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479 · Oct 2014
The American DreaM(achine)
Akira Chinen Oct 2014
The American Dream needs feeding
It's bones are starting to show
Everyone cawing ME ME ME
Empty calories of greed
It's hunger is never satisfied
Feet calloused and bleeding
Spinning that hamster wheel
Gold plated bars on cages full of ****
No where to go but dead
And we got to get there first
No need for a fancy hearse
Just add the bodies to the pile
The stench is a mile high
The price we have to pay to touch the sky
Blood is cheaper than oil
So we have to keep breeding
For that American DreaM(achine) needs feeding
Another random sketch that turned out some words... It can be found on my facebook page Nocturnal Bloom (inktober album)
479 · Jun 2017
his heart in a dream
Akira Chinen Jun 2017
She captured his heart
in a dream
With her seductive scent
of fairy tale charm
And  the curve
of her crescent moon smile
His soul was a fish on the hook
And his flesh willing followed
He was puddy in her hands
And a puppy at her feet
He followed her through
the song and the sea
Of mermaids of poetry and love
Chasing the north glimmering light
of the star she kept
On the silver line from clouds
beneath the colors
and oceans of her eyes
And night after night
In dream after dream
His heart was found
Beating under
the crescent moon
of her smile
477 · Jun 2016
My heart a puppy
Akira Chinen Jun 2016
My heart a puppy
In your hands
As day fades to night
And night gives birth to day
And effortlessly
This love flows
To endless oceans blue
Where everything beautiful
Is truely found
In you
I take brush to canvas
And pen to page
And paint and scribe
Of another day
I find the good fortune
Of saying
*I Love You
476 · Sep 2017
being alone
Akira Chinen Sep 2017
I've become so terribly comfortable
being alone
that I have perfected and gotten bored
with the art of *******
and the painful truth seeps out
in the silent hours
of self indulgent gratification
and self loathing
and somewhere in the pathetic ramblings
of my lonely heart I paint pictures
of perfect beauty in the colors
of eyes that don't exist
and stars that never glowed
in dreams of soft skin and lips
I was never brave enough to speak to
much less kiss
in the hours where I am
so terribly comfortable
being alone
475 · Oct 2017
a smile
Akira Chinen Oct 2017
I am desperate for an intellectual conversation within a locked gaze where no words are spoken aloud and while staring into the void within the dark abyss I see a smile that says
“It’s ok... I have monsters too..”
475 · Apr 2017
seat on the bus
Akira Chinen Apr 2017
He had a mouth fool of lies buried behind his mischievous grin and bad intentions waiting in the palms of his fingertips and he walked on two feet but slithered all the same and there was something of a snake coiled in the green of his eyes and he bought three shots of poison to fill the hollow spots of his teeth sharpened and shaped into fangs and left behind a trail of smoke and tears as he walked out onto the street at the hour that smelled of innocence just stepping into town...
She was fresh off the boat and two steps off the bus with a heart full of hope and a head full of dreams and fire streaked golden hair that was all under the protection of a wide rimmed yellow sun hat and her skirt was closer to her ankles than her knees and she wore quite black shoes and solid white stockings and her blouse was plain and simple and revealed little for the imagination to explore and she stood their with the cliché picturesque backdrop of the american dream as the bus rumbled then roared and rolled out of sight...
He had the nose of a blood hound and the heart of a snake and she was a pretty bird singing a song and as small as a mouse with big wide smilng eyes and he had a bait in his pocket and a trap in his jaws and spoke softly and kind leaving his venom to flow silently through the air while wraping and seeping into her skin and she smiled and laughed a deep and clean and genuine  laugh and mentioned she was a peck hungery and needed a the name of an upright and honest hotel with clean sheets on clean beds with well read bibles on the nightstands and he spilled out more poison than truth and said he loved the book and knew a place not too far to sleep that he had even himself stayed at when he first got into town a heartbreak or two before and his favorite twenty four seven day a week dinner was just around the corner which was the only truth he could ever tell and they walked in and took a seat and she smelt what she thought must be magic cooking in the back and stirred stars and sugar and cream into her coffee and they talked back and forth and forth and back as hours passed and he let out a yawn and she apologized for talking too much and he smiled knowing the trap was set and she asked with sincerity and hope if he would walk her to the place he knew and it all almost seemed to easy and he guided her down one street then another and she held his hand along the way and to his surprise an alley before his own she pulled him into the dark and shyly whispered she knew she shouldn't ask but she wanted to know what it was like to kiss such a handsome man that looked a little like he could be mistaken for the devil but before he could oblige her request she had one other favor to ask and that was would he wear her yellow hat because her momma told her never trust a man who wasn't willing to look silly to make her laugh and so he did and before he could scream the hat had chewed and swallowed him down to his knees and by the time it was done all that was left was half a shoe lace and a tooth full of venom and she picked up the tooth and placed it in her purse and patted her hat and placed it back on head and giggled and cackled and laughed as she faded into the night and took her seat back on the bus
475 · Aug 2018
the winter of my death
Akira Chinen Aug 2018
I wish I had more time
as I can feel autumn
blooming in my bones
and the winter of my death
glimmers  in some star
waiting to fall from the sky

maybe decades away
maybe days
maybe hours
maybe already on it’s decent

no morning I wake
is guaranteed to sail
into a night of sleep

I have not much in my pockets
other than a poor mans fortune
of coins and lent and memories

memories

what treasure is to be found
in my heart full of nostalgia
for names of ghosts
of loves found and lost
and hands once held
that now haunt my palms

is there some strange beauty
to this life
I haven’t seemed to get right
other than in the small moments
that felt like eternity
passing from my lips to hers

then from hers back to mine

has it been
one too many names
or one too few

I...

