I don't want to have time to be angry
I understand how possible it is to have better things on my mind
I usually do have better things on my mind
I just have no one to discuss them with
I have no one to embrace them with
I know it's not worth my time to be angry

You filled my room with a presence it had never felt before,
I, had never felt before
Almost as if you two had met before
Almost as if you knew everything about my empty walls,
and why they were so empty
Why my clothes were piled higher than Mt. Everest
Why my pictures lay flat on my stereo,
Why the air was so frigid
As if you always knew,
and I never did

You love that too,
That I don't know.

But now I am left hanging
Like those flowers you bought for me last week
Beautiful without a doubt, and still
So beautiful through my eyes
But now,
They will hang
And hang
And hang
And I will keep them hanging
In my room, near the frigid window of mine
until you come back to my room

Maybe not so empty as before
Maybe my bed made this time
Maybe a bit warm for once
And when you come back,
I'll set them back in that same vase
And they will look just as beautiful as they did before
If not, more gorgeous than I could have ever imagined
And we will both know exactly why

Let your old thoughts rot away
It is Spring now, and it is time to bloom
Sprout, and spread your wings
Think like the petals glued to the new seeds
Stem, and roots
Ground yourself with what holds you to the ground
Sing like the Song bird, be wise like the Owl
Fly away with the wishes of dandelions
Soar like the eagle
Find a wave of make believe
Drink from the rivers in the valley
Dream your way into heaven
Create a new reality
This is your world
Your thoughts will shape it
So rot away what is not yours
Reveal what is no longer hidden

I write new pages every day
Different articles to display
Black and White
Always uptight
Comics in color
The only reason you even bother
Because laughter makes it all worth while
You don't care about the front page
You want that extra mile
The hidden pages
The ones in the middle
The ones you have to dig for
Confirming the riddle
Everything else is such a joke
Just like the news papers
The absolute greatest hoax
No one gives a ****
At least the 'no ones' who understand
The ones who think outside the box
The ones who give the universe a chance
The things that seem so out of this world truly are
And they aren't displayed so grey
They are true work of art
For you, the alienated mind
They want you to feel demented
But you're way ahead of the times
And if you really knew that
You would be ahead
Of them
And they can't let you know that
We'd out number them by so many
They'd **** their pants
And lose this entire country
What they don't realize
Is that they are invited too
I see them as me
We are all apart of the truth
There doesn't have to be one better than the other
If we saw the harmony in this
Everything would come together
This entire world
The end of suffering
Enlightenment for all
True peace everlasting
That every soul truly desires
But if you see this as too cliche
Stay here in this hell
Watch everything you think you live for go to waste
Your mind holds a very real power
Brighter than lightning
Louder than thunder
I've seen it work out
I've been to the heavens and back
The secret is already here
Earth IS where it's at
Come along if you want
Because I am destined to recover
I am destined to bring some of you with me
Trust the thoughts that make you shutter
Trust the most refused thoughts in your mind
Like playing with fire or traveling time
The fact that you even think you can do that makes it possible
It makes it evident
It makes it unstoppable
The first step is belief in this system
Outside your programmed thinking
This comes way more natural
Mother Earth is on your side
Put the newspapers away
And starting taking pride
Own up to what's yours
Take it back
Watch my bizarre words come to life
It's not just an act

I am not angry
I am just prying away at the things that do not make me happy
I have allowed layers of grief to add up, and consume me
I will not anymore
I am stronger than before
These things that have connected, and became
Are dark shadows I lingered on,
Because I couldn't label them or give them a name
- they didn't deserve one
They never will
They wanted to take me away
From the flower that bloomed on Grandma's hill

I am the seed
I am the stem
I am the flower
I am the end
When I'm dome
I'll bloom again

Someday I will be ready
Someday I will find myself prepared
Someday I will see you
Then we will meet each other there
So much is to come
What steps do I take now?
Keep asking Spirit to guide you
Head tip top, and Feet stable on ground

