It's impossible to know a person
Really, truly know them
Until you have a conversation at 2AM
Right before you fall asleep
The most human you can be,
There's no wrong or right
Just words filling the silence
Let me see your insecurities,
Your dreams,
Tell me things about you
That I wouldn't know
Remind me I'm not the only person
With problems and that
No one's exempt from suffering
I want to hear it all
Your heart and mind
There's no better time
For a lobotomy
No better time
To not be alone
I'm glad we got to philosophize
Because you don't really, truly
Know someone
Until you converse at 2AM
And it was a pleasure to meet
2AM you

So much depends upon
The strength of that boy
That gangling brown haired boy
Who may be skin and bone
But somehow manages
To carry around the weight of loving me
Every day
And to have my burdens and baggage
On his back
But I'm scared that someday
His strength will fail him
And he'll be crushed
And I'll have been the undoing
Of the one person
I never wanted to see hurt

So much depends upon
The patience of that boy
That boy who is usually go go go
But for some reason slows down
And waits for me to catch up
And can always tell when something's wrong
And always cares
And listens to me complain
But I'm scared that someday
His patience will have run dry
And he'll take off running on his own
Because I held him back

So much depends upon
The blindness of that boy
Who is the smartest person I know
But was stupid enough
To fall in love with me
And I know it's selfish of me
But I wouldn't mind
If his love was unending
But I'm scared that someday
His blindness will dissolve
And he'll realize he deserves better
And the only person holding me together
Will hate me
As much as I hate myself

You are born alone, and you will die alone.
What determines your level of suffering
Is whether or not you feel that.

Mind,

I did not
Give in.

This is not a poem
I am not a poet
And I am not
Writing it

Heart,

This
Is just a day.
And if you are stronger than it
If you remember that it will go by
You have a chance to keep your pride until tomorrow.
Say
Nothing.
Say nothing or tonight I will be at you,
"I told you so, I told you so,"
Until you wonder how you ever gave in
Knowing it would be so brutal.
Do not give in.
Do not.
You are better than that,
And if you act otherwise
You will feel so much worse
Than just forgotten.
Remember
She is not what you have to fear.
I am.

Mind.