Life slowly fades like a burning candle;
From its wick shines a flame that is too hot to handle
We tend to compare the mystery of our existence to things;
How we die in the end, some decays even before their breathing begins.

What makes you tick when you are down, tired and weary?
How do you express your feelings when you are alone and empty?
As if you were cursed since birth that never a moment you feel lost;
You get used to overtime that sorrow became a company you treasured the most.

There are times our minds are preoccupied and overrunned;
By thoughts of negativity suffering torture that drags us down.
Why is it so easy to think something that weighs so heavy that we sink;
And drown to our own demise trapping ourselves and in our own drop of blood we drink.

This has been told a thousand times,suffered by many a million times;
But it never gets old redundantly, we feel and lingers inside our minds
That we accept that the world is cruel enough to some, why permit them to live;
Without God in their hearts and prayers unanswered in darkness they only believe.

Piercing eyes I'm mesmerized!
Petrified now I'm cold as Ice!
Cursed for life turning to a stone!
Medusa's gaze prepare to meet your doom!

Alluring the beauty she betrays my mind!
I'm shaking I'm hopeless facing the end of my time!
No way of escape! And it's all too late!
This is the end I'm pouring out my faith!!!

She coiled in like a serpent!She smells like death!!
Devouring my will till' I run out of breath!
Here now I stand here where I fall!!!
This statue is my grave my coffin and my tomb!!!

Glare and stare!Smirk and sneer!x8

Rise never fall to the ashes! Never fade with the dust! Never burn out the fire!
I will never gonna give up! Never gonna give in! Never to die again!
Death will never conquer my heart! Filled with burning flames! See it through my eyes!
Live soar up back to the skies! Burn the open land! Corrupted with greed!

I am the eternal fire!!!!
Burning with hopes and dreams!!!
Phoenix's rebirth a never ending curse
Turning pain into a gift

Fall Decay Rise Again X8

Oh what a happy life! And it can all end with a cut from this knife;
Slice up a skin decorated with tattoos of halos,stars and stripes.
Only to know that tonight will be the last, and we are fading fast;
To our final resting place we will be, to our grave returning to dust.

Oh what a demented mind! Trying to feel your pain like it was mine;
Carrying the weight of the world on my shoulder which gets heavier overtime.
Just to pass and breeze through the day I swallowed the bitter pills of sorrow;
Then again live just to see the light of day fade my routine wasn't that hard to follow.

Tonight I must make a difference, put an end to this madness that I created;
Pray to a god who is deaf and blind too many times already that I felt rejected.
But does it really make any difference? If I let myself fall to this life ending decision;
With this blade so sharp and shiny, I will be glad to commence a perfect incision.

Layer by layer, flesh to bones! It cuts deep right through with no pain at all;
Just the sound of silence and dripping blood counting minutes before I fall.
Too late to save myself now I'm almost there! I can feel that cold embrace as death touches me;
So empty yet so free the feeling I have in this dark place of desolation, with nothing else to see.

No doors to open, no more air to breathe! Yet I am still me no changes just alone am I happy?;
What is this feeling of contentment that finally I found my place...No more holes finally..
That self righteous suicide that ends me to become me saved me yet somehow I felt unworthy;
Now in this place I must stay in the dark, alone and empty and not to suffer more for eternity.

A glass has been offered to you half empty half full;
You drowned yourself with fame in order to be whole
But with greed you were lost in the depths of the abyss;
A self inflicted misery with no control, your former self will be missed.

You sang a song you wrote based on life and new beginnings;
From what we heard you did lived life like there are no endings
Suddenly you lose your will to move on chosen apathy as a death wish;
You were given opportunities, good life handed down on a dish.

What made you think to just let life float fast away?;
have you got tired of what you're doing and not wanting to stay?
In the eyes of the many you were idolized, loved all your lies;
While you burn all your fortune in order to roll a dice.

Too little time to understand what's in your mind;
You are here to be known not to be undermined
Slice me up some of your skin let me feel your pain;
I promise you I will try my best to keep you sane.

Perhaps we are exactly the same...I mean you and I;
So what's the point of this meeting right? Why ask why?
You wear a mask while you're in the crowd selling lies;
I seat here talk, wearing a mask just to understand what's behind your eyes.

Today's Tuesday and it's the 31st of December 2013;
A year's end just to open a path for a new beginning.
A eternal cycle of hope given to those with shattered dreams;
A resolution, a choice to be someone new with a passion that gleams.

With the thoughts of the past were we must left behind for history to write;
Now it's the time to alter your fate just do your best to make things right.
For never a moment God forget to look after us, guide us, give us signs to follow;
It's us that sometimes think we are all alone in the dark with only misery and a bitter pills to swallow.

So stand proud and tall never let the weights of negativity drags you down;
Crawl if you must first, to walk then run serve failure as your training ground.
Build a fortress with your bag of hammers, don't let it consume you and start being a whiner;
With a will to change no matter what cards you are dealt with, for once make yourself a winner.

Scream out your name to the night with fireworks roaring;
Held your fists up high like you are holding something burning.
That is the passion, looking forward a brand new year;
A new dawn that for once you will never shed again painful tears.

And here I bid you a happy new year by all means have fun and enjoy;
Seize the day!Have a blast make some noise raise your morale let your passion boil.
Feast and bond with your families and friends just let the good times roll;
For this coming year changes will surely be there, so start making a way to make yourselves whole.

