Imagine if we were actually happy...
We wouldn't fight or have misunderstandings
We would cherish and respect each others differences
We wouldn't lay blame on each other
We would feel safe and supported always
We wouldn't wonder if life was a waste of time
We would be happy
Wouldn't that be nice....

I
understand
all
those
words
separately
but
...
You're trying to explain
I'm trying might and main
to understand
but
....
I hear nothing at all
It's like there's a brick wall
between us
but
.....

Today I'm struggling
My head is spinning
My eyes are leaking
******* HORMONES
******* FRUCKING FOOKING FUCKITY ****
I want to **** myself
I want to smash things up and swear and stomp and cry and and and and and I WANT TO ******* GO HOME
**** THESE SYNTHETIC HORMONES
I'm done with this
So
done
Let me go
Nothing is working
Nobody gives a **** anyway
Get a new person to do my ****** job
Get someone who knows what they're doing
Get someone who isn't ******* FULL OF SYNTHETIC HORMONES
****
>_<

Happiness is snugging on the couch
Watching Netflix
Full of good food and icecream
With a warm cat purring on your lap
...
Sadness is all of this but knowing
One wrong move could end this happiness forever