I have been lucky in this life
to have known the face of love
in more hearts
than anyone deserves
in one lifetime

and what of the agony
it would leave behind
what of the desperate aches
that would echo
in my empty heartbeat

those long nights of crying
over forevers grave
how many lonely tears
have I buried

has it all been a fairy tale
wrapped in the blanket
of a nightmare
of badly ever after

and if I had the choice
would I read it again?

Yes

over and over

these memories
this foolish heart
full of nostalgia
with all its scars
and broken pieces

is a mountain full of gold
burning with the bright fire
of a dragons breath
and raging with the blood
of a king gone mad

and yet still
I wish I had more time

if not for the autumn
in my bones
and the winter of my death

waiting to fall

maybe decades away
maybe days
maybe hours
maybe already on it’s decent
474 · Oct 2016
everything that is love
Akira Chinen Oct 2016
I don't have the words to describe how beautiful you are but if you are not the definition of beauty then beauty has yet to be truely defined
And yet there is a deeper attraction than that what is pleasing to the eye
A pull that comes not from need or want or lust or desire
Not from the flickering flame or burning embers
Not the soft clouds of silk magenta skies or the mist rolling off dark blue velvet oceans
It is a drop of the pure essence and blood of the only truth found in the palm of eternity
The reason men seek to climb the trails through the mountains of madness and the echo heard throughout the asylum where the lost gods of insanity sleep
Cast and bound in human form you are everything that is love
473 · Mar 2017
lost midnights
Akira Chinen Mar 2017
Broken pieces of the moon scattered across the indigo dreams of the dead and the sky swallowed all the lost colors of love spilling out of the void left behind from where the crescent smile of the night once sang the lullaby that comforted the desperate prayers of the lonely and what salacious fiend would **** the guardian of the dark hours and leave the man without his home in the night and all the stars could do was weep as they watched indigo dreams pull every last broken piece of the moon into their rotting teeth of death and the forever of malicious lost midnights
473 · Jun 2016
Beating seed
Akira Chinen Jun 2016
Standing naked in her dreams
Chest ripped open
Ribs split apart
All the broken hearts inside
Scared and stiched
And grown black wings
Fluttered round lungs and spleen
Then one by one flew away
Until empty was the pain
That once danced inside
Then gentle fingertips
Sewed back bone and flesh
And left a beating seed beneath
With a hopeful rythm
And a heart shaped sound
473 · Dec 2016
a house to call a home
Akira Chinen Dec 2016
Maybe I just don't know or maybe I just don't got nothing new to say and I know its not my place to worry about people I don't really know and maybe I'll take a train to Tennessee and take a shot of whiskey and mend something thats been broken just so I can watch it fly away and maybe I'll go somewhere north and lay down in the snow and talk to the devil about cold weather and dead souls and maybe he'll send me to Nebraska to fetch a golden truth for a pound of lies and a bridge to London that won't fall down if I walk across it and maybe I'll get tired halfway across and find a talking shark that promises not to bite if I jump into the ocean and have a little swim and maybe I'll dream of drowning as my bones get stuck between its teeth and somewhere in that dream I'll find you waiting and sitting on the branch of a tree at the bottom of the sea and it might not look like much but I'll believe you when you say I finally found a house to call a home if all I do is stay...
471 · Jun 2016
Perfect Love
Akira Chinen Jun 2016
Breathing like pages of an open book
Exploding like fireworks painting the night of the 4th of July
Living every moment as death might kiss me in the next
Rearranging the colors of the rainbow
To reveal the secret shades
And hues of aphrodisia
Painting the moon in unknown
Tints and washes
To unfold the lost tales of
The melancholy of the night
Burning the heart of the sun to squeeze out
The purest white torrid dancing flame
Forging blood and heart
To endless pulsing fire
Forever swimming in
The intoxicating blaze
Of the rapture
Swirling in the stars and sea
Of you infinite ocean
Eyes of Vincent blue
And every part of
Perfect love
And you
470 · Apr 2016
Lovely Things
Akira Chinen Apr 2016
Death dances with a beautiful soul tonight
And though my face is streaked with tears of mourning
My heart will celebrate all the Lovely Things you taught me
And the life and love you gave me
When death bows and thanks you for the dance
The Lovely things will lift you high in the ever after
And make you queen of all the Lovely Things

I'll miss you mom...
Fb decided to punch me in the face on my 1st break at work... which was ok because I've looked through sketchpad after sketchpad and could never find this.... I hadn't heard of hellopoetry when I originally wrote this so i posted it on fb...
470 · Aug 2015
What...
Akira Chinen Aug 2015
All I want to know is what what makes
  her beautiful
Is she just a dream lost here amongst us all,
  this can't be her home
Did she fall down from the night, a star so
  full of light
Some might say its how she smiles
Or the way she wears her hair
Or the swirls of magic in her eyes
And I can't deny that she's the look
  of perfection
But there's something we just can't see
And thats where the answer hides
To what makes her so beautiful
469 · Jul 2016
gone
Akira Chinen Jul 2016
She had left her heart nailed to the bedroom wall right above the light switch, with it she left a short note and a long letter.  On his nightstand next to the alarm clock was a shoe box (the box that once held her favorite pair of shoes, a gift from him on their thirteenth anniversary) full of photographs.  Thier life and crimes together had been well documented.  She had captured each moment like a seedy detective hired to snap the lewd acts of a presidential affair.   Hiding between each picture and in every nook and small open space was the laughter and the tears and the hopes and dreams and silent heartache and love and lust and loss they had shared and experienced together.

Somedays he would wake up and forget she was gone and had been gone for some years now.  He would roll over and expect to run his fingers through her hair, only to catch a glimpse of her ghost walking out the door.  Then his eyes would fall to the alarm clock, then the show box, then the letter and note, and then, finally her heart nailed to the bedroom wall.  He had memorized the short note and long letter and every photograph and all the giggles and laughing and every tear that every fell. He read them again anyway. He pulled out picture after picture, each still shot played out a movie of the moment captured within.

