It's been a long time since you last saw my face.
But i have only been down the street.
There's too much space
Too much silence.

Every knook and cranny of this town is a reminder,
I need to get out!
I only hope your thought is to find her
Before it's too late.

I feel like a wildbird
Allowed to fly where i want
My please i know won't be heard
That only leaves me with one option
.....to fly.

Every minute seems like a hour
Every second seems like torture
When I don't hear
When i don't get that order

We are in a conversation of silence
We are in a play of mine
Am I seeing this right or
Am I ending up in a asylum

I beg of you let this happen
Don't hold me at arms length
Let us become one again
I don't want to become misshapen

I'm scared and excited
I'm nervous but bold
I'm forward yet shy
I hope we can be reunited

I hate waiting
I have no patience
I'm exhausted
All this waiting is grating

How long till I know
How long till I get the answers
How long till once again we are driving through Bordeaux

These days get easier
These days get harder

There are days where everything is as beautiful as flowers
There are days where I could cry for hours

There are days where I could skip along to the beat of life
There are days where I could scream, cry and fight

There are days when I can go out and do it all
There are days when I just want to curl up in a ball

There days when I want people to be around
There are days when I feel I could just breakdown

I never use to feel like this, until one day
One day when i couldn't come home
One day when you wouldn't answer your phone...

One day things might change
One day we might not be ashamed

One day we might be able to put this all in the past

I can't find you at the bottom of this glass
I can't find you walking bare foot on the grass

I hear my head shouting your name
I want to hear you whisper my nickname

I won't find you by my side
I wont find you in the driver's seat as we drive

I won't hear you shout my name after a long day at work
I hear you asking me to help with children's homework

I won't feel you next to me, skin to skin
I won't see that cheesy grin

I won't smell you on my skin as I shut the door,
I won't be able to wash your clothes and put them away in the drawer

I won't be able to touch you like before
I wont be able to hold you, the one I adore

I miss your kiss, your smell your touch
I want it all back too much.

I'm trying to put things right between us,
I'm trying to make things better

I hope you will read my letter,

Yes i'm still waiting,no i'm haven't disappeared,
I'm kooky, strange and weird,
I will be this way forever and ever

How can you make me smile when your not even here
How can you make me laugh when your nowhere near

Your miles away but you still give me butterflies when i see your name flash up on my phone
How do you know what i'm thinking when i'm all alone

I'm scared its not going to happen,
I'm scared its not going to be real
I'm scared all the healing I have done will peel

I just want to see your face
I just want to see you smile
Even if its just for a little while

I'd love to see you sitting opposite me
I know things are going more positively

Let me show you the things we can do
Let me show you the things i am willing to go through
Just for you,

Your the only one that matters the only one I care about
Together we can be a knockout.