I need more than rules.

I need more than to look good,
to look right,
the way you want me to appear

Maybe I need some more,
some trust,
forgiveness.

Some legitimate love, though I hesitate to use the word.

Whatever.

It's funny.

Because I've never done
any
freaking
thing
wrong.

How many times can you tell me not to do something?
I haven't, and I won't.

I can't keep your trust if there wasn't any to begin with.

The only thing I want
the only thing I ask from you
you won't let me have

I can take your hate
and your disapproval
but all I want is some **** freedom

right now I want to be with him
or somebody else
or just somewhere else

but you keep me close
prolong this hell
because, you can

you won't listen to my reasons
and make up your own lies
well you should know
I hate you for it

School *****, but home's hell.

I know what you want from me.
It's actually quite clear.
No need to tell me again.

I look good
I date the right boys
I do well in school
I stay out of trouble
and appear happy.
and you'll be a good father
and you won't feel guilty

The thing is, I don't want that.

Sorry I'm different.
Sorry I'm not like everyone else.
Sorry I'm not you.
Sorry I'm not her.
Sorry I'm not doing what you want.
Sorry I'm not who you want me to be.

But I think I'll be who I want to be.