He laid it all out on top of his rustled sheets and blanket. The unpublished book of forevers end that now only he could read and understand. He left it all there as he climbed out of bed, hoping maybe her ghost would read the story while he was gone. That maybe she could laugh and cry and remember too. He hoped she would see it as an act of kindness and love and not an attempt to make her feel remorse or guilt. What had been done was done. If she needed forgiveness he had it, if she needed understanding he had that too... whatever she may want or need he would give her. He still loved her, as fiercely and loyal as he ever did or could.

His feet started to carry him out of the room and he paused with his hand over the light switch and below her heart.  He stared at her heart for a moment, watching and listening to it beat against the wall.  It was a small movement and barely the whisper of a beat. It spoke to him softly and gently and he knew that wherever she may have gone and whatever may have happened next, that still somehow, she loved him too.

His fingertip flipped his bedroom lights off and then he pulled the door closed.  The room was dark and her ghost sat in the middle of the bed looking over the photos and letter and note.  She read the story he had left out for her to read and she laughed and cried and remembered. She wrote a note on his pillow, one that he would read that night in his dreams and read only once.  He would not remember what it said and he woukd not wake up again and forget she was gone.   He wouldn't catch another glimpse of her ghost walking out his bedroom door.  She was gone and no amont of her haunting his memories or no amount of him haunting her memory would change anything.   She looked over her final note and crossed all her "t's" and dotted all her "i's" and sealed the letter with a kiss.  She smiled her dead weary smile and floated up through the ceiling... gone for good, no coming back.
469 · Mar 2017
the space between us
Akira Chinen Mar 2017
I want to fill the space between us with words of desire and bridges of love and let loose this sea of lust drowning me every time I dream your name and would it be paradise or poison waiting on your lips would I die outside of your arms or swim through eternity forever finding loves flowers blooming from your hips
469 · Feb 2017
his beautiful world
Akira Chinen Feb 2017
She wasn't the only pretty girl in the world
but to him she was the only one
whose smile curved up just right at the corners
whose laugh held an honest song in its heart
whose hair always smelled of the fresh scent of rain that only falls from a night of stormy dreams
whose eyes spun wildly with the true magic of perfect beauty
She may not be the only pretty girl in the world true
but to him she was the only one that made his world beautiful
468 · Mar 2017
broken
Akira Chinen Mar 2017
Beautiful soul and gently heart...
You cant break what's already broken
And I've been broken since I first met love
So long long ago
And over and over again
There's more pieces of me
Than there are tears in the sea but without them all I wouldn't be
And I am a dream lost and found
In the whispers of love old and gone
And its dreams yet to come
468 · Nov 2017
Murder your gods
Akira Chinen Nov 2017
****** your gods and let them die and fade
paint the sky red with their blood
and their books
and their fables
break down the walls and the gates
that separate heaven and hell
and plant seeds of hope
in the destruction
where there ideas once bloomed
and rebuild the world
in the image of love
let love be the only language you speak
let kindness be the action of your breath
let generosity be the blood of your heart
help those in need
as a gift and not a burden
and in the face of truth
what good are gods
that don’t believe love is all we need
to die
to dream
to live
to hold heaven in our hands
empty of the need of prayer
or redemption
for if all we do is love
what could be found as sin
as we ****** our gods
and give ourselves to love
and only love
466 · May 2016
Without you... Only you
Akira Chinen May 2016
My love for you
Is not a desperate act of need
I will not lie
And claim without your touch
Your kiss
Your love
I will crumble
And fade
I am not desperately
In love with you
Without your love
I will survive this hollow strugle
We pretend to live our lives in
I will not crumble and fade to dust
And be scattered by the wind
And lost and forgotten in the rain
...

