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Alice Kay Jan 2013
The mind is a never ending maze,
at each turn is an infinite different new paths                                                            ­                a decision
sometimes you are walking on cool, green grass                                            warm feelings, often love
other times, on blazing hot coals                                                            ­                                            anger
maybe a long passageway must be crossed on a tightrope                                          overcoming fear
or your feet on solid stone                                                            ­                                         security, trust

Eventually, the maze will dissolve,
and there will be no more passageways to walk
or turns to make                                                             ­                                                                 ­        *death
Alice Kay Dec 2012
You should've been there,
Should've burst through the door,
With that 'baby I'm right here' smile,
And it would've felt like,
A million little shining stars had just aligned,
And I would've been so happy.

Christmas lights glisten,
I've got my eye on the door,
Just waiting for you to walk in,
But the time is ticking,
People ask me how I've been
As I comb back through my memory,
How you said you'd be here,
You said you'd be here.

And it was like slow motion,
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no one to impress,
And they're all laughing,
As I'm looking around the room,
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.

And the hours pass by,
Now I just wanna be alone,
But your close friends always seem to know
When there's something really wrong,
So they follow me down the hall,
And there in the bathroom,
I try not to fall apart,
And the sinking feeling starts,
As I say hopelessly,
"He said he'd be here."

And it was like slow motion,
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no one to impress,
And they're all laughing,
And asking me about you,
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.

What do you say
When tears are streaming down your face
In front of everyone you know?
And what do you do when the one
Who means the most to you
Is the one who didn't show?

You should've been here.
And I would've been so happy.

And it was like slow motion,
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no one to impress,
And they're all standing around me singing
"Happy birthday to you",
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.

Ooh, I knew.

You call me later,
And say, "I'm sorry, I didn't make it,"
And I say, "I'm sorry too,"
And that was the moment I knew.
Yet another song by Taylor Swift. this is my new favorite song :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qgy79coMcw8
Alice Kay Jan 2013
It's amazing how fast the pathway

went from bursting with life,

to cold and crooked and blue,

to freezing and broken and black as the constant night.
Alice Kay Jan 2013
Crossed legged in pajamas
on top of a thick pillow of blankets

Ear buds plugged in.
Favorite music plays.

A journal in lap
a pen in hand.
:) 'tis the life
Alice Kay Jan 2013
The many people push off the train.
I must stay on, but everyone is leaving.
And pushing me along with them.
Their dull faces not caring that staying,
not going with the flow of people,
is everything to me.

As I'm about to be pushed out,
I fight back, looking back into the train.
There is a couple standing there,
they somehow escaped the flow.
Holding hands, smiling brightly.
Moving in closer.
"NO!!" I shout as the people block my sight
and I'm carried out.

No....that was my everything.
That should have been me.

I should have been her.
I should have been holding his hand.
I should have been happy.
Alice Kay Feb 2013
For me this is just another normal day

for some girls, it's a day where he proves his love to her

gives her a little extra something like pointless chocolates.

Stupid girls... he's just doing that because he has to.
Alice Kay Jan 2013
The wind is howling outside, they say.

I wouldn't know,

it's not cold in here with you,

and I couldn't hear the wind,

not with this perfect music playing.
Alice Kay Apr 2013
It's not that all these guys forget.

They just act like they forgot

because they don't want to remember.
Don't want to remember the bad that came with all the good. Don't want to remember they broke your heart.
Alice Kay Mar 2013
I do think of you sometimes.

Sometimes I even wear the earrings you gave me.

I guess I just wanted you to know you are not forgotten.
I don't regret it. I just wish I said goodbye in a nicer way.
Alice Kay Mar 2013
If I stop working

on pointless projects

I'll start thinking of you.
But I'll keep working

because I don't want to cry.
Alice Kay Jan 2013
Everyone promises to move on
to forget.

