bROKEN fATE
tIME iS lATE

oNE dAY gREAT
nEXT dAY cHECKMATE

dONE wITH fAKE
mY lIFE aT sTAKE

tIME tO cHOOSE
wIN oR lOOSE

fIGHT i mUST
fOR lOVE aND tRUST
eVEN lUST

bECAUSE
wITHOUT oNE
tHE oTHERS sEIZE tO eXIST

avoid                         eye         contact    
keep to your own business
don't ever look vulnerable
or lost                                                                  
look like    
you have somewhere to be
and you'll be okay
because people will think
someone might be waiting for you
even if                        
you're all alone
no one knows          
no ones opinion matters
because you're only
a fleeting person
in a crowd

I feel genuinely not okay
On a daily basis.
It is a sincere struggle to pry myself out of bed,
Or take a shower,
Or go outside.
So I am baffled at the thought
Of having to do work
And look presentable all the time.
I can barely breath right now.