But I cannot hide this burning and desire of my heart
Or deny that I do love you
I can neither lie about the longing and ache of my love for you
Its beautiful hurt that dances wildly within me
It is an act and love not of desperation
It is the golden honey blood
Dripping from the
Heart of madness
A taste of sweet sickly love
I have never tasted
Never desired so intensely
Never been lost to so completely
Never danced with so recklessly
No my love for you has not made me weak and desperate
It has made my blood rich and thick and vibrant
It has made my heart beat and sing loud and fierce
It has raised the dead and lost parts of my soul
It has placed my reflection back in the mirror of truth
It has stiched my entire being back together
I am whole again and stronger
Madly in love
Mad for your touch
Your kiss
Your love
And without
Your love
Your kiss
Your touch
I will dance madly
I will live with these
Aches and longings
I will burn with desire
And purpose
Spending the rest of my days
And life after life
In the heart of this madness
And flames of this the sun
Blazing through eternity
For you
And only
You
https://soundcloud.com/jason-hughes-240320794/without-you-only-you
465 · Dec 2017
Republican Prayers
Akira Chinen Dec 2017
I would like to take a moment
and thank all my brothers
and sisters
that have died before me
those who died
sliding down my mothers throat
racing towards her gut
and their own deaths
those that went right
instead of left
and left instead of right
as we swam and raced
not knowing anything
of anything
to all those that died before me
and after me
And apologize to all the children
I will never see smile
those that died
in my teen angst tube socks
and crust stained sheets
those that died
wrapped in paper towels
and on tissue
and toilet paper
and tossed in trash bins
trapped in latex graves
and swirling and twirling
down the drain
May god forgive me
for living without
Republican wisdom
and law
and legislation
what unforgivably shame
to not make sure each
and every single one of you
did not go to waste
But not all hope is lost
Republicans are working hard
on new laws
and new legislation
and new prayers  
first they will secure you
a womb in women
willingly or unwillingly
teen or adult
consensual or ****
and then to be fair
(because we can always
trust a politician)
they'll be writing
and passing laws
to make sure
we don't casually enjoy our *****
without making sure
not one of you is wasted...
464 · Feb 2017
illustrated heart of love
Akira Chinen Feb 2017
If forever is just a fairy tale
dear heaven please let me not be real
let me be nothing more than words on a page
Ink below the skin
type in a book
paint on a canvas
If its all just a fairy tale
let me be the last
illustrated heart of love
464 · Apr 2016
All of You
Akira Chinen Apr 2016
I  can't sleep for dreaming
Keeps my heart awake
I can't stop my mind thinking
Or my heart longing
To have you in my arms
Holding you while crying
Being there in your darkerst
Waiting out the storm
Pushing back the pressure
On your lungs
Give you time and space
A moment of pure
Unpainful breath
Dance with the monsters
Under your bed
Crawl with the demons
Under your skin
Hold my burning heart high
Use its flames
So you can see that your
Heart
Lost in the dark
Flows with only the purest
Colors of love
Nothing else
As beautiful as you
Every tear
Every pain
Every good
Every bad
Every piece
Of you
Has me
Falling
Farther
Down
Crushing
Down
To my
Kness
I'll never find
A better place
To be
Than with your
Heart
In good storms
And bad weather
Hurt with you
Share your tears
Drown with you
Till it clears
Hold your hand
With my heart
It beats
To be
With you
All of you
They way
You are
464 · Jul 2016
Stuck
Akira Chinen Jul 2016
Burning a dead star
Stuck to fly paper
Somewhere in the middle
of a forgotten thought
Drifting through a lost night
Eyes searching a mirror
with nothing reflecting back
Colors bleeding to a faded black
Pupils dripping poison
Something unknown crawls
inside the  throat
It freezes the lungs
and burns the heart
Somewhere in the corner
The devils laughing
A nervous laugh
With a cold sweat
His mirror is empty too
And theres nothing
Swimming in his eyes
Where did all those stolen souls go
In the middle of night
Lost in thought
Stuck on fly paper
Feeling a dead star burn
463 · Oct 2016
the stars in your words
Akira Chinen Oct 2016
Was it the words or the picture or the painting I imagined of what your love would feel like that caused my heart to tremble and lose count of the number of times it had been broken
I forgot what life I was living and couldn't tell the now from the then
were you a love lost and forgotten or a name I had yet to kiss  and what was hiding behind  the shy
disguise of your eyes
Was it a hunger for lust or love
or just hands needing  blood
to **** a little time
or was it  unknown colors
that lead to the magic of pleasures
you keep hidden beneath
the blanket of your dreams
And the corner of your lips
where your smile ended
did it curve and bend towards the direction of seduction
or was it a smirk of satisfaction from a recent ribcage you had plundered
above your mattress as the
clock ticked slowy past 2 am
and when you had finished
you left not even the ghost of a soul
I couldn't tell if I was lost in a thought of a shipwreck sleeping at the bottom of your sea or being eaten by the desire of a dream with the teeth of your kiss and all I could do was watch in a helpless sedation
as my imagination painted  
while reading the eyes in your picture
and gazing at the stars in your words
462 · Mar 2017
the lost echo of mermaids
Akira Chinen Mar 2017
He was the silent screams of thunder from a distant dark cloudless sky
She was the lost echo of mermaids in the crashing waves of distant shores
They were seperated as the moon and the sea
And would only find each others love and kiss lost somewhere between eternity and dreams
461 · Jan 2016
Monsters and Magic
Akira Chinen Jan 2016
A handful sometimes, a heart full always There is no greater privilege  than parenthood
Becoming a father, becoming a mother, allows you to find in its truest, most beautiful, most perfect form, the art of love
It swirls and dances in our childrens eyes with magic and wonder and  limitless possibilities of the life waiting to unfold
Love them completely and teach them well
Teach them to be kind and generous
Teach them of love and forgiveness
Teach them of compassion and empathy
Don't just give them words and speeches and lectures
Let them live and learn by example
Let them make mistakes and let them fail
Help them to build the strength and the courage
To try and try and try again
No matter how many times they fall
They will grow and they will grow and they will grow too quickly
And they will one day find themselves living in our world
The grey dull world of adults
A world full of grey dull eyes
With little to no magic left
A world were monsters are real
And the worst monsters of all are human
A cold and cruel world that feeds on the death of magic and the destruction of dreams
As adults they will continuously be under attack
Monsters and machines will look into their eyes with envy and hatred and hunger
Teeth gnashing
Claws scratching
Willing to do any foul and ***** deed
To drain the magic and wonder and love in their young adult eyes
Will they be ready?
Will their hearts be strong and courageous enough to do battle on the cold ground of this new unfamiliar world?
Full of beasts and robots and zombies and mad creations who want nothing else than to rob our children of their dreams and limit their once infinite possibilities
It is with a sad and heavy heart that I must warn... not all will survive
This war between monsters and magic that seems fated to be endless
Some of our children will fall
Some will be unable to get back up
Some will rise up not as they once were
But will come back as machines and drones and the living dead
They will unknowingly switch sides and now hunger to destroy the magic and wonder that once made their own hearts so beautiful
This is the sad and ugly truth of war...
But weep not so endlessly to give up all hope
For there will be victory too
Not all our children will fall
Not all will switch sides
Some will thrive on this battlefield
Some will reinvent the rules of war
And yes, oh yes
Some will become more vibrant and more beautiful as they conjure new magic and new wonder and new love
Into the coldest, darkest, ugliest, hidden corners of our grey dull adult world
They will find a way to grow beauty into the places so frigid and black we were too afraid to go or even look
And as we have lost children and friends and family to this endless war
The monsters too will lose some of their own
As our children fight not with fists or swords or guns or bombs
But fight with kindness and love and generosity
As they use their lessons of forgiveness and compassion and empathy
They will turn the tides to the favor of magic and they will change monsters into dreamers again
They will paint the grey dull eyes of beasts with the perfect colors of love
And in their darkest and hardest hours of battle may they always find blooming in their hearts the flower of hope
459 · Dec 2017