And so here I am again sharing my journey;
I am now living among men in this sleepless city
267 years since I sailed away and ventured land to land;
Living deep within the woods among the wolves I made a bond...

Draining the blood of an animal to quench my thirst while the wolves feast after;
I got used to living feeding only on livestocks so no more men may suffer
The wrath of my beastly instinct that feared by many for centuries;
I am the creeping darkness,heartless,cold and vile it's all written in their stories...

I remained calm and humble satisfied with loneliness in exchange of their safety;
As I contemplate my chosen fate, breaking this madness for a ****! Am I even worthy?
A question I never wanted to ask myself again...Never before I felt blessed neither cursed;
All I know is that I have chosen to be someone not something carrying a coffin in a hearse.

The date, 24th of December 2013... It is winter here now, where I finally found a place to belong;
Never before I felt accepted, loved and it feels warm inside that I can truly say I found a home
They are even inviting me into their so called Christmas where Jesus were born sacrificing himself to save us;
Hearing his deed made me realized and even were strived to pursue changes from what I once was...

This is where my journey brought me so far in seek of redemption...
So long for now my dear friend, a diary of my new so called reflection,
Sometimes hiding behind a mask is what we all need to blend in reality;
While the darkest side of you restrained inside forever remains a mystery...

Why choose sadness while you cower in the dark?
Where you can walk your life with happiness and stand in the light?
Why choose sorrow while you cry shattering your heart?
Where you can smile with joy and face a brand new start?

Why close the door while locking your self inside?
Where you can open your heart and invite someone in?
Why shut your eyes while life leaves you blind?
Where you can open your mind while love keeps you kind?

Why keep asking why? while you can ask how?
How can you change your ways and be better now.
Remember that tomorrow never ends and so is the sorrow;
When you keep holding onto it, keep in mind that happiness cannot just be borrow.

So start thinking of how and what can you do to make you feel better;
Not to keep drowning yourself with misery and pain just to feel sicker.
For one never will feel satisfy themselves with self inflicted tragedy;
It only makes you worst! Loving the doom you cast upon yourself for eternity...

I'm lighting up a cigarette inhaling the suicidal taste of nicotine;
It helps me calm my mind while damaging me from within.
Thinking what to write today while keeping myself sane;
It's hard to escape madness knowing it is driving me insane.

So I took this pen inked with eternal damnation;
Which words to suffice the needs for desolation.
My thoughts run wild just by thinking of her;
It triggers something that makes my words clever.

And so from tragedy I'm writing about love and unity;
Blessed by the heavens and strengthen by the holy trinity.
That someday every one will realize that no darkness remains free;
For there is a moment that in the shadow comes a light that shines brightly.

We strike when it's dark,
And we will rip your neck.
We sneak in the shadow,
We will strangle you to death.

We are one, too much to handle,
We will mutilate you, armed with a blade and a sickle.
We are the wind that blows silently,
We are ninjas that kills stealthily.

You can run as far as you can,
We will shred you to pieces with our  shurikens.
Don't breathe too hard we can hear your heart beats,
Our katana will pierce through your heart till' it no longer beats.

We have the heart of an assassin,
We live shredding blood of those who are unworthy.
We cleanse the world of the cunning corruptionist,
**** one, save a thousand! We are sworn to **** as cold as can be.

Coiling like a serpent of time this suffering;
Holding,binding everything that are wailing.
A never ending curse that holds no contract to end;
The grieving of all souls that is tormented for hell it's a godsend.

Marked by a tattoo numbered 666 just to survive;
The modern age turned to chips implanted in to their minds.
Contemplating and confused whether they are dead or alive;
Never before seen the light of day again, blinded surrounded with mines.

So the devil breathes among men conquering earth;
In shape of a man sitting on a throne of deception
The rapture is about to begin, so the end is about to be birth;
The beginning of the worst, a total chaos and annihilation

All hell breaks loose and the gate is open;
Eternal damnation is not being offered but given.
Where all the wicked souls hails to the king of the wretched;
Minions of dark infernal fire rises unleashing hell on earth.

In this city where night kills the day;
Everyone's out there and parties all the way;
With boozes and music that is so loud;
Carries the soul and passion of all that is in the crowd.

In this city where night kills the day;
The dawn never breaks the city where I lay;
It's like a world that revolves in reverse;
Only the difference is no one takes it as a curse.

In this city where night kills the day;
People work's late and sleep all day;
There is really no explanation, to what is going on anyway;
It comes so natural that people get used to day by day;

In this city where night kills the day;
My inspiration precedes all the things to say;
Never a dull moment for me as my poetry overwhelms;
All the feelings I set aside, watching the day pass through the seams..

In this city where night kills the day;
All your worries will simply go away;
Getting used to stress is a way to survive;
Oh what a great way this city does just to make people feel alive.

The 11th of December 2013 that date is today,
Something about the sequence made me ponder away;
What could be the meaning of the numerical order?
So I seek answer read threads and find answers through google.

So it is the final sequential event for another 90 years...
So lets celebrate maybe get married and burst out with happy tears;
It's just numbers now really, in sequence every 90 years, what's the big deal?
It's just another event a human mind creates to talk and believe to offer life a thrill.