It was me all along
It has been me all along
I am here
I am now
I forget sometimes
I remember now
I am always here
I can always return
Oh, how easy it is to leave
Oh, how easy it is to forget

I remember now
I have always been here
Right here
Right now

The love that binds us has been forever intertwined
I found it yesterday, today, and I will find it again tomorrow
I have found it now within myself, and here with you alone
We are all alone, and that is understood
The power of one goes beyond time,
Because time is a concept we have habitually been seized to
This love that binds us is strong without reason
No reason to not accept that it is held within you now
The inevitable reason of why
I found it yesterday, today, and I will find it again tomorrow

Seek the unexpected
Watch it all be resurrected
Watch the full moon
Be apart of the swoon
It holds you close
Supports your ghost
Waves you in
Is paper thin
Belongs to the keepers
Never telling their secrets
Of what is to come
Watch your words
And don't play dumb
They are out there,
They are tar black
Covered with skin
Because they lack
The actual realness of their reality
Of brainwash and conformity
Be strong and follow the light
Praise yourself and your insight
Of intuition
The fruit of vision
**** sweet juice from heaven
And don't get lost in this forgotten prison

This romance, the dance, this chance
Has left me in the rubble
Climbing mountains, and taking hikes
Feel subtle compared to where you have left me
I stare into the abyss
Wishing for a kiss from someone
Who understands attraction
Who understands reaction
Who takes me for who I am
Not some outdated faction
I am stronger than these conversations
I am more than these personalizations
I am not wrong in thinking I am more than these realizations
These people are not free
They are confining me to their reality
That I want no part in
Where I am not sacred
And I am
I AM AND I ALWAYS WILL BE
But just because you don't understand doesn't mean I don't want you with me
This is why I still hang on to you...

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This is what the world has become
This is what it all boils down to
This is my emo blog for you
Literally. This is it.
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The path to your own heart has a bridge that you built, but can't cross
The river flowing underneath strikes up currents in your mind that cause you to feel lost
These wavelengths of confusion **** you right in
You forget about the bridge in the first place, and start swimming against them
In perfect theory you just want to reach the other side,
But nothing's ever perfect, right?
Especially when this is something you started yourself, and backwards seems like down and confusion takes you south
For the winter, and now you're in freezing water
[This is dangerous ground]
If the ice freezes over
You will be held captive under
There are equal people on the other side of the bridge you built
Asking for your hand
But you won't reach out
You doubt the help that the ones who love you offer
They're right in front of you,
But you don't even bother
"I can do this alone"
"Everyone look at me"
"I'm the King of my bridge"
Wait, did you forget you were drowning?
A potential King, maybe
But for now that's a fantasy
If you reached out your hand
You might find fellow company
Of people who are riding the exact same wave
Of people who also are lost in the game
We all built a bridge, and it's hard to get over
Think of how much easier it would be to get across it together
Two is better than one,
And that's why we are divided
Take pride in your individuality
But don't be mislead by it
The currents are only as strong as you want them to be
If anything I'll tell you, I found this in me
I believe it so much
It's why I am writing
This isn't just a poem about a boy and a bridge
This is my vision, and I want to actually teach it
And I will, absolutely nothing is in my way
I'm still crossing my bridge to this very day
It's all part of this journey,
And I didn't get where I am alone
We are equal parts of this river
And I want to help sail us home

Many suns ago, I lost my moon.
My moon, the rest of my being,
The other half of who I claim to be.
My greatest peace of me, and yes
I mean peace.
The evident light that filled my darkest craters.
The rest of my sentence,
Each time I opened my mouth
As if ingesting holy water,
You filled me up.

Too many suns ago, I lost my moon.
So long ago that I have learned to keep up with the sun.
Not only the sun, but everything he claims to be.
He leaves staggered directions all around me.
The sun is vicious, for he can not feel.
At least, not like you, my moon.
That ****** sun.
He will hold you or he will destroy you.
All I truly want is to be held.
Sweet moon, will you ever hold me again?
The sun has deceived me,
and I fear that he always will.

