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abby Apr 2016
You* are my biggest heartache
most painful headache
rock embedded into the path
I need to cross to reach you

You let your mouth
full of fire and matches
pour out of your soul
into the crevices of my scars
every time I try to heal
all I can feel is the burn

You like to drain
the dreams out of my dreams
replace them with anxieties
fear creating a barricade
between our interactions

You like to build walls
where bridges should be
blocking my mind
from your point of view

You decide to let yourself
tear down everything
in order to feel anything

You let your insecurities
take over your conscience
take over your love
take over your life
take over you

Losing me in the process
You will never know the hurt you've caused me.
abby Apr 2016
I don't think you ever realized
how just being in your presence
captivated me more than
I could have wanted
and that wasn't necessarily a problem
until you decided
that you wanted to keep me around
for the purpose of
accompanying you
down a dead end road
that didn't mean half as much to you
as it did to me.
You had so many other paths
to explore and figure out
that you lost control
and hurled yourself my way
without thinking twice.

I don't know you anymore,
but in some way
you've helped me
get to where I am today.
For you, the one with all the chances
abby Apr 2016
If you love someone,
let them go
right?
But what if you're tethered
by this indestructible string
that pulls you back 3 steps
with every step forward.
What if you look up at your wall
and see that picture from years ago
and can't help but reminisce.
What if you're family
constantly wonders where he is
when he's not with you.
What if you threw away all your rings
to make way for
the one you saw in your future.

How bad do things really have to get
for me to let you go?
abby Apr 2016
It's better to walk
Than to swim in the unknown
Waiting for the waves
A haiku
abby Apr 2016
I am made up of a collection of parts that create the path I take in this world
Sometimes the way gets foggy
And my heart floods with waves that have the power to tear it apart
I am afraid of what the unknown has to offer
I fear I may not be able to counteract the tide
My breath is a whirlwind of sensitivity and emotions  
My spine is curved, my throat is dry and my immune system never fails to fail me
I am surrounded by lights
Buildings
Homes
Roads
And fields of wonders
My family is the root of my love
And my friends are the sun and water keeping me sane
I surround myself with people who allow me to love
And to be loved
I have learned loss in profound ways
And experienced heartaches strong enough to move mountains
I eat to keep me content
And I buy to keep me satisfied
The night is my best friend
I wake up better at 3am
I fall asleep faster at 3pm
I like to be alone
But not lonely
I want to stand out
But I don't want to be the centre of attention
I write to keep my tears dry
And my vision clear
I aspire to travel
Into places unexplored
But sometimes I go too far
And I lose sight of who I am

I am made up of a collection of parts that create the path I take in this world
Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm on the right track
My parts are not perfect and I too often succumb to my flaws
But I keep tape in my back pocket
Slowly pieceing together my purpose in this world
I am human
I am more than the sum of my parts
(storage in progress)
abby Apr 2016
What changed?
Was it the way you talked
the way you smiled
the intimacy
the love
or was it because of someone else
Someone new
someone exciting
someone different
someone else, but her
Maybe you don't understand it
Maybe you don't understand yourself
But one thing's for sure
She deserves better
We all deserve better
abby Mar 2016
From the moment I was born,
You have showed me
how your unconditional love
stretches farther than the galaxy.
I looked up to you
as if you were the only
star shining in the midst
of a cloudy sky.
You were the first I’d run to
when I couldn’t handle
the storms in my own mind
But suddenly,
a meteor came crashing down
and turned a switch in your heart
transforming you into
just a light in the sky
that I can't recognize.
A particle that no longer embodies
the power to inspire me.
You've fallen,
but that doesn't mean I have to too.
I don't want to grow up to be you anymore
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