I tried to
make a playlist
of all the songs
that reminded
me of you
for the sole
purpose of burning
them entirely
and listening to
the rest in peace,
but I realized
every single one
was laced with
your name
so I ended up
burning everything
to the ground
and it still
wasn't enough
to get you out
of my head.

I can't remember the last time I touched your face
But I can feel your cheekbones digging into my mind like the feeling of taking a shovel
hollowing out my own grave to lie in
When was the last time I was able to run my fingers through your hair?
Untangling hair is easy, but I haven't yet found anything
to get out the knots in my stomach
If someone asked me what color your eyes were, I couldn't tell them
But I could explain just how it felt when they looked into mine
Like when you look into the sun and are blinded by its immense beauty, so blinded
you can't see the inevitable damage it inflicts upon every pore
Except I haven't yet found anything to protect myself from your stare
What if my skin burns before you can feel it again
And how will you feel if you're too bright that I can't look anymore?
You might begin to miss the fact that nobody can look at you the way I do
before you even realize I can
And I could tell them how you felt when mine looked into yours
despite the fact that you can't
Because you don't know what it's like to feel something other than your own fear
But I'm not afraid of you anymore, I have no fear
I have some hope you can have, it's been growing for quite some time
And I may have some more strength left, although dealing with you feels like
running to a destination that doesn't exist
I'm tired of being selfish and hogging all the feelings
And I think I'll share
with you

In the coldest time of the year we found love.
We walk where the christmas lights shine and the snow sparkles.
We walk not in the same step but with the same heart beat.
You kiss so sweetly.
Under the mistletoe we are now and I feel so alive.
I know i am the world to you.
On a cold winter night we would be together drinking hot chocolate.
We would not fight but share beautiful laughter.
Your voice sounds like a soft violin melody.
Your laugh makes me smile.
Your eyes looking in mine make my heart skip a beat.
I love you happened in a flash but I don't mind.
I hated winter and winter had a bad place in my heart.
Now you have made winter beautiful and warm.
I see my future with you and it is so lovely.
We are two beautiful stars dancing together in the night sky.
One day you will come to me and say will you marry me.
I hope its in winter under the mistletoe because that is when my life changed.
You are so lovely.
You are a unique and beautiful snowflake dancing down to the pavement.
Yet you are different in my eyes.
Tell me your secrets.
share with me your fears.
For baby there is nothing to hide here.
There are a million stars I could dance with but none dance like you.
Love me through the winters each and every year.
Love me forever little star.
Winter was a bad place but you have made it warm with a love that shines as bright as two stars.