So whatever this day means we just live our life like we used to and forget all worries,
For hope never a day fades with faith and will like a fortress, life is a one big numerical series,
Every day is like a test, a survival, a wonder that everyone walks through since the day we born
That each day is crypted with trials ready to overcome and decode, a gift to be unwrap and to be torn...

"Forward Unto Dawn,
           The Coming Of The New Age
                       Twelve-Thirteen-Fourteen"

Through out the years, humans evolve to something better,
Someone among us will eventually tap even further...
Beyond all that is normal to a human body will change,
Look deeper and from beneath one's able to reach something out of range...

The sense of sight where we see the physical world and all its beauty,
Sometimes became a curse for all their lives, they only seen all that is ugly
We make use of our eyes to see things with appreciation before judging clearly,
That in our minds will be etched, painted picture of the meaning of all things we see...

The sense of hearing where we listen to the world and all that surrounds us,
That is sometimes dreadful where only what one hears are all other's lies
For the world whispers the truth more often than the lies being constantly yelled,
Schemes and plots are the same, only gets worst when being told not asked from what is being said...

The sense of smell and taste where we scent and savour the world's natural resources
The smell of the polluted air that's killing the environment that ends the life of withering trees and roses.
The taste of the food we eat everyday, so satisfying keeps us alive keeps us going,
Only that everyday is a slaughter, and the belly became a graveyard just in order to survive to end the craving...

The sense of touch where we feel the world with our flesh and bones to communicate,
The lust that the body craves is the strongest feeling that makes us grow and replicate,
Where the saddest form is pain which one feels from all the torments and torture,
A reminder that the world is unfair full of tyranny causing' all kinds of terror!!!

The sixth sense where we see the beyond of what this world have left behind...
We see things we don't understand yet some see them clearly the ghost where they stand,
The ability to communicate with the dead... An astral projection,
ones who have crossed the realm of the other world...A misconception ,
that it change faith and beliefs that changes life how it cycles and revolves...

The seventh sense... It is said that one who are able to tap and awakens it, can see the world's future,
The ability that one can bend time and space, a walk through time that changes the course of nature...
Flashing forward centuries and back again, To witness and prevent changes of things that might happen
Playing God became a taboo even before the beginning, so what's the message? For all this ability one is having?

Is God speaking to ask providing us potentials, a chance to see the world through his eyes?
How are we going to make use of the free will he bestowed unto us to see no more lies!
Only the truth that disrupts the balance mankind has made! Like rules a government planned
Or it will remain a mystery that only God knows and understand... The questions that are in our minds...

" Breathing Heavily,
           Shivering in the darkness
                       No presence of light"
                                                             "Hands are all shaky
                                                                   Suffering paranoia    
                                                                        Crawling in the dark"
                                                                                                              "Suffocating room
                                                                                                                      Her eyes dilated with fear
                                                                                                                                    Hopelessly Screaming"

"We may cower in the dark"
"But in the light we stand"
"In the end, it's just all about the balance"
"That we all must accept and understand"

"He dodges the blade"
      "Tis' but a scratch, he murmured
                  "Kneels down, Blood pours out"

"Sun and moon unites
          Offering a brand new light"
                          World in black and white"

I scream and sing while I do my thing
With my guitar I let the shredding begin
To go with the rhythm I bang my head
With the noise I make, I'll be waking the dead. Yeaahh!

Swirling like the leave that falls
My music's sweet its rock n roll
With my lyrics, I'm getting in your head
Oh baby tonight meet me on your bed. Whoah!

I'll make your world, jumps up and down
Until we both go deeper underground
Exchanging body heat with our melody
Oh baby tonight don't you feel so pretty? Ahhhh!!

I'm a rockstar baby come and sing along
I'm a drifter yeah! I'm a rolling stone
We sing a song, we come and go
We soar so high and then we go down low...oooohhh!

Join me in death, come now and follow
Only then we can finally walk the path of the hallow
Honoring the life, of what we've left behind
Never before forgotten, the memories painted in our minds

At last we came to finally understand,
Like footsteps we'll remain printed in the sand
Vanishing by waves when it hits the shore
Intended to be, washing up who we were before
Now what are your beliefs? have you ever tasted deceit?

Ask yourself now...
Rather than to follow...
Rethink to remember that you,
Unwillingly surrendered
Everything that you lived for
Just to escape how you've lost your faith
Only to know it's too far gone, It's far too late...

I live in a land of three stars and a sun
The pearl of the orient, surrounded with sands
A country for years have been independent
Back from the invasions, where history's ancient

With a government tainted with corruption and greed
The beauty has been stripped off leaving our country to bleed
Suffering from apathy, puberty and dread
The people's revolting for their cries never heard

Looking at the Brightside, it is the people that is ugly
Staining the pride of the country with deeds that are unpretty
Beyond that, the pearl still shines with all its glory
That someday will be known for its natural beauty

I am a man who live in a land of three stars and a sun
Red, white, blue and yellow designed the flag of my clan
I'll wave it with valor, the courage for the right I've done
With love and honor here I am born and die where I stand

Freefalling in the depths of dreams
Searching for the love you'll bring
When I find you, I will never let go
And when I wake up it's something I will stow

With your sparkling eyes, I see stars
Through you, I Finally learned to soar the skies
Never before that I have felt this way
A feeling! More than words can say

