Hi, I'm Worthless.
Well, that's what you tell me,
Worthless, ugly,not good enough.
Tell me, what is your definition of worthy, pretty, good enough.
You might be a person, but you have no right to make others feel like ****.

Hi, I'm Worthless.
Why do you call me worthless?
Because people like you have gotten into my mind and others minds?
Because people like you have damaged others so severely?
Because others starve themselves just to try to be skinny and pretty just like you want them to?
Because others harm themselves as a result of people like you?

Hi, I'm Worthless.
But here's the thing:
I'm not worthless.
No one in this entire world is worthless, ugly, or not good enough.
You just can't see that because you are so busy bringing others down.
No one needs to fit in your definition of worthy, pretty, or good enough.

Hi, I'm Worthless.
Wait, no I'm not, and neither is anyone else.
You can call us names and hurt us, but what you say is wrong.
Everyone is worthy, pretty, and good enough in their own way.
Everyone's world is different from yours.
So hi, I'm Not Worthless.

You gave me a red rose
To symbolize your love for me.
You gave me a black rose
To symbolize that you are leaving me.

You went onto someone else
And left me in the past.
So, I am angry and coming for your
Head.

You were not my first mistake,
But you will be my last.
Many people have done this to me.
Now they are skulls locked in my closet.

Their skeletons grew
Because of the roses that were tossed in.
Their skeletons kept
As a reminder to everyone.

And up their femurs
Came the vines.
Round their ankles
Slept tired time.

In their sockets
Napped with hate,
And in the ribcages
Snored the love.

And as I threw
More roses in,
I wondered if loving the bones
Was a sin.

I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting for my life.
Sometimes, you have to sin to win.

I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting to survive.
Sometimes, you just have to believe.

"Amber, you're ugly."
"I know, Mom."
Please stop reminding me.

"Amber, you're fat."
"I know, Dad."
Can't you see I'm trying to be skinny?

"Amber, what is that on your wrist?"
"Nothing, Mom."
You wouldn't care even if I told you the truth.

"Amber, you only hurt yourself to get attention."
"I'm sorry, Dad."
No, I'm not trying to get anyone's attention.

"Amber, you are so pathetic and lazy."
"I know, Mom. I'm sorry."
I'm trying to please you by doing what you want me to.

"Your only here becuase your mother ***** me."
"You have already told me that, Dad."
I'm sorry I'm here.

"Don't call me your mother."
"Yes, Ma'am."
I always knew you hated me, but don't worry, I hate myself too.

"Why are you even here?"
"Becuase of Mother."
I honestly don't know becuase I should be dead.

My illusion,
My Mistake.

You made me think that you were such a nice guy.
Turns out that you were just another guy that hates me.

My illusion,
My mistake.

I'm sorry,
It's all my fault.
I know that you blame yourself,
But it wasn't you.
It was me.

I'm sorry.
You would be better off without me
And what I put you through.
Please stop caring about me
Because everything is my fault.

I'm sorry...

Darling, I'm sorry.
I should have been there for you.
I'm so sorry.
Darling, I wish you were still here.
I should have helped you more.
It's my fault your gone.

Silent.
I have to remain silent,
Or else there will be consequences.

Silent.
I must suffer in silence
Because if I don't, I will get hurt even more.

Silent.
I must die in silence,
Because majority rule.

Silent.
I must apologize silently
Because I could not stay, even for you.

No
One
Cares
That
I
Am
Slowly
Dying.

You told me that I would never survive,
But survival is my middle name.

You told me that I was weak,
But I'm still here.

You told me that I was too broken to be fixed,
But I have someone who is fixing me.

You told me that I could never be loved,
But I have someone who loves me.

You told me that I could never love,
But I have someone that I love so much.

You told me that I don't have feelings,
But I have more than you.

Scaredy Cat
Scaredy Cat
Afraid of little me.

Scaredy Cat
Scaredy Cat
I'm insane, you better be afraid.

I'm so sorry, baby.
I'm sorry for listening to others.
I'm sorry that I listened to my own mind.
My mind did not know all the facts that
My heart knew.

All I was to you was a
Mistake.
I know that now.
And now,
I'm broken.
A broken mistake.
You were right.
I am a
Mistake.

Helpless against you,
I can't do anything, but wait.
Wait for you to say something,
Wait for you to tell me that you still care.
But, I know that I am waiting on nothing.

I'm fine, fine, fine.
I'm lying, lying, lying.

I'm fine, fine, fine.
I'm drowning, drowning, drowning.

I'm fine, fine, fine.
I'm hoping someone sees through my lies, lies, lies.

I'm fine, fine, fine.
I'm hoping someone saves me, saves me, saves me.

The bittersweet memories haunt me
Because every time we speak,
I want to be yours again.

Words, thoughts
Tangled together in my mind,
Waiting for the one little push
That makes me fall off the edge.

Breath in.
Breath out.
You're fine.
For now.
But how long can I stay hidden?
Soon they will find me.
I don't know how much longer I can bare this pain.
Its more than just emotional,
Its physical too.
But I have to hide it.
The bruises on my arms,
"I just fell."
The scratches and cuts on me,
"It was my cat."
Lies.
It was them.
My parents.

