I write of loneliness and fear
The demons rattle
Inside me all is not clear
These wishes granted
Washed to the sea
Darkness cometh
Blindly I lead

Walk as they do
For they know I will drown
Follow the blind man
Join in the crowd
No fighting the water
No screaming allowed
Follow the blind man
Follow the crowd

They wash in my sorrow
They drown all for me
For I am the wanted
Be raised from the sea

And so I look on them as down they must go
The blind and the foolish
I'm watching below
For now I am risen
Above all my sheep
My dreams all awaken
The future I weep

The colour never changed
and its purpose
Well...who are we to challenge?
The muddy puddle held it's dankness
And I was ready to jump

A place I'd spent my life avoiding
This wet and murky
An avoidance that held no solace
No wanting
And for sure no appeal

The days,weeks and finally the years did pass
As bones became a little older
My mind wandered
Why had I avoided it?
What had made me jump like the sheep for their master?
And so became my question

The very next day
I continued on my walk
The path ...my life
As always the puddle waited for me
Only this time
When I jumped

My aim sharp
As quiver gripped my body
I flew
Higher than ever before
With my head held high and eyes wide shut
The middle of muddy puddle was ready
This place
My unknown

An avalanche of cascading water
Deafened my thoughts
The water was deep
My muddy puddle was playing its role
For not a single drop of water
touched me
I remained the dry

I was scared
Why was I dry?
Dare I open my eyes?

Of course I do

A smile broke out over my face
As my aged eyes took in their view
Such beauty bequeathed me
For the muddle puddle had painted my world

All my greys and blacks now gone
Flowers seen like never before
and a sky of blue so perfect
I could cry
The tears flowed as blurred eyes took in the reality
My life of past had been so colourless
And now
And now I would smile to make a million people smile with me
As I splashed and danced
I began to live

Ears that bleed
On a call not wanted
Eyes doth weep
Cries
On these scenes of a madness

All in a day
For the eve of this Christmas
For done is the will
Tis cherished
Our life

Your time is not measured
It's us as we
Are
Lucky to live
Be born from this star

Christmas
This Christmas
Remember the fell
Do bless all the loved ones
So live
Live it well

These eyes now see the world in a different colour
Not in a red rusty vile way
But blue like the ocean
Light like the sky
For many a year the darkness of black had overwhelmed me
Stole my thoughts and created a self perpetuating storm
So powerful
So rancid
In an all consuming vigor
Quenching its thirst

UNTIL
  
Alas now as I wake
The sun blinds me
No more corners in which I used to hide

I see yellows and lilacs
Pinks and soft subtle creams  
Glorious scents drift upwards from the dawn
A sensory overload that makes me smile in delight
I feel alive
Fresh
The turning of the page has commenced

The glint of the bridge had gripped me
A sight so underwhelming yet iconic
A millennium at cost
A sway not lost to the bubble man
As he went about his day  

And on I stepped

A path so quaint on a lead to the
Almighty modern  
The Tate
As she stood before me
Her statues guarding all
Stunned not to move
Till the golden florin fell

I too fell
In love
Such a picture of an age
Boldness in its making
Daunting of its size
Beauty in its holding
Modern meets the
Master

Inside my breath is still there
Stolen
Taken for ever in its raw
Left in a trail forever
Awaiting my return

From floor to floor I swayed
Drunk in my stagger
Salivation stole my lips
The drooling was lost
For before
I had been blind

Now I would see  

The world became me
And I became the ocean
Taking all that washed me over
Nothing was ever going to be the same
For I was in love

As I wake to a cold lonely bed
From these eyes that open blankly
My reach
My love
Is waiting
I know your close
Your near  

I'll wait until the mountains fall
I'll wait for ever.... be my role
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you

This head is full
It's all of you
I want you here
With me
To feel your breath upon my chest
Let's sleep my love
Let's sleep

I'll wait until the mountains fall
I'll wait for ever.... be my role
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you

