I think the second I fell in love with you was when I had my head on your chest as I was trying to wake you up to **** me and you just pointed to my ceiling explaining the stars we were looking at.
With your eyes closed but your imagination open you told me about the Big Dipper and the North Star and that's when I knew I didn't stand a chance.

My mom told me that the only way relationships work is if the hole in your heart is already filled before you meet someone new.
Their hole must be filled too.
It doesn't work when you're empty and they try to fill you because once they leave you're empty again.
So next time you try to fill my hole remind me to ask which one you're aiming for.
But since I don't think I'm full on my own maybe just fill my other hole until I'm whole by myself.

I'm honestly petrified I'm growing another heart right inside my under tummy
And it will beat and it will breathe until I **** it off and you will never look at me again not as if you already do..
And quite frankly you can ignore me as much as you please but never forget how i made you *** and moan as you moved inside me freely
And maybe it is my fault I didm't tell you you couldn't or i trusted you enough to respect me
But in the end it didn't matter because I just felt special that would **** me again sober and your sweet words soothed my soul and you swooned me on top and as you told me I was pretty I smiled and felt confident because then we were one now we are strangers..
So should I think of baby names or save up for ******?
You left me alone to make this choice for myself so you better get down on your ***** knees and press your tainted hands to the sky as you ******* pray that blood rushes down soon because I can't do this by myself
And you are lucky I am too timid to speak up and bring this to your attention because I know you are ashamed you ****** me.
Don't feel bad
I would look away too.

And my heart ******* aches for no reason
And I'm so consumed by sadness I could collapse
But no body knows what's happening inside
So treat others as if you see treating your wounded self
And stop kicking her when she's down
Or she may never get back up again

I love to look at the way the fireworks sparkle
It reminds me of your eyes
And even though you're hooking up with my best friend
I still love you
But you'll never understand you broke my ******* heart

It'll creep up on you like a silent killer
It'll start with the tired eyes even after you've been awake for hours
Then you'll be moody and snap at those you love
Then come the tears
You'll cry over everything and anything and you don't know why
Last comes the self hatred
The secludedness
The lonliness
And you'll try to surrond yourself with people just so you're never alone
You're afraid of yourself
And you keep getting high so you'll never feel low
Because you're afraid
You're afraid that once you're back to your lowest low
You'll end it all

You freak out when I drink too much
You think I'll drink myself to death
And you panic because you think I feel infinite but really I don't value my life like you do