I was thinking about you
And me.
Then I woke up and found out that it was just a
Dream.

When we were five,
We met for the first time.
You both were always gloating about how you two were one day older than me.
We grew to be great friends
And for the first time in my life,
I felt like I belonged.
We promised that we would be there for each other.
The twins and me.
Always protecting each other.
Always helping each other.
Always saving each other.
Always together.

And now we are fifteen.
And both of you are gone.
A ghost that I can't bring back.
We always said that we would protect each other,
Yet I didn't protect either of you.
We always said that we would help each other,
Yet I never helped you.
We always said that we would save each other,
Yet I didn't save you,
We always said that we would be together,
Yet where are you now?

Now I am fifteen,
All alone in my own world,
Waiting for the day I will join you
And finally feel like I belong again.

You had my heart,
Back when We were younger,
Promising "We'll never part"
You were my suicide lover.

I'm Running out of Time,
In my heart you're still Alive,
In my Dreams,
**** Reality, I mean
We had it all,
I Fell Hard,
You Caught My fall,
Tell me,
Where'd it all go wrong?

And I keep telling myself lies,
"I'm fine, I'm Fine, I'm fine"
But you're, no longer,
mine.

My Candle shines Bright,
But you always outshone me,
You were so full of life,
Had such a sweet Personality,
Love and life are such a battle,
Why'd you quit the Fight?
Little ray of Sun,
Why'd you have to be done?

Darling we had come so far,
Underneath the same stars...

And I keep telling myself lies,
"I'm Fine, I'm Fine, I'm Fine"
But you're, no longer,
Mine.

Life wasn't so bad,
Back When You were here,
You kept me from going mad,
And Chased out all my fears.
You were always there for me,
In my Darkest times.

And I keep Telling Myself Lies,
"I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine"
But you're, no longer,
Mine.

Amd Baby if I Could,
I'd turn back Time,
To tell you Once more,
"I love you, It'll be fine"

But I Guess that its okay,
You've found some Better days,
But I Wish you couldve stayed.

Darling, We had come so far,
Underneath the same stars...

And I keep Telling myself lies,
"I'm fine, I'm Fine, I'm Fine."
But you're, No longer,
Mine...

Don't say goodbye
Because I don't want ot hear those words tonight.

Don't say goodbye
Because we have the rest of our lives together.

Don't say goodbye
Becuase I don't know what I would do without you.

Don't say goodbye
Because we  still have each other.

I wasn't trying to melt this heart of iron.
But boy, you made me.

I wasn't looking for love.
But boy, you made me fall.

I wasn't wanting to fall again.
But boy, if you promise to catch me its okay.

You should just walk away,
I don't want you to get hurt.

I want you to go away,
So you won't get hurt.

You are my only concern,
So please, just don't mess with me.

I don't wish to harm you,
But if you don't go, I will hurt you.

I'm the girl that walks alone
With her wrists covered so your don't see what she has done.

I'm the girl that gets pushed down at school
With her hair covering her face so you don't see the tears in her eyes.

I'm the girl that sits in a corner
With her head lowered so you don't see the tears rolling down her face.

I'm the girl that sits unnoticed
With noone to care so you don't know she feels so horrible.

I'm the girl that is constantly told that she is worthless
With her wrists bleeding red and covered so you don't know how much she wants to die.

I try to hold back tears
As I think of you.
I try to forget about you,
But I see you almost everyday.
I try and try,
But each day I am mesmerized by your lovely blue eyes.

I am a poet because
I have seen many things.

I am a poet because
My voice has been silenced.

I am a poet because
Poetry is my voice.

I am a poet because
I am screaming, if only you would listen.

When push comes to shove
You will know that you deserve what comes next.

When push comes to shove
You will know what you did to me was wrong.

When push comes to shove
You will remember all the pain you caused.

And when push comes to shove
You will know that you won't survive.

All because of what you did.

My pretty little mask
Hides my face,
Protecting people from my sorrow.

My pretty little mask
Has a smile and bright eyes,
But it's been painted on.

My pretty little mask
Is breaking,
And now hints of sorrow are shining through.

My pretty little mask
Has disappeared
And now there is nothing left to protect anyone from me.

Silence.
No one wants to hear your voice.
No one wants to listen to the words you have to say.
They just want you to stand there and be silent.
And with every word you choke back down,
They win.
Because you stayed silent.

Silence.
It fills you up and eats you alive.
You want to speak so bad, but you don't.
But every word you don't speak
Feels like acid.
It burns, it hurts,
And yet you don't do anything about it.

Silence.
Maybe it's time to stop the silence.
Maybe it's time to fill the air around you with words.
Maybe it's time for you to take your life back.
Don't think, just speak.
Do not care about other people.
It's your life and no one has the right to silence you.

How many times are you going to yell at me?
I didn't mean to.
I just was looking at the knife
And then the next thing I know,
You are here screaming at me as you bandage my bleeding arm.