One day my eyes will wake to you
To watch you eyes
All closed
I'll kiss you softly
Stir your soul
Our perfect
Magnifique

The Brightest Flower

A flower held hand
As the young girl reaches up for her
mothers grasp
The reddest of velvet's reflected from
Tears on eyes
Her poppy
Stands proud and straight

She knows why she's standing
She know no return
Her father not here now
His never come home

He fought for his country
He fought for his life
He fought for his honour
His family
Our life

Remember this girl that cries every night
No father to hold her
Is gone from this earth
Yet she is the proudest
A daughter could be
Because of her father
Gave life
For you
...and for me

.
Poppy day

Remember

Remember what they fought for
Remember why they fell
Remember all the killings
The living life in hell

Remember what they did for us
Remember who they were
Remember all the people
For us did fight and fall

A day to show our pride
A day to bow our heads
A day to mourn our family
Lest we forget

D Day

Amongst us walk the ghosts of our past
Silent screams that shout and hollow
"we died for you"

I look around and bow my head in shame
For I have let their giving be worthless
I have failed

They lost
So that we may have a future
A better place so that us siblings
Can live
Love
Grasp for life
Fade less hate

See the saying D Day is still used today
Yet how many think back to the lives lost
Our loss
Our granddad's
Our family
Their lives

My failure is mirrored in the failure of the world
Religion after religion
Gun against gun
Life fighting life

One day I hope words will be the healer
Language our fighters
And soldiers our builders

One day
Will
We
Have a better world

One day!!

Out on the water stood the window
Our window
As we kissed we knew
Our future
Our togetherness

Hands held so tight
We looked
Our window
You smiled
Our future

The hours passed as minutes
A beautiful window
Our time so perfect
As we lost ourselves
We found us

We found love
**

Into the road of my dreams I must walk
A path so full of clutter
Cobwebs of anger
Fury
Mess
Steps made from the colours of life
My life
Yet blackened night takes its bow
Hides my smile
Reminds me of its power
The darkness hides that way
Left or right
An easy choice for regrets
I know my heart will glow
No matter what the rest
No matter what the hurt
Let the blackness commence
So I shall seek the light

Over the water I fly
So be it
Through these wings I see them
Boys to become men
Men to fall old
Eyes to close for a countries fight
Never to return
Lest we forget

Billowing stacks of fumes fill me
Thousands upon thousands of mini islands
Floating away from their mothers womb
Dunkirk's morning is ready
Sand from the beaches in a foreign
Glistening
Waiting
Offering a hope that there is a tomorrow
Lest we forget

In the after much blood has been spilt
To many decisions have faltered
Yet come my demise from the great war
My purpose came
I know what these wings hold
I know how they fly
I know how they care
For the next
Lest we forget

Now as age creeps upon me I look back
I see the failed,fighting staled to a shortened breath
Redden eyes become my flooded floor
A storm rages within me for the loss of our past
For the waste of lost future
For the pain that I've seen
For the wars that I've witnessed
For the love of pure greed

LEST WE FORGET

One hundred years ago
A war did do its deed
All failed by politicians
All failed by all their greed

The cost of all this war not peace
A families life and grief
To live together all as one
Be sacrifice to greed  

Thirty seven million
Died in vain
For what we live today
More wars than ever see my eyes
More anger in each day

The field of poppies failed by us
Our shame in what we do
One day we'll wish a different way
I hope that wish
Comes true

A hundred million colours fell before my eyes
Yet all around felt empty
This look of feigned surprise
Inside I'd lost the feeling
A numbness in my head
No floating magic lantern
Just utter utter dread

My witness to such horrors
Had simplified my mood
I could have been that person
I could have been that doomed
Instead I hit the road ahead
Don't think of all the seen
Another day of rolling
I pick the colour green

A colour of the countryside
New things to see and do
The dawning of new life ahead
See shoots
I see them too