a dream walking
Akira Chinen Dec 2017
Chasing you through dreams
you slip through my fingers
turning to mist and smoke
leaving nothing
but the warmth of your breath
and the ghost of your kiss
on the surface of my neck
and it’s all
an illusion
manufactured
by the lonely blood
seeping from the cracks
and scars
that decorate the skin
of my heart
and I can’t tell the difference
between desire
and desperation
as I tumble through
the longing to know
the scent of your skin
and the taste of your spit
and in the silence of stars
and the voiceless sky
I fumble and stutter
trying to call your name
and you pause long enough
for me to get lost
in the madness
and mischief
of your eyes
and I drown in the colors
of the charm of your lips
and I wander helpless
following the echo
of your ghost
changing shapes
and names
and houses
dream after dream
your hand close enough
to reach
but impossible to hold
as it turns from flesh
to smoke and mist
and you laugh
in small giggles
and leave a note
pinned to the pulse
beneath my ribs
letting me know
you’ll be back tomorrow
and tomorrow
as a dream walking
through forevers door
458 · Feb 2017
a joke of us all
Akira Chinen Feb 2017
Its hard to imagine a rich dumb spoiled kid with a tweeter account is the elected leader of the so called free world and at the same time its really no surprise at all as we've dumbed ourselves down to be less intelligent than 5th graders and are the self proclaimed biggest losers on the planet and we prefer our reality scripted and televised and trust our childrens intellect and education to a school system we know to be broken and in desperate need of repair because at the end of the day its easier to ***** and point fingers about how ****** up it all is than to make an effort or to even ask for help as long as we can claim its not our fault we can pretend we have no reason not to be able to sleep at night and we sleep and sleep all through the night and all through the day as we grind and break our bones on the ground that will one day be our graves which will one day just be the parking lot of another shopping mall full of our cookie cut children who were never taught the were worth more than minimum wage and that this is the way of life and theres happiness in the **** of it all and just shut up and don't complain and watch a little tv and drink some beer and relax and do it all again and again and work those knuckles and break your backs so your kids can grow up and work in the mall of the parking lot where their grandparents are buried  and thats the happiness thats worth nothing more than there minimal lifes and its not so bad to belive the lie that has made a joke of us all as we strive to be great again
455 · Sep 2015
do I know me
Akira Chinen Sep 2015
Do they love me
Do they hate me
Would anyone really want to be me
Could I be you
See what you feel
Feel how you think
Think of the world as seen through your eyes
Why is hate so common
And love so blind
Is love real
Or just an illusion, a hope, or a dream
Do I know me
Have you seen you...
454 · Aug 2017
The Nature of War
Akira Chinen Aug 2017
The nature of war blooms bullets and bombs
in battlefields of glory
that quickly turn into gardens of grief
rained down upon with the blood of innocence
lost to hate fueled by years of violence breeding violence
and the coffins fall in place as the body count marches on
and spit shine the corpse for the beautiful parade
for the heroes of war and the soldiers of peace
who sleep with the horrors of what they've seen
and the horrors of what they've done
tucked away tight and safe
inside name brand body bags and precisely folded flags
and what victory can be seen
in the tears of a mothers heart
or the pride in a fathers eyes
and the nature of war blooms on
as the cannons keep roaring
and the political speakers keep up
the rhetoric of violent ballets of misinformation
to keep the war machine grinding
the bones of new enemies
with the same old perpetuated propaganda
to keep the masses foaming at the mouths
to dress up in uniforms of legalized ******
and the casual lie
of the freedom everyone is fighting for
and it's the iron fist that controls the land of the free
and it's the strong arm of might
making everything alright with the nature of war
454 · Mar 2021
mockery of time
Akira Chinen Mar 2021
how childishly we make
  mockery of time
how foolishly we fear
   its passing
the common cliché
  of turning twenty nine
    over and over
until we find ourselves
  making the same joke
   at thirty nine
     and forty nine
       and...
as if ever new decade
  every new day
     isn’t a privilege
        a blessing
something we are
  not guaranteed
    not owed
     not all given
there is nothing to fear
in accepting our mortality
in learning that death
will greet us warmly
in knowing that it is
  the same with
    our last breath
      as it is with
        our first breath
each one a gift
   that can only be given
     by the passing of time
why should we
  fear the unknown
    the unknowable
to such a degree
that we allow it
   to take away
     to distract us
from the gift of this moment
  the every present
    passing of time
it will all pass and be gone
   in less than
    the blink of an eye
an eternity come and gone
  in the breeze
no matter how long
or short our lives will be
   in the end
     it will always be
      too short
        end
          too soon
let us enjoy each breath
that time allows us
gives us
as children do
gratefully unaware
of how childishly
we will grow
453 · May 2016
Mad Lovers on the Page
Akira Chinen May 2016
Harmonicas and accordions
And voices pushing stories  of broken love and life
Through necks filled with the smoke of three lifetimes worth of cigarettes and cigars
Cheap whiskey and piano blues
I want to live in the words of Dylan
And the images of Waits
Its starting to feel its only in that world
That I will ever get to hold you in my arms
That I will hold your hands
And never let go
That I will waltz
The steps of eternity
With you step by step
Lost between the pages of Bukowski
Loving each other on the  roads of Kerouac
Thats the world I want
I need
To be this kinda happy
Profound beautiful happy
That only mad lovers on the page truely know
Where it snows slowly every day
But its always warm ... cozy
The kinda mad crazy magic
I found in your eyes
Your voice
Your word
Haunt me beneath the floors of Poe
**** me on the stage of Shakespeare
I was dead in love
Before you spoke that last syllable
Of that first line
I didn't know what I was doing
But the devil must have been there sitting next to me
I can't remember doing it
But I signed the contract
My soul sold to love you
To be pressed between the poems and flowers
Baudelaire wrote about so tragically and elegant
To be but a single letter of love as written by Neruda
You were never going to love me
The way I had fallen to love and death for you
Such beautiful pain
Shining through the darkest
Corners of life and love
You felt weak in your strongest hours
Cried and grieved with
A heart too beautful and too kind
For this cold cruel world
You were never weak though
That was the doubts
And the demons
And the monsters
Whispering their lies
Trying to break you
Trying to shadow and ****
Your light
They will never give up
You frighten them
Scare them
Don't belive them
Don't give in or up
You cried in darkness
And you remained strong
Even when it hurt to breath
Bloomed into a new day
A fresh flower
Pushing through the soil
New, fragile, scared
And you braved it
Survived it
Day after day
Death after death
Coming back
More beautiful each time
Your light
Your light is pure
And kind
And generous with the beams
And the warmth of love
That kinda love only found on the pages of mad lovers
A love only found
In your heart
Your eyes
Your voice
Your word
You don't have to love me
Not the way I love you
Not at all
I will always still love you
Always hold your hand
Be there by your side
In the warmth of your light
In the dark cold of your doubts
No matter the heartache and pain
You can break my heart
Again and again
I won't go anywhere  
I'll be there with you always
I'll whisper your truth
When the devil and demons
Scream their lies
I'll warm you with my soul
When they block out your light
With clouds and doubts
My heart will always
Belong to your hands
Your touch
Your eyes
Your voice
Your word
I never knew I needed saving
Until you saved me
Brought my heart
Back to life
I never realized that it was
Just its echo and ghost
Haunting my empty chest
I didn't know I was dead
Until you made me feel alive
Made me feel love
That kinda love only found on the pages of mad lovers
Press me between the pages of Neruda and Baudelaire
****** and haunt my heart with Poe and Shakespeare
Send me down the long roads of Kerouac and Bukowski
Give me to the words of Waits and Dylan
And keep me on a shelf by your side
Take me down whenever you need me
I'll be there always
To whisper your truths
To hold you in the dark hours
And to love you
The way only a mad lover on the page can
Akira Chinen Apr 2018
It was a trick of the light
and a play on words
and the curtain call came late
and the actors forgot their throats
and the dancers could not find their feet

