Pure black
I can feel the grinding
All blind

And suffer my rage
Disappointed
This end I shall seek
Be it blown

We met upon a crispy sky
All blue amongst the grey
Another day in paradise
Tis just our simple way
It could have been my writing
We knew it was his art
The chat amongst the coffee
The coming of our start

Such painted works
A gasp of breath all locked away from view
It kept the folk from knocking there
His peace an artists pew

Now some of you may know this chair
But I've seen what it means
Its stains of life all laid on view
Comes safely watched
You know!
The penguins stare.

Its in my grasp ,its in his too
All bubble wrapped each day
The me
Our lives
A new day dawned
Its just some crazy play

Yet
I wish I had a pound or pence just hanging round to paint
But then I'd be an artist too and not the artists mate
So off I must its 4 am
A poets work tis done

I watched as he etched
Blue colours so fine
A face that he painted
All hidden and light
Looking and staring he knew not I write
The man and his drawing
I studied his plight

Looking once more in my study
My itch
I needed to look at his drawing
So rich
The man he did scribble I see not his face
Intriguing my wanting
My look out of place

Now do I approach him
A tap or a smile
The man and his drawing
A wandering while
Do I disturb this master at work
The etch of the finest
Da Vinchi
I errk

Long be the wind
lonely in its tail
shining out the sun
I find thee

Be thy shadows as I lay  
follow in my wake
a winters tale to come
I feel thee

Silence comes
inside
screaming out a gale
longing for your reach
I want thee

This house does creaks
my mind in all
a shudder
To quench this tainted thirst
I need thee

As the night turned into days and the days turned as black
This yearning never fades
Itching and scratching as I go
Devouring the fever of gold
Thus quenching the thirst yet missing these lips

Behind me lays the abandoned
Milk and Honey for the rich
A place so warm and wanting
A place I shall never seek again
Tis my wanton

The Shiver comes
Only the moonlight darkening to warm me
So I will wait
Till the sun and the moon both rise
So I can love again

Can you see them swaying
Under the glowing silver moon
Perfuming the dying embers of a winter near past
Shadowing the frost
Colouring the dead  

Did you hear that sound
Broke in the silence of March
Spring has sprung another life to this world
Small white fluffy clouds
Bouncing along in a sky of green

And in today I too felt the warmth of life
A sun stretching its arms
Glowing my face with it's smile
Showing me a path
Fading away my black

The world was different back then
And so was I
Wanted words to be spoken
Screamed from a silence
Some crafted in smiles
Many fallen from tears

I've waited with burning hands
And desire
Hidden my thought's
Washed out all my dreams
Knowing this not well
One more look in the mirror

They look tired
Sad
Yet knowingly calm
For there is beauty in this time
Waiting to be found
Waiting to be loved

As the sun dusts my skin
For it is I that waited
Hoping

Comes the wetness from tides
Fallen are the tears
Wishing

In no effort in given
All wasted in time
Again

I lay in the broken
Heart torn apart
Forever

The wailing ghosts  
Laughed at my sadness
Humorous in their intention to weaken me the more
I stayed awake in the earthen hour
Battling the clegg of thy cometh
To tell thee ones tale
  
Wash
They fly through me
Scream me awake
Stolen my wishes
Gone be my dreams  

So becomes the chatter in my head
Weak to the mind
I follow in stumble
Leave all
Comes behind  

It's now I must face them
The slugs chase in I
White trail
Their misfortune
My desolate mind  

The madness is in me
The ghosts have all won
I'm falling to pieces
My heart hears the gun

Bang!

These now wrinkled hands no longer feel your skin
Lips departed
From eyes that water the deserted dreams of my broken reality
Take my breath away
Steal this heart
For its use is gone
And I am lonely

The page is blank and my stare into the unknown
Turns to silence
Slowly and surely the door slides to a close
Creaking a smile at my sadness
Oh so cold do I shiver
Oh so cold beats my heart
For she was the one

I wish I could write a thousand rainbows to your heart
Sing you a million colours from the sky  
kiss away your sadness
As we lay

Wouldnt that be nice
Being so right
From a world full of wrongs
Let me paint you my song

Can you hear what I see
Can you feel
In the you
My love ....

