Into the morning hour
My eyes bleed from no rest
Who am I to question this deed
**** the night
Dam the demons

For I hear their laughter
Ringing within me
Reveling at my thirst
For sleep
I cry

My voice wakes no one
Nothing is said
Only the laughter within me
Is rattled
Echoed in my head

They think they are winning
A coldness inside
But I'll tell you a secret
The demons are
Mine

I write of loneliness and fear
The demons rattle
Inside me all is not clear
These wishes granted
Washed to the sea
Darkness cometh
Blindly I lead

Walk as they do
For they know I will drown
Follow the blind man
Join in the crowd
No fighting the water
No screaming allowed
Follow the blind man
Follow the crowd

They wash in my sorrow
They drown all for me
For I am the wanted
Be raised from the sea

And so I look on them as down they must go
The blind and the foolish
I'm watching below
For now I am risen
Above all my sheep
My dreams all awaken
The future I weep

The colour never changed
and its purpose
Well...who are we to challenge?
The muddy puddle held it's dankness
And I was ready to jump

A place I'd spent my life avoiding
This wet and murky
An avoidance that held no solace
No wanting
And for sure no appeal

The days,weeks and finally the years did pass
As bones became a little older
My mind wandered
Why had I avoided it?
What had made me jump like the sheep for their master?
And so became my question

The very next day
I continued on my walk
The path ...my life
As always the puddle waited for me
Only this time
When I jumped

My aim sharp
As quiver gripped my body
I flew
Higher than ever before
With my head held high and eyes wide shut
The middle of muddy puddle was ready
This place
My unknown

An avalanche of cascading water
Deafened my thoughts
The water was deep
My muddy puddle was playing its role
For not a single drop of water
touched me
I remained the dry

I was scared
Why was I dry?
Dare I open my eyes?

Of course I do

A smile broke out over my face
As my aged eyes took in their view
Such beauty bequeathed me
For the muddle puddle had painted my world

All my greys and blacks now gone
Flowers seen like never before
and a sky of blue so perfect
I could cry
The tears flowed as blurred eyes took in the reality
My life of past had been so colourless
And now
And now I would smile to make a million people smile with me
As I splashed and danced
I began to live

Ears that bleed
On a call not wanted
Eyes doth weep
Cries
On these scenes of a madness

All in a day
For the eve of this Christmas
For done is the will
Tis cherished
Our life

Your time is not measured
It's us as we
Are
Lucky to live
Be born from this star

Christmas
This Christmas
Remember the fell
Do bless all the loved ones
So live
Live it well

These eyes now see the world in a different colour
Not in a red rusty vile way
But blue like the ocean
Light like the sky
For many a year the darkness of black had overwhelmed me
Stole my thoughts and created a self perpetuating storm
So powerful
So rancid
In an all consuming vigor
Quenching its thirst

UNTIL
  
Alas now as I wake
The sun blinds me
No more corners in which I used to hide

I see yellows and lilacs
Pinks and soft subtle creams  
Glorious scents drift upwards from the dawn
A sensory overload that makes me smile in delight
I feel alive
Fresh
The turning of the page has commenced

The glint of the bridge had gripped me
A sight so underwhelming yet iconic
A millennium at cost
A sway not lost to the bubble man
As he went about his day  

And on I stepped

A path so quaint on a lead to the
Almighty modern  
The Tate
As she stood before me
Her statues guarding all
Stunned not to move
Till the golden florin fell

I too fell
In love
Such a picture of an age
Boldness in its making
Daunting of its size
Beauty in its holding
Modern meets the
Master

Inside my breath is still there
Stolen
Taken for ever in its raw
Left in a trail forever
Awaiting my return

From floor to floor I swayed
Drunk in my stagger
Salivation stole my lips
The drooling was lost
For before
I had been blind

Now I would see  

The world became me
And I became the ocean
Taking all that washed me over
Nothing was ever going to be the same
For I was in love