We finally danced, and I did nothing
I couldn't have
I didn't want to
Anything I did or could do
Wouldn't have been enough
You bled into my me
You bled into my bones
We were one
I held hands with thoughts
That we together, have always shared
I had only just forgotten
You brought me back to my first breath
My first feeling of regret
I forgive you, because I understand now
Swimming in song
Singing in irreplaceable tune
Step by step swallowing me in your swoon
We danced, and I did nothing
What more could I really ever want from you?

Wash me away in your tears (forever keep me here)
Dig a great deep hole
Bury the truth in the pit of your soul
Layer that diamond with every emotion ever felt
Kiss bliss goodbye until you earn it yourself

Black and white night while the heat of Jupiter sits on your shoulder
(The God of meteoric wonder)
Snow falls in middle of Summer, and still leaves you breathless
Shameless, and unknown
We have worth, you, I, and Mother
Dancing among moonlit sisters and brothers
Swaying away with the sky
Die, die, and then some
I will no longer

Wash me away in your tears (forever keep me here)

I shine at night in the pit of your soul

Multiple cowards in the same room
I don't approve, nor do I care
I don't belong, and I feel strongly
About that, what an act
You carry it so well
Welcome to the side
Of youre own beautiful Hell
I will watch you and I will watch you well
It's all time anyways
That is what takes us away
That is what brings us home

The warmth of this vision inside of me is healing
like a fire burning with friends gathered around telling ghost stories
of what used to be
I still hear their voices in my fainted memory
They sound staggered, and I can hear them yelling
Searching for an answer to this untitled folk tale
Not realizing they are stuck in the cell of someone elses reality
The earth has the answers
unseen and untouched
You just have to ask
but asking seems like the last crutch
it's the only crutch if you don't start looking
miracles do happen
it's why I am writing

The moonshine is everything
The soul from which I sing
What keeps me whole,
here, and clean
The brightest light I bow to
The only crown I vow to
Hold in my hands and not on my head
For I am not dying, or ever dead
I never cowered, I never sank
You were always here
We share this plank
For without you I could not see through these eyes
For without you we were never synchronized
For without you life was never real
Reality's goal is to unbreak your seal
Set your soul free, allow yourself to heal
Take the bandages off
Let the sun melt the snow
Hold my hand through this winter
I'll guide you to your show
Follow me when you catch your brig break
Remember the time and what was at stake
How you came so close to what you had left
The people you left behind
Your family and friends
But if we all were the same
If we all looked alive
Nothing would stop us
We all would collide
and bind into those who deserved us
The separate forms off the moonlight in One
How perception will change
Never fade and go on
I look up to you
I never want to sink
Keep my heart for ever guided
and my mentality a full tank

You give me shivers up my spine
Something I can not redefine
Dark without a doubt
With a smile so profound
The sound that moves past your lips
Is a humming bird taking sips
Off my pollenated soul
Something that could be so foul
Something you are still unsure of
Me, a ****, an unwanted fruit
From the ground where you are planting your new seed
The one you just placed inside of me
Hoping I will water it to perfection
A hopeful blossom of our relationship
Sprouting the most beautiful tunes
In two we will sing of how we grew
Such gentle plants in this garden of Eden
With colors so ripe
It's no wonder I would eat them
I would sin for you everyday
If it keeps me here, or even brings me back someday
It was you all along
And it always will be
I couldn't stand alone
Even if you killed me
I would find a way to be free
A time for all times
Eternity

Sun strikes me in passionate view
Setting sail to the taste of comfort
Blankets of shadows that once were
Unfold

They always unfold

Emotions sprout as I lay them down
Blooming words too beautiful to shout
Caught in the whisper of my own tongue
Quiet

I am never quiet

Loud are your curls like tangled branches
Shaking hands with the wind
As they fall down like avalanches
Touch

I always want your touch

In the dark of the night I find myself in a stutter
Far gone is the space between us
Your clothes spread around my room
Clutter

