I told you all I had to say.
It's been exactly 6 hours since you read it with no reply.
No reply.
No reply.
No reply.
And that's all I'm ever going to remember.

And now I understand addiction because I'm going crazy without you running through my veins. I need more.

I spend my days telling other people not to be sad but who am I to tell others how to be happy when I have never truly found happiness by myself.

Sometimes i wonder what its like to wake up in the morning and not want to die.

And suddenly all she wanted to do was die. No one knew why she was just a little more broken than others. She was begging me to let her go but I just couldn't.

I'm not scared of death
because its always been clouding my thoughts.
But living,
thats something I've never experienced.

My life seems ****** up but it's really not bad.
My heart seems broken, but it's really just sad.

I've found my want to live and God ****** it feels so good.

Self hate will always outweight self love. Every moment of my life.

Every voice in my head is screaming so ******* loud, someone please save me.

I will always say "I'll see you soon" when I'm saying goodnight because maybe then your demons will sleep a little better and leave you alone for the night.

You always leave a toxic taste in my mouth and maybe that's why I can feel myself dying.

If anyone takes anything from me in this life time I hope it is the fact that you don't have to have everything figured out.
You will fail.
You will succeed.
You will be great.
Don't live your life according to other peoples expectations of you.
You are YOU.
Fall in love with yourself and wait for someone who makes all of the hairs on your body stand up, because once you fall in love with yourself you will know the true love of another when you can feel it dancing across your skin when they speak your name.
Let love consume you in every way.
To be loved and to know love in return is happiness.
Wait for it.

Lonely thoughts on sleepless nights
are slowly killing every bit of hope
left in a loveless mind.