Everyone also has those nights now and then
when all promises melt away
to uncover past memories and regrets.
Nights like this one.
Alice Kay Feb 2013
It’s one of those nights
when I can only describe
how I feel about you
with a tear.
:'(
Alice Kay Nov 2012
Let this music blast me to hell

I honestly don't care where it takes me,

as long as it's away from reality
Alice Kay Feb 2013
Faces blur,
hellos merge,
every handshake automatic,
every sparkling smile sarcastic.

You start to count the minutes,
the seconds.

Until the clock chimes at 12
and you can run away
in your glass slippers.
Alice Kay Nov 2012
Life is a tightrope
If you have support,
the journey across can be easy.

But one mis-step or slip
and the fall is swift and unforgiving

Until the impact.
Alice Kay Jan 2013
"Your absence should be long enough that someone misses you,
but it should never be so long that some learns to live
without you."


~Unknown
I think you've been gone to long...
Alice Kay May 2013
I don't have anything figured out in my life,

so I'll just keep ignoring

the ticking clock
Alice Kay Dec 2012
For a moment,
i thought you actually remembered

or maybe even cared

but that tiny crack in the wall that let in the sun's rays

is sealed with your angry words.

And i am left,

yet again

trying to find my way out of this
dark,
wet,
never-ending maze

as the tears stream down my face
I'm trying so hard to understand..

I'm so sorry, so sorry....
Alice Kay Dec 2012
Hey!

My name is Alice,

and I just wanted you to know,

that you are in my thoughts today,

and everything I do is in your name.

I hope I do your name honor.
Today I "adopted" Ana Marquez-Greene, it's something most of my grade is doing. We receive that name of one of the victims of the Sandy Hook shooting, and promise to do the right thing in his/her name.
Alice Kay May 2013
A simple jump,

like so many others.

Only this one would be defining for so many people.

She was at the very end,

nothing was worth living for.

She had made up her mind when she stepped off with her eyes closed.

But as she felt herself fall she realized

that this isn't what she wanted,

she needed to live,

to live and fix all her mistakes, say a few sorries.

There was so much she hadn't said to those that cared about her

and that she cared about.

How did she forget them right before she jumped?

But now there is nothing to hold on to but air.


It's to late.
Alice Kay Dec 2012
Are you angry with me?

Or are you just being stubborn?

Are you just waiting for me to say something specific?

Or not wanting to hear anything?


There's to many questions with you

to many uncertainties

and not enough answers.
yeah dad...this is 100% based on reality
Alice Kay Jan 2013
One can only study so much
Practice for so long
Stay locked up for a period for time.

Complain about being stuck inside?
There are only so many miles one can run,
So many pounds someone can lift,
So much weight one can lose.

Don’t **** me when I’m young,
I don’t care if that’s what your parents did to you,
I’m not letting it happen to me.
Alice Kay Jan 2013
Now the only thing I hear from you

is *silence
10w
Alice Kay Jan 2013
You know when you're missing someone that's far away?
Well, with you, it's that same kind of thing...

Only you're tantalizingly close.
"And it feels like I am just too close ... there's nothing I can really say" Too Close ~ Alex Clare
Top
Alice Kay May 2013
Top
All those idols at the top.

They have . . . everything

How boring that must be
Alice Kay Apr 2013
I'm glad she was there for you,

even if it was only an illusion.

If she made you that happy,

then I'm forever grateful.
I'm sorry you have to deal with all of this Skye!!
Alice Kay Jan 2013
Thanks....
for giving the greatest gift
of going to sleep with a smile.
Alice Kay Nov 2012
The only one that would understand

doesn't want to listen
Alice Kay Mar 2013
If you keep trusting,

in anything, anyone

you're gonna end up getting hurt.
Alice Kay Oct 2013
When you are caught between two choices
you can be

good           bad
and say a prayer            and get angry
                            try to find the best in the situation          blame everyone because you know it's their fault
                                                           act like its fine           let them know that you hate them at the moment
             try to live on and be the better girl by peace           prove you are the better girl by causing them pain

always wanted to go the bad way
but striving towards the good.
My best friend really hurt me recently and I'm trying so hard not to lash out because I know it will just make things worse. But it's so difficult because I can physically feel my heart tightening from hurt.
Alice Kay Oct 2012
When no one is left
who do you turn to?
When no one will listen
who do you tell?

