With her on your side

I'll never win.

Now I'm the bad guy.


But at least tell me what I did wrong.

If only those boys could walk around

with a sign saying "cheater"

****** so what if I'm not perfect.

So what if I'm not good enough for anyone

So what if I don't stand out from the rest

You all were going to leave me anyways.

Sorry I'm not at your transparently high level

See you later when you fall.

This time there will be no fighting

no sudden outbursts that will lead to days of silence.

Just dealing with crap and leaving people guessing.

If I were ever to go to a maquerade,
I wouldn't wear a mask.

Why should I?

I wear one everyday.

Why do you keep hurting me like this?

Let me be now,

you've had your share of joy stolen from me.

Leave me be and pick on someone who can take it.

I can't handle this anymore

Stop taking anything I might have left and try to fix your broken morals first

Don't let me crack again

this time might be earthquake force

Please share some of this new-found peace


I've forgotten how it feels,

but I know it was wonderful.

Help me get there again.

No one is joking

when they say that everything is temporary

Even friends will drift apart

as similarities disappear

A another story

a different beginning

The same outcome.

Staring at the screen

knowing you are there

but knowing I can't say hi

Caught in a crossfire,

and I can only say something

if it supports your argument,

I'm glad she was there for you,

even if it was only an illusion.

If she made you that happy,

then I'm forever grateful.

I'm watching everything fall around me

and this time

*I don't care

Please tell me what to do now.

I don't know what normal is anymore.

Don't complain about you're awful life

when half of it is you not letting yourself be happy.

Someday I'll be completely rid of all these feelings.

they just create problems that aren't there.

Another one gone without a tear,
or even a frown,

What do I keep doing wrong?

The warm glow from the windows invites everyone in

as the sun goes down

For once this is a pure happiness.

For once, please don't ruin it

I used to think the problem was that I was too strong-minded

now I really realize the problem was that I didn't stand up to you

when you were tearing me down.

Oh I'm sorry.

I forgot you're never wrong

and my argument is always invalid

I do think of you sometimes.

Sometimes I even wear the earrings you gave me.

I guess I just wanted you to know you are not forgotten.

Sometimes a heart will break slowly,

or it will gently tear.

Other's will create an earthquake

as the faults are ripped apart.

Sometimes I feel like maybe dreams can come true.

Then I remember that's a dream as well.

This time let me tell someone.

I don't want to put up this act anymore.

Can I please tell someone of my happiness?

Your ghost will always be here.

But now I can deal with it

A final yawn
a kiss goodnight
Fantasy comes to life

No matter where you go

their prying eyes will be there.

They have to see everything you write,

everything you feel and why.

Anything that they can use against you

to build you up ever so slightly,

and then pull you crashing down.

You always run from your problems.

If you want to literally run as well,

I'll gladly become your problem.