Always Ally

Always Ally Mar 2014

My mind flickers on
The slides start to spin
Music starts playing
The movie is about to begin

So dim and blurry
Can't quite see what it is
It looks like eyes
Or that shirt of his

I reach out to grasp the fleeting images
They darken and tear
Please don't leave
You'll be lost again in there

#loss #forgetting #memory

Always Ally Mar 2014

Nothing At All

I'm not the brightest star in the sky
I'm not the rose in a field of daisies
I'm not the rainbow after a storm

I'm the dark cloud in the sky of blue
I'm the person you'll soon forget
I'm the cold preventing you from being warm

I used to be a lot of things
Now I'm nothing at all

Always Ally Mar 2014

Two Against the World

I realized that maybe
Just maybe all these years
I was hiding behind accusations
And immortal fears

I'm tainted like our love
But yet I keep you near
We're bad for each other
At least that's what I hear

Who should I blame
Or will the blame disappear
Same old reasons
Just another year

So the world is cruel
So are you and me
But at least I'm not alone
I have you, my dear &
That's more than I'll ever need

Always Ally Nov 2013

Those We Keep Close

The most unkindful cuts
Comes from those the closest to our hearts
They know exactly where to hurt you
And usually don't regret in doing so

Always Ally Nov 2013

Who Would I Be?

Who would I be if cancer had not affected me
Would I have different hair
Would I be a different person
Would I be normal
Would I like that person
no
This is who I am now
It's who I've always been
A little bit stronger than then
I'd be me either way
I'm different in a good way
It's a part of me in a way I can't describe
I'm just glad I survived

I used to think about this stuff a lot when I was younger. I had childhood cancer, and I urge you to donate to local hospitals and research labs to find the cure. Young kids are falling to this illness everyday and it's something no child should have to go through. Donate teddy bears to let them know they're not alone.

Always Ally Nov 2013

Strong

I want to be called strong
Not beautiful, not smart
Strong
Not physically, but mentally
I could get along as long as I'm strong

I want to be strong
Maybe as I had been before my illness
Maybe as I am after

I know I am strong
I have been, and always will be
I am strong even as I am weak
I am strong even in my last week

Always Ally Nov 2013

The World Is A Scary Place

I wanna help you
I wanna hold you tight
I want to whisper it'll be alright
If it'd help you sleep at night
Even if I don't believe it's true
Don't let the future scare you