I'm thirsty
Yet no liquid quenches these forgotton parched tears
Tis the sugar of my soul that seeks its redemption
A wanton pleasure of mind
To waken such lasting slumber

It is you my love that has rejoiced me
Your taste that does me complete
And that warmth
Oh that beautiful warmth
I so so miss

And in this night that become day's
I long for your reach
Come kiss me my choosen
******* salted skin
For I am the waiting
And
You are the one

Let us sleep

The clouds outside cried for my sadness
Tears of failure pained upon the ***** window of my heart
Come the granite grey of day
And that's not enough

Silence from the outside
Noise from the in
No more shall these hands touch
No more shall these lips speak

So this will be my last
Bleedeth me
No more
Stay the lonely till I pass
Comes written on the wall

Forlorn and empty inside
The raging storm leaves only the cold wet tears of time
God knows I tried
So so empty inside
God knows I've tried

Maybe the next world will smile at my heart
Take my arms
Show me another way
Banish my pain
Kiss my broken soul

Till then
Darkness take your feast
Consume me in bitterness
Quench me in your drunken thirst
Death come quickly

They said that time would heal
But memories are here
In my heart
And I am bleeding out

Tear upon tear cannot cure me
Hand upon hand
Never calms me
From a raging No inside

Come now
It's only the few that remember
Only the few that recall
A story of life as we live it
Remembrance of how we are small

One's time will come to go join him
A time when nothing is all
Till then I continue this living  
So remember me
Remember me all

How could I not smile
For the sun shone
Leaving raptuous heat upon my spine
Blinding dazzles fell upon my yellowing eyes
Yet
Inside me only darkness lives

It bleeds it's coldness into my thought's
Washes it's bleakened wishes over my mind


My old freind had returned

Life feels very empty right now
Maybe its the stars shining in this desolate void of blackness
Could it be the silence of my echoes
No
It's the missing of my love

My beautiful is sailing
Therefore my heart sigh's in lonlines
Oh i miss you
Yes I do

Ripped and torn i lay thinking
Hot blows in sadness as I sweat
And my reach scrapes the cold pillow of air
Cos your not here
Yet you are there

Tis I that comes near crying
Tis I that calls your name
Tis I that sadens your silence
Tis I that calls your name

My beautiful
My love
My everything
I love you x

My wrinkled finger felt weak
Betrayed and lonely
No more movement
No more tomorow

The last tear fell into tracks
Where many had come before
This one felt different
No one was going to stop the fall
No hand
Smile
Or fake promises
The sea parted and the waves spoke
Let me scream

I dived into a silence
Quiet
Lonely
So very cold
And this will be my home
Til the mermaid returns singing
Her spell

Remember

Remember what they fought for
Remember why they fell
Remember all the killings
The living life in hell

Remember what they did for us
Remember who they were
Remember all the people
For us did fight and fall

A day to show our pride
A day to bow our heads
A day to mourn our family
Lest we forget

Alexis Helmer died a true hero
Like all that became
To save our future
Today I will remember him

It is now our turn
Our responsibility
Our role
To ensure we never need another rondeau

For last night I saw poppies
Fall and float from the sky
Tears from the fallen
Our Remembrance

The day was dull
Wet
Aching
That's how I feel too

Could it be so bad
Am I singing sadness
When all is in bloom
Of course

For that's how I see
Read
Feed off the earth around me
Tis how I write

For once I wish I could
Lift my head
Smile at the world
Change my fear

Outside the doting sparrow enters the thicknes of the hedgrow
Bugs gathered
Young waiting
Yearning
To eat the death of another creature
So life goes on

The elkess
Cowers from the light
All dressed for the feast
Not going nowhere
Yet

Shoot boys shoot
Cos thats an order
We know best
Read our bible

Let me take your land
Feed our lambs
Laughter in slaughter
One day
Your Daughter

The sign of a man is not defined by his age
A man is defined
By his love
His compassion
His care

My son is already this man
A real man
Where age and wisdom
Comes flowed in his grace
And I be the honoured

For I am lucky enough to be his father
His friend
To see him grow
Become the man
I love to know

Live out your life son
Live on your dreams
So proud I am
You turn the age
That on this day
Become
EIGHTEEN

Staring across I looked
I mean I really looked
It was them
The sick
The waiting
Their end
A place where the silence in subtle laughter
Fed the gurgling dread

