You keep me at a distance
Keep me holding on
Been played like a pawn

You say things are looking up,things are more positive
When really my love is just being exploited

You know how much I love you,how much I care
I want nothing more than to be in your lair

I know it's wrong and and I will only have myself to blame
If once again I become a pawn in your game

I know what you are
I know who you have become
But I don't listen to their advice,not even one

No ever made me feel the way you did
I'm a adult but you still spoke to me like I was a dumb kid

I'm waiting for something that might not happen
Are you rubbing your hands and laughin

My love flows deeper then the rivers
What I have to ask myself is why am I a forgiver

I don't learn from the past
Alot of questions unasked

But I'm still waiting to try, even if you make me cry

Why do I still love you
Why do I still crave you
I will ask myself when I'm emotionally black and blue.

Dark skies,makes me want to cry
This cloud has been following me for so long
I just don't know where I belong
As I knew it,it was by your side, you have already done your goodbyes
I know I now have to stand on my own two feet
Tell me one day again we will meet
Cast out like the outsider, I always have have been for the past 18.
Johnny cash wasn't wrong when he wrote the song, you are my sunshine my only sunshine
Because once you were mine
Now all I see is this dark cloud still hanging over me.

Got my seat,got my coffee,
I won't give it up for the love of toffee.
I'm watching all the people around
Listening without a sound
Young couples and old couples,a lady on her own.
I wonder if she has ever been cut to the bone.
Funny how we look at each others lives
Not knowing what it's taken them to survive
Have they lost someone dear
Wanting someone near
Banging cups scraping of knives, of a off duty midwife
It's not for us to judge it's for us to love
Love makes the world go round
But hate is always in the foreground

I go dancing to try to forget you
Only to get on the floor stare at the door just incase I catch a glimpse of you
The djs doing his thing
He's playing the music I am worshipping
The room is bouncing now crowd is cheering and now
The vinyl is spinning needle coming down then I heard that sound
A song so familiar a song yet forgotten
It leaves me speechless to a place that's now reachless
I'm still on the floor still staring at the door, feeling the warmth of my tears and I realize my fears
We danced in the kitchen to that voice just you and me
Id go back to that place if I had the choice
I know I have to keep dancing to not make a scene for I was once your queen

It's 6am,sat on a bench,Adele's on got my headphones in
Throw my empty coffee cup in the bin.
I think of you at home,in bed, all alone
I left you sleeping
Inside my heart is bleeding
I didn't want to argue, now I'm asking myself
Who are you?

I want it all,I want it now
But how can I do that without it ending in a row
You want to run and hide
But I need you here to be my guide
For better or for worse those were our vows
I'm not ready to go and browse
Believe me when I say I will fight tooth and nail
Until I eventually derail

I told you where to go, now you want to know
Before a wall of silence, now you want to be my angel of guidance
You leave me baffled and all because I got you rattled
I'm not complaining, please don't go
Stay with me until the sun changes to snow