You could no longer
  hear 'neath the winds,
nor feel watercolors
    in lullaby tears,
   for the torrents had come,
     as sun splintered
        and darkly
    shadowed spirits
            were cast by
                eradicated
                       constellations

Time,time changed me.
I think back to when i was little. I smiled so easily over small things.
I smiled over a song or a bird or a cookie even.
The simple things i loved i loved waking up everyday.
I loved dreaming. I only had to wake up and play i had my own world it was small.
Then i grew.
Time went by, The small girl who would smile so easily turned to cry so easily and smile so rarely.
Time went by and I became so lonely i dont know why.
I felt heartbreak but didn't know why. I hurt myself in so many ways.
I still sometimes do.
Time destroyed me it broke me.
I cant blame anyone for what happened cause what happened well it just did.
No one could do anything we we're all helping each other out of the hardest time ever for all of us.
We we're all hurt, all in pain, all close to self destructing.
We all cried our selves to sleep sometimes still do.
We all tried our hardest to keep each other alive when we would break.
We we're family. Then one broke and died.
I watched them die. I broke im destroyed still.
I hold a smile can anyone see me?
Or the costume i hold up in the light to fool them.
I fool them to well.
people say i am a terrible liar but trick is ive been hiding me this whole time.
Lying that im happy.
Faking im ok.
No one knows whats happened to me im so closed up im a master at the game.
I can make you seem im so happy nothing could be wrong but im cutting the second you turn.
I'm fading who i was faded. Where am i? Can you find me? Time lost my mind but ive still got my soul.
So from here i make up a patterned game of happiness an illusion to make myself seem as if im happy.
I've become the magician at my circus I learned the perfect trick.
I've become to learn the greatest one of all.
Its my illusion, Its my mask ive learned to cast to wear.
I've become an act of a play.
I've become a replica of a script.
I've become perfect at my part.
I've been casted the lie of happiness. How am i doing?
-Mickie Rouxe-