the mad men were taken by sanity
and the poets came down
with respectful writing jobs
and the stage was still a world
but the audience was bored

the earth was skipping
on a broken turntable
but the wax was lost
with the death of the bee

the milk of human kindness
oddly enough
didn’t taste as good
when not stolen from the cow
and I guess that should be expected
from a species that hoarded
the trademark of kindness
and then locked it behind bars
of fear and mistrust

don’t believe what you see
and don’t talk to people who are strange
and most importantly
just do as you are told
until you are dumb and deaf and old

a quite cog and silent spring
won’t wake the dead
keep all your dreaming monsters
inside your head

its all just for show
hush that little voice
and enjoy the ride
it’s a simple fact of life
why resist when we’re all
just going to die

actors in cages
pretending to live free
reciting our lines
there’s no place like home

if home is where the heart is
why does it sound like
our hearts are beating
from the palm of the devils hand

It was just a trick of words
as they played with our lives
and slit our throats
and bound our feet
dead marionettes strutting like Romeos
waiting to die by the suicide of our Juliets

romance is only beautiful
in the humor and satire of tragedy
its irony without iron
a bullet without a gun
a trick of the light
as we play with our words
and forget about love
453 · Jul 2017
louder than bombs
Akira Chinen Jul 2017
We are the children of madmen
     with voices
    louder than bombs
We are the dreamers of tomorrow
  with a love more
    blinding than hate
We are brother and sister of lunacy
   with kindness in our blood
     instead of prejudice
And we are here to make fear tremble
And we are here to end corruption
And we are here to protect
  the rights of all from those
    who seek to take equality away
From the poor and the hunger
  and the homeless and the lost
    and the innocent and the abused
     and our brothers and sisters
      and mothers and fathers of
        all colors and nations
         and of every orientation
We are here for the our
  endangered earth
    and oceans and seas
     and rivers and streams
      and mountains and soil
       and the dying close to extinction
        and for science and reason
We are here to pursue the right
  to the freedoms of happiness
   and creative expression
     and intellectual conversation
      and to love and be loved
       by any and all brave enough
        to have a gentle heart
         with an unfaltering beat
           and courageous pulse
Against the Ignorance of presidential pigs
  and politicians of swine
   and the whorish hogs of war
    and those that feed at the trough
     of profit from the death of innocence
And we are here today to take back
  our tomorrows and our lives
   and our bodies and our hearts
    and our will and our power
And we will roar with our voices
   with the light of love
    and words of kindness
      louder than your bombs
452 · May 2016
Beating in his heart
Akira Chinen May 2016
How many times must a man fall in love
Before he accepts he's just a fool
And how many times can he drown in loves sea
Before he knows he can't swim
How many forevers can he find the end to
Before he realizes it just isn't for him
The answer my friend
Is beating in his heart
The answer is beating in his heart
How many loves can his heart bare to lose
Before it gives up all hope
And how many hearts will his hands fail to mend
Before he puts down the needle and thread
How many lives can he pull from the dark
And then be helpless to stop them from running back in
The answer my friend
Is beating in his heart
The answer is beating in his heart
How many wings will he mend and then watch break
Over and over again
And how many lost broken hearts can he save
Before he sees their number will just never end
How many souls will he scrub free of pain
Before he finds pain is all he knows
The answer my friend
Is beating in his heart
The answer is beating in his heart
And if you had the chance to ask him
Would you do it all again
He would quietly smile
And hum
For her I would do it
Until my heart can no longer beat
Over and over again
If we would just listen
Bob could have cured all our woes
But they didnt listen then
And we're not listening now
With the answer still blowing past...
452 · Jul 2016
I have discoverd
Akira Chinen Jul 2016
I have discoverd
Through ink
And parchment
Paint and canvass
Paper and poem
Pillow and cloud
The miracle of you
Nothing quite as
Lovely or equisite
Beautiful and true
As your hearts warmth
And souls light
As the endless oceans
And Vincent blues
And madness
Swirling in the magic
Of the starry night
Of your eyes
Beyond sands of hour
And hands of time
I will paint
With my every breath
These words
Again and
Again