The picture I have painted is fading

In this weary confusion I have come to learn that I have never stood alone
I have never placed one foot in front of the other without another
This body is not who I am nor who I was meant to be
I am the soul inside that is actually living
Breathing is the body that now is
While I am here and can actually see it
Here on this earth away from what we call the galaxy
Where my thoughts are connecting to
As higher intelligences are actually speaking with me
Teaching me, and guiding me
As I learn how to be
As I learn how to hear
As I learn how to see
"Ask and you shall receive"
But first you must know how to ask
You must learn how to listen
You must learn how to react
To the answers when they are not always so obvious
It could come from someone else's conversation
It could come from a chorus
It could come from any direction
It could be something you read
Just know it is your jurisdiction
Your truth and your truth only
Truths tend to be different
Most find mine to be far out
Too crazy for them
Wishing I'd find another route
They find too much time in their own truth to be satisfied
They live in their own fear
In a way our realities could never collide
I am stuck on this, because it has lifted me
I am now a better person
The light has touched me
Or I, it
Either way we are connected
Together we exist
Together we are working on a new world
Some day I just hope
That in my mind you will come to see this
And resurrect it

Feeling-
Overwhelmed is an understatement
Feet winded with this pavement
So many places for me to go
Memory overflowing
As eyes open my front window
Vision-
Ascending into the next dimension
Freeing myself of my own prison
I am over it, above it, and beyond it
I am resurrected, a prophet
My true identity will unlock this
Power-
Mother after my own heart
Creating such beautiful works of art
Magnanimous changes that will occur
Soon to be the most awe inspiring picture
I am overwhelmed, but I am happening
Change-

A flower is a gift
It is protection
Reflection, an unseen jurisdiction
A mask, and an illusion
It is simple, and in some instances,
Medicine
I call upon the flowers
I speak to the petals
I ask them for guidance
I treat them like angels
They are my greatest teachers
Lovers, and friends
They are the most beautiful piece of my imagination
Sacred geometic patterns locked in a single shape
They helped me open my eyes, and open a gate
Multiple moments parallel to each other
Instances that align and bring us together
Blooming ripples that flow like a river
Creating a world that is sacred and silver
Forget about karmatic gold and the gods that lost the heat
Open your eyes to idea of prosperity
Green grass and significant botanics
Trees and leaves and our ancestors of Atlantis

I don't know if I have been covering myself up
If I have been letting myself down
Or if these two things are one in the same
But I am in the middle of making sense of it
I don't know anything,
and I don't want to

I am currently filthy
I have collected thoughts that are starting to mold
Allowing them to become me
Leaving me empty, tired, and cold
I am killing myself slowly with these thoughts
Trapping myself, and ****** myself of my own freedom
Repeatedly throughout every day
It's completely unfair to who I know I really am
Beauty, grace, rhythm, and balance
The fog seems so thick,
Making me wonder if I can even grasp them
I know it's silly to see myself this way
I know it's where I am, and not where I will stay
But it is hard right now
It is a challenge
I need a push, not a distraction
I am choosing to go forward
Fix myself of these things
Cut the mold out,
and let these thoughts rot away
They aren't me, and they never were
Time is so cheap sometimes
Everything still seems like a blur

So I've got this weird thing for olda daddies
I like that they're bald and ride around with the caddies
At the golf course on Sundays
Probably with they're olda babies
(which really means wife)
But that doesn't phase me!
Sometimes an olda daddy isn't even really an olda daddy
Sometimes it's my good friend Max,
but that doesn't make him too happy
Sometimes it's my friend Even,
But Ev the man doesn't mind!
He's got cool olda daddy hair and a fresh olda daddy mind!
He embraces his oldest olda daddy self!
He knows whats up!
He feels rich in his olda daddy wealth!
Because, not all of my friends are olda daddies
And Even is aware of this, his girlfriend is Cassie
And that's my friend too, don't get me wrong
But Cassie's a younga babby, this is a whole different song
We sing together, we drop all the baby beats
We'll drop them on you any time that we please
You never know what to expect from us younga babies
We show up out of nowhere and drive you mad crazy
That's what's so special about us babies in the world
Doesn't matter who you are, boy or girl
Everyone on earth gets pretty weird sometimes,
But us babies take the cup! That should ease your mind anytime!
Olda this, olda that, younga who, younga why
Come on gang, let yourself go!
I want to see you all give your inner baby it's best try!

