What do you do when there's nothing left

and no one will listen to you

no matter what you say

how you say it

or how loud you are.

BAM**

Outta the solar system.

go find another planet to revolve around you

as long as you don't burn me up,

I'm happy

Everyone says you will figure out your purpose in life soon enough.

But that hasn't happened yet.

Another two hours....

just two more hours left

to try to keep my eyes open

and maybe sleep well knowing everything is done.

another two hours...

another $20......

another 120 minutes that could've be spent in sleep

another 7,200 seconds the could've been spent finishing homework.

Must make money.....

Must do all my school work.....

Must work out and lose enough pounds that I'm not fat anymore...

Must regain all the trust that has been lost....

Must find a way to make everything better again.....

AHH

How to prioritize????

You can only put so much into one without completely losing all the others.

Trust is what you say,
but you don't trust me for stupid reasons.

Be glad I'm not taking drugs
or tearing up the town.

Because if it wasn't because of you,
that's where I'd be.

When did I stop missing you?
When did I stop living in the past,
constantly remembering?

We all need to move on from any death,
but is it bad I almost never think of you anymore?

I feel like there's no emotional attachment.
I don't remember you much anymore,
just the last time I ever saw you                                                                                                *alive

Nothing is left anymore

every last tear has fallen

every last punch or slap has been landed.

All those cries, shouts of frustration are done echoing.

My ears are left ringing from the sudden sounds of silence.

You are my spring
that melts

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the cold snow.

It seems you have short-term memory loss.
when it comes to anything we said or did.

You tend to forget that you are the one that never cared,
and that I was the one that tried to save everything.

You tend to forget that I actually thought I loved you,
and you tend to forget that you were the world to me.

And people like me...or should I say, people in general,
don't forget someone or a time like that
as easily and something like you do.

It's amazing how fast the pathway

went from bursting with life,

to cold and crooked and blue,

to freezing and broken and black as the constant night.

With each tear drop

another cherished memory of you

fades.

Everyday I look on that poster on my wall,
and I'm reminded of you.

Of how you left,
of how you'll never come back.

And with everyday I forget a little more of that smile
from that one day in the park.

You were like that old, worn out toy that everyone keeps from their childhood.

That thing that you keep in a box in the attic, that just takes up space,
but you don't have the heart to throw away because of all the memories that come with it.
But everyone has to throw it out or give it away at some point.

And now is that time

Now I can talk about your favorite band,
without seeing your face,
without thinking back when we used to sing their songs together.
Now I can do what we used to with someone else,
without becoming lost in thought and regret.
Now I can sing to a sad break-up sing,
without wanting to cry because it was just like us.

Now I can smile without you.

Now I can live without you.

Thanks for teaching me that I don't need a **** to live.

Shruging like it's no big deal,
smiling and truely meaning it,
seeing other options...
better options then you were.

All part of beginning the process of letting go.

Let's all just sing a happy song
smile wide and get along?

XD

SMILE EVERYONE

SING AND DANCE

LIVE LIFE TO IT'S FULLEST

LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR

LIVE LAUGH LOVE

SPREAD THE JOY TO ALL THE ENDS OF THE EARTH!

XD

There is a place I've heard of
many times from many people.
I've heard it's bright and green,
full of life and real smiles.

Of jumping around,
free of scolding parents
and constant demands of normal,
free of the heavy weight of societies expectations.

It's this strange, and wonderful place I've only heard of.
They say it's called "Happiness"

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"This isn't how things are supposed to be"
she said.
"I'm so sorry you have to hear all this"
she said.

If she really means this,
then why doesn't she make the effort necessary to save everything from falling apart?
Why doesn't she stand up so her voice can be heard when she's right?

Why can't she care 100% for once...
not be halfway here in mind.
Like things are supposed to be.
Don't be a hypocrite...
I don't need another in my life.
But please just try to open your eyes
and keep our family together.
Because I can't do it by myself.

