I'm not meant to be here
I was not planned
So why is it so bad
That I'm trying to find a way out?

When they sweet talked you
Complimented you
Made you feel
Special

You were in a world of darkness
One that was not created by your past
They came by
And took the darkness away
Allowing you to see the light
Not only in the world
But in yourself

The only problem was
You didn't create the light
They did

After they left
They weren't around to see
You doused yourself
In mediocrity

He spoke to me
With his eyes

He held my hand
With his essence

He hugged me
With his breath

He kissed my sides
With his touch

He broke my *****
With his words

And now my words
Were breaking him

I have such passion
I have an imagination
And I have reachable dreams
All I'm missing
Are the steps in between

There was never one that I loved much more
On this September day.
The ties between our sacred hearts
Done nothing but fall through cracks
The flower bed where I used to lay
Is not the same
Without you

In disappointing them
I disappointed myself
And when you disappoint yourself
It's hard to tell others
Because they'll never understand
And they'll always ask
Why

When we don't have the answers
We end up alone
Crying
And wanting to die
Only disappointing them
And spreading the poison
That they don't deserve

But
Did you deserve it?