You were a swan, when I first saw you
On a lake called dragon's mouth I found you
And together we flew and sang the sweetest
Most restful music heard upon this earth

Somehow I know we belong together even before birth
I finally found love, a reason, a way to escape the hurt
We are fated to be here, tangled tight in this world
With an embrace so warm, so vivid and so bold

It's time to wake up! Snap back to reality
Only to know that in my world I am sad and lonely
Never a moment I wished I could sleep and dream for eternity
If that means being with you even if the odds are highly unlikely

I know it was all in my mind the way I longed for love
I've never been there before, I was always been so sad
Not till' I found you in my dreams, Caer Ibormeith my Goddess
At least even in my sleep, for a moment I can escape my sadness

So here I am again, waiting for the fall of darkness
Longing for the touch, the embrace of my Goddess
Closing my eyes now, preparing to sleep
Hoping this time it will last longer, as I slumber deep

Please wake up! You're falling asleep
With eyes wide open, listen to me as I speak
Can you understand? The rhythm of my heartbeat
I'm always here for you, even if it means I will no longer breathe

Dying in your arms is a beautiful scene
Even if it ends tragic or may appear obscene
My love for you will go on forever
Until all the lights that surrounds me go dim

Please hold on don't let go for I feel cold
Can no longer feel my lips, fingers and my toes
Is this really how it ends? Now that I have you?
For a moment at least I'm happy, I think I can let go...

I'm counting hours, minutes to seconds as I breathe
How long will I last? With this bullets piercing my bones
I swear to myself that I will always be there to save you
Even it means sending myself to heaven... Funny saying this now to you...

There is one thing my love, that I would like to know
Will you feel the same? Do the same? Will you ever show?
Not like this kind of confession... Where my love lies bleeding
Any moment now I'll go dry with no hope of living...

So please whisper it to my ears... Let me know... Give me one last kiss
Or let me just die here right now in your arms a sanctuary I long seek
I can feel me facing my end! It such a shame can't even move my lips
Perhaps in another life I'll just watch over you... (Heart slowly stops to beat)

I see myself lying being held in her arms with tears being shed
I can't hear her cry... I'm trying to read her lips as she speaks
Faint voices slowly echoes as she whisper to my lifeless ears
"I love you even before you did" she said... bursting tears

Ambulance are singing! Cops are gathering in my death scene
I can hear a faint heart beat as I see myself fading...
From a moment of darkness I see lights through my eye lids
I see her face, her smile while our hands tightly held...

It's the 1st of December and today's Sunday,
What a wonderful week to start as we pray,
Giving thanks to our lord savior for that day,
Where he sacrifice himself for our sins to be washed away.

All we ever wanted is peace, love and serenity;
As we keep our faith for the almighty's love and glory;
For through out this years we were never forgotten,
Even if we sometimes falter, faith makes our sins molten.

Merry Christmas to us all and let our hearts carol,
The songs of Christmas where makes our love stroll
Down to everyone's heart with warmth and compassion.
We must always believe! we must keep holding on!

The greatest gift is there from the beginning,
The free will and the cleansing of all our sins,
For we now have given the choice which to follow,
With Christmas it guides us to the path of the hallow.

So rejoice forget all about your worries,
Sing along and seat under the Christmas trees,
Exchanging carols and opening gifts,
Warm hugs and kisses, say prayers then feast.

So marry Christmas and an advance happy new year!
Don't be ashamed to cry and let out joyful tears,
For it will remain in your heart and in your memory
The poetry of Christmas and all its glory.

Welcome to my nightmare of monstrosity,
A view, deep within a person's atrocity.
We live in a world where evil dethrones,
All what is left where light once shone.

From the depths, once we dreamed...
Now we crawl hiding from the beast within,
Through the infernal flames, we walked
Out from the darkness, once we thought.

It's endless and so it seems!
The suffering won't just die from within,
It rages through like blazing fire,
Devouring all of you and your desires.

What makes a nightmare? What makes it real?
Perhaps you're not dreaming? Maybe it's how it seems?
Waking up hoping for a difference,
Then forcing oneself to sleep
Just to pretend, to try escaping it!

With the absence of illusion one may suffer, not  knowing the truth!
Does it matter now? When you're consumed and left nothing to lose.
Just go on live your life! Or just end it! Enough design your demise!
Hiding, Cowering in the dark! Just to know you're all alone...

A living nightmare worst than when you're asleep,
No point of escaping either way you will face defeat.
For it is you who won't let go! Addicted with the affliction!
For you feed your demons with fears and desolation!

Scrawling down my memories before I forget,
That will soon reminds me the things to regret;
Only now I feel worry, what of my existence?
My misfortune never ends and it appears consistent...

Crossing my mind, those other's problems;
While setting aside mine, to understand them...
And later I say, I must not falter! I must stay strong;
It wasn't that bad that, soon I will not suffer long...

What of the words, that I used to share?
A piece of advice to let them know I care;
For I myself needed some help, For I cannot bear!
The feeling that sometimes life itself isn't fair...

Yes I'm aware! That the world needs balance to weigh;
The equality where some of us tends to eventually fray...
Right at the edge of their sanity to understand their fate;
A living hell they say filled with misery and hate...