One hundred million colours
Yet the all I want
Is you
The colour of a rainbowed sky
Come look
At what you do
Come colour what I'd lost inside
Come take away my pain
Come wake me kisses ,
In my heart  
I love the colour ..
You

Black has a taste
All bitter and foul
It burns through your heart
And feeds on your soul

Flavoured to take you
To strip out your whole
The colour of sadness
A beautiful cruel

Each day it will seek you
Come ready to feed
The darkest of nightmares
A taste of true greed

The bar was filled with the matchstick people
Thin,thick ,tall and some fat
Doing what they did last week
And the week before
Maybe even the year before that
So my shiver told me

Wine,red cold and nasty
Dribbled down this unopened jaw
Trying to escape my wanted lips
As I watched them
Yes there I sat mocking and thinking
Is all the that

Strange as I see them
My smile could not come
For I felt in their sorrow a life almost done
Accepted for society this pleasure for hard work
The drinking game a folly that hides a life of dirge

Yet leaning back on the creaked out chair ,I swallowed
The wine now warm,felt fuzzy and inviting
Contemplating life,my mind raced  
I could never be a matchstick
The box would never take me ,nor I want to fit

My time had come,
Up I stood ,yet no one noticed me,no one cared
With my glass half full I left
Out I walked
Into life,into the open
My glasses bore a fired refection,as I turned
I could see them burning  
Deep within I knew that all matches fade away to nothing
Oh the shiver

These shadows that follow me
know my wane
For they can see my sadness
Feed on my low
Fill the emptiness in my head
Leave me for cold
Stone the dead

In my life all blood runs black
Not from fear nor fright
Just the cold that has become me
My shadows
Every night

My day is all a sleepwalk
This zombie way through life
If only I had the living
I'd bite
I'd scream
I'd write  

For my quill is all but broken
Black ink so far from wet
I'm waiting for the shadows
This book I know is read

All that felt so still
Became a stir
A silent beat
That fell into a torrent of thunder

From a touch of hands
To a feinted kiss
In a world of the new
Our time
This place

And now I'm glossed
Smitten by you my love
Fallen
Spellbound to your beauty  
Pure  

I fall to your prey
Fold on my knees
Bow to your touch
Kiss me
Lets fly my lovely  
Fly together
Fly away to the lands
Where our heaven waits  

Kiss me my lovely
Hold me
Hold me tight
Run take the whole of me
The wrong
Now becomes
Our right

The sun made its lowly appearance
A vague attempt at light
On another dull day
The blow of the wind caught my breath
Chilled my skin and led my mood
I pondered

My mirror that never lies
Caught me weeping  
A reflection of my life  
For I was wounded
These failings cut deep
Painful
Sad
Lonely  

Mesmerized I stared
Waited for the passing
Waited for the normality of life
My cloth sodden arms wipes the look
The mirror faded  
So comes the return
Of
Just another day

The cold of the night hid my grief
Rid my longing
Stole my colour
And painted me black

Inside I was dead
Empty
Wasted for the scrap
Crying from a future
On ears of silent

My dark look ahead
lights all blinkered out
Wishing I was gone
Washed
To screams of a shout

He laughs at all my sadness
Weeps his tears of joy
The angel from the dark side
Plays his music  

Wake me into sunlight
Wake me from this world
Hold my hand complete me
Wash the black away
Wash it all
Away

As the sun sets around us
Hands in hand
Skin to skin
I saw in your eyes
The whole

I saw you smile and I knew
You are magic
You are my complete
An angel from the heavens
Destined to meet

It is written in a book
Yet not worded
How this story grows
Through tears of joy
Love and madness

I like that book
I want that role  
Become the ending with me
Hand in hand
Smile on smile

Only you can make my world
alive
Only you can make me
smile

One day you'll get the whole of
me
One day I'll wait a while

No boredom here just lots of
love
The ticking goes the clock

One day we'll take the
universe
The beauty of true love

My world is collapsing
This life torn apart
The feeling that hurts so
Comes
Broken

