Singing is my way out.
It's like breathing.
It's natural to me.
I know I'll never make it big,
But I can't stand not trying.
You just have no idea how much I want this.
It's killing me.

If everything's so 'great,'
Then why aren't I happy?
If it's all 'sorted out,'
Then why is there still so much to be done?

I miss your smile,
I miss your smell.
I miss the secrets,
You'd never tell.
I miss the days,
You would read me books,
But before I knew it,
I was reading them to you.
And then you were gone,
And I couldn't make it through.
Now I look at your picture,
And remember the fun.
Wishing you could be here,
To see what I've done.

In my head,
You’re perfect.
You’re never wrong.
Never a bad decision,
Always where you belong.
But I chose to ignore the rumors,
Some which could be true.
I refuse to believe,
Anything bad about you.

Give me a minute,
To cry out my tears,
Give me a second to think.

Give me a minute,
To overcome fears,
Give me a second to blink.

Give me some time,
To think it through,
Who do I want,
To be to you?

Give me a second to prioritize,
Give me a minute to close my eyes.

It's kinda hard to sleep,
When you know you're set up for failure...
But what else can I do?
What else can I say?
Nobody listens anyways...
The cries for help are obvious,
The dark circles under my eyes.
And no one can tell.
On the outside,
My world's full of rainbows and marshmallow fluff,
But I just don't know,
When enough is enough.

Pathetic.
It means you failed pretty hard at something.
Hey,
Don't beat yourself up...
Pathetic.
Join the club.

All of this energy,
Makes me want to pop,
People say give up,
But I'm not going to stop,
Because I dream about you,
Almost 24/7.
And your beautiful smile,
Is my personal heaven.

Bugging out,
Want to shout,
All my dreams,
I'm starting to doubt,
Because I'm not as big as I thought I was...
I'm actually quite small...
And the numbers aren't helping.

Can’t turn my back,
Can’t look away.
Can’t take a break,
Because today could be my day.
Can’t ever give up,
Can’t turn around.
Can’t look to the sky,
Or look to the ground.
Can’t catch my breath,
And can’t waste time crying,
Cause life is too short,
So take your time flying.

A billion things,
I wish I could say.
A trillion secrets to tell.
A billion people,
In my life,
Who think they know me well.
Little do they know,
What I'm hiding in my shell....
Little do they know....
I'm about to explode.

Through the wind and the rain,
The cold and the pain,
I will keep chugging,
Pushing my train.

And if the tears stream,
My friends are my team.
Keep pushing boundaries,
And following dreams.

What to do,
When you’re hopeless and helpless.
What to say,
When all you want is to be heard.
Where to go,
When all you want is to be gone.
Who to love,
When all you want is to be sure.
How to get there,
When you’ve been replaced by her.

I see you again,
You stand by the door,
Laughing with friends,
I look to the floor.
Hello, you say,
I smile and wave.
I hop in the car,
And drive away,
And though I'm gone,
You still dance on my brain.

Set a goal,
Try to achieve it.
Work real hard,
To succeed it.
Until you get it,
Don’t be done.
Pick a point,
And just run.

You know something’s wrong,
When the only song,
Is a sad one,
Full blast on repeat.
You know something’s wrong,
When your only happiness,
Is at the times,
You are asleep

The ideas are there,
I should just follow through,
Because so many routes,
Have lead me to you.
The wheels are turning,
But still I don’t move.
Can I do it?
Oh, how I’m longing to know.
Will I make it?
Oh, how I’m longing to go.

There’s always a princess,
Always a prince.
Always a castle,
Been the same since...
Always very,
Far from real.
He’ll pull out a ring,
And then will kneel.
Always the same,
Cliche happy ending.
But did you ever think?
That they were all pretending?

Then they all live,
Sappily ever after.

As we danced tonight,
I felt unsure,
About how I felt,
And how things were.
I don’t want to dive in headfirst again,
For I know that we’ll end up awkwardly ‘friends.’
So much to do,
So much to rehearse,
Maybe I should just dip my toes in first.

You can break my bones,
But you can’t break my spirit.
Got something to tell me?
Come now,
Let’s hear it.
I don’t give a ****,
On what you think.
Because I’ll be out of here,
Before you can blink.
I’ve got a plan,
And it’ll work out,
But if you ever need me,
Just give me a shout.

Was it something I did?
Was it something I said?
Cause now boy,
You've got me out of my head.
I don't want to like you,
But I know I still do.
So I'll face the music,
And  keep singing love songs.

At first love is easy,
It all just goes.
Everything runs smoothly,
Everything flows.
Then it gets rough,
And you wonder why,
For the hardest part is lurking:
Saying goodbye.

My knees are weak,
My hands are pained.
I feel tired,
Emotionally drained.
I just push myself far.
Not too far I believe,
It’s just that I always,
Overachieve.

It bothers me.
You think I’m so simple.
So young, so innocent...
So....Clueless!
But I’m not.
I have felt heartbreak,
I have felt pain.
I’ve felt what it’s like,
To live in the rain.
I know what love is,
And I’ve said a ‘bad’ word.
I’m not so little anymore.
And I think it’s time you heard.