With a rope tied tight, I tried to contemplate...
What is on the other side? Should I stay here while I optate;
Where do I belong? As my fate is unclear, which path to take?
So I tell to myself, I maybe just losing my faith....

I stepped down from this stall where I stand;
Now it's all clear to me, I know now and understand...
That not everything in life is handed on a plate...
That sometimes one must play the cards their being dealt

One must not easily fold, lay down and cower
Stand firm and strong even if the whole world's on your shoulder!
Be positive! Ignite the thoughts of negativity
For from here on you only seek serenity...

Eid reven nac taht eno... Latrommi ma I
Thgil eht gniruoved... Ssenkrad eht ma I
Edisni lived eht, sraef ruoy... Eramthgin ruoy ma I
Thgin yreve peels ot og uoy nehw, luos ruoy gnilaetS

Mrah yna morf uoy stcetorp taht eno... Ruoivas eht ma I
Nus lanrete eht ekil gninrub... Tghil eht ma I
Dnal esimorp eht ot egdirb a... Ediug ruoy ma I
Dnah efas ni er'uoy erus gnikam, Peels ouy sa ouy gnidrauG

Erif lanrefni eht em ni eveileb... Lived eht ma I
Erised uoy lla gnitnarg ni em etivni, eman ym maercS
Thgif ew lived eht rof htaif yb deneprahs thgil fo drows a...Legna na ma I
Thgink gninihs a, rotcetorp ruoy em otnu llac ythgimla eht fo rewop eht htiW

One may contemplate, doubting their faith,
For some reason with a little suffering they started to hate;
Easily clouded their minds with deception and lies!
That's what devils do before plotting your demise...

One may keep holding on, no matter what is thrown;
For they believe in the almighty, and the coming salvation;
A walk through hell, a test of their own will and faith
For never a moment the devil tried blinding their sight

We are our own angels and devils
With free will we live a life with choices
A path through darkness where the devil lies
A stairway to heaven where the almighty shines

You need a mirror to talk to your self
Ask something that you will not regret
What kind of person soon you'll become
A soldier of God or an army of satan...

This clothes doesn't fit me anymore,
It's time to throw them along with the shoes that I wore
I'm sick and tired of all their complaints,
No more sharing please it's all the same.

How come I never felt sheltered?
Where I'm all open and ready to listen?
Those problems that other shared
Feels like the world is on their shoulder

But after all the whining stops
And it's my turn to whimper
All I get is a cold gaze,
A fake smile to get over

It's hard acting like a hero
When you're in need your probability is zero
Don't expect equal return to what you gave
For it doesn't work that way, just wait to be save

My compassion with others ends here and now
I didn't mean it to be this way, it's hard to explain how
It's just that the wind suddenly gone dry
Maybe it needs time to get another try

The symphony of the night... Can you hear it?
Come dear lets waltz with the rhythm as your heart beats...
Face to face we dance round and round,
Eye to eye we stare and silence became a sound...

I can feel it... The pounding on your chest;
As you breathe slowly enjoying this moment...
Perhaps it's your last, no one will ever know,
What's behind this mask, just a bit more I will show...

(Palpitate!Yes let your blood rush through your veins!)
I promise your warm blood will not be in vain!
I can't restrain myself! Shall I rip her throat now?!
Let the gashing begin breaking the vow!

The music is at its intense part,
The notes it rise and fall like the beat of your heart,
Matching the moment as it come to an end!
I apologize dear for in my hands you must suffer hell...

Sorry love for you must quench my thirst!
No point in screaming! And please wipe off your tears!
It turns out our love to be a ****** romance.
It all ends with a bite, halting our last dance...

Here I lie facing up the ceiling,
Time has passed me by and still ticking;
I remembered telling myself that it's all over,
That the pain is all gone back when I was sober.

Picking up the pieces of this broken glass.
That I punched that evening where our goodbye's seems the last;
You never had a good reason, but it's all different that night...
Wished you could have told me sooner, we could have avoided the fight.

Where did I go wrong? I kept asking all these years.
Of course there is always something that causing the steers
If I could just turn back time and listened to all your fears
Then there is no need for us to keep holding off our tears.

I never cried literally... But inside I'm flooded with regrets
It's something that a man can do while trying to forget.
Drinking the cheapest bottle of wine just to get his day over;
Breeze through the pain, just to realize tomorrow is another cower.

Hearts, glass, memories and all the things that shatters...
How can one patch up the pain? To completely feel better.
Just like a thousand little stars across the open desert,
All the pieces that are waiting to be whole to be revert.

Questions are asked and it takes two to answer,
Maybe it's time for me to say a little prayer;
Once again here I lie trying to make it all better
Handling with care, all the things that shatters...

Soaring high up in the sky with its fiery wings;
Traces of crimson ashes falls as it glades forming rings.
With a shrieking cry that calls upon the land;
The ground will tremble, illuminating the darkness beyond.

An immortal cycle this mighty bird journeys on,
A burning passion, a virtue that only among the brave belongs.
How can one maintain such pain? Burning endlessly through eternity,
Was it a gift or a curse? Or perhaps an order that only knows by the almighty.

Legend has it that this bird lives on forever that it can never die,
From the ashes it may for a moment belong, then soon rise, revived by fire.
Scorching, burning like the eternal sun as it soars once again.
Offering warmth with it's infernal embrace, while the blazing remains.