How many times are you going to scream at me?
I didn't mean to.
I was born
And look at me, I was a mistake from the beginning.
And yet it still hurts when you scream at me
Because I know that you truly don't care about me
And you will leave me just like they did.

I forgot what it was like
To be ok.

I forgot what its like
To no t be hunted.

I forgot what its like
To be happy.

I forgot what its like
To not be in pain.

I forgot what its like
When it did not rain.

I forgot a time when
I did not cry.

I forgot the time before
Darkness.

Hey, Brother.
Are you proud of me?
I bet I'm everything you thought I wouldn't become.

Hey, Brother.
Do you still love me?
I know it will be a miracle if you do.

Hey Brother,
Can you remember me the way I was when I was little?
It would make me so happy.

Yin and yang.
Night and day.
Dark and light.
Water and fire.
Moon and sun.
Cold and heat.
Death and life

We live in a world of opposites.

If you try to love me,
I will wind up hurting you.
Not on purpose,
But on accident.

If you could love me,
I would drive you crazy
Because I am crazy myself
And madness is contagious.

Do you really think that I'm that heartless
I would let my friend get hurt because of me?
I have tried and I have tried.
There just is no stopping her.
I know,
Morgan is hurting.
I know that.
But I can't stop it.
Andrea won't stop.
I can't stop her.

But what hurts me the most about this is that...
You think I'm
HEARTLESS

You are a monster.

There was once I time I cherished being with you,
But then I realized what you really are.

You are a monster.

I'm waiting for the day you finally say why you put up with me
And **** me.

You are a monster.

I know that now,
But I still can't escape.

Breath.
Just breath.
Maybe it will all go away.

Just continue on with your life.
Just ignore all the harm you face.
And hope that it will all just go away.

Hide the bruises.
Hide the pain.
And wish that it will all go away.

Hide the tears.
Hide the whimpers.
Please make it all go away.

Shy away from the swinging fist.
Flinch away from every touch.
Why won't it all just go away?

We're partners in crime.
We're birds of a feather.
Together until the end.

I would die for you,
And you would die for me
Because we can't survive without each other.

I'm one half,
And your one half.
Together we make a whole.

We will always be together,
No matter how far apart we are
Because we are best friends.

Thousands of
Missiles
Are aimed
At my heart,
But yours
Was the first to
Strike.

Lub lub...lub lub.
I feel your heartbeat,
As my hand rests on your perfectly tanned chest.

The moonlight illuminates us like a spotlight.
The night is still and silent,
As electricity crackles in the air between us.

I have learned to cherish these precious stolen moments.
First only taken for the thrill of maybe getting caught, no real feelings at all,
But then morphing into something more, something real.

For our forbidden love can only be shown by these,
Stolen moments.
These stolen moments spent together.

As the night ends and the day begins,
We are pulled apart,
By the world.

As we leave each other's arms, crying quietly,
We both know we can never be together,
As much as we wish to be.

How many times do I have to be
Afraid?
How many times do I have to
Bleed out because of you?

How many times do I have to feel
My heart break?
How many times do I have to
Love and lose you?

How many times do I have to watch
You flaunt your new girl?
How many times do I have to
Cry over you?

How could you betray me like this?
Give away all my secrets
Like giving away a piece of gum.

Why would you betray me?
I have always been nice to you.
You were my friend!

I wish you didn't betray me.
Then we could still be friends.
Now we can't be friends because of what you did.

Hey, Friend.
I'm back in Louisiana.
I thought that you would be here like you always were.
I guess that I was wrong.
All because I didn't save you.

Hey, Friend.
I'm back at the park we were at when we first met.
I can remember our shrieks of laughter like it was yesterday.
But now, I will never again hear your laughter again.
All because I didn't save you.

Hey, Friend.
I'm back at your house.
I'm here remembering all the great times we had together.
I know that we had it all, but I guess that it didn't matter.
All because I didn't save you.

Hey, Friend.
I'm back at your grave
With a rose in my hand,
Wondering why you are now gone, although I know it was
All because I didn't save you.

I'm losing everything.
I'm losing the love of my life.
I'm losing my friend.
I'm losing my heart.
I'm losing.

I don't know what to say.
I can't speak,
You have taken all my words.
I can't find the words to describe you
And how you make me feel.

There is only one thing I can say:
               I love you.

Darling, why did you have to leave?
Darling, why did you tell me at you loved me?
Darling, why?
Darling, why do I miss you still?
Darling, why do I want you back?
Darling, please tell me why?

Where's the fairness in life now?
I loved you,
But you never loved me.
I needed you,
But you said "*******."

A child.
Just a small child.
Left to hide from the world.
The small bits of hope she carried,
Where all but smashed
By the cruel hand that raised her.

A 14 year old girl.
Just 14 years old.
Yet she carried so much on her shoulders.
Left to hide away from the ones who she thought would
Care for her
And protect her from evil.

A 16 year old girl
Just 16 years old.
She cries to herself.
She never lets anyone see how she is broken,
Just becuase of the cruelness of life
That left her shattered in tiny pieces.