The wind is my friend
He will gather the words I am trying to share
and understand them
will spread my thoughts to the trees

They whisper back to me
tell what they think
ask for more

So I give the wind
everything
that I've been wanting to tell
to share with the trees
Because they will listen.
And understand.
Alice Kay Jan 2013
We stand facing each other.
each knowing the other is fake.

the only thing that we can do together
is hiding that knowing from the outside world

We will just keep staring at each other
on display in the big front window.
Until the shop closes
Ugh
Alice Kay Nov 2012
Ugh
I'm tired!

it's been a long day

and another is coming tomorrow

I don't need to deal with you

not tonight

not tomorrow

not *ever
Ugh
Alice Kay May 2013
Ugh
It turns out I don't even know myself.

Because everyone knows me so much better then I do.
Ugh
Alice Kay Feb 2013
How can you read the last thing I sent to you

and think I don't care?
Alice Kay Feb 2013
In the middle of the chaos,

a few strummed chords

play happily on
I liked your playing this morning Zeba!!!
Alice Kay Apr 2013
The unlikely friend

always turns out to be the best one.
Thanks Skye!
Alice Kay Dec 2012
every night, i stare at the moon. Either looming high and bright in the sky's fabric, or low, partially hidden by trees, it's always there.

I would watch the moon slowly go through the phases, a solemn reminder of passing time
With each full moon came a sudden burst of excitement, it was the time to get everyone together and discover the moon for real through a telescope, and lay in the grass, star-gazing.

But the moon will always slip away in a goodbye, until all that's left are memories and drifting stars with no leader

until the next full moon
This is what I used to be like...a moon/star gazer. I still am, but it's hidden inside until i can escape to the country. :)
Alice Kay Nov 2012
Is it better to go on
heart breaking that you aren't here?

Or have a perfect five minute conversation with you
That just leaves me wishing i said more
and heart broken that it'll be a long time
before I see you again?
Just rambling....this isn't poetry i guess.....sorry!
Alice Kay May 2013
Please don't lead me on

if it's all just a joke to you.
Alice Kay Jan 2013
There are only so many ways
to write and say the same thing.

So here is one more.
Alice Kay Mar 2013
Stop messing with my mind

and get out of my dreams.

I don't want you here anymore
Alice Kay Mar 2013
This time let me tell someone.

I don't want to put up this act anymore.

Can I please tell someone of my happiness?
Alice Kay Dec 2012
All that's left now is waiting...

and hoping it was worth it
Alice Kay Mar 2013
Nice to see you're happy,

'cause I'm not.
It's all your fault.
Alice Kay Nov 2012
Sorry for seeming to ignore you...

but

I just like feeling like I belong

in a fun and daring group
Alice Kay Dec 2012
Remember that one book?

It's one of the reasons we starting talking in the first place.

No one knows this,

but right after our first real fight,

I drew how a felt,

and wrote a little something in the back.

Then concealed it in a random page of the book.

You'll never find that piece of my soul

unless you know which book it is.

I need that piece of me back...

but I'll never get it until you check it out

and bring it back to me.
Semi-true story. If anyone knows which book I'm talking about...try to find the missing puzzle piece!
Alice Kay Apr 2013
Another one gone without a tear,
or even a frown,

What do I keep doing wrong?
One of my best friends moved schools and she doesn't even seem slightly sad, there wasn't even a real goodbye or anything :/
Alice Kay Nov 2012
My life is a constant rant

of words that refuse to be heard

of to many thoughts to say in a lifetime...






But the one word that defines my life

will never be heard in it's full meaning
.





......love.....
Alice Kay Apr 2013
This time there will be no fighting

no sudden outbursts that will lead to days of silence.

Just dealing with crap and leaving people guessing.
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