When you’re fed up with the world,
And you don’t know why.
When all you want to do,
Is sit back and cry.
When everything’s perfect,
But you’re still upset.
Maybe it’s not perfect!
...Maybe not yet.

Suggest one thing,
Get shot down.
Suggest another,
Shot down again.
Apparently my ideas are 'outrageous,'
Or 'unrealistic.'
So I keep asking myself,
How do I stay afloat?

I said I’d pay.
I said I’d handle it.
All of it!
So why can’t I go?!
I’m not asking if you will,
No, I am asking if I can.

Together alone,
How could it be?
How does that make sense?
Together alone,
Supporting each other,
For when he breaks your heart.
We are alone,
But we are alone together.

You’ve told me the same story,
Over and over.
‘We’re just friends,
Only friends.’
Well the story’s getting old,
And it’s starting to bore.
I should’ve finished it,
Six chapters ago.
So I’ll close the book,
And start a new one.

I would never break a promise,
But you,
You’re not me.

I know we’d just met,
I know I shouldn’t have trusted you.
But I did.
And I let myself fall...
All over again.

I know we’d just met,
I know I shouldn’t have believed you,
But I did.
And you never showed up...
And I fell.
All over again.

News flash!
Did you forget who you are?
Where you are?
Who you’re with?
What you’re doing?
To the future?
To your reputation?
Well I think you should remember,
Before you throw your life in the toilet,
And flush.

So there we are,
You’re sitting in the chair,
Your dimpled smile,
My frizzy hair.
Being intrigued,
We stop and stare.
A friendly remark,
In which we share.
This could be something,
And I’m not scared.
I'm ready.

You’re like a tattoo,
Haunting me,
Following wherever I go.
I look down at my arm,
You’re staring back.
I look away,
But your image is still with me.
Now of course,
I could get you removed,
But that’s a slow and painful process.

Kiss my grandfather’s picture,
Turn out the light,
The tears begin to fall,
12, the clock strikes.
Goodnight.
…..Yeah right.

Too many forks in the road,
Not being sure where to go.
The lack of consistency kills me,
And sometimes I really don’t know.
Left or right?
Theater or track?
Up or down?
Music or math?
Too many forks,
Don’t know what to do,
Don’t want to choose.
over what I must lose.

I’m done worrying about guys,
Because I know the one will just come.
All of my failed tries,
Have left me feeling done.
Now I’m worrying about me.
Me, myself, and I.
How can I be better?
I’ll never know until I try,
But these barriers and stumbling blocks,
Keep getting in my way,
Postponing my life,
Day by day by day.
I’m sick of sitting here idle.
I’m sick of watching from a distance,
So I guess this is my cue to take action,
And get myself what I want
*To get myself what I need.

What are you trying to get me to do?
What do you want me to say?
What are you trying to get me to lose?
Do you even care if I stay?

Personality.
It’s just never enough.
Is it?

It can’t win someone over,
It can’t change someone’s mind.
And rarely does it get you what you want.

Personality.
It’s just never enough.
Is it?

They're out there.
I know it...
You just have to wait,
As they've been waiting for you.
They don't know you exist.
They know you're there,
But they don't know you....yet.
I like to take action,
And I hate how this time,
I just have to sit back,
Live life,
And let nature do its thing.

To make flowers grow,
It takes a little rain.
To heal and get better,
It takes a little pain,
But when it’s always raining,
And you’re always hurt,
You can’t help but feel worthless.

I was hanging on to something,
That wasn't really there.
It caused unnecessary pain,
That I could no longer bare.
So I let go of you,
As you did to me.
Our relationship was not functional,
Something I didn't see.
When ever you came to mind,
I used to feel pained,
But there's nothing I've lost,
And nothing I've gained.

I feel so restricted.
So held back.
So much I want to do,
but it's just out of my reach.
It's the worst kind of pain,
When you know when and where,
Just you don't know how.

I know where to go,
I know what to do,
But I don't know if I would,
And I don't know how.

You said you were sorry.
Then you said it's my fault.
So why should I accept that,
If I know you'll just do it again.
Why should I trust that?
Why should I accept anything less than the truth?

The told us this would happen,
They told we'd grow up.
They told us to expect it.
They told us what to do.
But they didn't tell us that it would be so hard!

I saw myself fall,
Fall for you all over again.
I was so happy.
We were so happy.
But I'd never admit that in real life.
Never!
On the surface I hate your guts,
But really I like you...
A lot.
I know I love the you I saw in my dream,
But truthfully,
I haven’t seen the real you in months.



*And I hate that.

My head is spinning round and round,
My heart is beating fast.
Waiting for some closure,
To finally come at last.
I'm nauseous from your roller coaster,
I want the ride to stop.
Just as we go down a hill,
We climb back to the top.
This never-ending roller coaster,
That you put me through,
Isn't going to stop,
'Till I get over you.

Once a cheater,
Always a cheater.
Just why did you have to be a cheater?

Once a heartbreaker,
Always a heartbreaker,
Just why did you have to break my heart?

*And why do I still love you?