I was doing so well.

But when I saw your
face staring back at
me from
the screen
I
Died.

All the old feelings
came rushing back
full
force. I
can think of
nothing else.

But I will
not
give in.

I will not let you stomp
me into
the dirt in
the ways
you did before.

I love you, but I
hate
you.

Your breath is the
life that finds its
way into
me.

The rush of your
skin is the drug
that I live
for.

The lilt of your words
as they fall over
me in waves
of
melody.

You are the star
around which
my world
revolves,
and
I love to
live and
laugh alongside
you.

We have disagreements and
no one is truly the same but
I can
feel you even when
you are
not with me
physically.

I carry you
in
my
soul.