Time sits on our shoulders, and we dance
Holding each others hands in the sway of every number
The trinity moves faster, and we get an eternal glance
What a hollow vision it may look from the outside,
Untold and Unknown
What an honest treasure it holds when we look into each others eyes
When we are together, I run, jump, and dive right in
You are the lost image of my deepest and darkest sin
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Who is the fairest of them all?
Because I thought it was me
I thought I was everything, all in one, and everlasting
How depressing, and lonely that idea must be
Or how it was until you danced with me
I love your spirit, and am so thankful we met
I will hold you in my heart like a necklace with a locket
Thank you for being every incredible inch that you are
I will hold a place for you in the night sky,
Who would of thought you were an actual star?
Do you see all those out there? How they shine in the dark?
How we stare at them in pure fascination?
Wondering exactly what they are?
Reality is a dream, it's real, and moving fast
Remember who are or this dream will never last

The preasure being released from my body feels like jumping into cold water
The release of what has nothing to do with me anymore is no longer limited
I am refreshed and cleansed of what weighed me down before I came up for air
I am a masterpiece waiting to be painted
I am an ocean that everyone swims in
I AM LOVE
I am the boat that carries you to that island
I am the impossible made possible
I am the unquestionable answer you have been waiting for
I am what you have been waiting for,
Because I am powerful
I am willing, AND able
I am beautiful, because I wanted be
I am here, because I chose to be
I am a light, because I am sick of the dark
Hold my hand as I dive into my next adventure
I want to take you with me to that Island
I want the cold water to release you from what was, and realign you with what is
How much more infinate could one possibly get?

I can not breath when Neptune pierces my throat with a lightning bolt
Blue and gold blisters rise on my porcelain skin
I make way inside the black whole to nowhere
Thank you, god of thunder
I gaze in wonder of how all is meant to be
May the grace of greatest heavens rain,
Pour down all over me

This wind of jealousy no longer serves me
It breaks me
Divides me in half with myself
Separation locks me out
Pulls me apart
Drags me around
I am not these pieces of doubt
I am not afraid of who I am
I am, and that is enough
Stronger now that I can kiss this feeling goodbye
Jealousy, what a blasphemy
Something now that has nothing to do with me

Spirit that I feel within me outside this earth,
Where have you gone?
I once knew you like the lines in my palm.
I had them memorized.
Key word is, memorized.
You probably thought I'd say 'had'
But that is not the key word,
'Had' IS the key.
I had you so close.
Had. Have. They are so similar,
Yet so unfortunately different.
I know we'll have again.
It's just not our time.
But, what is time?
And, can we really have our own?
You said it so.
So, ill believe.
And in my belief, we will still have
Everything we could ever dream

It is not just you; it is everything
I feel something so serene about this year
I feel a forgotten presence when you are here
Like you have chased me to this day
This moment, hour, minute, second
Like you have chased me beyond this time,
Because there is no more room for any of it
I will finally see the one of two
I can finally see my unforgotten moon
So simple and secure, no time or measure
I have sailed our lost and found seas
I have reached a diameter where we can finally meet
Again

Part of this is you, but a great amount is me
How many times I have called you home
How many suns I have set free
How many times I will say how many
Or use the word time in plenty

I am sick and ugly
I am alone and blind
Distance makes me lonely
And the sun seem so unkind
When I realize these things
When I open up my eyes
When I see you as the moon
I put the sun between my thighs
I spread my legs wide open
and invite you back inside
to where everything began
and the entire universe collides

Part of this is you, but a great amount is me
How many times I have called you home
How many suns I have set free
How many times I will say how many
Or use the word time in plenty