Be
Removed from the wanted
Pushed out to the heap
The ache thats become me
Fallen to
Grief

It is I that will wait here
Forever a day
To build a new life with..  
I bow to your lay

The warm and the fuzzy will never
Be gone
Just smile for our future
The mask is the wrong  

So I ask you to break it
Come walk with my hand
We'll face out our future
True love
Understand

My destiny is written
my outlook
The view
From on top of the world
I breath in
Drink the you
And all that is golden
Perfumed round my soul
The future is perfect
This rock be our roll

All past left behind us
Our fait accompli
No heartbeat be broken
I'm here feel me
See
Ten thousand to race to
Two hearts meet as one
The grass lay beneath us
To glorious sun

Your loverly before me  
My eden complete
Brought down from the heaven's
I lay at your feet
No other has warmed here
Like you
Come to me
The picture is perfect
Our love
Is
Unique

Under the kissing tree
Is where we meet
My love
Forever written
Lettered in gold
Arrowed be our heart
One kiss
Sweetheart's

Under the kissing tree
Our place to hide
Amongst weeping bows
Long kiss good night's
So young in our days
We sit
We lay
Watching shiny stars  

Under the kissing tree
Where I spoke for tomorrow
Said words like
I love you
Fell on bended knee
My love

Come
Marry me

Into these eyes
I drink from your smile
Feed from your lips
As I wonder
Alone

All through the day
I dream of your say
In a hope that you'll see me
As I wonder
Alone

In the night of my darkness
I know that your near me
Just waiting to hold me
As I wonder
Alone  

Tis my place to be with you
To love and release
Our runaway peace
As we wonder together
Home

The drink has left me silent
No screams to out the loud
No words to shout
My silence
Now so comes the colour

Black
Heavy
Wanting

Ready to take me
Beyond
My conscious

Ready
For the call
Ready
Comes to break me

Come
Come and watch my
Fall

The scent of summer fell sweetly on these lips
From the soft breeze that followed
I knew you had come

To find me so wanting
To taste you so well
These senses are screaming
The rising
Our quell

I'm here
All but waiting
So come take my hand
Let's make it our future
Our love
Understand

Then I lost you
To the sea of old tides
All washed on the beaches
An emptiness cries

So I looked
For the scent of your summer
Oh.. the scent of your summer

The August felt like November
and my mood followed
suit
A wind that held no silence

From a cool blow that battered
me
As if
I wasn't bruised enough  

For I was the broken one
A mind so empty of full
In a world so barren of soul
And so I pained

I pained for others
I pained for help
I pained for relief

From this madness we call Earth

No pills to change my eyes
No laughters
Fill my heart

These tears are all but wasted
Left
I'm left the all behind

The walk into the emptiness

I'll join the blinkered mass
Condition red
We fall in line

The face behind the mask

I'm trying to think to what to come
in write
A head imploding
Left in a fright
All starred to the walls that don't come
co exist
A mirrored for horror
Faceless in bliss

This prison that holds me
My breaking the free
Unleash me this message
Set me the free
Go
Set me the free

Climb up on unset me
For I need to breath
Release all this in me
For I need to breath
Just let me
Be free

Then the cracks in my wall start to shatter my view
I'm out of my inner
I'm free break the through
The wall has come down
Yes
Now let dust fills my lungs
It's good to breath in out
This writing is done

My best friend saw his life as chapters
In a book
From this book many things come and go
Yet like all books
Once it is written
It is there
For all to remember
For all to judge
For all to question
For it is said

A description of life I will never forget
In this journey we face
From the chapters we close
To the new beginnings
Be I the wiser one
For my knowledge
Or the fool
By the side

His words still sing to me
When my ebb has flown
And my worst is before me
For I know
It is just another chapter
A page that will pass
To a memory
Be that of pain or the glory
For I know
I'm still on that journey