You burned a tattoo on my heart
that I used to be proud of wearing.


But people don't lie when they say removing a tattoo
is much more painful then getting the tattoo in the first place.

You said she was patronizing
that was a new vocabulary term.
But it was really you that was guilty.

You called everyone a hypocrite,
even me sometimes...even before you hated me.
I guess that was another vocabulary term that I learned
by example.

I knew you're world shined to bright

but I didn't think it would blind me for life.

Those that need to matter,
to be absorbed, they cease to.

Everything that used to matter
now a competition.

Things that need to be well done
with high marks and approving glances
move down to the bottom of the list.

Things that don't matter,
like you,
as suddenly first.

All a competition.
To who will have the final say,
to who will have the final tear.

Not a single mistake surpasses
the lash of the pencil.

One small misstep
and the disapproving frown,
the mark on paper.

Life on paper
recorded in marks
in points out of the best.

Which I'll never be.

After sleeping in until 11,
I get to act like I'm 10 again.
Play Lego's with my brother
while blasted music we both love.

Rediscovering imagination and old memories.
While new are being made.

The music won't stop
I can't think.
Why does my head hurt so much?

Cold ground...
It shakes from running footsteps.
Where did everyone go?

Blank, white walls
a beeping heartbeat
a new present.

True meanings cease to exist

                            as you do

Tears disappear into the earth
                            
                            freezing in the ground

As you are

I want to be strong,
I know I am inside.
But your lack of words are stronger
and keep me coming back
with the hope there's something you want to say.

You won't let me be

with your lack of words.

I wish happy endings

happened in real life

Times of innocence pass,
day spent running around without a fear.
The future non-comprehendible,
not that it even mattered.
It was a time of living in the moment.
Of Mommy can fix any problem
and Daddy can do anything, and knows everything.

A time of complete and utter bliss.

If only I could re-live that time
and remember the exact feeling
of Daddy spinning me around in circles.
Of feeling like the whole world was my playground
and forgetting any bad things in a matter of seconds.

Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while
Heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best, but expecting the worst
Are you gonna drop the bomb or not?

Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power, but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad man

Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever?
Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever?

So we livin' life like a video where the sun is always out
And you never get old and the champagne's always cold
And the music's always good
And the pretty girls just happen to stop by in the hood

And they hop their pretty *** up on the hood of that pretty *** car
Without a wrinkle in today 'cause there's no tomorr'
Just a picture perfect day that lasts a whole lifetime
And it never ends 'cause all we have to do is hit rewind

So let's just stay in the moment, smoke some ****, drink some wine
Reminisce, talk some ****, forever young is in your mind
Leave a mark that can't erase neither space nor time
So when the director yells "cut," I'll be fine, I'm forever young

Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever?
Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever?

Fear not when, fear not why, fear not much while we're alive
Life is for living, not living uptight, see ya somewhere up in the sky
Fear not die, I'll be alive for a million years
Bye-byes are not for legends, I'm forever young, my name shall survive

Through the darkest blocks, over kitchen stoves, over Pyrex pots
My name shall be passed down to generations
While debating up in barber shops
Young Slung hung here, Shorty, the ***** from here
With a little ambition, just what we can become here

And as the father passed his story down to his son's ears
Younger kid, younger every year, yeah
So if you love me, baby, this is how you let me know
Don't ever let me go, that's how you let me know, baby

Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever?
Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever?

Slamming Bentley doors, hopping out of Porsches
Popping up on Forbes lists, gorgeous
Hold up, ****** thought I lost it, they be talking *******
I be talking more ****, they nauseous

Hold up, I'll be here forever you know I'm on my fall ****
And I ain't waiting for closure, I will never forfeit less than four bars
Guru bring the chorus in, did you get the picture yet?
I'm painting you a portrait of young

Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever?
Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever young?

I don't know what's worse.

You openly insulting me

or ignoring me like I'm not there.