Old amongst the young
Age against time
Eating away
Tempting a finality
Choosing an end

As dead eyes looked on through me      
I felt alive
Awake
Eager in my burst to scare away the dead
The devil smiled
His war was winning
A fate foreboding
The storm had come

Effects of an early rise spawned my view
Eager in my need for knowledge
I sprung
Yet worry formed a brow
Concern upon concern quivered me
I had been here before

For then it was to late
Too harsh
All sad
A gone to far
Only tears
For my memory

This time a smile
Be healed
Sorted
Complete
For many moons to pass
Upon the laughing sun

The stain of tears
Hidden in her russet locks
As she drifted away from
Her destiny

All behind in sorry
No blame of yet to come
A love so now departed
It is the lady's song

Come to me my lonely
Swim the wanton shore
Hold my hand my darling
For you
My evermore

No meaning in this life
As fire rages out
All shadows disappear
Till the end
In dust

Yet the sun will shine like a
Bright star in the sullen sky
Shimmering
To the emptiness called
Earth

This universe lives
Breathes
It grows
So one day we will meet up again
Somewhere
We knows

I whisper into the darkness
Can you hear it call
Screaming out  
It shout's my name
The poet is here

For I am the writer
The one that spells all cast
Draws you in
Succumbs you
Blinds you to silence

Whisper my name
Shout into the silence
The poet is here
Let me hear
Call my name

Shout into a whisper
For now you are mine
As I am yours
Our love is sealed
Full
Complete

So Rudolph made an appearance
Or so you'd think
Judging by the spot upon my forehead

All week in the dusk and nothing to fettle my beauty
Oh no
Till today

Planes tried to land on me
Cars stopped as I walked on by
And my mirror drooled awaiting its feed of white  

My head had a new head
Potion lotion fail
And I had turned into a fine shade of a red Umpa Lumpa

Squeeze it
Push it
Pop it good

Santa has a new hood ......

For six months the westerly wind did blow
Almost every light
Raging seashells drowning my thoughts
Cool shivers formed
For not a single soul had yet to covet my grave

The summer I so wanted was hiding
Waiting for my fail
Puddles of liquid formed at my feet
Wanting fulfillment
Yet my eyes staid dry

More and more darkness rolled in over the hills
To just another day
My glaze suddenly changed
A grip loosened
Thunder came
This whole was falling
No light
No will
No want
The prisoner inside my head fell silent

Into the journey the masses follow
Be them of a sad way
For me
I walk it my way
I lead my waltz

My map is not written
Nor the novel read
In fact only when my dust is blown
And the clouds ******* vapor
Will the road become clear

Read my thoughts
Digest my blood
Live it on the edge
Become the one

Do not wake to life
Wake to live
Breath to want
Look to see
Don't be the blinded

Open the window
**** it in
Taste the freedom
New in pleasure
Life begins

Be not that man or woman
In looking on past
Four walls for your prison
A shake of what if  

Atoned for good living
I'll take it all now
The cobwebs of freedom
Come give me a bow
As day lights my eyes
I know I have won
My journey has started
A life has begun

Hold my hand and walk with me
Let our lives begin from days that become thinner
Only ten thousand more
Till we greet
Join that door
Fade to ebb
As the past is
Written
Ever lost

Kiss me now for time on here is failing
Days and nights are waining
Soon all will be as one
Sunken into darkness
Remembered and forgotten
Dreams of memories
Etched in stone
Let us run my love
Let us laugh

The one chance is given
No second comings
No prayer for a change
It's ours to want
Ours to take
To live
Live as one
Till ten thousand
Becomes just the one

A fiery sky on a day not started,where life ,death and promises are Destined to become history.
Shadows unformed from a promise to hide
See's my reflected smile from the clouded window
And only then do I see the dirt and grime of my inner existence
It is a comfort blanket that has kept me warm
Hid me
Protected me
Smothered me
Till all is bared
From the window I see

Is not dark a form of light that we can not see?
For if I was blinded by the light
Then only would total darkness come!!

This world we partake in
Has become the blinded
Pain
Hunger
Greed
All seeing yet we walk
Head bowed

A continuum that tells a story
Of success
In a reality that is already darkened
Already blinded
All ready an end

Look away from these words
Take off your tinted glasses
Look around you and see
Yes you can make a difference
The time for healing  
Has begun