This is what I know of the mythical phoenix.
As precious and old like those ancient relics,
A myth that symbolizes now bravery and hope
That one must stand back up against any fall.

Initializing Project Insomnia...
Gathering subject's data...
Synchronization complete...
Memory gauge ready to deplete....

Tracing last memory relapse...
Engaging before the time elapse...
Extracting remaining portion of the brain activity...
Eliminating for complete inability...

Subject 001 successfully terminated...
Preparing clone... preparation completed...
System malfunction... Rebooting system...
Mainframe breached... Multiple data hacked...

Re-Animating subject 001...
Life support activated...
Re-installing memory...
Reanimation complete...

Subject 001 is back online...
Bio organic weapon functional...
Preparing extermination...
Codename: Alpha initiated...

I think I'm in love with your poetry...
I can feel me all shaky as I breathe heavily!
My heart is pumping thrice than it should normally;
Hey I'm not on drugs! I wish I were so I don't have to worry...

Hurting myself again, like if it's already a thousand times!
It's exaggerated I know! But it's how my feelings define.
Let me slow down a bit, and think it all through;
Is there even a definition to what I'm feeling?Could it be true?

It's funny that this feeling never gets old! Repeatedly told!
Perhaps it's us being human with so much faith to hold...
There's nothing better than the sweet warm embrace of love.
The only thing, the best I've ever had.

So lets go back from what I'm feeling for you;
Help me a bit, tell me what to do? Well... That's something new!
It's not that I can't or won't be able to do a thing...
Just say a little assurance that this will not all end up for nothing.

Oh!Wait!But of course risk is involve!
It's not like your on display and waiting to be sold.
I must make myself worthy, make you feel the same thing that I do
A cliche that all lover should go through.

Oh crap I ran out of words to say!!!
Maybe it's meant to be so I can just do it anyway!
So my love! Will you spare a little time?
Or tell me now are you willing to be mine?

I don't know what to write today.
It feels so empty without anything to say;
Yet here I am pushing buttons and random letters!
Edited a bit just to make it look better...

Hey guys!What's up?How's your winter?
It's so **** cold I can see myself breathe while I shiver;
Lighting now my cigarette...**** where's my lighter?!
Eheh...Can you torch me up?I'll make it up to you later.

Ahhh...Feels good, the suicidal taste of nicotine!
I feel a bit better now, killing myself a little.
No wonder why so easily I wear thin.
Gotta stop smoking right?!Of course what's the big deal?

Okay back to boredom and this empty room!
If these boring walls could talk I am surely be doomed.
I played with my guitar a dozen of times already!
Well it doesn't hurt to keep myself busy while I rock steady!

So what's next from feeling empty?
Watch **** and do something *****?
For ****'s sake!Hey that is not funny!
It was just a random thought...Just call me crazy!

Alright this is pointless...No! I mean it really!
You should stop reading from here on believe me.
Hearing me whine with my words of insanity,
Will surely ruin your day like mine completely.

But here's a little something...Would you care if I share?
Love always comes with pain and a cross to bear.
Hold unto it savor and cherish so it may last forever.
Of course we all knew that forever is next to never.

But everything grows stronger, just put a little faith.
Open up your mind a bit and forget all about hate,
Expand your consciousness to a different level,
Be something essential! And be told in a fable.

All of those things that revolves around us
Is something that involves the future and our past,
It's a universal code that linked us together;
A genetic design...We see clearer as we gets older.

Life is a wonder like a one big story!
Yesterday's a history, tomorrow's a mystery,
And today is a gift that's why they call it present;
Admit it that quote is cool and quite decent \m/

Hail to all those who are brave and strong!
That fears no evil and commits no wrong!
For their hearts are pure!
Even through hell they can survive and endure!

All the darkness will perish with the power of light!
Literally speaking! You should have seen them fight!
With their strength and power bestowed by the Gods,
No villains shall reign they should just lay down their guns!

So much faith was given to those brave warriors of time!
Reading comics had given me ideas that words can't define!
Do they really exist?
Or it was just all inside our minds?

It's time to face reality that heroes live within you in me;
We may not possess superiority like superhuman ability;
But with compassion and the heart to sacrifice, for once be selfless!
The world will be a safe place from all that is heartless!

Well we all know that the world needs balance
That everything we thought we knew is a one big trance!
Through the storm we unite ourselves as one!
But there is always war to exchange bullets with our guns!

Like an anthem to live in harmony;
Only accompanied by disenchanted melody!
Like light and dark worlds apart!
Good and evil a purgatory where you can't depart!

In the end it's always every man for himself;
Where one's action will determine their fate!
How pure are their intentions, will they make it to heaven's gate?
There are no more heroes so might as well hold on to your faith...

Brothers and sisters! Have you known no remorse?!
For the sins we have done, don't you want to be atoned?
No fear of judgement and what's about to come;
The unworthiness of salvation where no man would have gone!

Don't be proud of your pride! To think that you're in control;
Of the wheels of your fate, that along the way you will pay no toll!
For every actions bear a consequence in this world, you thought you knew it all!
That kind of thinking, that you gave life that kind of meaning will empty your soul!

Perhaps I'm wrong! Judging most of you through your beliefs!
Who am I to advice?I've never been to heaven nor hell's grip!
So go on dig deeper and explore!Exploit life's meaning of what you bore!
The end justifies the means! You reap what you saw the fruit of your labor!

