I wish I'd never shown you
Every flaw I had
I was so scared
You'd see me the way
That I saw myself

So I exposed them all
Waiting for you to run
And you didn't.

I was confused and scared
You weren't supposed to love me
So I pushed you away
Hiding under a facade of distain
I told you things I never meant

And finally at a distance
You saw me through my eyes
And you left.

I carved my apologies into my arm
In hopes that the pain would fade.
Only to hide under the covers
Of winter and shame.

I'm getting lost on purpose.
Going down the bad roads,
Looking out for no one not even myself

I'm sick of this place, there's too much
That already has a tie.
I need something free.

I figure ill **** up a little more,
Maybe find myself in the reflection
Of some gas station mirror in the middle of no where.

I think I'm destined to be happy
Just not today
And not here.