Because time does not exist,
And I want you home already

Yellow granit strikes up panic
Leaves me with the sun
Unfinished and undone
Nursing the shooting stars
Following them out far
Into the absolute greatest darkness
Living through hell
Something I can't seem to part with
Sinking my basket down to the bottom
Hoping to fish out the Devine
That I already hold in my hand
But I've lost that thought in my mind
Shattered bones make it hard to stand
My friends are so slow and not on my level to recover
I reach out my hand, but they don't even bother
My mindset is too far out for them
Under their tongue
Sadly, all they know how to do is pretend
I really am climbing the mountain
I am at my highest peak
Waiting for them
I'll stay here until you here my call
Echoing loud down the cave
Perched perfect on out holy branch
Ready to catch you when you fall
It will be your most perfect decision
Watch your thoughts unfold
Into a heavenly tangible vision

My poetry doesn't really make sense to anyone but me
Begging myself to get down on my knees
And pray to myself
Because I'm my only god
I'm the only one in power
Of my every single thought
Only I know what I think
What is real and what is not
I pray to myself in hopes I will listen
Hoping I will someday soon own up to my position
When I feel let down
It is my own fault
Not because of some other person
Or some other entity of god
I am me, and that's all that there is
That's all that I'm sure of
It's really no secret
Discover the power that lies within you
Write your own book
Decide your own truth

I understand that I do not
I embrace the fact that I still try
To this day to move forward
To the thundering steps along
The wheel of illusion
Fusion between my vision
Along with perception of division
I want to honor this conclusion
Stitch back every false incision
I will dance if you dance with me
Hold my hand, and join the party
My thoughts follow the white rabbit
Into her own black abyss
Red eyes shot like diamonds
Color blinded by unknown bliss
It is there, and it always has been
Embrace what you find
Do not get lost in silence
Patience

My light when out when I thought we were invisible
When I thought I could reach the top with out you
I just sank, and fell deep into the darkest oblivion
I am sorry, and I forgot
I am weeping, and I am hollow
I am ashamed, and I feel it in my gut
Pressure is pulsing inside my head
To the thickness of your heartbeat, and I know it
I can apologize one thousand times but It just won't cut it
I made a mistake, and I can't change that
I had my head lost in time, and I can't go back
This reality has consumed me
I am here, and I always will be
I found myself where I shouldn't have
Now I hurt the greatest part of me

(you)

I cant really explain it
But I can obtain it
And I love that I know it
I really am so into you
This vortex is crazy
And it really pulls me
So alive, and living
Past, future, happening
Now, I am so into you
Pulling me hypnitically
Listening so intuitively
So quickly inside my own being
Alone, universe I call to you
Shining brightly
More vivid than lightening
In the dark I am glowing
I am so into you

Darkest hour
In the tallest tower
Cowering down among every lost soul
You stand alone
In forgotten tones
That fall from your tongue
And then linger

In a past life I was absurd
Ridiculous, crazy, enraged
With passion
Looked at as unstable
I was unable to communicate
My reality, my mind, my vitality
To myself, it, was still a mystery
Unsolved, yet of course diagnosed
Voices plus visions equals exclusion
Exclusion subtracts being able to interact
With anything actually worth seeing
Or being a part of
Four pale walls
A plank nailed to one side
A bucket to **** in
The only security left
Was within my own eyes
And I couldn't even get a ******* mirror

Every single day inside my own mind
Conversing with Neptune
And the Keepers of Time
Pleiadian lover
Moon dust from down under
I weep!
No one here hears my cry
I am destined for this room
For the rest of this entire life
Sacred words that were once spoken
Arose at the most absolute worst moment
Now a fool I look to be
No one sees what I see!