But when the sky darkens, no one knows what will happen;
It's not ordinary like we are used to, preparing for something;
Together great tragedy will be fall!
For some just another natural disaster, a course of nature...

It was all written! The four horsemen's descent!
Will come clearing the land with great laments!
Pestilence, War, Famine and Death will ride out together!
White, red, black and pale! Here they come! Behold! Beware!

The coming of the lord along with the descent!
A sign of salvation, judgement, and eliminates;
The vile evil that sits upon this earth that corrupts the beauty!
A battle between light and dark, determines the fate of humanity...

Forgive me if I say that you can't take my pride!
You can burn me in hell!Make my soul be fried!
But in the end I know I am better without a doubt!
A narcissistic vanity is where I base my growth!

I envy you in every way!
Why can't I have what you have today!
It's so simple yet so frail!
This feeling I have will always be pale!

Haha!It's all mine!Oh!Gluttony you say?!
Do you wanna have some?Are you willing to pay?!
I'm not obsessed in having or to possess them all!
It's just that I can so **** you all!

Ahhh!My blood is rushing all over my body!
The heat you are sharing makes my hands all shaky!
My stomach is rumbling I'm so ready for you!
The lust I am having won't last till' both you and I get through!

I will crush your skull for not obeying me!
I will rip you apart for humiliating me!
My anger will smite you to pieces, feel the wrath of my fury!
We all are familiar with this feeling, the beast within you and me!

For the people I will serve my country!
This is the mask I wear in front of humanity!
As my greed pilfer and slowly steal all their money!
I became rich and famous!I will claim the throne gladly!

So busy thinking while laying my body on this bed!
Oh there is so much things to do maybe later I'll just rest my head!
I'm suffering apathy sloth as they say that gets into me!
I will change really tomorrow when I wake up believe me!

Decapitate, disembowel, tear and mutilate!
Schizophrenic!Psychedelic twisted mind!
Expedite, liberate, Alienate then recreate
Masonic!Prolific piece of mind!

Sabotage, besiege, flank to infiltrate!
Victorious!Strategic tyrannic mind!
Crucify, liquify, impale bleed them dry!
Torturous!Barbaric, sadistic mind!

Derange, insane, crazy and mental!
Hallucinating!Polysyllabic demented mind!
Disturbed, diabolic, vile and fatal!
Parasitic!Infected infested mind!

Resuscitate our dead memories only just to die again;
Waking from a deep slumber, Staring out the window pane;
Counting hours, how long can I endure the need to restrain?;
Nothing have changed I should just get back to sleep again.

The sun rises slowly as it burns my pale tainted skin;
It just felt so good just to feel pain! For so long I've been so keen;
I grew weak in my dreams when I'm asleep, the thoughts of you makes me sick!
It's not that you vexes me, It's because of what I did to you that worries me;

Never before I have felt so sensitive within this lifeless body...
Lived only by drinking blood! To be confined in this coffin just to feel lonely!
And then you came... The one I thought who restrained the beast in me;
The one who gave warmth not burning me, calmed my soulless fury.

But we must all know that the nature has its way of breaking;
Something that is beautiful, Something profound! A new beginning...
And so it came to that point where I fed on her! left her dying!
Perhaps it was all meant to be for a while just to forget the craving...

I'm a killer, a monster! An abomination to this world!
But I can't take my life...Believe me I tried!
I bathed under the sun turn to ashes and died!
Only to know that when darkness falls I'll be revived...

I must make a choice... It fancies me just having this thoughts right now;
What could I possibly do?If the beast within is the one who contains me and how?
It seems like a personal attraction just to add some satisfaction as I reach for the ****;
A little drama, show some masked humanity, make them live a little just to quench the thrill!

I have glared, I have grinned, I have laughed and I have seduced...
As I get closer for my teeth to sink in, let loose, let the hunger reduced;
But after the feed do I feel remorse? For hours I thought I did...
It's been like that through all the years... Feels redundant indeed.

So how far will this story goes? For centuries I have pondered in circles.
I have been there the evolution, the changes, the life as it cycles.
And again...Here and now as I stand where once I become capable staring at the sun;
I will forget the unforgettable, sail away! Far away from this land...

Remember my story as it will never end;
I'm finding a way now to break free from this curse;
To be one with my prey walk free no more blood to quench thirst;
So long and goodbye from me Dracula...
Serenity is what I seek...A redemption of what they speak.

Meteors are soaring down!Devastating those on the ground;
Creating craters of tragedy burying mankind's history;
The world we know will soon decay along with the thoughts we have today;
But why worry?Why be sad?Everything's going to be okay...

I admit it was all too much! The end of days and all those kinds of crap!
Like ***** are flying,heads are rolling,sky's falling where time just stop!
The dead are rising, The horsemen are coming, People are dying!
But why worry?Why be sad?Everything's going to be okay...

So friends what are your points of view?Please would you kindly share?;
The strongest typhoon stroked Philippines, how many of you shown their care?
Was it just the beginning of the coming end?Or to make us once again unite;
So why worry?Aren't you glad?Everything's going to be alright...

How can we tell if it's all over?What is a new beginning?What is a new world order?
Would you rather prefer to just blindly walk?Ask no further questions restrain yourself to talk.
A revelation will soon be unfold!The end is nigh!The judgement of our days;
So why worry?Keep the faith!Everything's going to be okay...