*I Love You
452 · Jun 2016
Always burn
Akira Chinen Jun 2016
My love will always burn for you
My heart always willing to bare your suffering and ache
My soul always willing to stand near your silent cold hours... days...
My hand to always write and record of your truth and your beauty
Always burning for you freely
For nothing in return
My heart and soul yours to hold and to have
While my body and hands
Live and walk through
The flames of the sun
Consumed by the fire
And when this sun dies
I will burn here still
Long after the planets have collided  and crumbled
Alone writing of your beauty
Every word a new star
Every sound a new song
Everything truthfully
And beautiful
And glowing
From the light
And the love
Of you
452 · Apr 2016
From a Far Away Town
Akira Chinen Apr 2016
Red hair and
Eyes of the sea
And her voice
Took my heart
Back to more
Innocent days
Young and
Foolish
Before
Dreams of
Love
Danced with the
Feet of tragedy
And for a moment
I escaped today
While lost
In my long lost
Innocence
And I waltzed
With a dream
Of a beauty
From a far
Away town
452 · Apr 2018
to find and know love
Akira Chinen Apr 2018
You where there last night in a dream
laying down in a bed
made out of moonlight and stardust
and your lips painted the warm colors
of hope in the empty space below my ribs
and whispers murmured
from the faint beat of something alive
inside of something I thought was dead

you kept your name a secret
and stole mine
and gave it away to a bird

with black feathers

and black eyes

and a black beak

and it chewed and swallowed
every letter and every syllable
and I became a nameless prayer
on the tip of your tongue
and a helpless beggar
and fool on my knees
and you wrapped around me
like a snake squeezing the last breath
out of its next meal

your skin was a blanket
made out of the soft heat of the sun
and it covered and held together
all the broken and lost pieces
of all the things I had forgotten
use to be part of me

and your heart filled all the emptiness
that I had been carrying in my blood
and your eyes where painted
fields of flowers and flames
and you sang a song that had no words
that told all of the truths
of what it was to find and know love
451 · Jul 2019
I'm glad I'm still here
Akira Chinen Jul 2019
I watch the sun sink into tomorrow
and remember when
it first kissed todays mornings sky
my youth lays behind me wasted
time killed
and all the numbers of the clock
dead in my blood covered hands
what a strange journey it has been
what a beautiful voyage

I almost drowned in a swimming pool
when I was four
or maybe five
pulled out of what could have been
my watery grave by a stranger

as an adult...
I almost intentionally drank poison

not that long ago...

saved by a storm
and a yard full of frogs

maybe I just imagined it
or maybe I am just lying
because I can’t remember
the whole truth of the situation
or just don’t want to admit it
but it seemed that over the sound
of the hard falling rain
and booming thunder
the frogs were saying
the frogs were singing

"don't go
don't let your heart bleed out
from what will one day only be a scare
stay a little longer
this pain is only unbearable now

stay

see tomorrow
it wont always be so bad
it may get worse too
we won’t lie

but stay

rock bottom isn’t always hell
sometimes its lower
the bottom of a bottomless pit
the sinking center of the heart of despair
an ugly place
true

but stay

put your head down
sink to the bottom
drown
stay down
until your ready
ready to come back up

the pain will follow
it will be part of you
sculpt it into a trinket
tattoo it over the scar it leaves
a note to remind you
whenever the pain becomes unbearable
it will only be unbearable for a moment
a moment that will feel like eternity
but only for a moment

every day of your life
may not always
seem worth living through
but in the end
all together
they will be
all the good
all the horrible
the blend of torment and comfort
we promise in the end
it's all worth it
it's all worth it in the end"  

a lot for frogs to say
there were a lot of frogs that night
and if they had not been there
maybe I wouldn’t be here
in this here and now
watching the sun
bloom tomorrow into today
and I’m glad
I’m glad I’m still here
450 · Mar 2017
silk lined poetry
Akira Chinen Mar 2017
She was thigh high silk lined poetry wearing **** me stiletto heels with words that slowly drizzled from burning wickedness made of lust and wax and her fingernails carved whispers of desire along his spine and split open the seams of his simple wants and filled him with desperate needs and he was completely consumed with a hunger to peel off the poetry she wore over her skin with her lace and lingerie and she poisoned his reason with her venomous lips and she molded and carved his flesh into hard wood and turned him into her marionette and tied him with leather whips and controled his every move and made his fingers and tounge explore the space between the words along her thighs and he wrote his name along her silken verse of vice and she pulled his strings hard and made him need her just a little more and somewhere in the blur of blood and sweat he became forever hers
450 · Apr 2019
the miracle of frogs
Akira Chinen Apr 2019
I remember the last time
my chest felt heavy and empty
and everything I knew about love
was shattered and lost
in all of that hollow
all of that heavy

