It was me all along
It has been me all along
I am here
I am now
I forget sometimes
I remember now
I am always here
I can always return
Oh, how easy it is to leave
Oh, how easy it is to forget

I remember now
I have always been here
Right here
Right now

Just know your secret is safe with me
I wait on the empty sheets of my bed
Dreaming of the day you come home
Tossing and turning awake I will lay
Thinking of all the ways in this reality
I could have possibly made to make you stay

Following my heart is never the easy part of any journey I take on
Following my heart means leaving him behind
Following my heart takes away any certainty I thought I might of had
It's always where I need to be, but hardly every where I go
I never follow like I know I should
It already took me a long time in the beginning to figure this out
I feel like a coward, a queen who dropped her crown in the dark
It's hidden beneath me at the bottom
Skimming this lonely wave of what I call the floor
I can't pick it up, because if I do
If I do, I will run, and I will keep running, and no one will stop me
No one can stop me, and that scares me
It also amazes me, and makes me realize how powerful I actually am
I used to be afraid to use the word 'power'
But I am starting to realize that power is not a rotting principle
It is the way it can be used, and it has been given a bad name
I want to change that, as I continue to change myself
I am aiming past the stars, because I know there is magic out there
I know there are secrets out there
Secrets that I have full possession of
If I allow myself to stand the **** up
Open my eyes, and breath in the unknown
I am everything, and nothing all in the same
Knowledge beyond my own years, because I know they don't exist
I have done this before, so what the hell is stopping me now?

Everything became abundant when I met you,  and lost at the same time
You supported a great part of me that set sail Long before I ever knew you were alive
Or existing at all
So greatly you perch yourself on the branch I have always pictured you sitting on
I have never seen you look better
As light as a feather you stand so pretty and bright
Never kept uptight or unclean
I see you and your soul so serene
........... to be continued

Multiple cowards in the same room
I don't approve, nor do I care
I don't belong, and I feel strongly
About that, what an act
You carry it so well
Welcome to the side
Of youre own beautiful Hell
I will watch you and I will watch you well
It's all time anyways
That is what takes us away
That is what brings us home

I question
My very own gut, my very own center, my very own vision
It feels like a splinter

I want it out, I can not swallow, I have no grip
My rib cage, hallow

Button up the idea behind my feelings for you
I lack motivation to secure a dying dream
I lack thirst for the adventure
I lack patience for this frightful endeavor

You made it this way
I picked the book, but you keep flipping the page
I am hooked somewhere in the beginning
Ground beneath me still spinning
Round, and round the clock I go
Numbers press on 'til you come home