I used to be a man with a pride and a gun;
I used to be that person who is always having fun;
I used to be a star!An actor! A very famous one;
Now everything have changed...Everything's gone.

I used to be happy with a wife and a son;
I used to be that person who is always feel grand;
I used to feel limitless like the whole world's mine;
Now I felt so empty like life just left me behind.

Here I am counting my sins! Confessing my crimes;
I never thought I can say a prayer, that I can change overtime;
So what's the point?when things have said and done?
Now that I am broken, so lost, with no clue where to stand.

I am trying to realize something in life while facing the sun;
When did I become so cold?While once again trying to feel warm;
All the answers are there from the very beginning yet undermined;
Now that I'm played by my self-righteous pride, now I have regrets inside my mind.

Empty,Broken and played is what I am today and may still be the next day;
But who's to blame but myself!Now even flies and rats wouldn't want to stay;
Once again I want to try to get back what once mine, but now as a better soul and a better man!
Lessons learned in life! Time to walk a new one! I really just wanna spent my whole life with my wife and my son.

One must learn to listen so both will start hearing, what's the cause of all fights and all their swearing;
Not with just your ears but with an open heart and mind synching with their feelings;
Look straight through their eyes set aside your  thoughts of their demise;
For they will do the same, settling things in a peaceful way would be very wise.

Was it that really simple when lives are already took?
Will you understand the demands written in each others book;
Now with a tightly clinched fists and fingers on the trigger of their own weapons;
Gritting teeth waiting for their leader's call!Like a game of chess they are just pawns.

So the siren wails and fires were shot!Lives are taken!Bloods were dropped;
Bombs explode splattering guts!Countless deaths and souls were trapped!
After all the dust had settle, who will be victorious and which cause are stronger?!
Funny one will still claim an answer where it only fuels more anger.

So when you're asked to fight a battle over nothing which side will you take?
If they can talk things over then why need ask questions to make?
A fight may be won and battles can be conquered signatures a sin
Always remember that the war still rages within!

Some friends are friends who pleasures themselves seeing you inferior to them;Some friends are friends measures their success by comparing your life to theirs;Some friends are friends who is worst than your foes you will never know what lies behind their grins;Some friends are friends of strangers who blindly judged who you are from what you do;Some friends are friends like drugs that gets you high and drags you down real low;Some friends are friends who won't let you suffer alone and like brothers or sisters they'll stay to see things through;Some friends are friends that are hard to find unlike those who are self proclaimed and undermined;Some friends are friends like cancer they grow but you will never die having them;Some friends are friends who ***** that you **** too having them around so tell me more what are friends to you?

Here comes she who once left,
So close and near but with no presence felt!
Is it a ghost?Oh dear no!She's just a memory
If you believe me so.

So cold that it burns my skin!
So painful, so harsh and it really stings!
It cuts and it pierces but it's not a sword!
Your mouth and your words so full of thorns!

We hate to love of what we hate
It's written down all over our face
Do you truly feel good when you get away with feat
But remember you're just a liar and a cheat!

Here's something new you should try it too!
Do we always follow a strong current but of a waterfall
Or a gentle current that's just slowly and eternally flow
Some are just mere puppet like an arrow from a bow!

This is a riddle in a poetry,
With words of truth and controversy
It may not be that strong but you will surely know
Life is just a game for some just a show!

Let the thunder roars, and the lightning strikes!!!
For it will clear the doubts we fight, For every trials and obstacles we face!
There will always be a way to push forward straight!!!
Obliterate your worries and fears be smite!So you will have your peace tonight

For every breathe and burden we take!
Will come with ease and a pain we hate!
But worry not just trust your fate!
With your virtues nothing's at stake!

What's with the risk we take and make?
What makes us right?What makes you a saint?
Be a martyr one that's vulnerable and weak!
But remember that earth will soon be inherit by the meek!

What's the day today it's good you ask!
It's Thor's day now lads and lass!
With your bag of hammers don't let them weigh you down
But build a fortress right through the ground!

It's time to make some final words!
Weak can be strong as being strong can be weak
For some don't have the heart and compassion of what we speak!
Have a nice day enjoy it's Thursday everybody holds
Their own hammer with lightning and thunder!

Hide hide little child hide,
The sky is dark yet it's still five.
Hurry now!Rain is about to pour!
Followed by thunder with it's beastly roar.

Flashing lights are about to blind your eyes,
you know what may happen when the lightning strikes!
So hurry now and find a safe place,
as your fear makes your heart beat raise!

Soon my child it will all be over,
you will no longer need to shiver.
Hold your hands and calm your mind,
tell yourself that you'll be fine.

The sky is clear you can now breathe freely,
cast out your fears and all  that makes you worry!
Just remember that when the lightning strikes!
find yourself a place to hide...

Have you ever tried feeling deprive?
can't reach for something from the other side
fated by choice you never want,
given a life of what they've decide...

Reality masked your pain, dignity and of what remained
are you not just an empty shell?Without a pride or a soul to sell
you cursed the name of the lord in vain!
yet you pray to keep you sane...

So what of now you asked yourself?
just like you asked yourself yesterday,
no matter what, no matter where
you know you'll always be a number...