I remember the words that broke me
though I won’t repeat them here

maybe it’s unfortunate
or maybe it’s just life
but you probably have a memory now
or will one day
of similar
or completely different words
reminding you of a night or day
when hope and love and dreams
slip through your fingers
and leave your palms bleeding

leaving you holding nothing

nothing

but all of that hollow
all of that heavy

I almost died that night
I almost willing paid the price
for the luxury of suicide

the sweet and bitter cold nothing
the nothing that felt like
it was the only thing
that could relieve the pain
of everything hurting

everything inside of my body
and everything outside of my body
pushing and crushing
and constricting around me

it was a perfect night for dying
with all the cliches needed for a poetic obituary
the sky was painted with loud black clouds
and the rain poured down in waves of waterfalls
the air beat with the thunder of a funeral song
and the flashes of lightning captured
the contorted shape of my face
a bad caricature with an ugly cry

a sniveling and snot filled
******* gurgle
everything but the pain
pouring out of my face

I was sitting in my car writing my last note
with a ballpoint pen in a sketch pad

it probably didn’t make any sense
I’m sure I still have it...
somewhere....

I can see the driveway
I can see my car parked there
I can still feel the bottle of poison
   in my trembling hands
I can see the lightning illuminating the rain
  I can see the rain
    and the gravel it was falling on
     the dirt it was dancing on
       the puddles it was forming
         and then swimming in

and there in that darkness
there in that heavy beat of thunder
there in that hard falling rain

in all of that hollow
in all of that heavy

I saw the miracle of frogs
fresh tadpoles that just lost their tales
brave and beautiful as only children can be
leaping here and there
playing in the rain

no fear of living
no thoughts of dying
with nothing of nothing
in their tiny hearts

having the time of their lives
in all of that hollow
in all of that heavy

I saw the miracle of frogs

and I cried again
a little heavier
a little harder than I had been

all that pain inside
and all that pain outside
somehow in someway
chased out
all of that hollow
all of that heavy

my hands were still shaking
my whole body was still crying
as I got out of my car
and walked through the driveway
walked through the yard
I left everything of nothing
in the darkness and the rain
as I walked through
and with the miracle of frogs
449 · Sep 2015
I don't know...
Akira Chinen Sep 2015
I don't know when the rain will stop
Or if the clouds will ever come again
I don't know where the wind will blow
  the snow
Or if springs flowers will push their way
through the soil to see the sun
I don't know how the stars will fall
Or if the night will ever see the moon
smile again
I don't know if I will find another hand
to hold
Or if I will ever fall again
No, I don't know
But no matter what rain or cloud or
wind or snow or flower or sun
or star or moon
or if I never get to hold your hand
I will always
Fall for you
449 · Mar 2018
man, mankind, humanity
Akira Chinen Mar 2018
I weep for man
I laugh at mankind
and my heart breaks for humanity

We are so far removed from ourselves
separated by ego and arrogance
blinded by routine and normalcy
spinning cogs walking in circles
as the world turns into a wasteland

Our hearts become nothing more
than empty graveyards
hollow and empty sound in our pulse
white noise blocking the transmission
of our dreams

Puppets safe in their cages
the masses only move with the flow
educate them to repeat repetition
never teach them to think
line them up one by one
ducks on the pound
waiting to be hunted

Money

Money

Money

The only currency worth dying for
Life has no value on wall street
only the Dow and the Jones
and the Smiths and the Wessons
bullets and lead
over the teeth and the smiles of children
coins and cash
over the blood and bones of innocence
cold lifeless steel
over the warmth and sound of a heart beat

I weep for man
I laugh at mankind
and my heart breaks for humanity
448 · Feb 2017
dreams and broken pieces
Akira Chinen Feb 2017
The colors of the sunset reminded him of the dreams flowing wildly and freely in her hair
And the grey darkening sky lit by the pale crescent moon revealed the aches and pain and broken pieces of her heart and soul
And his heart painted dream after endless dream of all these things as it found all of her to be beautiful
448 · Sep 2017
a dreams reach
Akira Chinen Sep 2017
Remember my love that whenever you drift
between the unknown hours of sleep
and over mountains of pillows
and blankets of ocean and mist
I am never more
than a dreams reach away
447 · Jun 2017
Let me (repost)
Akira Chinen Jun 2017
Oh sweet beauty
Let me love you
Let me ride this love to you
Like a lost comet
In eternities embrace
Let our souls bloom
Let our bodies entwine
Let our eyes crash
Let our mouths meet
Let our fingers rain
Let our hands flow
And let our  love explode
Like worlds colliding
Suns dying
Stars igniting
Moons crumbling
Heavens trembling
Hells falling
Oceans parting
Paradises losing
Nirvanas dreaming
Passions flaming
Hearts pounding
Pounding hard
Let us fall
Too quickly
Too deeply
Too far
Too much
And then
My sweet beauty
Let us fall
And love
And pound away
More and
More
Farther and
Farther
Deeper and
Deeper
Faster and
Faster
Until we
Brake and crash
Through
Forevers  
Door
And there
We'll live
And laugh
And cry
And dance
And love
Beyond
The hands
Of time
And the whims
Of fate
446 · Jul 2016
Nothing
Akira Chinen Jul 2016
Time crawls
Alcohol flows
What a petty waste
Of shyness
Nothing of nothing
Dreams lost
Bitter sweet
Souls crushed
Under oceans deep
Nothing of nothing
Conversations never spoken
Love without its token
Was she beautiful
Under druken gaze
Or was it nothing of
Nothing
446 · Jul 2018
fading
Akira Chinen Jul 2018
fading before my death
becoming a ghost
trapped inside
flesh and bone
and beating heart

and who was I to be...

before...

before I invited all this misery
to comfort me

who was I when
I once dreamed
a dream
that I believed

that love was the only thing
we need
to find our way

to the fields
below the stars of eternity
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