Into the night wind I walked
A walk I would never forget
From the delicate dust that fell onto my lips
To eyes reddened by the mist of my past
A taste to a memory
For where we all end

Dust is to dust as for all that we fall
As is the water we own
This whispering vapor
Forms the rain from our souls
Yet the spark from old beats
Goes on
Into an never ending ocean rippled to life  
Gone still the breath

A lick to a wipe
Gave way to my past
Gave way to my parents for they have gone
Gave way to faded stones from dirt filled holes
Gave way to lives lost
And for what ...and for who

Life does not disappear
Water does not just fade away
Nor does the life spark inside us die
Even so
Our memories do
Our understanding wanes and our perception falters

Into the night wind I walked
To taste test my gone past
To remember old loved ones
To know still.. they are here
In one form
In take my breath
In be my life  

Dust

I can hear it
I can smell it
Can you see the rain
I'm wet

Cos I'm stuck inside my shell
This home
All ready
Drips the death

Waiting for the animal
Waiting for the dry  
My thirst is breaking out of here
My reach is for the sky  

Water water
Cleanse my soul
Wash over me
This hurt

A drop once more
Falls by my side
One taste  
My slip.. the edge  

So breath me in
And wash me out
I'm looking for the sun...
One day we'll be together soon
One day
That's sure to come

Empty soulless eyes look back in the mirror
How do I tell them where it all went wrong
How do I tell myself the truth
I've fell into the system
I've given up the ghost
The few they have there puppet
The master class
My host

I used to own the world outright
My dreams became my life
All gone ,I'm *******
All cleaned you see
The in has gone all out

For now I live my life
This way
A martyr to the throne
All wasted on the beer of life
The washed away
Alone

The great war
Wasn't that great
9 million soldiers killed
20 million wound
Yet still these medals of courage stand tall
In my home
Watched everyday
loved and cared for
for they lived so that I may live

That great war
Wasn't so great
Where a boy aged just 12 fought for his land
Gave his present for our future
A stand we should so bow
For our shame of today

Our shame of today
Where money leads the way
Yet doesn't exist
Where profit before humanity
Rules the world
My eyes see the news
They bleed in disbelieve as the shells pour down
As ears weep to the horrors of a child's cry

The great war
Wasn't that great
Only the poppies of hope
Do stir my wishes
Of a change
Of a world without fear
A world where our leaders
Change
So the great war....
Was it that great.. after all?

Feel my head splitting sidewards
My 3am in full
A mind buzz all be ready
For a finger
Oh the thrill  

I want the words to be so magical
Want the world
To stop
Be still
Shhhhh...

So let me be the silent
Let sleep go be my ****
All stop I'm weak
I'm fading fast
I want to swim
This air
And still ..

I want to ...
I want to be the norm
I want to be the lazy
I want to sleep for hours end
I want .....

I'm fed up with my eyes awake
The pain they see all hurts  
All told I'm sparkled
Lights all quiet  
The night
It is
It's curse

Amongst us walk the ghosts of our past
Silent screams that shout and hollow
"we died for you"

I look around and bow my head in shame
For I have let their giving be worthless
I have failed

They lost
So that we may have a future
A better place so that us siblings
Can live
Love
Grasp for life
Fade less hate

See the saying D Day is still used today
Yet how many think back to the lives lost
Our loss
Our granddad's
Our family
Their lives

My failure is mirrored in the failure of the world
Religion after religion
Gun against gun
Life fighting life

One day I hope words will be the healer
Language our fighters
And soldiers our builders

One day
Will
We
Have a better world

One day!!

