I knew you're world shined to bright

but I didn't think it would blind me for life.

If you get Little Boy just a little angry,

or make an honest mistake,

BAM!

the nuclear power explodes.

And if you don't die from impact,

the radiation will **** you later

We were like sunflowers

following the sun

Turns out it was only a light bulb

“You need to read with brighter light! You’re going to have glasses by the time you’re 20! Is that what you want?”
Sorry, but I don’t care.

“Stop playing music so loud, you’re going to need hearing aids when you’re older!”
Do I care? Won’t almost everyone need hearing aids at a certain age?

“Don’t dance or sing in a store! Everyone will think you’re crazy!”
So? It’s not like anyone knows me or I care.

Didn’t you have fun when you were younger?
Didn’t you test the limits at all?

I live in the moment, and that’s how I will for the rest of my life.

Don’t you know?
Thinking about the future ruins the present.

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends

My gift is my song and

this one's for you...



It's been almost a year now
since you sung me those words...
full of the emotion they were written in....

How fast they were lost in your memory

Do you believe in love at first sight?

It's a concept that's often portrayed in movies and stories.

But maybe it's one of those things you have to experience

to truly understand what it is.


Let me tell you a story...

If you have never been to a music festival,
you are missing out on a great life experience.

Beats are pumping through your blood,
and everyone is united from all backgrounds a places
to share a common love of music.

It's an event to let go and enjoy yourself to the fullest.
Many people have the happiest looks on their faces,
but one boy caught my attention.

I was one of the first one hundred people to arrive,
and he stood out, he looked nervous and unsure of why he was there.

We both ended up near the stage, and when the music started to play
and the thousands of people started to sing and dance along with all their hearts,
he just...let it all go.

I had never before seen a face of such pure joy,
and I knew that was a person I wanted to be with.
Thus began my wild story of love at first sight.

These love songs' lyrics

are only missing a name

A little dot of red appears on my cheek.

soon it is joined by others,

they grow from the scratch.

I watch as each one slowly becomes a bead

of rich red color.

They are so close together, that many merge

and become larger, heavy

to heavy to stay on my cheek.

I watch my face in the mirror as one by one

they roll down my cheek, leaving a stain

they reach the bottom of my cheek

and hang there for just a moment

before dropping to the carpet.

Joining old rust-colored dots decorating the white carpet.

A testimony to the pain hidden deep inside my soul.

If I were ever to go to a maquerade,
I wouldn't wear a mask.

Why should I?

I wear one everyday.

Once I think I've got it right.
Fixed my past and moved on.

Turns out I should've been running.
The past is a world-class marathon runner.

Maybe this year will be better.
Vacant of heartbreak and disappointments

Maybe this year the smiles will reach my eyes
and the laughs actually real

All winter I've been wondering
where all the snow went.

But today I realized

that the heat from our fights
melted it all.

Now I wake to a drenching rain
instead of a magical snowy landscape.

My favorite oldies songs
that used to bring a smile to my face
because you used to sing them to me

now bring a tear to my eye
because now you're gone...
and there's no way to get you back

Tonight I'm missing nothing...

but my life, my best friend

This time last year
I wanted to cry because I would have to leave you..
the only constant in my life.

But this year,
I want to cry because there's no one to miss.

What kind of monster have I turned into?

I thought it was just a funny game...

I guess not :/

Even as the sun is setting

the moon is rising

Together we will stay,
'til the moon lit stars set

it's these bitter-sweet nights
that i miss you the most

When all you gotta keep is strong
move along, move along like I know you do

you say

but as much as I want..need to,
how can I when I can't even lift my feet
off this office-white pavement?

when this beach is stained ******,
lit only by stars at midnight,
no one will know in the morning
because the tide is coming in
and will wash it all away.

The music won't stop
I can't think.
Why does my head hurt so much?

Cold ground...
It shakes from running footsteps.
Where did everyone go?

Blank, white walls
a beeping heartbeat
a new present.

Stop thinking of feelings.....

i slip away...


music is my drug

Blackened windows surround me,
darkness wait in the shadows,
waiting for the very moment I become vulnerable.

Waiting to leap out
grab my life,
and run away with it.

The world around me is in shades of black.
My blonde hair stands out,
my blue eyes don't match the sky,
my green sweater is to bright.

Where's the sun?

It's nice to know we had it all

thanks for watching as I fall

shattered, dashed upon the rocks


                                                              ­                                                                 ­   


                                                           ­                                                              on a dark, stormy night

The dark rolling clouds
surround me.
Each dusty contact
burns.

I try to run away,
but in which direction?
Stumbling and tripping
over hidden obstacles,
I run towards the only patch of color in the black,
A field of grass before a setting sun.
But it slips into the engulfing darkness
as the sun sets.

The clouds sting my eyes now,
my vision blurs and fades.

How did I even get here?
I think, as I fall the final time.

Everyone knows you...
even my extended family.

Letting you go and not thinking of you
all the time is impossible

because everyday they remind me...

I would do anything to fix this,
to be on top of the world again
just because you are talking to me.

But my everything...

is just not enough

Is it so wrong that I agree with someone else?
And if I ever try to voice my opinion,
you will come up with all these things wrong with it.

"Stay" you would stay.
But I still don't understand.

Why would everyone would be so disappointed
if I followed a different path?

Stars collide
creating a brillant light show
in the skies

sleep has been tugging at me

for hours now.

But i'll just chug another coffee

and continue staring at my blank screen

Yeah, I'm that girl in the far corner of the classroom.
Headphones plugged in, solving math problems

but my mind is elsewhere.

the headphones blast sad music
bringing me down even more.

No one would guess tears threaten to fall
no one would guess that a storm is raging inside.

Then again, no one would guess I'm writing poetry,
not working on a stupid math program.

I guess that means no one knows me at all...

You won't respond...

my life's a mess

You're the only one I can talk to

~

But your stupid pride is in the way

of send a simple email

or say any simple word

just to let me know you're there

All these characters lose their different shapes and meanings.

Is there really any point in this?

nos•tal•gia |näˈstaljə; nə-|
noun
a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations



happy personal associations...
                                                 ­                                                                                  ­         you
typically for a period or place...
                                                        ­                                                                last year...in love
a sentimental long or wistful affection...
                                                    ­                                                        my heart constantly aches
for the past...
                                                         ­                                                             *we had everything

When did I stop missing you?
When did I stop living in the past,
constantly remembering?

We all need to move on from any death,
but is it bad I almost never think of you anymore?

I feel like there's no emotional attachment.
I don't remember you much anymore,
just the last time I ever saw you                                                                                                *alive

Not long ago,
I thought maybe I could do something special in life
even if in a very small way.

But I forgot I'm not good at anything.

Nothing is left anymore

every last tear has fallen

every last punch or slap has been landed.

All those cries, shouts of frustration are done echoing.

My ears are left ringing from the sudden sounds of silence.

I used to listen to softly playing music as i went to sleep.

Now I just fall asleep at the keyboard

waiting for an email from you