People always say that after the rain there is the sun
So now I am waiting, waiting for the sun to finally come out
I continue to wait but don't know how much longer I can go on like this
I feel as though I am being strangled by invisible hands and the longer I wait the tighter they get
Asking if I am ok, trying to save me with words of kindness
I am to far gone, but I am to scared to tell anyone
I tell myself I am not broken and I don't need to be fixed but the more I say this the more fear is put in my heart

When anyone asks me what I fear I normally say clowns or blood tests
Both of which are true but they are neither one of them is my biggest fear
What I fear the most in the world is being left along
The reason for this is because when no one is there I feel that I am not here
I don’t want to disappear or not be remembered
When I don’t make a sound, I feel this emptiness
Every time I stay don’t make a noise I feel more and more people looking through me
Instead of at me
People say I am imagining it and I would like to think that is true
But it is hard
I am the one in the group that it wouldn’t matter if I was not there
When I say something, it is looked over without a thought
I am scared that it will always be like this
But then I wonder if it would matter if I disappeared
No one notices me anyway so what difference would it make
I am invisible whether I say something or not
When I do not text they don’t text me
They don’t care about my presence
Maybe it is just better to stay silent
I can be forgotten and not bother others

In life everyone is lost and trying hard to find their own way
We are waiting for someone we love to pull us out and save us
The opportunity of someone coming to you doesn't just happen
Instead of sitting still and waiting we must push ahead and live
When you feel lost it is ok you will be found just hold on and keep moving in the mean time
I will be there waiting for you with open arms ready to imbrace you who is moving on their own
We all struggle but that also mean that we are there when you need us

Throughout the days we wonder mindlessly wondering if anything is ever going to change
If anything is going to change it will have to be by your hand
Don't just sit there and do nothing when there is so much you can do
Believe that you can do it and it shall happen
There are twists and turns down the road but if we never take them we will never know what type of life we could've had
So now it is time to stand up a dry the tears that are streaming down your face
Go forward and not look at the falts of the past but on the opportunities of the future

Today someone important to many was lost
Behind his bright smile was something started cracking inside
Being unable to see it others were unable to take note of it
He suffered on is own and the cracks formed into large breaks in his heart
When no one knew he was hurting the most
That once bright smile has now turned into a cold straight line
The smile that he left in our hearts will never be forgotten
It is not his fault for he fought his hardest

Why do we try so hard for a society that won't except us as we are
Why are we unable to love the people that we are now and are forced to strive for and unrealistic picture of ourselves
We have been taught wether it be on purpose or not, that we are not good enough
We must act like the people around us and fit in
We must be the best at everything and if we are not we are not good enough
Does anyone understand, truly understand the pain that we put each other through
I wish we could so everyone could be set free from the mold we are supposed to fit in
What we have to remember is that the only person we have to be better than is the person that we were yesterday

You call me just like you always have but this time is different
You say I am sorry and this in when I start running, don't you dare this is not fair
You say you will miss me, then you should stay
You tell me that we will see each other again
What are you doing why are you doing this to me
I am at your door and your brother opens the door
I run to your room to find your cold eyes looking at me
I scream and run to you
What have you done
I hold you tight in my arms sobbing while my mind rushes
you are gone
Why would you leave me alone
By doing this you have hurt both of us
Why must I live without you now

Sometimes you want to cry but you don't want people to know you fell pain you hide behind the shadows hoping no one will notice
You smile with everyone instead of crying by yourself
You try to laugh without a wavering voice when you start to crumble
It is ok to feel these, just know you are loved and that you will be ok