When I wake
Breath
Stare out into the dark
I wonder

I wonder what I'll see who I'll meet and what lasting mark will I make today On this earth
Will I paint like Picasso
Will I draw like Leonardo  
Will I sing a song like Pavarotti  

Then I sigh
What is my life print
What is my way
Will I be remembered
Or fade away

Am I a stone for the viewing
Is this my future
A dancing stone
Full of posies
Waiting for the wedding day child  

From a family lost
A faded etch
Seeks my await  
I fear for my life print
I fear for that day

Then I wonder  
That day is not now
My life is not yet complete

My ink is not yet empty
Nor the paper dry
Or the stone yet cut
For I breath in the earth
I look up to the sky
And I sing to the heavens
I'm me
I'm alive

Numb in my fingers so follows
My mind
All lost in my dreams
All lost to the sky

So kiss me to hold me
Please give me the eye
I need you to love me
No reasons nor why

For in that feeling I love you
Sends crazy to me
I want all your loving
I want to be free

I don't want to read your words
I don't want to see your letters
I just want you here so near me
To hold you love you tight

So baby please come back to me
Oh baby please don't walk away
So baby please come back this eve
I want you babes
I love you

I don't want to feel the lonely
I don't want to miss your smile
I just want you holding my love
Please stay for me
A while

So baby please come back to me
Oh baby please don't walk away
So baby please come back this eve
I want you babes
I love you

Then you ran away
Left me open heart all broken
Then you left me out
Went and screamed we were
Unspoken  

For now I am the lonely
For now I am the sea
Oh baby please
Oh baby please
Oh baby please
Oh baby please
Come back to me

Sight's before me sorrow's my vision
Old and the needy stay sitting
Waiting for fate
Waiting their future
In a place no one wants to be

Welcome to the badlands
A place where time has fell
Life has stopped
My bowed head can do no more
As children cry for peace

I seek solace in the extortion
A tepid flavored liquid does nothing
To lighten me
So now my only focus is the death bin
My only aim for this putrid vile  

Breath as I do
Nothing is hiding
Every all is waiting
Only the sharp may satisfy
My woe

Time is waining
The urge to scream has bubbled
The badlands holds me
Bait's my anger
Teases my rage

Stick me
Heal me
Boost my glowing
Seed my life
Let me go

The voice is near
My name to call
Escape my fear
Cure us
Cure us all

Sometimes I just lay here
Wondering for the why
Birds in chorus shout me
Cuckoo's songs the sky
Yet still I lay here
Aging for the day
Aching for a future
Thinking what the heh!!

Tis a wonderful life
Tis a wonderful way
Each day I live forever
Forever be my way

So I close my eyes
Just breath I'm still alive
Let dawning damp revive me
A day
Another why
And I wonder
The wonder of the why
Let dreams go fill my thinking
let dreams go fill my sky

Tis a wonderful life
Tis a wonderful way
Each day I live forever
Forever be my way

The dice is rolling for me
A six is all I need
Yet here I have me thinking
The cube is one to five
The cube is one to five....

And I wonder
Wonder for the why
Will life get better for me
Let dreams go fill my sky

My mind inside became the stifling
No air to breath
No wind to cool the raging madness
Caging me in
Blocking the light
Masking the past into a blurred
Forbidden

My inner prison held me fast
Took my time
Scared friends into enemies  
Insanity with a grin that left me
Lost
Open
Broken
Wrapped in a cotton
To brittle to touch

Oh the day for a smile
For a beam tingled light
To warm me
To calm me
To show me a world I could live
And on that one day
When the sun illuminates upon the sapphire skies

I will be free
Free of the years
Free of the chains so painstakingly made to hold me
Free
Free I say
Free

The pain in your words so cut me apart
Do slice through my heart
Go blind my eyes with your venom
For I am I and you are
Lost

Lost to a world so apart from the truth
Binded to faith
Bitten by anger
Scared for the through
Hurt from a past all
Lost  

Time ago we'd never say
Never cry the pain
Nor show teeth so ****** red
Waiting for the ****
Scared yes but never
Lost

So I will run
Hide
Take a different path
Hold my loss
So it be
Even I become the
Lost