I can't say
I love you
but I can say
I don't.

but some one
out there does
love you.

I don't know where
you're from but
it's been one hell
of a ride.

and I can't tell you
what sort of
trip you've been
on

or walk of life
you've been
on.

but I can
tell you,
that life
goes on.

today is today
yesterday was yesterday

and I find myself
re-living yesterday.
everyday.

so excuse me,
while I slice
myself open
tears, pouring
years in hoping for a
better, yesterday.

I once wanted so
badly to die.

I once saw the world
with clouded eyes
a shrouded disguise
of pain and apathy

yet now things have
been looking up
my outlook on life
is improving

used to using a
fine language of suicide
confined to the
walls of my brain

I was contained
and chained
to the insane

but I broke it.
reversed the cycle
and routine

now it seems
as though
things are brighter

I made a conscious
decision after
living and learning
digesting lessons

from my conscience.

for once I have
a clear vision.

for a time it felt
like swimming
with eyes open.
so I closed em.

then lifted those
lids to find
the world looking
so different

a pure prism of
hope and such a
lifted perception.

now I have the motivation
and drive to strive everyday
to live to be alive.

it's such a sense
of euphoria
manifesting itself
inside,

I hold it and
keep it.
it's my best kept secret,

of an everlasting
eternal sunshine.

there is
something

about holding
hands

two palms whispering
secrets

held as

one

singing,

I f e e l.
I f e e l.

I feel for
you.