So I let myself go
Returned home and found peace
Settled my thoughts
Calm the storms of the sea that I see
My ship has been rebuilt
I am now setting sail
The wind is blowing in a new direction
There is no doubt I will prevail

In this life to be I might be considered
Absurd, ridiculous, crazy, and enraged
With passion
But this time more stable
Able to communicate
Reality, mind, vitality
It still may be some what of a mystery
Unsolved, yet no need for diagnosis
I was taught in better ways
I now know how to own this
I am the greatest me I have ever been
I am back with a vengeance
I am Carma's daughter
Preaching the power of reverence
Right now I am still learning
Yearning, and searching for new answers
Asking questions that hardly make sense
Because everyone else is still afraid of this power!
I want to know!
I want to see!
I allow the grace of these visions
To bless themselves up on me

In this life I might be considered
Absurd, ridiculous, crazy, and enraged

I just don't ******* care anymore

I am going to wake up every single morning with both eyes open
At least while I am here and I still have them
I am going to lift my chin up with every more forceful step I take
By guiding my eyes upwards I will make less mistakes
Because the air is so clean, and vision is so vivid
It does me no good with the ground consumed in it
What good is it for me to live my life on the floor?
The only reason I would stay there is for you to take more
and more
and more
from me as I molded myself
To something better for you
A higher pedestal
And I'm sorry but I'm not here for you
To walk all over
To be apart of your cruel
Selfish ways that demand other souls
Get caught in your fishing net
Of something I sometimes can not even control
I truly believe it was not all my fault
That the floor was so easily shapely
It caught my eyes in the fog
As if my mind was then tranced straight into the ground
I became hypnotized and synchronized into your sound
But to hell with you, and your fisherman's gear
******* for selfishness in keeping me there
The fact that you thought you could use me as your bottom
To cheat your way up, and hold me from my blossom
I will be better, I will be so much more
I can not afford to be your butler
I can not afford to be here as your slave
I did what I can, I gave what gave
And I will continue to give all that I have left
I will continue to push for my everlasting breath
I will be, and I am, I am here, I am now
I'm not afraid anymore, I'm not stuck in this town
But this town has got rules
I won't play the fool
Step by step I'm getting exactly where I need to
Go, and get out of here
And that made me realize
The only thing holding me back
All along has been fear

Forget everything you ever thought you knew
It is no longer, and in your mind now it never was
You are left with infinite space to define your future
Not even to define, but to create
You allow source to flow through you
New, naked, and untouched
You are a rebel in time
You are a bad ***
You are connecting yourself with your future, present, and past
Unlimited self is a spectacular realization
Where you begin, and end is a known unknown satisfaction
Do not define every single thing
It is a sin to yourself, and staying oblivious is key
Love is as love does
I will love with every breath
As long as I remember love
I can create on the line of death
I choose to forget anything else, because it held me back
I will create things that have never been spoken of
I am a key to unlocking this world
This beautiful, and unlimited reality
A new door will open,
And as one we will sing
Cheers to the end and beginning
Of this immortal Living Library

When I enrich new souls I open up my thoughts
I feel things that have never been thought
I touch wounds that have never been healed
I un-vacuum things that have never been sealed  
I enforce new rules to those who are naive
I am the power beyond the light you've already conceived
I am the widowed shadow of the left behind
I am the ghost that is haunting you in the trenches of your mind

I am black and ashamed
I am withered and untamed
I am  the red on your skin
I am the ultimate evil from within

I count your days until they leave
I make clocks work like famous thieves
I am Robin in the hood
I am doubt inside your golden good

That pours out from souls at sea
I am the ultimate undying plea
I am the heart inside your chest
I am what is beating,
and I am nothing less

We are real and we are now
We are the power inside the 'how'
We are what is left of humane kind
We are what is raging inside your mind
We found it here, but are blind to see
Our minds can twist together
And finally leave

To the place that we call home
Above Jerusalem, our foreign home
Where the pages once wrote before
But did no justice for what is in store
For our sacred higher selves
For you and I
Heaven, and Hell

People are a remembrance of what truly ever was
Still bound to the performance of what they think actually is
The illusion they are presented is small tid bit of a mention
Of the world they are living in
The beginning of the end
That never truly has to
When you own up to your station
Bringing up a nation
Of everlasting love
The trees will whisper secrets
And pass them off to the doves
That before were once pigeons
Yet took on the test that was given
And turned their brown beak to black
Brought down the sack
Of glory that will rise
As long as you open up your eyes
Be humble in your demise
You will still rise to your kingdom

All that is left is your magnamous freedom

This melting wave of static inhales me when I think of you
It carries me away on our ship we bought last Summer
The waves we ride on are far from the Ocean,
But the water we sail on guides us to our heaven
Let the moon guide the sun to her everlasting heaven
Let the moon sail on waters you thought were forbidden
Let the moon see the sun striped naked and undone
Let the moon be the one to first kiss the sun
Let the moon be in love, let the moon finally see
That what has been holding them back all along were you and me

Blue like the skies among wolves
I howl away the feeling of being alone
My pack waits upon mountains I can not reach

I remember when I used to chase the moon
The biggest drink of water I have ever had
I remember when, and that's why it pains me

I remember the touch of your trance
The sallow of your soul
The fire I would feel in the cold of the night
The colors you would exchange through the eclipse of your kiss
You left me unsettled
With thousands of things like these to miss

Years have passed while I pass in this life

White like the snow that melts under my feet
Washing away this sense of defeat
I will follow the river that flows down stream
Backward reflection of my watery heartbeat

My tummy sits full
While my chest buries me
Back stands straight
Feet kept clean
I will wrestle 'til the end of this lonesome night
Spirit be with me
Kiss me until I explode
Kiss me into infinity
Kiss me until you are apart of me
We, that is what we are
Like wolves on the mountains
Like the moon to the stars

Locked in a tower of undivided attention in my mind
I hear myself plea in a race for time
Im not sure what for just yet
But my head is aching and I need to rest
Settle down and be at ease
Calm the waves of the seas that I see
The ones that make me feel heavy
The rolling tides that roar over
And turn into rivers
That flow down my nose
As I desperately recover
I have tried many times
Yet still continue
But I fear my boat is sinking
And I'm not sure who to turn to

I write about days I hate
I write about boys
I write about Pleaidians
I write about chips ahoy
I like cookies a lot,
But I like aliens more
I like being a girl
Some people think I'm a *****
This one is for me
This one is it
A poem for my life
A somewhat sum of it
I like to write about falling in love
Falling out, down, or around love
I like falling
Fast, and with passion
I like catching my breath
When something sudden happens
I like closing my eyes
I like playing with my fears
I like challenging myself,
Because I know I can hadle it
I am harder than stone,
I am tougher than scales
I am coming on fast
I am now setting sail
Do not doubt what you can not understand
If you can comprehend one thing
It's that I am taking a stand
I am smart
I am right
I write within my own truth
I know what I am doing
This I promise you
Just hold on real tight
Preserver, and follow through
Be kind, and continue to work in the name of peace
I sincerely love you

I found myself in the most strangest place
Where strangers around me
Practice the same pace
They work to bleed
The have a love for greed
They keep way too much stuff to themselves
Acting like it's Black Friday with the last Iphone5 on the shelf
It's so simple to remember the things that bring us down
It is actually too simple to forget how you became apart of this town
Why you lead yourself to become who are
Why you choose to lead a certain group of stars
It is everything you, my dear live for
And are living for in this very moment
You are here, there is nothing more to it
I feel you in my veins
I see your soul in the race
For true victory, the meaning behind the prophecy
That you wrote,
And will lead us home
Where we won't be alone
Where we won't have to worry
About decision making that has to do with
If I do or do not want to stop at Mc Donalds
For an M&M; mcflurry
Find beauty in this Earth that brought you here
Find a true passion for why you would want dance with her
Play around with the bars
Sing to new heights and became a shining star
She wants you to be alive
So live through each other
And into the unknown we will guide each other
And into the unknown we will show our sisters and brothers
To each there own, but I am taking this risk
I hope each and every one of you find at least something out of this